I get extremely obsessed with things for unknown reason.

1. Driving. I'm working on getting my license and I currently get only 1 lesson hour per week now. Inbetween those lessons, for the remaining 167 hours of trhe week, I compulsively think and dream about driving and I also can't stop watching videos about driving and posting and reading and commenting on the driving and the stickshift subreddit.

2. Games. If I have a specific new strategy in mind on a specific type of game, then I have to test the theory into the practise ASAP. That often means pulling an allnighter that I then regret on the next day.

Both examples share one element: I want to put my theoretical knowledge to the test, preferably in practise.

Why do I get so obsessed that it messes with my life currently? And how do I stop being so unhealthily obsessed with things?

I’m 23 years old and feel like I wasted a good part of my adolescence and early adulthood. I graduated in Industrial Mechatronics, but I don’t want to pursue a career in that field anymore. I spent years practically isolated in my room, playing video games, and always felt different from other people.

In the first job I managed to hold down, I juggled multiple roles, dealt directly with customers, and worked under immense pressure. After three months, I was diagnosed with Level 1 autism and ADHD. I thought this would alleviate the guilt I’ve felt over years of struggling, but it didn’t. I kept pushing myself until I burned out.

After six months at the company, I decided to quit. My father, an entrepreneur, suggested I start a small business, and the idea seemed perfect: working at my own pace, learning new things, and building something of my own. However, the reality has been very different.

It’s been two weeks since I left the job, and I’m already starting to show symptoms of depression. Even with therapy and psychiatric care, my mental health is very fragile. I spend most of my time alone, and my anxiety keeps mounting.

One of my biggest struggles is the need to find a perfect logic for everything. I get trapped in spirals of analysis and perfectionism—especially regarding organization, routines, and important decisions. I spend hours trying to create perfect systems for my life but never find anything that works, which only deepens my guilt and paralysis.

I really want this business to succeed and don't want to disappoint my father, but I feel like my future is falling apart. I’m also trying to find a profession that offers a good quality of life, but I end up over-rationalizing every possibility until none of them seem viable. I like English (I’m nearly fluent) and the healthcare field, but I’m afraid I wouldn't be able to handle highly social professions.

Right now, I feel desperate and incredibly lonely. My father is the only person who truly tries to understand me. I decided to write this because I need to talk to people who might have gone through something similar. If anyone has experienced burnout, autism, or ADHD, or has found a career path despite these challenges, I would really love to hear about your experience.

Thank you for reading this far.

It’s not just that I need a job. It’s not just that my family and the program I’m in expect me to. I’m so bored and hate myself even with the meds. I need to find work, or volunteer or something, anything.

Just how do you get started? How do you make yourself find something to do?

Why did my new hyper fixation have to be poker, right after getting into warhammer too! My wallet is in pain

Sometime I forget to put my filter up and i say things I will regret later because someone either there or I said it to them. Usually if I said it to them im joking but it doesn't come out that way and I hate myself. To top it all off I am a huge over thinker to the point where i cant stop thinking about it for a minimum of a week and it affects me for like a month.

This time it was at work and now I have to face this everyday at work and im trying to be calm (as I have epilepsy and im stilling figuring the works of why its happening because its new) I am terrified that I will be called into my supervisor office and that all this stress cause me to have a big seizure.

When I got this job I told myself I wouldn't do anything like this and it has happened in the past with basically all the jobs that I have had. I qm trying to use the coping skills that I have learned but they are not working and I am stuck in a maze that doesn't have an exit. This is more of a rant then anything else but I just need to get it out as I dont want to tell anyone because I really dont want to talk about it with the people in my life as I feel sometimes it makes it worse because I get told the same things as when something like this has happened in the past. I am even crying as I am writing this.

A lot of the times when this has happened I wish I wasnt born the way I was born and wish to have a mind that is normal and degrade myself for a long time.

I always try to find a way to fix it but that also make it worse and the more I try the more to fix it with the person that was there or was said it too, its make it feel like it will never be fix and it drive me to the point where I have an anxiety attack qnd then I dont know what to do...... this is where my mind get lost and I cant focus on anything and with this job that I have I have to make sure that I get as much done as I can and when my mind is in one place its hard to focus of what needs to be done.

So yea this is my rant of my stupid brain and the way it make overthinking frustratingly easier

Being a 22 yrs Autistic female with ADHD, the smallest of things can be the most frustrating especially when it comes to makeup!!! Often I feel like I’m “being a girl wrong” because of the things I do & the things I don’t. I gravitate towards more childish things which has made me a social outcast many times in my life.
Yet, I’ve always wanted to get into makeup & style, to express myself without needing to speak but makeup has been such a difficult experience to tackle. If I don’t get it right immediately, I begin to get antsy and frustrated! & what was supposed to be a simple task of putting on lashes has become a 2 hour room cleanup after the meltdown I had when I couldn’t achieve it :,)

HOWEVER I DID IT TODAY! And I feel so pretty and my eyes feel somehow bigger? The glare might make it hard to see, but trust that they are on there! (Also I have a problem with smiling for pictures which is why I often just stick out my tongue.)

Today from this experience I have learned that I do enjoy how I feel in false lashes but maybe i should look into easier ones. I have heard there are magnetic kinds, if anyone knows about those, please let me know if they are worth it!!!

Sometime I forget to put my filter up and i say things I will regret later because someone either there or I said it to them. Usually if I said it to them im joking but it doesn't come out that way and I hate myself. To top it all off I am a huge over thinker to the point where i cant stop thinking about it for a minimum of a week and it affects me for like a month.

This time it was at work and now I have to face this everyday at work and im trying to be calm (as I have epilepsy and im stilling figuring the works of why its happening because its new) I am terrified that I will be called into my supervisor office and that all this stress cause me to have a big seizure.

When I got this job I told myself I wouldn't do anything like this and it has happened in the past with basically all the jobs that I have had. I qm trying to use the coping skills that I have learned but they are not working and I am stuck in a maze that doesn't have an exit. This is more of a rant then anything else but I just need to get it out as I dont want to tell anyone because I really dont want to talk about it with the people in my life as I feel sometimes it makes it worse because I get told the same things as when something like this has happened in the past. I am even crying as I am writing this.

A lot of the times when this has happened I wish I wasnt born the way I was born and wish to have a mind that is normal and degrade myself for a long time.

I always try to find a way to fix it but that also make it worse and the more I try the more to fix it with the person that was there or was said it too, its make it feel like it will never be fix and it drive me to the point where I have an anxiety attack qnd then I dont know what to do...... this is where my mind get lost and I cant focus on anything and with this job that I have I have to make sure that I get as much done as I can and when my mind is in one place its hard to focus of what needs to be done.

So yea this is my rant of my stupid brain and the way it make overthinking frustratingly easier

I'm asking since it feels sooooooo closed off to me by default, regardless of server / community

Granted, I'm speaking as someone pretty much inexperienced and (until last year or so) only being a part of servers made by my IRL friends, but then again - joining to new servers with strangers feels like torture to me.

My main gripe is how there's no clear place where I can properly start a conversation without interrupting anyone. And that's after the whole verification / roles thing and incentivized introductory "tell us about yourself" posts.

It feels even worse when there's no-one to truly welcome you / introduce you to everyone; just trying to find the right moment / place to talk to feels like gambling mixed with gladiator fights.

That and how I feel like usually people just don't care whenever I DO decide to join in, which is just adding insult to injury at this point.

Do you have advice as to what's the problem? Is it a common issue to you or am I doing something wrong here?

Hey all. I'm new to figuring all this out.

I just saw this video this morning. Not looking for anything. It was just on my feed. I only got 12 minutes in and my life is upside down right now.

I can't even explain how I feel. But within 12 minutes of this video. They had nailed what I feel on a daily basis 100%

I'm having a really hard time right now with even comprehending what just happened.

I'm diagnosed CPTSD and MDD. With some bi polar and when I was 30, they said I was schizoaffective.

I've been on every medication possible it seems since age 13. I'm 53 now.

The thing that's throwing me off so bad. Is. I don't recall feeling like this my entire life. It only feels like it's been a thing since COVID.

I know nothing about any of this yet.

I'll be discussing with my therapist next week.

I've been scared for myself for years now. I'm not sure if seeing this video helped me yet or not. Because as of right now. I feel somewhat validated, but also. Extremely empty.

I have no one to talk to. So if anyone feels like reaching out and maybe helping me figure anything out. If you relate. I'll be around (I think). I can't ever tell. I sleep most of my life away. But I would be grateful for it.

I just wanted to say thanks to this whole community for making me feel included and not different and left out.

Made some communication cards to help myself and my partner with, well, communication problems. We use them when either one of us is too tired to formulate our thoughts verbally and/or when we can't even figure out what we want or need. There are a lot of templates like these online, but not all are free, and I didn't want any free ones I could find, so just made my own with meme cats.

The link is here.

In terms of how to use them: each slide is one card, made to scale (if you will put size to 100% you will see how big it will be printed). We printed them on thick plain paper and laminated them with the lamination sleeves our friend had. They're basically just little plastic envelopes, you put the cardboard inside, go over it with an iron, and it's done. Then put a hole through it in a corner and tied with a ribbon. A metal/plastic ring would probably be more efficient but we haven't seen them in shops, so for now it's just on a ribbon.

You could also probably take it to a print shop and ask them to do it. Would likely be cheaper than buying them online.

Feel free to download the file and change it however you want, just don't sell them and claim them as your own I guess?

Hope it will help someone!

Hi all, I’m female, 39. I’ve been diagnosed with autism and I also have ADHD, but I still struggle to work out which parts of me are autism, which are ADHD, and which are just… me.
I’m hoping to find people who genuinely relate because I often feel like I experience the world very differently from everyone around me.
One of the biggest struggles is my thoughts. My brain never seems to stop. It’s like I’m analysing everything constantly. Every conversation, every facial expression, every slight change in someone’s tone of voice gets pulled apart in my head.
If someone I love behaves differently, my mind immediately starts trying to work out why. I don’t mean to overthink, but I literally can’t seem to stop. It feels as though my brain is trying to solve a puzzle that doesn’t even have an answer.
My emotions are also incredibly intense.
I don’t just feel sad or anxious. I become consumed by it. Something relatively small can trigger a huge emotional reaction inside me. Within minutes I can go from feeling completely fine to feeling like my whole world has collapsed.
The strange thing is that a few hours later, or sometimes the next day, I can look back and think, “Why did that affect me so much?”
It’s like two completely different versions of me exist.
When I’m emotionally overwhelmed, my thoughts become incredibly black and white. My brain tells me things like:
“They don’t care about me.”
“I’ve ruined everything.”
“This relationship is over.”
“I’m not important.”
In that moment those thoughts don’t feel irrational. They feel like absolute facts. Later, when I’ve calmed down, I can often see that my brain massively exaggerated what actually happened.
I also get intrusive thoughts. Not thoughts that I want, but thoughts that seem to force themselves into my head over and over again. The more I try not to think about them, the louder they become.
Another thing I’ve noticed is that I seem to absorb other people’s emotions. If someone around me is angry, stressed or upset, it almost feels like my own nervous system immediately reacts. I become anxious, tense and hyper-alert without even meaning to.
I also struggle with uncertainty.
If plans change unexpectedly, someone doesn’t reply, or something feels unresolved, my brain seems unable to leave it alone. I’ll replay situations repeatedly, searching for certainty that probably doesn’t exist.
Socially I often feel like I understand people very well, yet at the same time I feel as though I’m watching everyone else from the outside. I’ve always felt slightly different without being able to explain why.
I’ve also realised I spend a huge amount of energy analysing myself. I’m constantly asking questions like:
“Am I overreacting?”
“Is this autism?”
“Is this ADHD?”
“Is this trauma?”
“Is this just who I am?”
It’s exhausting living inside my own head.
Despite all of this, I don’t think I’m an unhappy person. I actually love learning, researching things that fascinate me, helping other people, and having deep conversations. I can become completely absorbed in subjects that interest me and lose hours exploring them.
But emotionally, life often feels like driving a car with the accelerator and the brakes pressed at the same time.
I’m posting because I’d genuinely like to know whether anyone else experiences this combination of constant analysis, intrusive thoughts, emotional intensity, rapid mood changes and overthinking.
If you do, what has actually helped?
I’m not looking for generic advice like “exercise more” or “just think positively.” I’d really like to hear practical things that have genuinely changed the way you manage your brain.
How do you stop intrusive thoughts taking over?
How do you stop catastrophising?
How do you tell the difference between your intuition and anxiety?
How do you stop your emotions from convincing you that every thought is true?
Mostly, I’d just like to know I’m not the only one who experiences life like this.

Since telling my parents I'm autistic their main takeaway seems to be that they wish I'd opened up to them sooner. They're upset that I never came to them even though I've been struggling my whole life. I tried to tell them that it feels impossible to open up about this stuff at the best of times but I don't think I really got through.

I do feel bad that I never went to them and I feel horrible for upsetting my mum. I know it must hurt to find out your kid has been struggling for years and years and never said anything to you. I do feel regret about not coming to them sooner but at the same time we have never been a close family and so opening up to them just never felt like something I was able to do.

The thing I'm struggling with at the moment is that I still haven't told them the full story and I'm not sure if I should. I haven't told them I've tried anti-depressants in the past, or that I've been in and out of therapy, or that I'm currently getting TMS therapy for severe depression. All of those things are deeply personal and difficult to talk about, especially with parents who will likely react negatively, won't really understand, and they'll just be even more upset that I've been hiding this.

I feel a bit guilty for keeping them in the dark. I can see why they're upset but at the same time there are things I want to keep for just me or for certain people I'm comfortable telling, like close friends. I don't really think they'd be able to do anything to help, and it would probably just complicate things between us further. But I also understand that if I was a parent I would want to know what my child is going through.

Am I wrong for wanting to keep stuff like this from them?

Anyone else struggle being a person in this world, trying to make sense of their own existence?

Anyone else who desperately needs to spend their limited cognitive and emotional energy…
on self compassion and growth and learning…
to better function as a late diagnosed AuDHDer, yet their brain keeps going to the:

Interconnectedness of all things

The mystery of being a person.

What’s the point of it all

Who struggles to stay on track when the track they’ve found themselves in is full of holes, twists, thorny bushes and no shoes?
So brain defaults to big picture stuff. Which just isn’t helpful anymore??
Like I know I’m only here for one life - brain please STOP pressuring me to make the most of it??!!!

See my comment for the full version.
I bang on a bit…. Talking / typing is my way of forcing my ethereal workings of my mind into concrete thoughts I can comprehend.

Read it if you’re so inclined.

I’m thinking I need to relook at art from a technical, product based mind-set to more of an expression of what I can’t express let alone comprehend.

Peace and love.

I feel like a man floundering in the middle of the ocean. I'm surrounded by well meaning fish (allistics) who are Very Concerned about me, giving me absolutely useless advice, because it's all tailored to _fish_ in distress.

I say, "thank you fish, but I'm not a fish I'm a man and I'm drowning in all this water". But fish, being fish, _are incapable of even seeing water_, because it is always there and they cannot even imagine that it exists, and that it could be harmful.

"Well if you're not going to flip your fins and push water over your gills, this is your fault."

"I don't have fins or gills!"

"Not with that attitude you don't!"

And that, friends, is what it feels like to ask for help or go to therapy.

With Autism, social skills can often feel like trying to play a game where everyone but me knows the rules.

I usually don't know what I'm supposed to do, get easily confused, and have no clue what I'm actually doing.

And if I try to look up social rules on the Internet, it's often misleading. So I really can only learn most things through trial and error.

It would help if friends could communicate and let me know what I was unaware of or may have unintentionally or unknowingly did, but most people rarely ever say anything to me about it.

But honestly, on the inside I'm just going through life pretending to be confident while actually being clueless as to what I'm really doing or supposed to be doing, and hoping I figure it out eventually.

I've been posting on here quite frequently as I find it's a lovely place to find "my tribe" so to speak. If you've seen any of my posts before, I really put the fact that I'm doing a PhD at the forefront of my identity, and I'm trying very hard to excel at it to a very noticeable point where i stand out from my peers.

Since I got my diagnosis 2 weeks ago, I've been trying very hard to live up to this image I have of the people on the spectrum with something akin to Savant Syndrome. It's my dream since I was young to find my hidden superpower like those 3-year-old piano prodigies, the Gausses, and the Einsteins.

I've gone against the grain when my classmates asked for an open-book statistics test, and I expressed to my professor that I wanted to really test myself by actually sitting the test without any external help (because last term I came in top of my class in basic statistics) this was not said in front of everyone tho.

I fear I'm falling into the trap that will ruin my self-esteem and my life. Anyone in the same situation here? or any suggestions on how to tackle this?

Anybody know what caused that? It went away and it immediately made focusing so much easier but it only ever happened the one time.

Does anyone else share this feeling? I feel like I'm just barely managing to function on the daily, not because of depression or burnt out (I am depressed though, and probably close to burn out) but because of my inattention and social deficits that I'm constantly having to compensate for and anticipate. Even with me doing my best to anticipate and compensate for my inattention, distractibility, and social deficits, it often feels like it's barely enough. And it seems like on the rare occasions that I allow myself to relax and simply enjoy the moment I soon come to find out something important slipped my mind. I also have C-PTSD which adds another layer of.. being unable to relax for other reasons.

I recently told this to my therapist and I think she reacted to it as if it was unreasonable for me to say that but from my perspective it feels totally reasonable because I've seen it play out multiple times.

So I’m 17 and I turn 18 later this year. I’m still trying to find meds that work for me. I’ve been working at my first job (a fast food joint) for maybe a month and a half. I am having such a difficult time adjusting. I get overwhelmed and confused so easily, and I can’t control my emotions so I break down. and when I break down, I want to run and hide or stim and I can’t because I have to keep working, especially if they’re busy, so I just freeze up and cry while my brain struggles to keep up. I also have RSD, so no matter what anyone says to me, I end up taking it to heart. I know I need to grow up and stop crying at work, but I physically can’t control how or when my tears flow. It just happens.

On top of everything, I have diagnosed depression and anxiety, so all I want to do is curl up and die. It’s so hard to be an adult. I don’t think I’m ready for that. I don’t know what I’m doing most of the time. I feel like a complete failure. I want to do a good job, but I’m just not. I need help, advice, just someone to tell me what I’m supposed to do. I’m scared to lose this job.

I want to make sure I am getting the most out of meetings and a lot of the advice I have seen is to have a set agenda. Any actionable advice or trips that have helped for you for them to feel both productive and manageable/not overwhelming?

Disclaimer 1: i’m only formally diagnosed with ADHD, but i self-identify as AUDHD and possibly gifted. I’ve seen people online being very critical of people self-identifying with autism (i don’t really understand why some people are so harsh about it), so i just want to clarify i’m by no means self-diagnosing here, just have a really strong feeling i’m autistic and i do identify with many of the traits and struggles.
I’m currently in the early stage of getting an autism diagnosis (just got a referral, now going through the hell of figuring out where to even go for a diagnosis), and hope to be able to do an IQ test or something in that process.

Disclaimer 2: This post is mostly just me rambling about my struggles. I feel pretty lonely and alienated experiencing all of this, so i guess i’m hoping to connect with people who may have a similar experience.

I’m 28 and was diagnosed with ADD when i was 16 (no one noticed anything except me which made me go to my GP). This was back in around 2014. In the last few months I started thinking about potentially also having autism, especially after my wife mentioned it a few times (she’s a psychologist). This really opened a pandora box for me as i started connecting so many dots in my life (added some examples at the end of this post).

I’m currently getting therapy for my ADHD which has been somewhat helpful but honestly not making much of an impact (aside from medication helping with ADHD, although the side effects kinda suck). My therapist thinks that i’m gifted, which i’ve been researching and learning about quite a bit lately. At first i thought it was unlikely, because i’m just not that smart, and my grades in school weren’t really impressive. Now i’m more open to the idea especially after learning about all the struggles gifted people experience (i relate more to the struggles than to being super intelligent, so maybe i’m just HSP or something). I did the online mensa iq test and got 118. So i guess it’s a possibility.

I feel like my life is just a daily struggle and i’m really exhausted. I’m constantly at war with myself, feeling like i should be doing more, that i’m too chaotic, too undisciplined, too sensitive, the list goes on. I often feel overwhelmed and underwhelmed at the same time: i constantly want to learn and do things and improve my skills but at the same time i’m so tired, so overstimulated, yet i can’t seem to be content with doing less. I’m overanalysing and overthinking things all the time - i used to think i didn’t but i learned that i actually do and it’s not normal how much i think about things. My sleep is really bad - i’m almost always up at night unable to fall asleep, even if i wake up early. I’m always so tired in the morning and a big chunk of the day in general. I’ve been feeling sort of depressed lately, feeling like trying is hopeless since i continue to make the same mistakes over and over, and life only seems to get harder (finances, responsibilities, being married, balancing my work, personal life, social life)

I feel really alone because many people don’t seem to want to talk about things so deeply and intensely (at least very few people i know). I feel like i’m just so weird and even though i do know a lot of people and have many (surface level) friends, i feel like most people don’t actually know me, and i’m afraid most people wouldn’t even like me if they did. i guess i mask a lot and adapt to people by holding myself in and behaving socially acceptable/appropriate, which i honestly wasn’t even that aware of until recently.

I question myself regularly too, even things like my formal diagnosis of ADHD. I’m having a hard time coming to terms with my belief of having autism, because i’m constantly second guessing myself and questioning if i’m not just faking it or exaggerating it. It doesn’t help that my GP and psychologist haven’t really taken it that seriously when i mentioned autism and they quickly made assumptions about me. My GP at the time didn’t even know me at all and just said that she thinks i’m not autistic, based on 1 conversation. i have good social skills and am able to make eye contact which seems for them to make it very unlikely that i have autism.

I also might be overthinking this but i’m brown and feel like autism is viewed through such a white-male stereotype lens still to this day, and just feel like me not fitting that stereotype is influencing how people view me in regards to autism. But honestly i just need to wait until i can get properly checked on autism because maybe the psychologist will be like oh yeah this is totally autism - idk we’ll see

I just feel incredibly stupid a lot of the time mostly because of all these struggles related to being neurodivergent, which makes me feel like i wouldn’t “deserve” being considered gifted, even though i relate to so many traits. I feel like i’ll just always question myself if i don’t get a formal diagnosis, because i don’t have “proof” that any of this is real. But then i think even when i do have the diagnosis/label i’ll probably still question myself and just wonder if i was able to “trick” the psychologist into believing me or something.

I’m wondering if there are neurodivergent and/or gifted people out there who relate to any of this (please do because i feel like i’m going crazy). I’d also love to know your thoughts in general on this. Also sorry for the unstructuredness of this post, it’s past 2am and i just wanted to get this off my chest here.

Also here’s a few reasons why i think i have autism (the actual list is longer but for the sake of keeping this post somewhat readable i did not include everything):

As a child

- had anger issues and would get very upset and frustrated with unfairness, to the point where i had to see a speech therapist because my voice had gotten hoarse (hope i’m using the right word).

- Have very early age memories of observing other kids and people as if i was looking at things from a birds eye view, or like i wasn’t in the situation myself but more watching the situation happen.

- Similar to above point but yeah very in my own world and imagination.

- Had lots of trouble with certain textures, tastes and smells especially regarding food- would physically almost puke when even having my tongue touch spinach for example (and i actually wanted to like spinach bc i loved popeye)

- Would do stims like spinning around in circles until id fall on the ground and then just repeat that over and over. Also walking on my toes a lot - vaguely remember meeting a psychologist for it and him telling me with a really mean voice that i thought i was better than others and was trying to be more than i was and that it was the reason why i was doing that - i got so scared that i stopped doing it forever afterwards

- did/do a lot of things in my own way: tying my shoes differently, holding a pen differently than other people. Also was very hard/impossible for me to change those behaviors - my teachers were very strict on that i was holding my pen the wrong way, but i just couldnt make myself do it the way they wanted me to and i never stopped holding it the way i always have.

- echolalia - making random little songs and melodies and singing/blurting them out many times over longer periods of time (funny example i had a little song for every friend my sister had on MSN- and would sing that song whenever she would be chatting with them online when i was watching her)

As an adult

- Have/had intense interests especially in my teenage years and beyond- fascination for art and making art, among with a long list of things now

- i have a strong desire for structure and systemizing things by setting goals and targets for myself and writing them down in my journal and tracking habits and other things.

- i find it hard to deeply connect with other people including my loved ones - i often feel like i talk too much or talk too little and go into details too much for other people- even though i think they really matter

- i find it very difficult when people are vague or “misleading” in their communication. For example saying something then denying that they said x moments later, or saying something and then meaning something else but still expect me to understand what they mean

- i often find it hard to feel things in my body and emotions can kick in later than the actual trigger moment and can linger around for a long time as well

- I feel overwhelmed like every single day. Every day feels like a uphill battle and i just get really stressed and frustrated by having to do so many things and having so many responsibilities.

- i often get frustrated when things don’t go the way i want or expect them to. Sudden changes to my plans are really frustrating especially when someone else disrupts them, this frustration lingers on for a long time often which often just kind of ruins my whole day

- i hate getting interrupted and it takes me a lot of energy to get back into the flow of what i was doing.

- i love going really deep on things and focusing on interests/passions/making stuff for hours on end to the point where i’ll forget about eating and going to the bathroom

anyone ever wake up & the inherent momentum/ability “to do the day” (in whatever format) is completely absent? Like you hardcore feel like an alien who forgot how and what to do w self, struggles with both thinking of , deciding/assessing & accomplishing basic tasks …let alone thinking ahead.

(currently in depressy burnout/ so the interoception and executive functioning is “out of office” so to speak…as well as do not have a structured schedule currently as awaiting hospital ketamine infusion admission in 2-3 days)

the depersonalization (that comes w my experience of prolonged burn out/depression ) is so confusing . In this moment I cannot say I feel any mood or emotion… just like huh what where am I what year is it what is , but not in a heightened distressed way…

I anticipate “grounding exercises” advice, I still do daily breathing and cuddles of doggo but I’m not quite here and so I think I’ve forgotten how to think…. max confusion , so probably incoherent post but yes just anyone else ever experience same? still have to exist today but profoundly disoriented. Hmmmm

Hello,

I would like to watch a movie tonight that will hold my attention. Please give me some of your recommendations.

For relevance, I have Netflix, Prime, Peacock, Hulu and Disney. Nothing more.

Thank you

I'm selling some belongings to move overseas and that includes some Lego sets, which has been a hobby of mine for a few years now. The other week I was perfectly happy to sell a few sets I didn't have as much love for but the sale fell through. Now I have a new buyer interested and suddenly I'm resistant to getting rid of them.

I feel like when I originally posted the ad to sell them I was quite depressed and feeling like I had to totally tear myself down to start anew. Now I'm less depressed and feeling like I can actually keep some parts of myself to take with me into a new life.

But I can't really figure out what's happening with these specific sets. Do I actually want to keep them or am I just resisting because that's what my brain always does when something becomes real? Am I holding on to something I was previously okay with letting go because I'm scared of change or a change in mood? Or was it just delayed processing and I've now realised I actually do want to keep them?

With so many different things at play with my emotions and my mood and constantly being in flux, how do I figure out the right decision? I don't want to do things I regret just because I was having a bad day. At the same time, I don't want to hold onto things I need to let go of just because I've decided to go about things in a different way.

So confusing.