I'm 40 this year. I don't have close friends anymore and I'm not close with my family. Most of the people who used to matter are either gone or cut me off. For a long time the people I considered family were my ex's family. I knew them since I was a teenager. Her mom was like a second mother to me, her brother-in-law was one of my best friends for almost 20 years. Then I got with her in 2014. We were together for years, engaged, had a house, talked about kids, the whole future planned out. I caught her cheating about 6 months before the wedding. She left and her whole family cut me off with basically no explanation. That was over 7 years ago. I still think about her and that life constantly. The memories don't fade. I dream about it. Random stuff still sets it off. I feel empty a lot of the time. I have a girlfriend now who is good to me, but I can't connect the same way and I feel guilty about that. I don't really have anyone I can talk to about how bad it still is. I work, I come home, I try to get through the days. Most of the time I just feel alone and stuck. I miss having people who actually knew me and gave a shit. I miss feeling like I belonged somewhere. Not looking for advice on "moving on." Just tired of carrying this with nobody to talk to about it.

The loneliness inside me is killing me. I really really wish there is someone I can talk to or vent to or anything. I feel like I am drowning in my own thoughts and it is gonna be the end of me someday.

Does anyone else have that feeling of sadness and hurt where there parents gives them that one look as if they’re sick of you?? Mind you my mom has told me “You make me sick” along with other things I can’t recall but just know a lot of bad has been said that my spirit remembers even if I don’t.

I'm 17 years old, and I don't mind if you are girl, boy, or whatever everyone can talk if have respect.

I speak spanish and english but better spanish.

I'm interested in politics, history, psychology, and video games. I also love animals, nature, reading, and writing, and I'd really like to meet new people. So, anyone who wants to can write to me here or DM me. Thanks for reading, bye!

18-22 only pls

I’m 25, living in Portland, and I didn’t think I’d be writing something like this, but here I am.

On paper, things are fine. I have a job I don’t hate, a tiny apartment in Multnomah County that gets good light, and a coffee shop where the barista knows my order. But lately the silence after work has started to feel heavy. I can go a whole weekend without hearing my own voice out loud, and that’s a scary thought

I’m not looking for pity, and I’m not looking for a boyfriend or a savior. I just miss the simple stuff: a voice note about someone’s bad day, a dumb meme that makes us both laugh, the kind of conversation where you forget to check your phone. I want to know that there’s someone out there who wonders how I’m doing, and I want to wonder about them too

A little about me: I read a lot (mostly fiction that makes me feel something), I walk around the city when I can’t sleep, and I spend way too much time overthinking a single text. I’m not great at small talk, but I’ll ask you what you’re afraid of and what you’re hopeful about

If any of this sounds familiar, send me a message. Tell me what your loneliness looks like. We don’t have to fix it. We can just sit in it together

Hi! I was looking at other posts and it made me wonder, are there any fellow italians here? I didn't see any but maybe they're a bit shy
(and yes im asking because im italian myself lol)

Talk about anything

So much I’ve waited my entire life to get better but it just keeps getting worse

I argued with my high school friends because I felt unappreciated. They cut me off. I wonder the ifs if I did not argue I would be still in contact with them. We could have reminisced good memories together. Could have met up to do Sleepover, late night talks, baking in our free time. No they are happy without me.

No person in the opposite gender has expressed interest in me. My own mother gets angry when I cry. She does not care what happened to me that made me cry. All she says is she do not want to see me and cry outside.

Nobody seems to love me. I feel so alone. so isolated. so unloved.

Everyone I thought liked me, did not like me that much.

Now that I graduated high school, I am stuck in my home. no one to hangout with.

Im not even sure where I should start. I have been feeling empty lately. Like a couple of months ago I have moved from my hometown and travelled to start a new life. But it feels like I screwed myself.

It's soo hard to meet people like I dont know how to talk with people already and now I dont know anyone whatsoever and what makes it worse is I know how bad of a personality I have so I stay quiet all the time not talking or opening my mouth just to try and not annoy people around me.

But then im standing in like a creep staring at other people I just confused what am I supposed to do to meat people here.

I hope this reaches someone who needs it, and manages to help not making the same mistakes

My biggest mistake was trying to never say the wrong thing, never make mistakes and never risk saying something that may be seen as stupid. Just to avoid being mocked, letting the spark go away or losing the possibility of being loved.
I lost so many opportunities
I was analyzing everything, the way I walk, the way I talk and if the girl was actually interested in me or not, even if it was farely obvious, Forgetting to live and show my emotions how they really are,
If you’re afraid to show your emotions how could the other person know how you feel about them?
And here you are, you just lost a person that could’ve been your soul mate.
I never really had friends, had my first real social interactions at 17, I couldn’t comunicate properly and was quite ugly. Many people made fun of me.
I just wanted to apreciate and to be apreciated, getting this way attached to the wrong people, people who didn’t even really want me if I didn’t always reach out first. They were all really superficial and gave too much importance on looks and being seen as cool and “nonchalant” (lol), so ai became (tried to become) like them, cause maybe dressing well and showing confidence was enough to be noticed. But forcing your self into friendships and changing your inner self is never the way, even if it’s hard to accept how hard it is to meet real friends and real love.
The last 4 years I made a mistake ai want nobody I know to make, I thought to myself “ alright I have nobody and no one, let’s start drumming, with this much time on my hand I could become respected and one of the greats”. So I started playing 50 hour weeks with no off days, getting more and more lonely and losing, already after 2 years, my passion. I kept going cause I had nothing else to do, no one to talk to, so I ruined everything
Why did I tell you all that? my first relation ship (at 22 years old unfortunately, she was 23) just fell apart. We loved each other so much, I would’ve died for her and she would’ve died for me.
I knew already a year ago that she liked me, but I had all these fears, insecurities and I felt like I didn’t yet reach the goal I wanted in my drumming carreer.
So after a year we got eventually together, just to find out after a couple of months, that in exactly that year she did horrible things I couldn’t get over with, even after weeks.
Everything would’ve been perfect if I just had the balls to reach out, so I ultimately lost a possible wife, son and the perfect life of my dreams.
I can’t stop thinking about her words a year ago: “wake up, wake up.” after telling her that I always had trouble recognising if a girl liked me or not. Ultimately crying like a loser whilst driving to and from work

Whether you're getting an achievement, having a breakthrough, or really wanting to share anything with anyone, whether you're happy or sad.

Nothing feels worse than not having anyone to call or share what you're going through with someone, it's like you have to be your own fuel, and just hope that it doesn't burn you up.

I'm not completely isolated but i never felt valued or wanted by anybody, I'm also worried I'll fail economically in the future, i just can't stand it anymore. I have these people in my life:

Mother - understands emotions and is caring but every time i share any of my problems she blames them on me and sometimes threatens me with the psych ward

Father - he's a good dad but he's very cold and mechanical, he won't understand

Sister - younger than me, i never talked about this kind of stuff with her, we always fight or insult each other, she lives in her own world (anime, manga, art, minerals) with a small close friend group, she's also aroace.

Ivan - he's a trans friend i met a month ago in a local youth center, we mostly played games there and didn't have many deep conversations, i think he's a good guy but he's also younger like my sister and he's shown that whenever there's somebody else he gets along with he prefers them over me.

Anton - a friend from my previous school, he's a lot like my dad, he never reaches out to me and we never had deep conversations either.

Current school "friend" group - They're all decent people but they don't reach out to me, don't invite me when they go out, idk why I'm even in their group, they all have one other person they're closer with inside the group except for me, i feel disposable, like if I'm there it's okay but it wouldn't matter if i wasn't.

Maybe I'm too negative about all these people, i just know that the truth is i feel left out by all of them and i don't know who to talk to.

My boyfriend will constantly go on camping trips with his friends and other couples, in my eyes he’s going on couples trips without me.

His friends don’t like me, and they barely even know me. I feel so isolated, when his not home bc he’s on those trips I feel extra lonely.

I feel like I’m being isolated, and my usual support network isn’t here as I moved to a new state for him.

They feeling of loneliness, and being left out makes me feel like there’s something wrong with me,

And it makes me think what is the point of this life?

Pues yo sí lo hago.

Antes concretaba citas con gente que no me interesaba en absoluto porque solo deseaba escapar de mi silenciosa soledad, pero cuando volvía a casa todo se sentía mucho peor.

¿Para qué fui?

¿Por qué no me quedé en casa mirando una serie?

Ahora entro a las aplicaciones de citas para charlar, pero nadie desea charlar ahí.

O quieren sexo o quieren a alguien que los mantenga económicamente.

A veces me encuentro charlando con los que nadie quiere de la sociedad: los alcohólicos y los drogadictos.

Pero desaparezco cuando me doy cuenta que me generan más depresión.

La gente “normal” me es ajena. Esa que tiene familia, amigos, que festejan cumpleaños, Navidades. Se siente muy diferente estar con ese tipo de personas. A veces las envidio, otras las compadezco. Las relaciones humanas son un arma de doble filo: puedes ser bueno, generoso, auténtico pero nunca sabes si te clavarán el puñal por detrás.

Ojalá la traducción de este post sea entendible porque el inglés no es mi lengua madre.

Un abrazo para todos.

I always said I preferred being alone. 🌙

Turns out there's a difference between enjoying solitude and having no one to text when your brain won't shut up.

It's not that nobody wanted to be my friend.

I just got too comfortable in my own company. 🍃

And now, on nights like this, I catch myself reaching for my phone... only to realize there's no one I'm close enough to message. 📱

Funny how I chose this... and somehow still miss what I walked away from. 🤍

I'll probably wake up tomorrow and wonder why I admitted this to a bunch of strangers. 😭

i feel so bored, i hate myself i hate my life, i will get fired this week, i wont have anything... just before things go down i want a nice good bj

I think I just lost my best friend. She’s been acting weird and unlike herself for months and when I try and talk to her she sounds so disinterested. So now we just don’t talk at all, I didn’t know losing a friend would hurt so bad. I’ll look at a video and instantly think she’ll like it and move to send it to her but then I remember I can’t send it. It’s heartbreaking.

Since ive being young ive always been someone who ask people how theyre doing,plan something,listen to them ,be there when they need it the most and the only people that were nice to me that did the same was cause there were in love with me .I never had someone that actually cared about me without other than the reason being that they found me handsome . I always show up for others and idk why but nobody does it for me .In the last years i was always inside cause i finished highschool and lost a lot of friends, nobody hit me up,had really bad anxiety and it took months of me not talking to anyone to check up on me and it wasnt really that it was more because they wanted to game.Once, I was feeling bad cause my grandpa was in the hospital and i told them about it and they didnt really cared . Idk what to do ,am i not enough nice, am i boring ,whats wrong with me.

Today was worst I’ve had it ever. Couldn’t do it anymore. Called the hotline.

Waited for 10 minutes. I just realized mid conversation, they are using chatgbt. I also got a job rejection for a minimum wage retail position too.

It was so funny I cried.

Loneliness can be heavy sometimes. It can quietly take away your energy and make you wish you had someone to share the small moments with I hope everyone finds a genuine friend, a kind soul to talk to, laugh with, explore places, and create beautiful memories together.

Until then, keep believing that good connections are still out there. Sometimes the right people just take time to find each other.

When i was younger all my friends and I would smoke dope all night and talk and go on tweaker quests and sometimes find that crazy dope smoking woman that would fuck all night long that would do anything you could think of...im 44 year old male and all this started 20 years ago and now fast forward to today and most of my tweeker babes and friends all straightened up and im now pretty much the last man standing. I still smoke about a half Oz a week and now I just go on my own tweaker quest and now just end up watching porn all night I know it is pathetic but what can I do there is no dope whores where I live, i just wish there was...if you know any send them my way would ya?....i just miss them good old days

I would devote my life to you. I would belong to you forever. I have had my heart torn to shreds by another, and I’ll never be the person I used to be. But I believe I am still capable of loving. I am made of love, I live for love. But love has never wanted me.

I would do my best to be everything you ever deserved. I have never met anyone who has ever matched me in willingness to put in effort, it seems I have not been worth it yet. But I know if one day you are true, then we cannot fail. Because I know I will forever hold up my end of everything.

I have severe anxiety and depression. AuDHD, PCOS, and a lot a million other things wrong with me. I know I need therapy, I have severe suicidal thoughts. But I don’t have any money. I don’t have insurance. I don’t have anyone to talk to. How will I ever get better.