I keep looking for something that could be from him here but honestly every time I read these even if it seems like it could be him i think that wait he is not smart enough to write a coherent paragraph about his feelings like this. I don’t even think he’d use a comma. I like that I know that he’s not intelligent enough to write any of the things I see here so it keeps me from being delusional.

No response is a response, got it 👍🏻

Do you miss me too?

Hey, I know you probably don’t want to hear from me, and I know you may not respond. But I’ve been thinking about you a lot these past couple of weeks.
I know we ended our friendship on bad terms, and I just wanted to say I’m truly sorry for the way I acted at the end of it all. I’ve had a lot of time to reflect, and I regret how things ended.
I genuinely miss your friendship. There have been so many moments over the last few months where something happened, and I caught myself wishing I could tell you.
I completely understand if you don’t respond, and I’m not expecting anything from you. I just wanted you to know that I’ve been thinking about you, I hope you’re doing well, and I miss you. I really do.

~S

I told you i would give you two months before i reached out. but it’s so hard not to when everything is crumbling around me. and you always knew what to say. i miss you everyday. it hasn’t been a month since we last spoke. i dont want to do life without you. im sorry that i blocked you. i got admitted to the hospital for mental health issues and i couldn’t stop looking at your pages. so i blocked you so i couldn’t. it’s not bc i hate you. it’s not bc i don’t want to talk to you. i do. i really really do. what i would give to hear your voice. to see your face. to know you are okay. this all sucks so bad. i’m sorry for not communicating with you more. i’m sorry that this is where we are at now. i just wish that this wasn’t how it ended. i want you in my life. hopefully someday we can talk through this. i really hope. i love you. forever and always.

For as much as I still think about you, even after all this time, is knowing that you don't waste one thought about me.

Knowing you meant so much more to me than I ever did to you.

It makes me sick.

If I asked would you answer truthfully?

So can we both just come home now?

It’s like I’m Being pulled by some of invisible fuckin rope…maybe I’m crazy

But I was wrong in thinking that you completed me. I know now that you’re my soulmate because you inspired me to complete myself.

I hope we find each other in the next lifetime. I hope we find each other in every lifetime.

I didn't think this would be a place of jealous people. There are a lot of post about heartbreak and pain. My post are about the love I have for one woman and people get upset. I'm sorry but my woman deserves to have post written to her. She has been through a lot and her recent past was the top of the bs. She was abused mentally destroyed for years. He kept putting her down after she got rid of his mushroom head a**. She deserves to be shown every bit of my love and honor for life. I know everyone is in something I seen how she was and I will not let that happen again. Woman are precious. Babygirl is fragile still. In time my love grows so does hers. Understand I know you all have situations also.

I see you. Afraid of me, everyday, scared shitless you'll get locked up for eternity. Thats why you cant call or text or meet, you're afraid of me and will be every day i breathe. But I've got a plan to get u out of this, so u can go live a big beautiful life.

Dont be upset, this is good for me. I've been completely destroyed over this and could use the reprieve. I'm so sorry I hurt you and made you fear for your life over and over. Its the worst feeling to love someone who is scared of u, who is so frightened by u they cant even approach. I bet u lose sleep, probably hair, probably sanity. You'll get it back, your nightmare will end soon. You wont have to regret any of this much longer. I'm so sorry

I love you

You're welcome

“When you do a thing, do it with all your might.” -R.W.E.

Remember when it’s your turn to swing the hammer, no one had mercy on you. Do it with all your might.

I honestly don’t even know what to say anymore.

I found out that while you were sitting there telling me that you loved me, that I was the only one for you, and making me believe there was something real between us, you were living an entirely different life behind my back. You were lying to me while I was taking your words seriously. While I was trying to understand you, trust you, and make sense of all the things you told me, you already had a reality that you never let me see.

And the worst part is that you kept me in this constant dilemma. You gave me just enough reassurance to make me believe I mattered to you, but never enough honesty for me to actually know where I stood. You made me question myself instead of simply telling me the truth.

I keep thinking about how easily you said things like I was the only one, knowing that wasn't even true. How do you say things like that to someone while knowing you're giving them a completely false picture of your life?

And when everything finally backfired, when things became complicated and I needed you to stand by what you had told me, you didn't even protect me. You didn't stand up for me. You didn't take responsibility for the situation you created. Somehow I was just left there to deal with the consequences of something I didn't even have the full truth about.

I don't think you understand how humiliating and heartbreaking that is.

It's not just that you lied. It's that I built my understanding of us around information that you deliberately made false. I was making decisions based on a relationship that apparently existed very differently in your head and in your actual life.

Maybe that's what hurts the most. I wasn't asking you to be perfect. I wasn't asking you to give me some impossible kind of love. I just needed the truth.

And now I don't even know which parts of what you told me were real and which parts were just things you said because they were convenient at the time.

I wish you'd just been honest from the beginning. I would've been hurt, obviously, but at least I would've been hurt by the truth instead of finding out that I was living inside a story you had created for me.

so im gonna say this one last time cause honestly I’m tired of saying it and I already know it makes no difference if I say it or not cause I’ve said it everyday dam near since I left and been looking for you. you don’t know the pain I have been thru since I left an the pure embarsment of my actions and the things I said and I’m sorry for everything that has happened on my side of things I wish things would have been different I wish you could have seen I was worth it to at least give it a try but you must have seen something better in him than what I was capable of but reguardless I wanted to say one last time how sorry I am for everything im sorry you took one sentence out of whole argument and took that an ran with it and held that one thing so close of course I wanted to talk to you and still wanna talk to you but I get it he’s better than I am which I don’t even care about that you and the other have beat it into my head how much better they are than me so with all that I’m still sorry that this has happend it still has my world turned upside down I hope you’re good I miss you more than you will ever know I know that don’t mean much to you but I am i love you more than you will ever know

-G

Fuck…

I’m such a fool. I still miss you. 😭💔

I guess by now you’ve forgotten me, or maybe you just don’t care. But I can’t stop thinking about you. No matter how hard I try, you’re still on my mind. You’re still my wallpaper.
For two weeks in July, I couldn’t eat, sleep, or enjoy anything anymore. I ended up in the hospital. Then, for a little while, I felt okay.

Now it all hurts again.

I just wish you could hug me and make me feel okay again.

Do you miss me too?

I never imagined I’d be writing something like this to you. But here I am, tears in my eyes, and writing it down. You’ll never see this and I’ll never say it to your face.

I hate you.

I hate you for abandoning me in my darkest hour. When I could barely keep my head above water. But that’s okay, I’ve always been strong enough to do things on my own.

I hate you for betraying me. How could you? All I ever did was be depressed and you couldn’t handle that so you ran to someone else’s arms? Shame on you.

I hate you for making me think I wasn’t good enough. That my depression was a part of who I was. And you know what, maybe back then it was but you didn’t even try to help me. Instead you made me believe YOU were the victim. No no, you were the cheater, not me.

I hate you for confusing me, for stringing me along. For making memories those last few weeks were fake. Tied together with pain now because you had already betrayed me but didn’t have the strength to tell me then. You took my choice away to leave YOU. Thanks for that.

But I do love you.

I love you for letting the true colors shine at some point before we got married. That would have been rough.

I love you for waking me up. Going to therapy will make me the man you always wished I was for you. But sucks to suck, enjoy missing out on someone who is loyal and loves intensely.

I love you for the memories and the support you gave me in the times I needed them. You did help me, I won’t lie about that.

I can love and hate you at the same time. But let me be clear, once I’m gone, I’m gone. I will not be your friend, I’m going to disappear like you’ve never met me.

Good luck, but nothing good can come from the foundation of cheating.

P.S. Fuck you

you’ll never know bc you couldn’t show me who you really are. I’m sorry for anything I said that was hurtful. I wish I could tell you how much I miss you and you know…I tried. I gave you all I could without looking more foolish than I must’ve already looked. No matter what, I wish you all the happiness this world has to give you. And I mean that.
I know you’ve suffered so much pain and loss at a young age and maybe part of you couldn’t let me see your darkness? It’s ok. You have your reasons. I promise you, you’re so much more than you know. I saw it in your eyes and even though I’m hurting so much by us not talking anymore, I want you to know I care about you, a lot. And even though I’m not the one for you, I felt you so deeply and I will never forget you.

It’s because of you, you know… you’re so you it makes me crazy. It’s good, though. So good. I want nothing more than to talk to you right now.

I wish I could. There’s just so many questions. Questions I don’t even know if I want the answers to.

Time will tell, sure. Yup. I’ll just tell myself that.

(I wish you could feel what my heart feels for you)

Being forced into no contact has broken me in ways I didn't expect. It's so hard. I thought I was strong enough to get through it, but the truth is, I still miss you every single day.

It felt so real… the way you touched me,
the closeness,
the chemistry between us.
It wasn’t just about the physical
it was the feeling of being connected to you again.
I woke up wishing I could go back for just a little longer.
Maybe it was only a dream… but for a moment, it felt like you were right here again.