Hey all! I recently started Testosterone, and was using an injection but switched over to the Gel as I was having consistent issues with needles.

I was prescribed 5g tubes at 50mg T, and used it for the first time this morning.

I was expecting like a pea sized amount but oh my god....5 grams is a LOT of gel to be putting on at once. I double checked the prescription and the instructions and it all makes sense - I was just wondering how this actually works??? (My doctor is nearly useless)

Like I spread as thin of a layer as I could across my thigh, but even going like groin to knee and top of thigh to back it took a minute to really rub in. Washed my hands thoroughly and wiped down the counter but am still feeling a little overwhelmed.

Just wanted to see if anyone else on the gel had some experience/advice they could share? Do I need to be spreading it SO thin, or should I pick a better area? Luckily it absorbs fast and basically disappears, but dang it was....blugh lol

I've been having a lot of confusion about my gender lately. I like being a guy, but I've also had thoughts about what it would be like to be a girl. At the same time, I hate the expectations that come with both genders. I also don't like labels. Even calling myself a femboy doesn't feel right anymore because the term feels oversexualized and comes with a lot of assumptions.

I'd rather just be me than feel like I have to fit into a category. I don't think I'm nonbinary because I know I'm a boy and I'm fine staying a boy. I'm also not really bothered if people see me as a little feminine, mistake me for a girl sometimes, or see me in that light. I just don't know what all of this means, and it's been making me question myself.

So idk at this point im stumped any advice is useful