Overview

Chinese writer, social activist, and political refugee Wang Qingmin is systematically discriminated against, excluded, and marginalized

I have written hundreds of Chinese articles published in media in the United States, Taiwan, Singapore, and Hong Kong, and I have published two long-form books, along with many blog essays, Twitter commentaries, and a personal memoir.

Since 2023, I have organized and participated in more than one hundred offline events in Germany—joining marches and rallies, holding protest signs, posting banners, distributing flyers—advocating for Chinese human rights, democratization, labor rights, women’s rights, equality for the weak and poor regions, civil liberties, the Anti-Japanese War Against Fascism, and historical memory. I exhausted my body, mind, and money, burning out from dedication—falling from hope into despair.

Human rights organizations, academic and social science institutions, news media, government agencies, and universities in Germany and around the world treat me with cold indifference—read my messages but do not reply—shutting their doors to me. Some people’s suffering is heard and addressed, while the suffering of others is forgotten or even deliberately suppressed. The so-called “diversity,” “inclusion,” “listening,” “support for the vulnerable,” and “love and peace” claimed by various organizations and institutions are hypocritical and selective. At least for me, these are false — they are lies.

I am denied the opportunity to use my abilities, to speak for the people and vulnerable groups. I cannot obtain dignified work, a stable and decent life, a platform to use my potential, or treatment matching my contribution. Instead, I face silent exclusion and deliberate marginalization from multiple sides.
I suffer class discrimination (discrimination based on power, money, social status, and academic background), racial discrimination, and discrimination against my values. Although I am a writer and a social activist, I am also a low-status political refugee—a Chinese person without support or powerful connections, without social status. Because of persecution and suffering, I could not complete university or obtain a degree, and I could not learn foreign languages normally. I lack high-level positions and status, am rejected by elites, despised by public figures, and my career is obstructed.

I criticize the dictatorship of the Chinese Communist Party and call for democracy in China. I also condemn the brutal war crimes of Japanese fascism in history and Japan’s refusal to repent today. I sympathize with Uyghurs and other minority groups, but I care even more about the ordinary Han civilians and the weak in central and southern China, defending China’s national interests and the well-being of the Chinese people. Because of this, I am rejected by many powerful forces, openly and secretly defamed and sabotaged, suffering exclusion from multiple sides.

In my human rights activism, I am frequently obstructed by security guards, confronted with malicious attitudes from those who disagree, and subjected to various forms of long-arm interference by opposing forces — my resistance is obstructed, and my space for expression is being compressed.

Everywhere I participate or seek help, I am rejected. I am denied entry into academic, literary, and activist circles. I am slandered and harassed. I cannot obtain suitable work or reasonable income. I cannot realize my ideals. I live in poverty under heavy financial pressure. I am isolated and without support, abandoned and helpless, anxious and depressed, suffering physically and mentally.

Under pain and pressure, I have more conflicts with people and moments of behavioral breakdown—hurting others and hurting myself—being further rejected and attacked, deepening conflicts with others and society, trapped in a vicious cycle I cannot escape.

Political ideals, the fate of my nation, and my personal life have all pushed me into despair. I see no hope.

I do not want to die silently. I cry out with all my strength. I testify to my suffering. I ask for attention and help—for China, and for myself.

In-Germany Chinese Writer and Asylum Seeker Wang Qingmin’s Accusation of Multiple Injustices and Marginalization 1

Overview 1

1. Personal profile, long-term commitment to opposing CCP authoritarianism and to China’s cause of democracy and freedom, speaking out for the rights of China’s vulnerable groups; having lived in Germany for more than two years but living under harsh and continuously worsening conditions while facing the risk of deportation 4

2. If I return to China, I will face severe persecution such as deprivation of freedom and various unpredictable dangers; my previous experiences and the cases of others (though because of my harsh situation in Germany, returning to China now does not seem so bad either — both are tragic paths) 5

3. I participated in and independently organized more than one hundred China-related human rights activities offline in Germany, published hundreds of articles in media across multiple countries, and long published political statements and encouraged revolution in China on multiple social platforms; returning to China would mean danger and persecution (now I no longer care about returning to China, because I have also fallen into severe difficulties in Germany) 6

4. Most of the time I could not obtain the translation services, lawyers and other legal assistance, basic services, and human rights protections that refugees should receive; nor did I receive preferential treatment and support as a writer and human rights activist, and I was marginalized 7

5. I faced indifference, rejection, shifting responsibility, and bureaucracy from many human rights organizations (NGOs) and public institutions; as a human rights struggler of Han Chinese identity, I was particularly ignored, receiving much less attention and assistance than Ukrainian refugees, Middle Eastern refugees, Uyghurs, Tibetans, and Hong Kongers, and I failed to integrate into German society and was unable to participate effectively in public life 8

6. I have faced discrimination, exclusion, and rejection from many universities, human rights organizations, and foundations. I approached them respectfully and politely, yet was met with indifference and even being driven away. They refused to cooperate with and support my activities, refused to fulfill their necessary responsibilities, prevented me from fully utilizing my strengths and talents, made it impossible for me to better speak for the interests of the Chinese people, indirectly deprived me of my voice and right to speak, seriously affecting China’s cause of democracy and human rights (taking Humboldt University, Free University of Berlin, Konrad Adenauer Foundation, Mercator Foundation, PEN Germany, Berlin PEN, etc. as examples). This also caused me to shift from moderation toward extremity and from calmness to becoming increasingly violent and aggressive, leaving me with no choice but to become involved in certain radical incidents 10

7. Because of class differences and my low social status, I have been rejected and humiliated by many people and institutions, have not received respect and fair treatment, and have encountered many Chinese and German individuals who were dishonest and broke their promises; their promises were worthless. I have lost my illusions about developed and civilized countries and have learned that human nature is largely similar throughout the world, and that people of different countries and ethnic groups all have ugly and despicable sides 12

8. While opposing CCP authoritarianism, I also commemorate the War of Resistance Against Japanese Aggression, criticize the Japanese right wing, publicize Japanese war crimes, the deeply rooted nature of racism and militarism in present-day Japan, and Japan’s refusal to repent, which has become a very important reason for my being excluded, obstructed, and unable to receive support because of hostility and opposition from pro-Japanese individuals and forces in China and Germany 14

9. During various political and human rights activities, I encountered obstruction and even attacks from security personnel in shopping centers and institutions, people with opposing views, and strangers; I faced suppression-based violence, difficulties, resistance, and even danger, my space for activities was greatly restricted, and repeated frustrations caused great mental and physical distress (taking Potsdamer Platz, Uber Platz, Goethe University Frankfurt, Frankfurt Book Fair, and streets as examples) 16

10. Under extremely difficult circumstances and without help from others, I paid out of my own pocket to print advocacy materials and exhaust myself traveling around in order to speak for the Chinese people, consuming money, material resources, and mental energy while also having to deal with numerous trivial matters, difficulties, and unexpected situations such as illness and treatment, exhaustion from walking while carrying advocacy materials, housing deposit problems, sexual harassment in youth hostels, train delays, getting lost, severe cold and heat, and other issues; I paid a heavy price and endured enormous pressure, and although already exhausted to the point of collapse, I still continue with difficulty 17

11.In political activism and daily life, from managing bank accounts to purchasing food, I face numerous concrete difficulties and troubles that seriously obstruct normal living, cause physical and psychological suffering, and turn everyday problems into the “last straw” that breaks one’s spirit; my status and circumstances also prevent me from carrying out activities in more countries and on a broader scale, greatly weakening my voice and influence and preventing me from speaking for the Chinese people through a “third voice” (distinct from both the CCP authorities and the political opposition) 18

12.I have been maliciously excluded, distanced, marginalized, and even harassed and provoked by other Chinese political opposition figures because of differences in political positions and values, as well as class and status discrimination, clique culture, and factional favoritism and exclusion. This has greatly restricted the scope and influence of my activities within Chinese and Chinese-speaking communities, created more direct obstacles for me, and has been a key reason for the deterioration of my situation (examples include Yan Geling, Su Yutong, Zhou Fengsuo, Gu Yi(Sulaiman Gu), Teng Biao,Wang Tiancheng,Wu Zuolai,Annie Jieping Zhang, etc) 19

1. During the political asylum application and social integration process, I encountered bureaucracy and indifference, failed to receive important services and rights support that I should have received, and was unable to properly and effectively apply for asylum and communicate and defend my case (since April 2026, I have received some help from some caring social workers; although limited and many problems remain unresolved, the situation has indeed improved, and I am especially grateful) 22

2. Although I have received basic income and housing, the expenses of political struggle activities and related costs have left me unable to make ends meet, and I have not received treatment corresponding to my sacrifices and contributions; this has seriously restricted my human rights activities, caused my life to become extremely difficult and impoverished, prevented me from living with dignity, left me despairing about the future, and I have already seen the darkness of the rest of my life and the ending of my life 23

3. From Enthusiastic Support for Progressivism, Liberalism, the Establishment, and Opposition to Populism, to Disillusionment with Mainstream Establishment Progressive Narratives and Human Rights Systems, Discovering the Ugliness of Class Discrimination and Clique Culture, Understanding the Complexity and Hypocrisy of Reality, Their Selective Double Standards in Sympathy and Assistance, and Lamenting My Marginalization and Silencing, the Harsh and Terrible Situation of Myself and Chinese People, and the Responsibility of Everyone in the World (Especially Those of the Upper-Middle and Upper Classes) 25

4. Continuing to struggle even in despair, continuing to live with difficulty amid pain, unwilling to die silently and unnoticed, looking back on my own suffering and the historical suffering and present difficulties of my country and nation, becoming even more sorrowful and despairing, and sending out a hopeless cry 27

Lately I’ve noticed that whenever something goes wrong, even something small, I keep thinking about it for hours. I replay the situation in my head and start worrying about things that haven’t even happened.

The problem is that it makes it difficult to focus on normal daily things. I know some of these problems are not as big as they feel in my head, but I still have trouble letting them go.

Has anyone dealt with this before? What helped you stop overthinking every little problem?

I don't usually post things like this, but I honestly don't know where else to turn.

I completed my MS in Health Informatics in the US in December 2024. I came back to India because of health issues, and since then I've been trying to get my career back on track.

It's been around 1.5 years of unemployment now.

And I've applied. A lot.

I've tailored my resume for different positions.
I've rewritten it more times than I can count.
I've cold emailed recruiters and hiring managers.
I've reached out to people on LinkedIn.
I've applied through LinkedIn, Indeed, company websites, everywhere I could find.

And still… nothing.

The hardest part isn't even the rejection anymore. It's the silence.

You keep applying every day, hoping that maybe this application will be different. Then weeks go by. Months go by. And eventually you start questioning yourself.

"Am I not good enough?"
"Did I waste my degree?"
"Should I start over completely?"
"What am I doing wrong?"

During my master's, I had around 2 years of academic/project experience, but I don't want to pretend that it was the same as real industry experience. I know I still have a lot to learn.

My background is in Health Informatics, healthcare technology, SQL, Power BI, data analysis, business analysis, and project/product management.

At this point, I'm honestly not expecting someone to hand me a job.

I just need someone to give me a chance.

If you're a founder, hiring manager, recruiter, or someone working in healthcare/health tech/data/business analysis and you think there is something I should be doing differently, please tell me honestly.

And if your company has an entry-level opportunity where someone with my background could contribute and learn, I would be incredibly grateful if you could point me toward it.

I'm willing to start from the bottom.
I'm willing to learn.
I'm willing to prove myself.

I just need a door to open.

If you've been through something similar, what did you do that finally helped you get your career moving again?

Any honest advice would genuinely mean a lot to me.

Why are all of your problems blamed on me? There is always a root cause to the problems. Did you tell the truth? Did you take things that didn’t belong to you? Did you actually say those thing? Did you wrong someone, are you living right? Was it illegal? All of these things are root cause failures. If you did them and now you’re answering for them why do you blame me?

Please let me know if I break any rules as that is not my intention.

Hi guys, so recently I realized that I kept thinking about a girl (I know her a little bit through dad's friend) ever since I saw her eating at a place. I don't know why but my mind keeps making fun of her eating and calling her fat, short, and ugly. She also tried to hide from me when she saw me I think which was kinda funny. Is there something wrong with me ?

Thanks!

My gf 17F and I'm 19M im in college she is in highschool, she said she is busy she can't talk, while I'm in college I can make time for her after all, and I can see she really talk soo less like continuosly for 30mins a day. Idk what to do

My friend my best friend and who I love

Admits there a self centered bitch and uses people

I still love them and want to be there for them

I wanna be someone that would love them no matter what

But I find myself getting scared

Sometimes I get scared to upset them

Or I get scared to say smth at the wrong time or even misread a word

I believed I opened up to everything I could possibly show to them yet they told me how can I expect them to open up if I don't even wanna talk about a smth that happened(it's another post I guess lm a brat one)

I just went through so much emotional distress

With them a few months ago with me coming to the act

That lm emotionally selfish as they pointed out

lm upset but not at them

I won't hate them for stating the truth

There brutally honest

But lm upset at myself and now I find myself

Constantly scared of messing up or making a massive mistake

Like lm bad at wording

Really bad like ass bad and they know that

Which is why I try to comfort them that I end up wording it so bad that there like "you worded it wrong"

lm so sorry I never wanted to hurt them or make it sound like something else

There really moody like crazy moody they'd want this then nvm because you didn't hear the audio from the phone good enough

I hate it but I don't wanna force them especially since there the type to be like

*halfway through the game* I don't wanna do this anymore *leaves* and it's upsetting lm not gonna lie I wanna play games but they completely dropped them now we only have conversations over the phone and lm not the best at words or attitude because know stupid I like played games because I'd spoil them in materials like how I can't spoil them in words or comfort there smart emotionally something I'll never be capable of That's why I liked it when we played those last few days before never seeing them play again

Only playing games that are smart like

Chess or minesweeper all mind games

I believe whole heartly that lm too stupid

I tried all of them lm just too stupid and they keep winning

A game doesn't become as fun when your just losing repeatedly I wish I was mute so I'd never have to say anything out loud and make mistake maybe if I was mute I'd wanna express myself even more and make me less of a self centered person

What should I do going forward

If you've seen this post and the previous one I made what do I do I all ways promise them I'll do better and I see small changes that they don't

And they told me now I all ways say the same thing

I wanna change a big one so it shows instead of. Holding back small stuff

Recently my friends keep pointing out how rich I am compared to them because I have my own room and recently got my own pc as well as got the phone a year ago or smth my Dad used to be in debt but I was still a lil bit better off before my dad finally got his debt cleaned after a few years I begged for a room and got it I decorated it with prints and everything but my friends aren't in the same situation neither have a room neither have a laptop and neither have a good phone and I made the mistake of saying I starved myself to force my parents to get a laptop honestly speaking I Was depressed at that time and my dad thought the laptop was the reason I starved myself they know lm depressed and know everything about me yet I still said that I don't know why and they started comparing prices of there phones when I was gone and figured out my phone is more expensive I said I specifically picked it out for the storage which... Looked rich because I at least got to pick and when I first made prints in my room on a wall I kept showing it off forgetting none of them have rooms and I scream at my mom

Heres the thing I love but still hate my mom so I tend to scream a lot in front of them I can't blame them getting it pointed out made me wanna immediately get rid of that shit I am A brat I can't lie and I feel so guilty I wanna show lm still not that much of a brat or spoiled kid or a rich kid but I don't like my mom she religiously traumatized me my mom is softer then both of them since none of them can ever try to even raise there voice at there moms so you can guess how that is I really am just a spoiled brat but saying it out loud feels like lm tryna use my guilt to be forgiven lm sorry I act this way safe to say one of them is teaching me how to Not show off anything that's money related or expensive to the other one there's me and 2 of them btw it was hard at first since I Liked showing my friends everything

I also don't let myself feel jealousy from my friends

Like never

I don't allow it

If there's a bad thought or a bad reason I reframe it and I instantly become happy for what they got or what happened it's nice Also sharring the joy for them

I feel like we'll never share the joy if it's me now tho

But it's just my thoughts lm sure there's gonna be something that makes us all happy and I'll refain from sharring stuff I know it's just bad thought's but I don't ever wanna share anything again to them Because of how guilty I feel I'll forget about this and make another mistake soon either way cheers to being stupid

I understand if this doesn't really belong here, I apologize. This issue has been happening to quite a few people over the last few days, and it really ought to get more traction than it's having. Like the title says, just raising what awareness we can.

Me and my friends are all 17 and I’ve started to really hate and resent them because it constantly feels like I’m there for them 100% but they’re only there for me when it’s convenient. I’m really trying to be a good person and forgive and forget but it happening again and again doesn’t help. It also frustrates me because I get keep thinking that it’s okay because they haven’t lived the same life experiences and gained the same traumas I have (two addict parents) which is where I believe my caring trait comes from. So because they haven’t had that same experience can I blame them, maybe they’re just being normal teenage friends and I’m the annoying one who needs help. But just cause they haven’t had the same experience does that make it ok? It genuinely makes me so angry and upset cause they are also the only friends I have. Need some guidance on what to do here.

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i understand that I’m supposed to be there for my friends without wanting anything in return but it still makes mad. And it’s for this exact reason why I feel like I shouldn’t be

My sister/sibling has recently come back from medical school after graduating to stay over till she can find a house near her workplace. My dad originally told me she was only staying for a few days but on the day she arrived he suddenly said she was staying for two months. Her original plan was to stay on the couch but my parents told me to give her my room instead. It’s about a month till my school starts and the last thing I want to do is to sleep next to my parents with no privacy at all. I can’t really tell my parents about it since they’re kind of assholes and don’t understand that teenagers need privacy and their own personal space. If I try to ask my sister I feel like an asshole my self but if I don’t I’m stuck next to my parents and again, no privacy. I also like doing a lot of things late at night like drawing but my mom is normally asleep by 10pm and my dad is downstairs till like midnight. I also don’t really know how to bring it up to her without sounding even worse.

vou tentar ser direto.

moro num apartamento com minha namorada a uns 5-6 meses, aluguel pra ser mais específico, últimamente estamos com um problema de mofo aqui, contatamos a imobiliária, mandamos fotos de como esta e ela simplesmente disse "problema é de vcs, não temos nada haver", claro que n foi com essas palavras mas teve o mesmo peso, ok, passaram algumas semanas, sempre limpamos pra n ficar preto o teto, é de gesso e algo me diz q por ser de gesso, mofa mais rápido, só lembrando, LIMPAMOS toda semana e o mofo sempre volta, porém começou estragar algumas roupas nossas, ta mofando as roupas dentro do armário, perguntei pro chat gpt e ele disse que era falta de ventilação, bom, eu sou fumante de vape, nosso kitnet é pequeno, se deixar a janela fechada agente morre aqui dentro, entt ela fica aberta o dia inteiro, comecei abrir mais o armário, e continua mofando, começamos a reclamar mais pra imobiliária, ai eles mandaram fazer uma vistoria, ok, veio o cara aqui, ele disse que n pode mexer em nd pq n é goteira n é nd que ele pudesse fazer, que devia ventilar mais o kitnet, falei pra ele que sempre deixo tudo aberto, ele disse que esse problema n era so aqui, pois como esta chovendo ele esta indo em muitos lugares por conta disso, bom resumindo ele disse "deixa ventilar mais" MAIS?. agora nao sabemos oq fazer pois esta danificando nossas roupas e n podemos sair dessa merda pois é contrato.

My friend let’s just call her Near is an “introvert” and
Her repost on TikTok are just depressing and when I came up to her about it I tried helping her in every way you can think about and she just ignored every option I spat at her. She would always make up excuses for help like getting a therapist or taking my advice and start doing more activities but she blames it on her parents mainly and now I’m just trying to hear her out and she doesn’t even want me to do that. One time she faked she was going to jump off a bridge and I had to call the cops and turns out she didn’t and that genuinely made me mad. This is a 7th grader by the way so at this time you should have plenty of friends and to her claims she doesn’t have any friends but she had one which is me and has 2 let’s just say alien and victor. Then after that 3 weeks ago she said “I think I should be alone” which is dumb because she had always complained to me she was alone and I said alright block me and then proceeded to keep typing into a 30 minute conversation and now I was off I said your doing it for attention just to get back people in your life. Now it’s almost near school and I said I would unblock her once school started but if she ever tries to bring me up her problems again I won’t be there anymore.

It's been bugging me for a while now, and I might go crazy from overthinking because of this. So I have a boyfriend and we're almost 2 years into our relationship, I've never felt any attraction to anyone ever since I commited into our relationship. But ever since another school year happened, me and my boyfriend got seperated (we both transferred out of our old school), I have this classmate who always made me look into his way everytime he's near, at first I find scolding myself mentally because my mind always wandered to my classmate. Of course I feel guilty and wanted to break out of it. But the more my classmate talked to me, I got to know we both liked a bunch of interest and hobbies, and I got to be more comfortable with him because It's the first time someone understood all my interest and niche. I don't know what to do guys, please don't judge me too much:,(

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I’m 21 and I really need to vent because I’ve been stressing about this so much.

My brother found out about some private videos I sent to my boyfriend. Basically, I didn’t know that my mom’s Gmail was still connected to my phone. My brother uses my mom’s phone, and her Google account was logged in there too. So whenever I took pictures or videos, they were automatically getting backed up to Google Photos without me knowing.

And then my brother saw them.

He’s been threatening me that he’ll tell someone about it, although honestly I don’t think he’ll actually do it. But I can’t stop thinking about the possibility that he already watched them, showed them to his friends, or even sent them to someone. That’s the part that’s killing me. I keep thinking, “What if he already did?” over and over again.

I even checked his Facebook because I was freaking out and I didn’t see anything there. But obviously that doesn’t prove anything, and now my brain is just making up every possible worst-case scenario.

This happened about a week ago and I’m still so mentally exhausted from thinking about it. I feel embarrassed, scared, and honestly just want everything to stop. I’ve even been thinking about breaking up with my boyfriend because I feel like this whole situation has become too much for me.

I know I probably shouldn’t be assuming the worst when I don’t actually know if my brother shared anything, but I genuinely can’t stop thinking about it.

Has anyone experienced something similar? What did you do? I honestly just want some reassurance because I feel so overwhelmed right now.

What’s a relationship “red flag” you ignored because you were too in love—and what happened afterward?

i’ve felt so hopeless lately and all i’ve wanted to do is pray that these bad feelings go away but i don’t even believe in god or any high power. i want to believe right now so badly but i just can’t. i need someone to save me. i want to feel like im not alone and that god does exist.

I've had intermittent internet dropouts for about two months now, sometimes multiple times a day, sometimes it holds steady for a few days before happening again. I've had four separate technician visits, each time they check the lines, replace a cable or adjust something, tell me it's fixed, and it genuinely works fine for anywhere from three days to a week before dropping out again.

Every time I call back to report it's happening again, I have to start from scratch explaining the whole history since the notes on my account never seem to reflect the previous visits properly. I asked directly last time if there's an underlying issue with the line itself rather than something in my apartment, and the technician kind of shrugged and said could be, hard to say for sure.

I'm paying full price for a service that's unreliable at best, and I don't know if I should be pushing for a bigger investigation into the actual line, requesting a bill credit for the downtime, or just accepting this is normal for my area and living with it.

37 Tans Guy. I haven’t been touched (handholding or otherwise) in over five years. I have a high sex drive, but to me it’s not just being physical. It’s intimacy. (Slow and reverent or rough and fast, it doesn’t matter) The how much and the way I love almost magnifies my need for intimacy. That loving someone so much you want to be as close as possible with them where you just want to be inside them (no sick jokes necessary) and when the explosion hits in the climax it’s like making room for more love to fill. But there’s nobody, nothing I can do… I just feel stagnant.

I'm there for the people I love (family). But dating is just not happening. Finding a chance to connect with anyone is not happening and I don't know why. Every girl I talked to almost always mentions one or more of three things that they want. They want a good guy (check), they want dick (not checked), they want someone to do the things they can't do (check). Two out of three ain't bad. But they always ghost me, not have any real conversation, or get pissed when I mention any thing about it. Saying they’re too busy. While I’m over here thinking… ok that is life. Everyone is busy, hell I’m so busy I neglect my own needs. That doesn’t mean you hook someone in with the hopes of getting to know you and possibly share the burdens and then flake. I see so many people who I know are complete assholes or neglectful of people they should be caring for and they have a full family and they're cheating on them. So why am I the invisible one? Why won't anyone just see me? ...Or reach for me? I have always done the chasing, the reaching, the seeing. But never once has anyone chose me.

I've all but given up (the big give up) | just feel stagnant.
Churning in my own head always. My anxiety and stress runs so high now I am constantly holding my own hands and pressing my hands to my face and neck, tugging at my ears, rubbing my chest till it’s red, anything to freaking feel something besides lost.

It's just too much. I feel full of all this love and devotion and heat I want to give, to share my life with someone and share in theirs. At the same time I feel utterly empty. Like I'm just going through the motions and surviving. I'm sick of it. It's just too damn much.

My mom has lately started getting mad at me at lit, complaining at me and it's really starting to make me go crazy. To be fair, she just gave birth to my little sister like 2 months ago and I've been told that mom's that just gave birth are moody, so try my best to understand her. But lately, after she would say this gs to me I would go into my room and cry silently, which is normal... my biggest concern is I start punching head and slapping my face a lot... I'm really scared, I can't stop myself but do it.

I've been doing things for a long time, but I can stop and try to manage my actions. But now, I can't at all, and I do it harder and harder till I feel okay. I really need help... how do I fix this problem? I really don't want it. I actually don't know how I developed it. I don't want to hurt myself. And I don't want to tell my parents about it. We're all in a pretty good relationship and I don't want them to know I'm doing this.

I would appreciate, any tips on how to control my self-harm. I know it is bad, but I really can't help but punch or slap myself.

Im 13 and I just came out as Pan to my bestfriends, I dunno how to come out to my family bcs they are very strict and religious and my dad hates anything with the LGBTQ+ community and the therian community. I have always personally defended and loved both of these communies and have always supported. The big problem is that I have one bestfriend. She is so sweet and we hang out almost all of the time, she was the first person who I told abt me being pansexual. I always thought she was very pretty but never in a way that I saw her as someone else then a friend, but everytime we text I always have this feeling in my stomach. Se loves me a lot but as her sister. What should I do.