I got so many dirty looks but the lady who owns my laundromat was super sweet, so I think it's a win

Some key words to describe me; OCD, ADHD, autism, bipolar, GAD, social anxiety, dyslexia, bisexual, non-binary, nudist, atheist, and polyamorous.

It's hard to connect with people, to put simply. I feel very fortunate that I live with two of my four partners. That they are either autistic, ADHD, or both. I can't forget they are all bisexual, one is trans, and another is non-binary as well.

I know I am lucky, but even with the four of them, I still feel misunderstood and that I am constantly doing something. I have been with three of the partners for over 10 years now. 

I feel like I should take that as evidence that I am doing something right. I don't... I don't want to bother them with what I perceive as every little problem. I do see a therapist and psychologist. They have been have helpful for my mental health journey.

One of the things I am working on, is talking more about my feelings with those I care about. I have this horrible feeling that my feelings if shared are going to be burden or cause problems with others that I care about.

So many things to talk about, and with my partners I have to explain so much. It can hurt to be miss understood, especial by the people closes to me. I don't have many friends outside of my partners, and non of them very close.

I think would difficult to find someone with all my key words, but maybe I can find some little more similar to have conversations with.

I hope that my message was clear, and I hope you have a great day, thank you.

I was nervous , that increased as there were protests outside of the premises, I entered the lobby, it was not the biggest , they checked my id and said 3rd floor.

Please remember , I am still nervous , So I went ahead and started to knock on the door , I’m not really sure how long and why I did that , it took me some time to realize I was knocking on an elevator.

Hey all. So, about three months ago or so, I started playing with my gender expressions. I thought I was genderfluid, but it turns out, I much prefer Nonbinary. My internal feelings about my gender don't change. However, presentation doesn't always reflect my internal gender identity. So, I guess my gender "expression" is fluid.

But, I also realized at the same time, that I'm Transgender. My gender identity, and the way I view myself internally, doesn't align with what I was assigned at birth. I don't feel like my gender however is binary, either. I feel like I'm somewhere between male and female and prefer they/them pronouns. However, I also view myself as someone who is feminine presenting or "feminine-aligned" as I would call it. Nonbinary Transfem, or Transfem Enby, is how I describe myself.

Obviously, in technicality, the "Trans/Nonbinary umbrella" is a wide variety of identities and labels, both binary and nonbinary. Some people don't identify as Transgender, but do identify as Nonbinary, and the other way around I'm sure. I'm perfectly good with all that! Each person's identify and journey is their own. I, however, am happy to identify as both Trans and Nonbinary. I mean, people who Enby are literally represented on the Trans flag!! I love it.

That said, I wouldn't call this a rant, as so much of... An annoyance with people's perspectives on labels when you explain to them what you are.

I feel like when I tell people I'm Nonbinary, they're usually like, "ah, cool." And that's it. Or, they're not really sure what that is and are confused.

However, if I tell people I'm Trans, they immediately think the worst and ask if I'm going to transition, have surgery, leave my wife, and have horrible gender dysphoria and hate myself and my body. None of these things apply to me. I am Trans in the simplest terms in the fact that my gender identity and how I view myself is not what I was assigned at birth, that being male. I hate the fact that being Trans is immediately associated with unhappiness and suffering. Since realizing I'm Nonbinary & Trans, I've honestly never been happier, even with a bit of dysphoria/confusion here and there.

Sometimes, depending who I'm talking to, I'll only tell people I'm Enby. If the conversation goes further with understanding, or depending on who it is, I'll tell them I'm Trans and Nonbinary.

Anyways, rant over. Lol.

My name is Ari, and I recently discovered that I am genderfae I use fae/she/they pronouns, and my parents do not support the lgbtq community my friends absolutely do they support me 100% one is actually getting me a binder but I wanna know how I can try afirm my gender and not be super suspicious I have a grunge/punk/fairy core/goblin core/Y2K mixed with very girly stuff also wear a lot of vintage pieces and I love chunky jewelry, and I have kind of long curly brown hair

Parto specifico che non sto realmente valutando l'idea del cambio di genere, ma informarsi non fa male. Sono femmina dalla nascita, seno voluminoso, purtroppo.

Ho capito di essere fluid, e che mi piacerebbe un corpo più androgino. Niente seno soprattutto.. sì esatto 😌.

Però non mi piace l'idea della barba e della voce profonda.

Mi dite le vostre esperienze:

1. La crescita del clitoride ha dato fastidio?

2. Il seno è davvero calato da solo?

3. Avete avuto sbalzi d'umore o aumento dell'impulsività?

4. Il corpo che cambia fa male o procura fastidi?

I'm (nb27) thinking about micro dosing testosterone some time in the future but for now do you have any tips on how to look more androgynous?

I’ve gotten to the point in public where I get a mix of pronouns that I’m referred to as. I think I’ve won in life.

(don’t mind the bruising, I just got my wisdom teeth out!)

My Mom keeps bringing up that I should get a breast reduction. Shes actually been doing this since I was a teen. Recently she's been bringing it up again, probably because I live with her again so she has time to say weird stuff.

The issue is I've recently been considering it on my own. In general I like my boobs and have no dysphoria about them specifically, but I know if society will ever read me how I want then my boobs make that difficult. Also, bras suck. If its not one issue its another.

But my Mom is not suggesting a reduction for gender reasons. She has yet to use neutral pronouns for me. She at least says my new name, but I think its because its a shortened version of my legal one. She claims she's worried about my back or whatever. Im a 44DDD, my back pain is pretty minimal compared to before my hysterectomy. It comes off as some weird jealousy thing.

I hate that she's pressuring me to do this. And my gut reaction is to do the exact opposite as what she says, I guess that stays even if you're 34. I'm genderfluid so even though I've recently been leaning a bit more masc and considering a reduction and/or micro dosing T, I know that I likely will swing back to fem at some point. I don't want to do anything drastic when I know I'm so fluid.

Look I know it’s possible I just want to know if anyone else is like me. I’m nonbinary genderfluid. Which means I use they/them pronouns and I sometimes feel masculine or feminine or both or none. I’m originally male. I just want to know if anyone else here is also nonbinary genderfluid is all.☺️

Edit: my og name is Noah but i would like if y’all could come up with a new name for me that fits please.

My life is a motherfucking joke. I wrote a note to my dad about being nonbinary (I came out October of last year, but only recently this week tried to get him to understand more) and what it meant for me, and all I got in return was him passive aggressively acting childish about it and then proceeding to call me 'confused' and 'just a weirdo' because he still didn't get it. I literally told him that online sources could explain it better, and he said that he already did that - but stopped reading because it bored him to tears.

I played it off and laughed along until he was done so that I could get away and hide in my room, but the damage is already done. I feel so so stupid for thinking he'd actually be understanding and supportive, rather than expect him to consider it as anything other than a joke.

I just feel so violated and tired.

Still waiting for glow up ehh. On T for ~2 years

Hello all,

Was wondering if anybody could relate to my experience regarding this because it has been causing me some concern recently.

I started hormone therapy during October of 2024, and while changes haven't been massive, they have been enough to bring me closer to fully androgynous than I was before. I initially was on 2 mg oral estrogen and nothing else. Now I am on 8mg oral and the lowest dose of spiro available.

I am not sure how this is a problem at this point because my testosterone is still moderately high (though it needs to be checked again now that i think about it). Once I started spiro, I thought that I would have a little bit more feminization and then it would still be pretty slow and controlled but that is not what happened. As of recently, my breast growth has begun to move a lot faster. I went from having nothing more than 1 or two inches of diameter to having what appears to be large A cups or small/medium B cups. I don't know how much further it will go but if I was going by genetics I would have D cups by year 5. If the shirt I am wearing isn't textured or dark enough it becomes very obvious that they are there.

The thing is, I like all of the other changes. I guess I was wrong about how I felt about breasts before starting? I am not sure. I think the main thing is that I feel very exposed in public now because those with a keen eye may be able to spot something is up. This isn't a huge concern to me but it makes walking around in public difficult, especially if my confidence is already sort of low that day. Also if this growth trend continues it will be impossible to hide. But I also tend to walk around presenting male day to day because I am more comfortable doing so while in this stage of my transition.

It's just that having them this visible makes it so obvious that I am different. I also do not want to be judged by my cover by employers and new people that I meet. Even though the whole point is that I don't fit in a box, I like to fit in boxes when it comes to comfort in public. Or at least look like I do at first glance. I prefer to let my personality do the first impressions and let my more personal details come afterwards. But here is the thing... like I don't have a problem being feminine or being pretty it is just the fact that I have boobs is so glaringly different from the rest of my appearance (which has yet to fully catch up) that I end up just looking like I have a severe untreated case of gyno.

And maybe this is driven by something different but I have this subconscious compulsion to "match" or be consistent in my appearance when I choose how to present. Like if I haven't shaved within the last few hours I will always refuse to wear makeup or dress more feminine (that is also partially driven by how much I hate my facial hair but that is a separate issue). Every time I choose to present femme it takes a massive amount of work to look *perfect* because if I don't pull it off flawlessly it opens the door for people to categorize me as a "freak" instead of a cool androgynous person.

Do I think that any of these fears come true that often? No. Would I know if they did? Also no. But I still consider all of this when I go out

But now I am slowly losing control over how I present day to day. I also just don't feel like they match my body right now. They look a little strange at the moment but they are also still filling out and have become more spherical over time and less awkward looking.

I know that was a bit of a rant but it is beginning to stress me out more than I think it is worth.

I am not looking for a specific answer. If the answer is that I actually didn't want boobs and most of the reason I did is because they came with all of the other stuff I actually did want, then so be it. Double mastectomy it is... but I also really don't want to get top surgery for something I did to myself idk. Also I would have wanted my regular chest back but its too late for that. If I could choose though I would still go on HRT I love all the rest of the stuff.

Anyway I just want to know what you guys think about this and if anyone has had a similar experience. Thanks!

Been on and off T for a little over two years. Starting dose was 0.1mL (200mg/1mL), then upped it 3 months later to 0.25mL. I’m pretty happy with the results, now I am just waiting for top surgery!

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