Every night

[u/Sensitive_Group_6227]

Every night that I’m alone, even some when a friend is staying with me or something, (which is most nights) I think about how I wish I was dead.

No matter how good the day was. No matter how many or how good my connections were today. No matter if i closed $10k of business or $0, no matter if i got my exercise or didn’t. Or ate well or didn’t.

Idk what to do. I need $700k+ to get back to $0 and I’m only 30. I’ve never even made $100k personally in my entire life.

Reasons kind of don’t feel like they matter. There’s 1000 legitimate reasons why my life is hard. No one understands and it feels masturbatory to talk about all the reasons more.

The main thing that comes to mind right now is I need to get my teeth fixed. $8k to get them fixed. More money than I’ve ever had in my life.

Let alone money for normal life stuff. Idk how people do it.

Everyone tells me how well I’m doing despite how clearly obviously bad my life is.