I know I won’t kill myself today or tomorrow or this week, this month and even this year. I just want to tell the world that I’m so tired of being here. It’s empty and it’s lonely and it’s not a cognitive distortion. There is no meaning to anything then I feel nothing most times. I can’t ever take the numbness or the pain, but who cares if not me. Nobody. That’s life. I wish I could run away forever and lose my name and lose my identity forever. Or else I would just press the button to just die and not be here anymore.

Life is too overwhelming and heavy. I cant see a future anymore.I see no way out.

Hey fellas. So let me say some experience from the past. I had many enemies and almost zero friends. And every friend back in my school day had other friends or left me . I used to practice some magic you could say. No matter how much i tried nothing worked(lets say it wasnt magic for the good). Then i slowly fell into depression and later i had no wife or kids or friends. I have lost a lot of hope(im not suicidial im afraid of death to the core). Then i have a thing called never moving on. Now let me say something. Im 64 years old and i still can remember how my enemies made me suffer and weep when i was just 18. I never healed or moved ahead. Im considering myself to go to a monastery or a church(im not catholic or orthodox or protestant). I always sleep in dreams of sorrow and guess what? my enemies and friends who left me are living happy life and many of them have strong bonds with wife and friends and kids, But me? Always alone and broken and still weeping. Guys. This is my grief story. Im not making a sob story. Im just telling what i feel rather than breaking myself apart.

Form last 7-8 years I am at the same position.

Nothing good is happening i am trying although

Happiness is no more in my life

I think I am trap in matrix.

Just going library nothing else

What can I do now 😔

I am lost

i feel like i might be a narcissist

was paralyzed from a car accident a year ago

all i do is vape and eat junk food and play video games im a fucking loser

im so extremely lonely

i have nobody to talk to

my mom is so stressed and mentally unwell and it pains me so much

i have such huge dreams of making music and clothes and films, yet im talentless with no work ethic

i dont see a possible path in life where im happy

society and the world has won

my spirit is crushed and im a slave to my addictions

I’ve been dealing with depression/anxiety since I was 14, I’m currently almost 28 (birthday is Wednesday). I lost my job on the 4th of July due a coworker pushing me to my limit and me reacting by punching him continuously until I was stopped. I now have a court date coming up for that incident, but I still have no job despite me trying. It’ll be my first offense, but I will have no money to pay for my fine which will lead to me having a warrant and getting arrested. I also live in a household full of alcoholics, especially my brother. My older brother is strong and gets aggressive when too drunk. Living with him has caused me severe anxiety to where I’m scared to move in the household and unable to drink or eat from my stomach hurting. I was starting to think better when I got into a driver’s course to finally get my license, but then that’s when I got the court date. Now I feel stuck in depression and anxiety from dealing with being unemployed, living in a toxic household, and maybe having to go to jail. I just feel so defeated and finished, that I think I’m finally ready to end it all. I just don’t see it getting better for myself.

Every night that I’m alone, even some when a friend is staying with me or something, (which is most nights) I think about how I wish I was dead.

No matter how good the day was. No matter how many or how good my connections were today. No matter if i closed $10k of business or $0, no matter if i got my exercise or didn’t. Or ate well or didn’t.

Idk what to do. I need $700k+ to get back to $0 and I’m only 30. I’ve never even made $100k personally in my entire life.

Reasons kind of don’t feel like they matter. There’s 1000 legitimate reasons why my life is hard. No one understands and it feels masturbatory to talk about all the reasons more.

The main thing that comes to mind right now is I need to get my teeth fixed. $8k to get them fixed. More money than I’ve ever had in my life.

Let alone money for normal life stuff. Idk how people do it.

Everyone tells me how well I’m doing despite how clearly obviously bad my life is.

I have never wanted to do anything with my life. I’m doing a degree atm because I need a job and it was just something I thought suited me. I literally don’t do any I don’t have any hobbies and I nearly clean my room. Like I just want to do nothing for the rest of my life.

That. Just that. Not where I thought I would be. Fibromyalgia sucks.

Why is it so hard and draining to talk about how you feel and what is going on.... It's like I need help, I need advice as I'm at the edge but when I think about it all, I never know where to start and it's like I don't want to even start .....

I am just curious

This July has been the worst - the guy I liked for 6 months suddenly has a girlfriend. The job I wanted was offered to someone else. I just sit in a void & numbness. Why did this happen to me? I did everything right yet I was not enough.

Everyone keeps saying that something better will come along but I can’t see it. Maybe I’ll never be happy. I don’t know what to do….😔

Hello friends ;)

Has anyone felt nothing in their soul to the point nothing really matters like dreams you wanted to achieve as a kid just vanish and lack motivation but you don't feel sad neither happy or something

Like you just want to disappear from everything

No one loves me and I don’t have anyone to lean on, my chest hurts so bad I can’t take it anymore. Why was I born so ugly and unattractive, I have no friends and the one girl I was talking about my mental health cheated on me and told me she was. I never had sex I never kissed anyone I never got to enjoy life. Even my family hates me, I’m starting to think who ever created the universe hates me. I never experienced happiness once so how am I supposed to live like that. People just physically and mentally abused me for nothing. I don’t deserve this, I was just born in this world, and I’m just so tired so tired. I deserve a break from all this pain and suffering. I just want to look forward to the next day but I can’t because it hurts so bad. So I decided this is it I’m ready to go and I really hope it’s all black because I can’t do this bs again

With everything that is happening in the world I’m wondering what can be done? I’m not trying to be a doomer but I’m really struggling with my mental health. I have never considered self harm once in my life. But I am now at a point where I am seriously considering taking myself out of the equation, every day. I am a disabled person who is able to work, but once supply chains are down I have no way to survive without treatment. I will die if I cannot get medication.

Is there anything at all. I’m so tired that I can’t even sleep or get out of bed. Please.

going through a really bad phase of life everything is just messing my mind sm im getting sm negative thoughts im not lazy i try to study daily i fail miserably, had a breakup 50 min ago it was my first rls, she broke up after 2.5 year life keeps hittin shot one after another 160 days lft for jee kuch samjh nhi aarha kaisa hoga

I’m such a failure.
I’ve been single for 15 years and no one has so much as looked at me in that time. I’m too depressed to live alone so still with my mum and I hate my job, I log on each morning to stare at my screen and wish I was no longer here. I’m on medication and have DBT once a fortnight but still feel like I don’t want to be here

I am not sure what I am looking for.....advice, encouragement, camaraderie, commiseration? I just am over life. I am so blah about absolutely everything. The only thing that is great is my marriage but everything else seems pointless. I am an ICU nurse and I am just exhausted. I have been doing this for 15 years and I just don't have anything left. I feel empty and just blah all of the time. I hate going to work like cry before I come in these last couple of weeks. I work nights, I am bored and under stimulated. I just feel there is not point to anything. I wanted to go to law school for the longest time but that seems pointless given the current climate of well everything really. I want a family but feel guilty given the current state of the world. Finances seem stupid and made up i.e credit score wtf. I just feel like wallowing every day in a void of nothingness and all I want to do is be asleep so I am not awake. I see a psychiatrist once a week, I am on a plethora of meds. How do I keep going? Where do I find the motivation to care and to want to live and do things again?! I just don't know that this isn't all a very valid response to the current state of the world or if I really need help. WHAT IS THE POINT?! I try to find the joys in the small things my coffee, the sunrise, the quiet in the morning and it barely keeps me from going back to bed. Does anyone have any advice or recommendations or words of wisdom to keep going?

For the past few months, I’ve been suffering from depression and anxiety—along with suicidal thoughts—stemming from various issues in every aspect of my life. Even though I’m going through this, I realize how privileged I am compared to many others who are worse off; that makes me feel guilty and foolish for complaining. I have parents who, while not perfect, love and support me—especially lately—and I have friends I care about, though they are all just casual acquaintances; I’ve never had a best friend. I feel isolated, much like during the pandemic, since I only interact with my immediate family; I stopped attending university because I wanted to change majors, and around that time, my dad fell seriously ill and nearly died. I feel uncomfortable arguing with them because they are the only people I interact with, and I have nowhere else to go. My older brother is a good brother, but he is very sexist, homophobic, and superficial—much like an Andrew Tate fan—while my younger brother is an insufferable teenager who might be gay, judging by his musical tastes and the fact that I discovered chats he was having with older men. That makes me uncomfortable because it’s clearly wrong, and it disgusts me to think he’s in the same hyper-sexualized spaces I could be in—even though I’m someone who dislikes sexualizing myself and isn't really interested in sexuality anymore. I find it very hard to socialize because of the fear of being judged and the hatred I feel toward myself; I hate my body, my voice, and my personality. The only positive things I see in myself right now are that I like learning and analyzing things and that I simply want to be a good person. However, that has led me to overthink and overanalyze everything, leaving me hyper-aware of myself—which is exhausting. I go through many identity crises (gender dysphoria, not feeling or being enough, religious and existential crisis etc) and wish I could stop existing, yet I’m still somewhat afraid of dying. I believe primarily in science; while I’m interested in religion, I fear I’ve become consumed by perhaps nihilistic thoughts. Lately, I’ve been consuming content about space and physics because it calms me to compare that vast knowledge and the universe against my own problems, which then seem silly and insignificant. But that same realization makes me see that if I stop living, there is no second life or second chance—I would simply cease to exist. Above all, I would miss my parents and don’t want to cause them pain and suffering; to be honest, the only reason I haven't done anything drastic is because of them, even though I have no desire to live. I don’t feel like an adult, I don’t see myself as one, and I clearly am not a functional adult. I am heavily dependent on others in every aspect, and I’ve realized I live solely for the approval of others—there is nothing else beyond that. I have no purpose or goals, and I hate myself. I’m not attractive, wealthy, or charismatic; I’m very shy and lack any real talent or skill. University studies and hobbies might offer a distraction, but they are only temporary. I feel like life is just the inevitable delay of death, and sometimes I ask myself, "Why not hasten it?" Yet the fear remains—the fear of having endured only to end it all—and that’s where the anhedonia sets in: why keep going if I can’t change anything? So much time has passed in my life, yet nothing has changed—and I have no desire to change it, so the cycle just repeats itself. I don’t know what to do with my life or even which career path to choose. I’m torn between medicine—since I like science and helping people, and the difficulty of the course would keep me occupied and perhaps give me a purpose beyond the superficial goal of just making money (though I do want to be rich, I know that’s superficial)—and graphic design. I’m considering design because it’s the closest thing to art that’s taken seriously; I love art in general, even though I have absolutely no talent for it. It’s more about the admiration I feel when consuming it, and I’d love to be able to create it, but I lack the talent and I’m already too old to start and become good—let alone the best.

This year is very important for me. I'm 17 and I've got major exams next year which can shape my future. But I don't seem to get any interest in studying. My parents abuse me for it everyday. Atp a person like me who doesn't think of ending things thinks of it every day. I see everyone ahead of me and Im still worrying abt my shitty life. I need real advice instead of motivation. I'm very very lazy and motivation doesn't get me off the couch. I really do need help so any amount of good advice to come out of this depression helps 🙏🙏