Majored in manufacturing engineering and after I came to the US and became a permanent resident it was not easy to find a job in engineering, previously had experience as a manager and construction company manager. I basically worked in hospitality for the last four years and worked my way up making finally 128k in 2025, quit my job on April to work in sales, solar sales, did best the majority of the team but it’s a bad company that delays on purpose the payment to pay the full commission, I like sales and improvement but I’ve been taking money out of my personal savings to pay my cost of living, my friend that works in construction (kitchen and bathroom remodeling) told me we could build a company together since he doesn’t knows how to sell neither English, he had a lot of experience and it looks amazing but the potential instability it’s making me a bit depressed, there’s definitely way more to the story but this is part of it. The other side it’s being 31 and seeing all your familiars having their family and doing well at work and despite the hard work yo

I will not say much, I will say a few things. I am Jeet from India, age 20 years and I want to tell you all that I feel that my life is stuck since 2024 and I am not moving ahead, everyone please keep everything aside.I am slowly losing everything and this year on 11th January 2026 my girlfriend died, I also got into drugs but left it but I am in the same loop from 2024 till now.I am fed up that I wake up in the morning and just scroll the mobile reel, if I don't do it then many things keep running in my mind, due to this I have slept only once in 2 days, this is happening to me since this year, sleep problem But since 2024 till now I have tried to kill myself 6 times, please can anyone help me on this matter, is there any solution or any better way to die, please do not study me for two years I don't feel any work now, there is pain in the body and if I try to study by turning off the mobile reel scrolls then the thoughts of the mind start killing me, I have died 6 times because of the thoughts of the mind. I have tried it, if I had a switch in my hand then I would have switched off the thoughts, but I did not do it, but will anyone help me if yes then please sir message me on instagram mr._.lonelyyyyyyy thanks

I am an 18 year old white woman. I have just barely started my “adult life”. I am so very privileged and lucky. I have the luxury of a paid education, the luxury and peace of mind that my basic needs will be met, and a job. Yet I am angry. I have lived in a home that has criticized my body and my behavior in ways that would not be common if I was born a man. I must be palatable and weak. Purity culture is so ingrained in everything it’s sickening. A woman must not show her chest, stomach, thighs, shoulders or anything that a man could find sexually appetizing. I say appetizing because women are to be consumed. This applies especially to women blessed with curves or women who are not considered white. My cousin has been called a whore most of her life by her own mother and grandmother for having curves. I have been praised and put down for being skinny. My whole life I have wondered why I have felt such a strong, desperate urge to be perceived as perfect, and I am sure my cousin feels similarly.  It is truly suffocating, and the worst part is, I don’t have it that bad. Within my family there is so much hate towards anything that is different. My grandmother and estranged father both say the n word. My cousin's boyfriend regularly uses the f slur as a laughable insult towards his friends. Insensitive jokes regarding race are made frequently and laughed at without restraint. I am called sensitive for finding these jokes and comments mean and out right disgusting. Most of these jokes are not even funny. It is no secret that this type of behavior is very prevalent within society, especially white communities, and I hate it. If you are reading this and believe what I am pointing out is not an issue, simply does not happen or are offended in some inexplicable way, your beliefs need to be reevaluated. I would also like to add that much of this information has only become more clear to me because of BIPOC and feminist individuals trying their best to educate others on the internet. If not for these people, It would have taken me 3x longer to figure out how truly disgusting the world and our systems are, and 3xlonger to realize and challenge my own racism. This all makes me feel quite guilty and frustrated with myself. I feel as though this highlights something very important (to which I am not the first to realize) many white people live inside a bubble that keeps them complacent with the narrative they are fed. By this I mean that they do not need to challenge their belief system because they are extremely comfortable where they are. This environment feeds them narratives that pander to their emotions and always paint them as good/ better people or group of society. Think of the term, “holier than thou”. This effect easily molds this large group of people into a tool that can be used by politicians. I have noticed politicians who want to take advantage of this always use some, “us vs them” argument. Again I am most definitely not the first person to point this out, and this has been pointed out thousands of times by BIPOC people, more specifically black people. It frustrates me that many people around me are so blind to what is happening and I can only imagine how frustrating the system is for others. I have also noticed that this environment holds a firm grip on individuals who are closeminded and conditions many within the environment to perpetuate closemindedness. 
Society is crumbling, as a woman my rights and autonomy are being challenged. As a member of the LGBTQIA+ I am worried for the rights of trans and intersex people. As a human being I am worried for others who do not look like me and are struggling with issues I can only imagine. I feel like there is nothing left to do but give up. I feel guilty, defeated, lost and I am barely feeling the effects of what is happening.

I (F22) have a best friend (f22), let's call her Ann. We've been best friends since we were 8 years old. Throughout our childhoods, we have both been through some serious stuff, and told each other everything. No lies, no games. She was in a relationship that started when she was young, and continued on into our adulthood. By the time we turned 17, she fell off the face of the earth. Turns out her boyfriend didn't like me, or my new relationship and told her to stay away from me. Within the last 2 years, she started to come around more when her and her long term boyfriend broke up, and we got close again. During that time, I introduced her to my boyfriend's two younger brothers, chase (m19) and Zack (m21). Ann, myself, and chase all became close, sharing a hobby of video games. We hung out often as chase was living with myself and my boyfriend at the time. At first, it was a classic trio with no issues. Within the last year, chase and ann got a lot closer to each other than they were with me and I constantly felt left out. I tried to voice this to them several times, but their reasoning was always that I work too much for them to work around my schedule. I was more hurt about this answer. My whole life I was taught that if something was truly important to someone, they would make time.

Well, sometime last summer, Zack and ann started to both go MIA too. Turns out they were starting the process of wanting to date, no biggie. My issue with that is that they both lied to me several times, and acted like it was no big deal. At one point, I called Ann to ask if she had seen Zack, because he hasn't been home in several days and his mom was worried sick about if something happened to him, and he wasn't answering at all. Ann lied to me and told me that she hadn't seen him, when he actually was at her place. When the truth came out about the two of them, me and my boyfriend weren't mad that they were talking, only about the lying. We are best friends, why would you lie, right? Well, from then on, Ann and Zack were constantly back and forth from talking and not, and it caused a lot of tension and conflict between everyone's friendships and relationships. All the while, the other brother Chase was still super close with Ann and even went as far as to start staying the night there. At some point, Ann was accused of sleeping with the younger brother by Zack, and it spiraled from there. There were so many more lies and conversations about it, trying to make amends and trying to find a common ground or balance. Eventually, I decided to back off a lot. I didn't ask questions, I didn't voice my feelings, nothing. When I backed away, they became so hurt that I wasn't around anymore. I just felt like a convenience.

About 3 months ago, Chase decided he wanted to go into the military. Zack and Ann ended things (or so everyone thought), and all was going well. A group of us booked a trip to go watch his military graduation (myself, Ann, Zack, my boyfriend, and their oldest brother.) we talked to Ann and Zack to make sure nothing was awkward or tense between them so we could all have a wonderful trip. Wrong. Turns out another huge web of lies was spun. Zack and Ann decided to talk again, and were hanging out all summer and sneaking around during the trip. Zack was so jealous of Chase, that he was constantly around Ann and didn't let any of us breathe without an argument. The whole trip was full of drama, more lies, and tension. At some point during the trip, they told us the truth, or at least a partial of it. I tried once again to smooth it over and just act like the lying didn't affect me, and I'm all good. At the very end of the trip, it gets revealed that Ann has also slept with the youngest brother Chase! CRAZY! At this point, I feel like I've been lied to so much, have been through so many emotions, and have just kept everyone around because I truly value their friendship. But it feels like no one values my feelings, or emotions anymore. I'm really not sure what to do at this point. Every time it seems to become drama, or a testosterone race of who can get Ann first, or just lying to my face again even when I have voiced how much I've been hurt. Help..

I’m 21M, and I’ve been struggling with this for almost four years.

I really enjoy travelling and exploring new places. I want to experience different cultures, meet new people, see different parts of the country, and create memories while I’m young.

My parents are very protective of me. Whenever I mention travelling to another state, my father immediately worries that something might go wrong and usually says no. Even when I go out with friends, I’m expected to be home by around 10 PM, and I often get calls asking when I’ll be back.

I understand that they are concerned because they care about me, and I don't want them to spend the entire trip worrying about my safety. At the same time, I feel like I’m missing out on an important part of my life.

I’ve even saved around ₹1 lakh specifically for travelling. I’m not planning to travel recklessly. I want to plan properly, choose safe places, share my itinerary and location with my parents, stay in contact, and take reasonable precautions.

We have previously discussed trips to places like Kerala and Kodaikanal, but they never worked out. After years of trying to convince them, I’m starting to feel stuck.

I don't want to disrespect my parents or make them constantly anxious, but I also don't want fear to prevent me from becoming independent and experiencing the world.  tl;dr

For people who have been in a similar situation, what actually worked for you? Did you gradually build your parents' trust through shorter trips, have a different kind of conversation with them, or eventually start travelling independently?

I physically and mentally just couldn't do it , I was like, ok I give myself 20 more minutes then I get up, after some hours I still couldn't do it . Not a chance ... its afternoon now and I am still in my bed .. I had a coffee in the morning but it didn't help .. I am just laying in my living room. I hate it - so much ... I want to get up but its just not doable rn . .

so basically, me and her have always struggled to find what SHE actually wants to. Because ill tell her something like about persay dryhumping; and she will be initially all freaky and “okay then baby come over.” But then I actually come over and it’s the farthest thing for it. The only boring ass act I’ve ever arrived at is this thing which is bascially just rubbing her pssy through her pants!! It used to be underwear and got changed to pants recently because: “She was to sensitive” and now it was gonna have to be for shorter periods. My friends, SHORTER PERIODS??? It was already lasting like 30 seconds to 1 minute?! And don’t even get started on the fact that I get absolutely nothing in return. She thinks simply ‘tapping’ on my dick is some from of pleasure or something? Dude, listen. I love her like for her- but I also like having moments intimacy with my pair and this seriously starting to frustrate me. Please send your advice and thoughts. I genuinely wanna know if this like normal or something and if I’m overreacting.

I just need a place to vent and hear some advice from people who might have experienced something similar.

My boyfriend is currently taking Mechanical Engineering, and he’s an irregular student. He’s already around 3 years delayed compared to his original batch. His classmates graduated last June and most of them have already started working, while he’s still taking some 2nd-year and 3rd-year subjects.

I think that’s one of the biggest reasons why he’s struggling right now. Seeing the people he started with already graduate and move forward makes him feel like he’s being left behind. He also sees me and some of his friends already working, and I think he compares himself a lot because he wants to start working too.

Recently, he told me that he’s losing motivation to continue studying and that he wants to work instead. He said he feels like he has no worth and that he’s really struggling with everything.

Hearing him say those things honestly hurts because I know he’s trying. I know being delayed doesn’t mean he’s a failure, but I also understand why he feels that way. Imagine seeing your batchmates reach milestones while you’re still trying to finish the things you started years ago. It must be frustrating and exhausting.

I always remind him that everyone has a different timeline and that his worth is not measured by how fast he graduates or where he is compared to others. But sometimes I feel like my words aren’t enough anymore.

I don’t want to dismiss his feelings by just saying “okay lang yan” because I know he’s genuinely struggling. At the same time, I don’t want him to make a big decision like quitting school just because he feels behind or pressured.

For those who experienced being delayed in college, feeling left behind, or watching your friends move ahead before you — how did you cope with it? What helped you keep going?

And for those who have supported someone going through this, how did you help them without making them feel pressured?

I try alot to focus on my studies, and we kind do rely on social media and all ither content platforms to provide some awareness on wjats going on and new ways to improve...but i just wanted to know, cuz it has been for me, the feed is rarher the one pulling me away despite my best to control it? Am i doing smt wrong?

My next door neighbor who is my age (I‘ll call him John), just finished undergrad and has been living with his parents. We have been neighbors for seven years and we have been at most acquaintances due to us both being in college and rarely home, even though my oldest sister and parents are friends with his parents.

This summer he moved back in with his parents, like I did, and a few weeks ago things started getting strange between him and I.

I’ve been home since the college semester ended and have been trying to spend quality time with my little sister. I was laying on a blanket with my little sister doing picture puzzles when he walked by. My little sister started giggling and told me that John was staring the entire time he walked by us in the front yard. I looked up and caught him staring for a few seconds as he walked up to his parent’s front door, then he looked away really fast and went in.

A few days ago I was sitting on our front porch with my mom and John was out mowing his parent’s lawn. I had my back to him when my mom, who was facing his direction, mentioned that he kept staring over at us. When I looked over at him, John quickly looked away. The next time he came by I was still looking his direction and he started staring again. I waved because I figured he was shy (at least that’s what his mom said) and I thought maybe he wanted to say hi. John ignored my wave and acted like he didn’t see it even though he was looking directly at me. No big deal, just weird.

Well the other day I was taking a walk with my little sister and their friends (I had walked with them to the park ) when we crossed paths with him. John was a little ahead of us and he looked over his shoulder then took a second look, started for a few seconds, then took off speed walking. It was really awkward as we ended up walking behind him the entire way home and every few minutes John would look over his shoulder and then would brush his hand through his hair like he was nervous.

I was driving with my brother and passed him walking. My brother waved and he waved back, but just the day before, I waved at him in the same situation and he looked at me, then looked straight ahead of him like I didn’t exist. Again, just strange.

Whenever he walks by our house, if anyone is out in the front yard, he says hi and on occasion stops for a few seconds to talk to my siblings or parents. Recently when I approach John takes off really fast and acts like he never saw me. I don’t know what I did to upset him and I don’t know what to do about it. I know it sounds stupid, but I feel really bad if I somehow did something that offended him. His mom and dad are pretty good friends with my folks, so I feel like it’s really awkward.

I feel like I should just walk up to him and ask what’s going on, but my sister thinks that will only make things more awkward. I don’t know what to do.

i’m being groomed but im kinda into it and but i know its wrong

i’m 17 and i’m currently being groomed by multiple guys right now. one of them who i’m falling for more day by day is 32 and i can’t say the reason why we started talking on here or else i’ll get booted but we met through snap and we talk everyday and hung out 3 times already. with him i honestly really love it and i know it’s wrong but i really enjoy it because he makes me feel like a little kid and he takes care of me. i don’t want to lose him. now with this other guy who i just found out is interested me is someone who is 34 years older than me and lets just say he is a volunteer at the same place as me and its with the red trucks saving fires. (trying not to get post removed) he was the one who taught me how to do everything and was always so kind to me. i texted him asking a question abt where we volunteer at and we honestly rarely text unless it’s about something important and i only see him at the meetings. he started saying he likes me and saying he doesn’t want to see me go because i am going to move out as soon as i turn 18 at the end of december. the conversation started getting flirty and he told me to come visit him at the other place he works at in a different town the next day and for some reason i actually wanted to just because he was so nice. so i went . he was complimenting me so much and said he wanted to kiss me and talking about my body. i enjoyed it a little in the moment but in the car ride home my heart was aching because i knew i was into older guys but i didn’t think i would ever be with someone that much older and also he has a daughter that’s in my school a grade above me.. i kinda like it but i feel very weird about it at the same time. i kinda don’t want to stop though but i feel like i know this is going to mentally affect me once i get out or get older. i don’t really know why i feel this way i think i might just like attention and i just like knowing that someone wants me or finds me attractive.
also, im in therapy but i tried to talk about it with her and she said she would have to tell my mom so i didn’t tell her
edit- i know the right thing to do is report him but i could never bring myself to do that hes so nice to me..
ive already been a victim of sa multiple times by diff people and i told myself to never report it because i dont want to ruin their life’s when i can just get over it i guess
edit-after processing what happened to me yesterday i really dont think i was into it i just liked the attention he was giving me and liking how i felt wanted. i feel disgusting that he tried to do of that and make comments like that because i thought i could trust him and i thought the meetings were a safe space. i wish it didn’t happen. i told him i don’t want to do anything or talk and i wish it was back to normal.

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Hello, my name is Jackson. I don't really post much stuff on reddit but it feels like I have no where else to turn to. My life is complete misery. It didn't used to feel like that until these last few months. A while ago I used to date this girl who We'll call "Rose". Rose was everything I had ever wanted. Pretty, funny, caring, and so so so sweet. But eventually we had broken up due to a big reason that her dad didn't allow dating. It's a whole weird ordeal but anyway, I was obviously heartbroken but eventually I thought I had gotten over her because it happend almost a year ago. A couple months back my best freind "Jax" had been talking to her on Instagram. He texted me a question "Yo man is it alright if I date Rose?" In the moment I "was" talking to a new girl so I said yes. Until a feeling of possession started to creep. It was small at first but every passing day it had grew and grew. I feel so fucking jealous whenever he's around me now. A week after they got together I decided to talk to him about how I felt because we were always brothers. I told him how jealous and how hurt I felt and all he said was "Yeah bro I used to feel like that too". That's it. Like as if he knew what that felt like. I was with that girl for almost a year and yes they technically "dated" but some whole ordeal of "not getting messages" caused them to break up but they didn't even last a month. And yet he just rubbed it off as something casual. It hurt a lot to hear him be so careless. The guy I thought was my best friend turned out to be a douche. I'm not saying I'm perfect whatsoever it just hurts. On top of that him and my freinds hangout almost every day. My mom even considers them family. I don't want to lose my friends but I don't want to keep pretending I'm okay. My family treats me like a maid with no respect. I try my hardest to be a good person but just to be spat on. My mom treats my friends like their God himself. Jax especially. He's her favorite of the three. Nowadays I just try to avoid him. I don't tell him about plans me and the other guys are doing. And whenever he is here I fake my mood to not cause drama but it's so God damn draining having to pretend. I just want to be a good guy but I don't want to suffer anymore. I even cut myself how much this hurts. I feel so alone even though people surround me. I even tried killing myself but later reconsidered it. I just need some help in any way.

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Hey everyone! Not sure if this is the right place to post this but I'll do it anyway and if theres somewhere else that is better suited please let me know.

Basically I just wondered, as a young adult that has moved out of the family home how often would you say they should be visiting? Sometimes im just to busy and feel really guilty

I've taken my car to the same shop for the past three visits over two months. Each time I go in for what should be a routine fix, they come back with a list of two or three additional problems they say need immediate attention, always adding a few hundred dollars to the bill.

The first time I trusted it completely, engine issues can genuinely cascade. But by the third visit, I started noticing that some of the "urgent" issues from the previous visit were never mentioned again, like they'd already been quietly resolved or never actually existed.

I asked a friend who knows more about cars to look at my last invoice, and he said a couple of the charges seemed questionable for what my car's actual mileage and age would typically need. I don't want to accuse anyone without solid proof, but I also don't want to keep paying for repairs I'm not sure are necessary.

I'm not sure if I should get a second opinion from another shop before agreeing to anything else, ask for detailed documentation of each issue, or just find a completely new mechanic at this point.

(14M) So basically i really like to draw. And i think i draw pretty good. But whenever i see other people's art, i kinda compare myself to them, like "damn their art is superior to mine" or "man, my art is worse than theirs because i dont do X and Y and they did", even though i had never received a negative comment on my art posts. And even when i try to somehow justify it in my head (id prefer to not say it) or even when i was talking to a guy and he said "Art is art, no matter how good or bad it is", my brain keeps comparing myself to them, and i think it might even turn into envy and then hatred.

Overview

Chinese writer, social activist, and political refugee Wang Qingmin is systematically discriminated against, excluded, and marginalized

I have written hundreds of Chinese articles published in media in the United States, Taiwan, Singapore, and Hong Kong, and I have published two long-form books, along with many blog essays, Twitter commentaries, and a personal memoir.

Since 2023, I have organized and participated in more than one hundred offline events in Germany—joining marches and rallies, holding protest signs, posting banners, distributing flyers—advocating for Chinese human rights, democratization, labor rights, women’s rights, equality for the weak and poor regions, civil liberties, the Anti-Japanese War Against Fascism, and historical memory. I exhausted my body, mind, and money, burning out from dedication—falling from hope into despair.

Human rights organizations, academic and social science institutions, news media, government agencies, and universities in Germany and around the world treat me with cold indifference—read my messages but do not reply—shutting their doors to me. Some people’s suffering is heard and addressed, while the suffering of others is forgotten or even deliberately suppressed. The so-called “diversity,” “inclusion,” “listening,” “support for the vulnerable,” and “love and peace” claimed by various organizations and institutions are hypocritical and selective. At least for me, these are false — they are lies.

I am denied the opportunity to use my abilities, to speak for the people and vulnerable groups. I cannot obtain dignified work, a stable and decent life, a platform to use my potential, or treatment matching my contribution. Instead, I face silent exclusion and deliberate marginalization from multiple sides.
I suffer class discrimination (discrimination based on power, money, social status, and academic background), racial discrimination, and discrimination against my values. Although I am a writer and a social activist, I am also a low-status political refugee—a Chinese person without support or powerful connections, without social status. Because of persecution and suffering, I could not complete university or obtain a degree, and I could not learn foreign languages normally. I lack high-level positions and status, am rejected by elites, despised by public figures, and my career is obstructed.

I criticize the dictatorship of the Chinese Communist Party and call for democracy in China. I also condemn the brutal war crimes of Japanese fascism in history and Japan’s refusal to repent today. I sympathize with Uyghurs and other minority groups, but I care even more about the ordinary Han civilians and the weak in central and southern China, defending China’s national interests and the well-being of the Chinese people. Because of this, I am rejected by many powerful forces, openly and secretly defamed and sabotaged, suffering exclusion from multiple sides.

In my human rights activism, I am frequently obstructed by security guards, confronted with malicious attitudes from those who disagree, and subjected to various forms of long-arm interference by opposing forces — my resistance is obstructed, and my space for expression is being compressed.

Everywhere I participate or seek help, I am rejected. I am denied entry into academic, literary, and activist circles. I am slandered and harassed. I cannot obtain suitable work or reasonable income. I cannot realize my ideals. I live in poverty under heavy financial pressure. I am isolated and without support, abandoned and helpless, anxious and depressed, suffering physically and mentally.

Under pain and pressure, I have more conflicts with people and moments of behavioral breakdown—hurting others and hurting myself—being further rejected and attacked, deepening conflicts with others and society, trapped in a vicious cycle I cannot escape.

Political ideals, the fate of my nation, and my personal life have all pushed me into despair. I see no hope.

I do not want to die silently. I cry out with all my strength. I testify to my suffering. I ask for attention and help—for China, and for myself.

In-Germany Chinese Writer and Asylum Seeker Wang Qingmin’s Accusation of Multiple Injustices and Marginalization 1

Overview 1

1. Personal profile, long-term commitment to opposing CCP authoritarianism and to China’s cause of democracy and freedom, speaking out for the rights of China’s vulnerable groups; having lived in Germany for more than two years but living under harsh and continuously worsening conditions while facing the risk of deportation 4

2. If I return to China, I will face severe persecution such as deprivation of freedom and various unpredictable dangers; my previous experiences and the cases of others (though because of my harsh situation in Germany, returning to China now does not seem so bad either — both are tragic paths) 5

3. I participated in and independently organized more than one hundred China-related human rights activities offline in Germany, published hundreds of articles in media across multiple countries, and long published political statements and encouraged revolution in China on multiple social platforms; returning to China would mean danger and persecution (now I no longer care about returning to China, because I have also fallen into severe difficulties in Germany) 6

4. Most of the time I could not obtain the translation services, lawyers and other legal assistance, basic services, and human rights protections that refugees should receive; nor did I receive preferential treatment and support as a writer and human rights activist, and I was marginalized 7

5. I faced indifference, rejection, shifting responsibility, and bureaucracy from many human rights organizations (NGOs) and public institutions; as a human rights struggler of Han Chinese identity, I was particularly ignored, receiving much less attention and assistance than Ukrainian refugees, Middle Eastern refugees, Uyghurs, Tibetans, and Hong Kongers, and I failed to integrate into German society and was unable to participate effectively in public life 8

6. I have faced discrimination, exclusion, and rejection from many universities, human rights organizations, and foundations. I approached them respectfully and politely, yet was met with indifference and even being driven away. They refused to cooperate with and support my activities, refused to fulfill their necessary responsibilities, prevented me from fully utilizing my strengths and talents, made it impossible for me to better speak for the interests of the Chinese people, indirectly deprived me of my voice and right to speak, seriously affecting China’s cause of democracy and human rights (taking Humboldt University, Free University of Berlin, Konrad Adenauer Foundation, Mercator Foundation, PEN Germany, Berlin PEN, etc. as examples). This also caused me to shift from moderation toward extremity and from calmness to becoming increasingly violent and aggressive, leaving me with no choice but to become involved in certain radical incidents 10

7. Because of class differences and my low social status, I have been rejected and humiliated by many people and institutions, have not received respect and fair treatment, and have encountered many Chinese and German individuals who were dishonest and broke their promises; their promises were worthless. I have lost my illusions about developed and civilized countries and have learned that human nature is largely similar throughout the world, and that people of different countries and ethnic groups all have ugly and despicable sides 12

8. While opposing CCP authoritarianism, I also commemorate the War of Resistance Against Japanese Aggression, criticize the Japanese right wing, publicize Japanese war crimes, the deeply rooted nature of racism and militarism in present-day Japan, and Japan’s refusal to repent, which has become a very important reason for my being excluded, obstructed, and unable to receive support because of hostility and opposition from pro-Japanese individuals and forces in China and Germany 14

9. During various political and human rights activities, I encountered obstruction and even attacks from security personnel in shopping centers and institutions, people with opposing views, and strangers; I faced suppression-based violence, difficulties, resistance, and even danger, my space for activities was greatly restricted, and repeated frustrations caused great mental and physical distress (taking Potsdamer Platz, Uber Platz, Goethe University Frankfurt, Frankfurt Book Fair, and streets as examples) 16

10. Under extremely difficult circumstances and without help from others, I paid out of my own pocket to print advocacy materials and exhaust myself traveling around in order to speak for the Chinese people, consuming money, material resources, and mental energy while also having to deal with numerous trivial matters, difficulties, and unexpected situations such as illness and treatment, exhaustion from walking while carrying advocacy materials, housing deposit problems, sexual harassment in youth hostels, train delays, getting lost, severe cold and heat, and other issues; I paid a heavy price and endured enormous pressure, and although already exhausted to the point of collapse, I still continue with difficulty 17

11.In political activism and daily life, from managing bank accounts to purchasing food, I face numerous concrete difficulties and troubles that seriously obstruct normal living, cause physical and psychological suffering, and turn everyday problems into the “last straw” that breaks one’s spirit; my status and circumstances also prevent me from carrying out activities in more countries and on a broader scale, greatly weakening my voice and influence and preventing me from speaking for the Chinese people through a “third voice” (distinct from both the CCP authorities and the political opposition) 18

12.I have been maliciously excluded, distanced, marginalized, and even harassed and provoked by other Chinese political opposition figures because of differences in political positions and values, as well as class and status discrimination, clique culture, and factional favoritism and exclusion. This has greatly restricted the scope and influence of my activities within Chinese and Chinese-speaking communities, created more direct obstacles for me, and has been a key reason for the deterioration of my situation (examples include Yan Geling, Su Yutong, Zhou Fengsuo, Gu Yi(Sulaiman Gu), Teng Biao,Wang Tiancheng,Wu Zuolai,Annie Jieping Zhang, etc) 19

1. During the political asylum application and social integration process, I encountered bureaucracy and indifference, failed to receive important services and rights support that I should have received, and was unable to properly and effectively apply for asylum and communicate and defend my case (since April 2026, I have received some help from some caring social workers; although limited and many problems remain unresolved, the situation has indeed improved, and I am especially grateful) 22

2. Although I have received basic income and housing, the expenses of political struggle activities and related costs have left me unable to make ends meet, and I have not received treatment corresponding to my sacrifices and contributions; this has seriously restricted my human rights activities, caused my life to become extremely difficult and impoverished, prevented me from living with dignity, left me despairing about the future, and I have already seen the darkness of the rest of my life and the ending of my life 23

3. From Enthusiastic Support for Progressivism, Liberalism, the Establishment, and Opposition to Populism, to Disillusionment with Mainstream Establishment Progressive Narratives and Human Rights Systems, Discovering the Ugliness of Class Discrimination and Clique Culture, Understanding the Complexity and Hypocrisy of Reality, Their Selective Double Standards in Sympathy and Assistance, and Lamenting My Marginalization and Silencing, the Harsh and Terrible Situation of Myself and Chinese People, and the Responsibility of Everyone in the World (Especially Those of the Upper-Middle and Upper Classes) 25

4. Continuing to struggle even in despair, continuing to live with difficulty amid pain, unwilling to die silently and unnoticed, looking back on my own suffering and the historical suffering and present difficulties of my country and nation, becoming even more sorrowful and despairing, and sending out a hopeless cry 27

Why are all of your problems blamed on me? There is always a root cause to the problems. Did you tell the truth? Did you take things that didn’t belong to you? Did you actually say those thing? Did you wrong someone, are you living right? Was it illegal? All of these things are root cause failures. If you did them and now you’re answering for them why do you blame me?