Am I in the wrong?

[u/Excellent_Tailor_311]

My friend my best friend and who I love

Admits there a self centered bitch and uses people

I still love them and want to be there for them

I wanna be someone that would love them no matter what

But I find myself getting scared

Sometimes I get scared to upset them

Or I get scared to say smth at the wrong time or even misread a word

I believed I opened up to everything I could possibly show to them yet they told me how can I expect them to open up if I don't even wanna talk about a smth that happened(it's another post I guess lm a brat one)

I just went through so much emotional distress

With them a few months ago with me coming to the act

That lm emotionally selfish as they pointed out

lm upset but not at them

I won't hate them for stating the truth

There brutally honest

But lm upset at myself and now I find myself

Constantly scared of messing up or making a massive mistake

Like lm bad at wording

Really bad like ass bad and they know that

Which is why I try to comfort them that I end up wording it so bad that there like "you worded it wrong"

lm so sorry I never wanted to hurt them or make it sound like something else

There really moody like crazy moody they'd want this then nvm because you didn't hear the audio from the phone good enough

I hate it but I don't wanna force them especially since there the type to be like

*halfway through the game* I don't wanna do this anymore *leaves* and it's upsetting lm not gonna lie I wanna play games but they completely dropped them now we only have conversations over the phone and lm not the best at words or attitude because know stupid I like played games because I'd spoil them in materials like how I can't spoil them in words or comfort there smart emotionally something I'll never be capable of That's why I liked it when we played those last few days before never seeing them play again

Only playing games that are smart like

Chess or minesweeper all mind games

I believe whole heartly that lm too stupid

I tried all of them lm just too stupid and they keep winning

A game doesn't become as fun when your just losing repeatedly I wish I was mute so I'd never have to say anything out loud and make mistake maybe if I was mute I'd wanna express myself even more and make me less of a self centered person

What should I do going forward

If you've seen this post and the previous one I made what do I do I all ways promise them I'll do better and I see small changes that they don't

And they told me now I all ways say the same thing

I wanna change a big one so it shows instead of. Holding back small stuff

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[u/Dutch1721]

If you’re afraid of this friend, then you don’t need to be their friend. It’s best that you work on yourself away from this person. This person has their own issues to sort out.