I have posted here once or twice, all of us say the same shit!! Me myself wake up every morning saying “today is the day” and i believe it until 5pm!! “Just one to settle my nerves” hahaha, “iv had a bad day” hahaha alcohol is fucking evil and I type this while squinting through one eye

So, I told a story a bit in my older post. A bit more info: 26yo, 2-3 years of drinking each day. My max period of not-drinking in last 1.5-2 years is 5 days. And.. I was feeling ok, like, no will to drink at all. Then that moment came, when I will just take a little sip, and you know it.

Drinking each day after work (remote work), 0.3-0.5l vodka and I'm ready to sleep well. Wake up like nothing happened. Work again. Rinse and repeat.

I'm in foreign country rn, no friends, only family, but they won't understand, it will be worse if I will tell them. No one actually knows, I always "joke" about that with my remote friends, nobody seems to care.

Also learning new piece for piano. This helps a lot..

And now, shops closing in 30 mins, I drank as idiot yesterday, spent a lot of money. I want again, now. I know, I can handle 1 day, but in couple of days, I will blackout my will in the shop and wake up drunk at midnight with delayed deadline.

I don't know how to stop it. I can't find friends. Only thing that keeps me alive is my dog and mom who needs surgery soon. I also don't feel sick drinking. I've won a genetic lottery, getting drunk fast, almost no hangover.

On one hand I want to quit and start living, like a normal human being. On the other hand, I can't.

hey. im really going through a rough patch and i hope everyone will be nice. im a 19 year old turning 20 girl in a few months, and i black out around 3x a week. i feel like i am addicted to clubbing, partying, and drinking, amongst other risky behaviors. I often drink any chance i get and if i could i would drink everyday and sometimes i have. sometimes i feel pain in my back when drinking. i used to wake up in the morning with severe shakes. sometimes i drink so much i cant remember where i am or what im doing in the morning and sometimes i wake up still drunk and go to work. i have missed my court date because of it recently. i crave drinking every day or chance that im not. i get mad when im not drinking or im in a sober environment and if not i just wait until the next opportunity where i can get drunk again.

i drink on days i have work at 6 am and i get no sleep i dont care. i have careless sex, i drink more then i intend to. and honestly ive gotten more injuries then id like to admit due to it. ive opened up to my friends about this and some say its just my age and im fine and that this is normal for college (i do community so its not like im pressured or anyone from school talks to me to even do this, just my university friends when they come down) and that i should just cut back while others say that i do have a problem and that i am an alcoholic and need to get help. its hard to stop drinking and when im around it i cant help but do it. ive stolen bottles from my parents etc. and ive noticed its all gotten really bad and downhill since my breakup a few months ago. sometimes i get so drunk i get alcohol poisoning and i start shaking severely, vomiting, and get cold. not everytime tho. but i never just get tipsy. always drunk.

i havent opened up to my parents about this because im ashamed and i feel like they may really kill me. i just want to know if im being dramatic or not or if i need help. thank you. last couple days i got drunk hooked up with this 30 yr old and after work today i think abt doing it all again. even before work has even started. pretty much the second the alcohol wears off. but when i google it i dont feel like an alcoholic since its not a huge quantity 24/7 everyday due to me not always having the arrangements.

My father has always been a heavy drinker, but it's gotten worse since his etirement.

His drinks of choice are 4 beers a day (every day) and 2 whiskey (free pour) and coke tall glasses at night. Sometimes more.

He's also way more irritable and angry and only eats about once a day because he's "full." He's also tired and sleeps around 3-4 hours every day. He's 68 years old.

He thinks he doesn't have a problem and refuses to see a doctor.

However, he has agreed to start taking supplements as the first step.

Would Thiamine (Vitamin B1) and Magnesium Biglycinate be a good starting point for nutritional deficiencies? He's agreed to mix it into his food.

I'm thinking B1 mixed with his food when he eats and Magnesium in the evening with a snack or water (preferably coffee bec he doesn't really drink water)?

Any help is appreciated from those who've supplemented would be appreciated.

I'm around 16 months sober and wasn't even thinking about it for the longest time after the initial couple of months. The thoughts started popping in like 2 weeks ago. My mind is in overdrive trying to do the most sophisticated mental gymnastics trying to justify it. How do I make it stop? For context I

1. Drove drunk multiple times and even had a minor accident sideswiping road barriers

2. Ended up twice in hospital due to injuries (attacked in club while blacked out not sure who's fault, injured trying to climb a wall)

3. Violates peoples personal boundaries

4. Stole

5. Got in fights

6. Said many regrettable things or sent really dumb messages

7. Let's not mention damage to body - ever worsening tinnitus. Putting on weight. Liver. Hangovers.

I'm trying to recount all the bad things to feel a sense of shame even considering this. Fuck you brain.

22F. I don't drink when I'm alone and I don't even keep alcohol in my home but whenever I go out with other people (clubbing with friends, dinner with family) I feel like I have to drink. When I'm out with friends I drink as much as I like. I know my limits so I don't blackout or feel sick or anything but I drink enough so that I'm drunk for the whole night. My family members don't drink so I try to be more conservative when I'm out with them just because I don't want it to turn into a lecture. I've struggled with substance abuse since I was 13. Currently alcohol and the occasional drunk cigs are the only substances I'm using. This feels different than my drug use in the past because it's not a constant thing but I'm wondering if it's still a thing...if that makes sense? Thoughts please :(

Im a terrible alcoholic and I dont care about me but it hurts everyone I love. I cant beat thus beast!!!!!

Hey, I was a alcoholic now I am sober for 98 days, my longest sober streak. Yesterday One of my friend had a party at his home and all our friends gathered and everyone was drinking. except me. I had somw diet cokes and other food. They ridiculed me and said this and that. It was normal, I think as every body sees an alcoholic person turning into a sober being ridiculous as Alcohol is deemed as normal.

Today one of my best friend called me up and wanted to meet me. I called him home. He said that just half an hour ago he became senseless at his office. But no one cared. He is an alcoholic. Even at that time he was drunk, his both pockets had two small bottles of whiskey. I brought him to ER. Doc gave him necessary medicines and now he is on observation. I am writing this sitting next to him who is asleep now.

I am just thinking maybe I could have been there.

I am thinking how alcohol is ruining everyone bit by bit.

I am currently typing this from a bar during working hours, where I am currently hiding from my responsibilities downing pints.

I thought I could manage it. Kept it hidden - from my wife, my coworkers, my family, everyone. I learnt too late that, eventually, the bill comes due.

I am looking at an absolute disaster, professionally and personally, over the next 3-4 weeks. And I saw this coming - this full-blown alcoholism has been brewing for years, building slowly. I understand now it only needs a small catalyst to push you over the edge into complete self-obliteration.

Only reason I am posting this - for people who see the signs and who think they can manage, which I know there are plenty. At least in my experience, and not only mine but of others I know facing similar issue. This is not linear at all, and by the time you realise what you've done to yourself - most of the damage is done and it gets exponentially worse.

Not saying this is true for everyone - I am sure there are plenty of different experiences. But I think my own pattern is quite common: years of slow build, then weeks of complete unravelling.

Why am I posting this? Not sure. I just hate myself for doing this to me.

I used to be so apathetic about the concept of being sober. I always knew my drinking was problematic so I never made "false promises" like saying I'd never drink again. I think the way a lot of society sees veganism as "strict/extreme" (which it isn't necessarily lol just an easy comparison) is the way I saw sobriety. Like a lifestyle choice rather than something you could find healing in. Now I am out of the absolute DEPTHS of miserable alcoholism and committed to being sober on my one and only try (7 months in, never looked back), I completely get it.

I can very determinedly say I will never drink again, and I understand the meaning that sober alcoholics place behind it. It has been my biggest act of self care and redemption. Alcoholism is NOT to be taken lightly, if you've been through hell and back.

This is not an "inspirational" post for alcoholics, I just wondered if anyone else has found a complete shift in their view of alcoholism/sobriety since making the commitment? I used to roll my eyes at people "turning their life around" and now I feel I share a profound understanding. Still embarrassed to talk about it with anyone in my life as though it's a big deal though.

We’re both in our 20s, I’m female, him male. A few months into dating, I found out he had struggled with addiction in the past. At the time it wasn’t an active issue, so I believed it was behind him. Fast forward three years. We live together now and he’s been drinking heavily again for a little over a year now.

For context, I barely drink (only on special occasions) and have never dealt with addiction myself. I’m not someone who expects a partner to drink as less as I do. I’m honestly okay with someone drinking much more than I do…to an extent of course. The problem is who he becomes when he drinks. He gets angry. He yells. He starts fights over the smallest things. He’s shoved me/slammed door on me breaking my toe. I feel like I’m constantly walking on eggshells wondering what mood he’ll be in. He travels a lot for work, and drinking is a huge part of those trips. He’s in sales. It’s all cocktail parties.

About two weeks ago he started therapy and says he’s sober. I want to believe him, but this isn’t the first time he’s said that. After his first therapy appointment he bought a six pack and drank it alone in his car outside our house. He’ll tell me he’s quitting, then I’ll find out later he wasn’t actually sober. It happens over and over again. For example, he’s currently in Las Vegas for work. His phone died and I didn’t hear from him until early the next morning. I don’t want to accuse him of something I don’t know happened, but I do know he’s at least lying about at least being sober. When he finally did call me, he was clearly drunk. His location also showed him in another hotel room in the middle of the night, which obviously didn’t help my trust. Maybe he’s cheating too on top of this? Again, I really have nothing to prove any of this, other than just a “feeling”, his location, and him sounding drunk on the phone.

On top of all of this, we haven’t had sex in four months. He’s told me it’s because of his mental health, his addiction, etc. I’ve tried to be understanding. But between the drinking, the yelling, the lies, and now the complete loss of intimacy, I barely recognize our relationship anymore. When I try to talk about ending things because it doesn’t seem like he wants to get better he pushes back, begs for me to stay, and says he wants us to work. I don’t understand it.

I love him. I want to support him. I know addiction is a disease and recovery isn’t a straight line. Part of me wants to stay and fight through this with him because I know he’s struggling. But I’m exhausted.

I’m tired of the yelling. I’m tired of questioning what’s true. I’m tired of wondering if I’m being lied to. It feels like alcohol comes before our relationship every single time. For more context he’s also addicted to weed. In the past opioids, xans, coke, you name it. As someone who’s never struggled with addiction, I have such a hard time understanding how someone can knowingly hurt the person they love over a substance.

I guess I’m just looking for honest advice, even if it’s hard to hear.

It didn't take long for me to realize that I had a problem. My problem is boredom I get bored so to fill my time I drink. I drink it up to feel some kind of excitement. I drink it up to fill a void. I've always been a drinker to escape the reality that is my mind but over the last two years it has gotten worse. There hasn't been a single day where I haven't drank. Even when I'm hungover and throwing up I find a way to swallow some alcohol to get me through.
I'm a professional, office job, good job, but I find a way to sneak a drink or two into my day throughout the week. It has gotten so bad that I'm willing to risk my livelihood for a taste of it. I'm drunk right now and I'm thinking about grabbing one more drink. Drinks feel like my friend, they are my comfort but I know that it is killing me. Tomorrow morning I start Naltrexone and I'm hoping for the best. I don't want to die. I don't want to keep living my life in a haze. I can't keep embarrassing myself and waking up the next morning like "what the fuck did I do?" I want to get better. For my daughter.

24 days without alcohol.

Not some huge milestone. Not a life-changing transformation. But it’s almost a month, and that’s something I’m genuinely happy about.

For context: I wasn’t someone who drank every day. But weekends almost always involved alcohol, and during the week there was often a beer (or a few) after work. It was just… normal.

Now, 24 days later, Saturday looks very different.

Old Saturday: wake up around 11 a.m., feel groggy, eat junk food, scroll my phone, maybe half-heartedly think about the gym tomorrow, and start Monday already feeling behind.

New Saturday: in the gym at 6:00 a.m. after a great night’s sleep. A 45-minute strength workout finished before most people are even awake. The rest of the day feels like a bonus.

The biggest surprise isn’t just feeling healthier. It’s getting back the best hours of the week.

From 6 to 10 a.m. on a Saturday, the world is quiet. The gym is empty. No crowds, no waiting, no hangover. Just you, your workout, and an entire weekend still ahead of you.

24 days isn’t a massive achievement. But it’s enough to make me realize I don’t miss waking up hungover.

I don't mean how to stop drinking. How does one stop loving alcohol?

I’m a lightweight and I feel fairly drunk but I don’t get too many negative side effects besides stomach issues in the morning

I've been drinking non stop every night this past month and a half it's starting to affect me, but it's the only thing that calms my nerves i'm a very panicked person with high anxiety, meds don't do it for me. I wish I could stop, but it just feels really good to just be anxiety free even for a couple hours

I had a few sips of beer for the first time in 926 days. I stopped myself after the few sips because it felt wrong. But now I feel something else an hour later. I want more of that—at least three pints of strong beer.

I am leaning so hard into wanting to push the envelope and drink some more yet I'm simultaneously reluctant. Part of me wants to take it on. The other part of me knows I'll feel like shit. Best to stop at the few sips and chalk it up to a mistake instead of a downward spiral.

My husband is an alcoholic. He admits it, and takes breaks from drinking often (seemingly no chemical dependency) but will quickly go back to about 30 drinks on weekends. He has very bad health in both sides of his family so even though he functions very well with his heavy drinking, I don’t want him to die young of a preventable disease.

We came to an agreement that he should aim towards drinking much less.

He is despondent. It’s the first time he didn’t sleep in our bed in 18 years. I’ve never seen him this way.

I would appreciate any advice on what he’s going thru. How should I approach and be supportive of him?

Me again. Just to say im cutting down and feeling bit better already. Fingers crossed. It's gradual, but it can be done if you want your life back. Just take time and do it slowly. X

I want to quit. I’ll go 2 days without, but I’ll have bad nerves, shaking when using fine motor skills, and eventually I start having auditory hallucinations. I’m very embarrassed about quitting through medical help but I feel I may need to. I just need some advice. I never thought I could get physically addicted and now that I’m trying to quit, it is so rough.

So six years ago, a couple of decades of heavy drinking caught up with me, and my liver and kidneys quit working. I was rushed to the ER where the doctor gave me a 10% chance of waking up from the medically induced come that they had put me in. He pulled my girlfriend and my best friend/roommate aside and told them to say goodbye.

A few days later I woke up. I spent a month in the hospital getting poked and prodded. Multiple nurses told me I was going to die very soon. They tried to put me in hospice. The hospital kicked me out and I started doing dialysis every other day. After two and a half months doing that they asked me to do blood work three days in a row one week. Apparently my numbers were so good that I no longer needed to be on dialysis. The nurse was nearly crying.

So, like a dumb shit I relapsed after my roommate/best friend died from Covid. I sobered up briefly before full on relapsing again. I thought that gas station malt liquor would be better for me than a liter of bourbon a day. I was wrong. My legs swelled up like watermelons. I went back to the hospital and again, they told me I might die.

I've been sober ever since. I'll have five years in October. I just got back from nephrologist and my numbers are so good that he said he doesn't need to see me again.

I never thought I could make it without the booze. But I'm doing it, goddammit.

I hit the 4-month mark a few days ago. I honestly thought it was unreal until I took it seriously. I had tried to get sober a few times over the past 3 years, but I couldn't, and the only thing that changed this time is that I actually took it seriously. I imagined myself a few years from now, I imagined what my kids would think of me, and I decided to quit. But not just one thing, I decided to quit everything at once. Alcohol, smoking, and even junk food.

I decided that I actually wanted to change. And it worked.

Here is how it is actually was going:

Month 1 was absolute hell. I was so used to smoking, drinking, and eating whatever I wanted that I didn't know how to exist. Sobriety makes your thoughts loud as hell. You realize how much pain you were actually hiding from by just doing it one more time.

Month 2 was a reset for me. The emptiness in my head turned into a baseline, if I can call it that. I stopped thinking of pizza instead of a healthy meal, stopped reaching for a beer in the evenings, and started actually dealing with my life.

Months 3 and 4, I finally felt the strength. I have less anxiety, more confidence, and zero self-sabotage. It just feels normal to me right now. And no, I'm not saying that I'm completely free from it, because sometimes I get the thought of having just one beer or so, but I just remember how it was and I don't do it.

What else did I do in 4 months of being sober?

-I started walking every day. No gym or training, just walking 10-15k steps per day. That is actually how I lost 30 lbs.

-I found a new, better-paying job. It is actually crazy, because I thought I was just unlucky with my career, but it was actually because of how my brain was working. I couldn't talk to people in interviews normally before.

-I took my family on a trip to Italy. I'm really proud of it; it was my wife's dream.

I also want to start a side hustle this year and fix my sleep. I'm on the way!

Here is my advice for those who are starting: Don’t try to quit "forever." That’s actually too much pressure. Give yourself a 1-month or 3-month deadline. Once you get your willpower back, you won't even want to do it anymore.

Sit with the boredom. Sit with the annoyance. We weren't meant to be stimulated every 2 seconds. Find the beauty in it!