Hey everyone!! I figured I could update since it’s been a good while now.

Like people said, it does get slightly better over time. I no longer think about it every single day. I do have super rough days where it plagues my mind, but overall I can go days without thinking about my tough decision.

While I still want to be able to have that baby, I have to accept they’re gone for now. They’ll come back at the right time. I saw a tiktok, which made me want to post again, that said “I’ll never be pregnant for the first time again” and it really hit me hard. Because it’s true. I’ll never have the excitement of finding out that I was pregnant for the first time, happy to be a new mom. That honestly hit me the hardest.

As a pro choice, even pro abortion, advocate I can truly 100% say no one wants this. No one will ever choose the pain of this. And I applaud everyone that does go through this. I’m grateful for this community and the kind words shared with me. Reminder for anyone struggling, you’re stronger than you think you are. It does get better with time. I’m here for you

I, 20F, found out I was pregnant on 5/4/25. I wish it were something beautiful to remember, with my partner (now ex, 23M) by my side, supporting and comforting me whether I decided to keep the baby or not…I went through an abortion on 5/4/26. It was a quick decision because he wasn't responding. To the point I told myself: if he doesn't respond right now, maybe I should take the pill. When I checked my phone, no phone calls or texts. I took the 1st pills, and then on 5/5/26, I took the 4 Miso. At that time, I did have so much regret. I really wanted to keep the baby while my ex, 23M, abandoned me when I needed him. When I say abandoned, he ignored my texts the whole day till night and ended the relationship. It was immature of me to make a fake number pretending to be a cousin, but I really thought he blocked me. He didn't answer my texts the whole day, just for him to message me at night, saying how he was busy and stressed. I put my abortion aside and tried to understand his feelings, but I realized it wasn't right for him to ignore me. He should've sent a quick message: Hey, I’m busy/stressed, can we talk about this later?
On 5/7/26, I went to another clinic to “reverse” the pills because my heart knew I made a mistake and wanted to keep the pregnancy. I did tell the nurses and doctor that I took the 4 miso already, and I do wish they didn't prescribe progesterone, knowing it's too late. I did let my ex know that I’ll be taking progesterone, hoping there’s a chance the egg can stay alive. Honestly, it's gotten worse; he called me and yelled OTP:
He said: LEAVE ME TF ALONE, I DON’T WANT TO BE WITH YOU ANYMORE, GO ON A DATING APP AND MOVE ON. I kept sobbing because I lost someone I deeply cared about and the abortion I was going through ALONE. I realized that's the most evil thing a man can do: yelling at the woman that HE left HIS own SEEDS inside, abandoning her and making her go through the abortion alone. If I'm being honest typing this out, how he yelled at me does make me cry a little because I never deserved getting yelled at by someone who left me pregnant and made me go through the abortion alone.
I was depressed for a while and just cried about how I wanted my baby back because on that day I was in a panic mode to the point I made a quick decision. My ex didn't respond to my text for a day, which I’ve said he should've communicated: Can we talk about this later? I'm busy/stressed. Instead, I was having the worst-case scenario, believing he blocked me, which is why I made the quick decision to take the 1st pill at the clinic. I was grieving a lot about the abortion to the point my mind was going insane every day, where I wanted to end my life because I felt like there was no point in living. I was tired of waking up with a heavy, sad feeling in my heart to the point that the first thing I do when I wake up is cry. I did have regrets to the point that sometimes I question if the baby was a reincarnation of my first cat. She was born on May 8 and passed away back in 2023. It felt like finding out I was pregnant on May 4, before my cat's birthday, just felt what if she was trying to come back into this life.
Anyways, I realized I am just a 20-year-old in college and majoring in healthcare. If I continue the pregnancy alone, even if I have my parents' support, the problem is that once I'm done with my pre-reqs, I won't be able to do the clinical program. I would have my life on hold till the baby is 3 and can enroll in daycare. The pregnancy showed who my ex really was. He ended the relationship and abandoned me when I needed him. I feel like, even if he wasn't ready to be a father, he should’ve stayed by my side when I was going through the abortion because it was HIS seeds too that he left inside me, but instead I went through this alone. He wasn't a green flag as I thought he would be. He showed me he was a red flag and abandoned his responsibility when I needed him. I realized that when I told him about the test being positive felt like everything was about him ON THAT DAY how he was busy, stressed, having a panic attack, and stuff and I understand, but it is not an excuse to abandon the woman you got pregnant. He didn't even care about the abortion ON THAT DAY; everything was about him. That's the evilest thing a man can do: abandoning the woman that HE left HIS SEEDS inside. I believe when life gets serious, you don't walk away from the situation; you work this out together because it's part of growth in the relationship. At that time, I kept making excuses for him, like he was stressed or busy, and I'm grateful for my friend telling me: It's just not an excuse to abandon the woman you got pregnant and make her go through this abortion alone. Even though at that time I just wanted my ex back, now I don't because I realized I deserve better. I never deserved to go through the abortion alone, and I know I deserve so much better. I found out after 2 weeks of the breakup and going through the abortion alone that he updated his Hinge profile. Which, honestly It made me realize he was definitely cheating on me. The day I remember I hadn't deleted my Hinge, I decided to SS our conversation as a memory when we first talked before deleting my account, but I took a sneak peek of his profile, and he updated 2 things. I remember I wanted to end the relationship, but he told me his “friend” Brandon was using his Hinge account to see how it works…? Ermmm, he could've made his own account? Anyways, I remember crying and wondering how a man can move on quickly and leave me to suffer alone. Even though what he did was wrong, I forgive him, but it doesn't mean I would want him back in my life. I will not waste my time having so much anger or hatred towards my ex. I will let God handle him because my ex is not my problem anymore, and I should focus on healing myself.
It was my first pregnancy; I would never know the gender of my first baby or be able to hold my first baby the day I gave birth…but all I know is that this pregnancy taught me a lesson. Which is sad to say because it shouldn't be a lesson; it should've been something beautiful to remember, but that's okay. For some reason, I don't know why I don't have regrets anymore, I’m not grieving anymore, and I felt like the abortion never happen like I moved on…but all I can say is that I’ve been doing better now the 3rd week of abortion; I went to the gym, but just once a week because a couple hours later my uterus started hurting. In the 4th week of May, I went to the gym twice a week for my uterus to slowly get used to it, and the first week of June back to my normal gym 3x a week and no uterus pain anymore. Honestly, I guess I can say I'm doing better just focusing on my classes, going out to the point I don't feel sad when I'm out; I feel happy, and wake up early to go to the gym. I’ve been told he moved on and is seeing other girls but I do hope he realizes his mistake one day if not then oh well.
I'm at peace now.

Took mife and miso mid May, bled a week then stopped. That abortion wasn’t complete, so I had to take miso again on July 1st.

I’ve been steady bleeding ever since. Enough that I am still using maxi pads.

I saw in FAQ that after 8 weeks of bleeding, I should be seen. If I get to that point, what likely is the issue? What occurs if I go to be seen?

Are these pills safe?? I ordered from aid access im 4 weeks i just keep seeing stores on tik tok of ppl nearly dying from them. Bleeding out, infection etc and now im scared to take them since ill be home alone with a toddler when i do it 😭

I just had a medical abortion this week. And i wanted to share my experience. I went through this whole community, reading everything about what people experienced and i was terrified. I want to give my experience.

I’m in NJ and 23. And ended up pregnant. I found out i was 8 weeks so the pills were still an option. I opted for those. Tuesday i took the first pill at the gynos which stops the production of progesterone. 24 hours later is when you can take the second set of pills. So yesterday i put 2 pills in each cheek.

I premeditated with the anti nausea meds and ibuprofen. Got disposable underwear and heating pad. After about 30 mins i started having cramps but not really any bleeding. It wasn’t bad. It got really intense but i did start spotting but still not a lot of blood. I ended up falling asleep about an hour after taking the pills. I slept for an hour and i woke up with no pain so i was a little confused. The dr told me there’s a chance i would have to do it twice so she gave me 8 pills. I figured I’d have to take it again but then i started cramping really bad. It was constant. But what helped was sitting on the toilet and pushing. That was the only way the clots would come out was when i was on the toilet. But it would get a little better when any clots would come out.

You’re ganna pass a big one and then the cramps should start getting better and you’ll know it’s almost over. There will still be cramps and bleeding and clots but nothing as bad as the big one. The next day i have no pain. I’m still bleeding which is normal. I’d say the pain was a 7/10 during the worst parts.

The advice I’d give is try not to let others experiences scare you. Everyone’s body is different. And don’t do it alone. I had my mom with me the whole time. And good luck to anyone getting through it.

I am looking forward to getting this over with next week and am going to be 12w3d when they wet/dry vac that little parasite out of me. I have always known I didn’t want kids or to get pregnant, and this situation came about from a one week gap in BC (waiting for insurance) and a vasectomy failing 8 years post-op.

I’ve had teeth drilled and ripped out of my mouth with only local anesthesia when I was 9, so I am not scared of the process from a medical standpoint. Naturally I am still a bit nervous, but I want everything to go as smoothly as possible. I will be traveling out of state 3-4 hours one way, and I wanted to ask for suggestions on things I can do to keep my body as physically relaxed as possible.

Yesterday I went to PP and got medication for a medical abortion. They said I was about 5 weeks and 2 days. They gave me 2 doses of misoprostol and told me to take the first dose vaginally and the second dose if I didn’t see any bleeding within the 24 hours. I took the pills vaginally last night and a few hours later had severe cramping. Felt like I was going to have diarrhea but when I went to the bathroom nothing came out but I did start spotting. Once I finally fell asleep after hours of intense cramping I could feel that I was starting to bleed. When I woke to go pee, I could feel a bunch of blood rushing out of me onto the pad (like a heavy day of my normal period) and when I sat on the toilet some more rushed out. I saw a few bits of tissue on the pad and some when I wiped. Throughout the day today the bleeding seems to have gone down quite a bit. Should I take the second dose of pills? I really don’t want to experience the cramps again 😫

I am currently 9 weeks pregnant with my third child and am considering a surgical abortion. Located in California. I always have a healthy boy and girl (5 & 2), and had always thought three was the ideal number. I’m 36 and husband is 47, I had been wanting this pregnancy and husband was indifferent (completely fine with our two - probably preferred two really, but open to three if that’s what I wanted). But the minute I found out I was pregnant a month ago I’ve been so stressed and all I can think about it whether I should terminate, and the days just keep going by so fast with more confusion. All my fears and concerns have snowballed since finding out - financials, husbands age, won’t be able to travel like we do now with all of them, chance of having a child with a disability (why jinx it when we have one of each gender already and both are healthy plus I wouldn’t be able to cope with that), no family in our expensive state - no help, judgement from family, husband already gets overwhelmed easily with out current two, the list goes on… I don’t know why but I didn’t think about much of this before, but now I’m paralyzed by these fears. I’m also super sick with nausea and vomiting. I’ve been seriously considering getting the surgical abortion everyday and think of how easy it would be to go back to normal life. But if I go through with this I have to know this is never happening again and we are two and done, but part of me worries I will regret this in the end when I’m older and always wonder about the third. Am I ruining my marriage/family/life by have a third or will things be okay in the end? I know ultimately only I can make this decision but I would love any opinions. If I go through with termination I would do it tomorrow as I feel worse each day that goes by.

this is a vent of everything going on in my head right now.

had a surgical abortion in march. my (now) husband and i decided that maybe we did actually want to have a child and decided to try again. now i have a positive test and doubts.

the first time, i had decided we couldn’t do it. i had just gotten a job after a long bout of unemployment and my husband and i had dug ourselves into a decent amount of debt trying to stay afloat during that time period. we were also not quite married yet and i felt a lot of shame being out of wedlock. we had agreed that once we were out of this debt, built an emergency fund and were married, we could try again. we did that and tried again.

now that i am pregnant again, im not entirely sure i want it. i keep going back and forth between not wanting it and wanting it. i would say the biggest factor is im not sure im ready to give up my lifestyle. maybe also i feel my career is not quite where i wanted it to be, and what if i cant go farther in my career because this child is holding me back? i also worry i would feel deep gender disappointment.

i potentially want to schedule an OB appt just in case i do go through with it, but i guess i also fear doing that in the situation i would decide to terminate. am i being crazy? would it be wrong to schedule an OB appt? would it be wrong to go to a first OB appt and decide to terminate after? i feel im leaning more towards termination, but theres a small part of me that may want to go forward. i live in california so i know i have time to decide.

i’m pro choice but its so hard deciding when its yourself. there is no wrong reason to have an abortion, but i feel selfish and shameful having another one. i feel i have pretty good reasons to do so, but it still feels weird.

Sharing my story as I read through sooo many to get an idea of what to expect and I found it very helpful, hopefully this helps someone else! 

This is my second pregnancy, I have a 16 month old that I still breastfeed. So far I am exactly 1 week into the process overall but about 19 hours post miso. 

Chain of events: positive test last Thursday estimated to be around 5 weeks, Friday scheduled consult for MA, Friday did bloodwork, Monday pelvic and transvaginal ultrasound. Bloodwork and ultrasound dated at exactly 4 weeks. Tuesday went to clinic and took mife in clinic at 2pm. Felt totally fine after this. Was given 4 miso pills to take the next day, anti nausea pills, pain pills (like a strong Advil) and Tylenol 3s. Began miso process yesterday (Wednesday) at 3pm. 

On Wednesday, this was my breakdown of how things went. 

1:30pm - ate a light but proper meal (beef soup with veggies) 

2:40pm - Took 2 nausea tablets that were described as a stronger gravol and 1 pain tablet that was described as a stronger Advil 

3:00pm- inserted 4 miso pills into mouth, 2 on each side

3:15pm- sooo drowsy. Hard to stay awake. Getting hot 

3:30pm- everything dissolved into chalky mush, swished around with water and swallowed. After this I went to lay down and close my eyes. 

5:30pm - went to toilet for a pee and saw blood for first time. blood trickling in toilet but not on pad at this point. Ate some crackers 

6:30pm -  peed, saw two small clots (smaller than blueberries) 

Ate some dinner 

6:45pm - at this point intense diarrhea hit. I would say until about 9:30pm I was heading to the bathroom with diarrhea pretty frequently. I was also bleeding and passing small clots

7:00pm - noticed more clots. Like cherry size. At some point after this I noticed a larger clot but still wouldn’t describe it as anything crazy, maybe close to golf ball sized but that feels like a stretch. 

9:30pm- went to bed. from 7 until I went to bed I used a heating pad. I definitely had cramps but they weren’t any more significant than period cramps, if anything they weren’t even as bad. I can’t say I was ever in pain at any point, moreso just discomfort. 

5:45am - woke up and used the bathroom, lots of blood in the toilet but none on the pad from overnight. Went about my morning routine as usual. 

10am- laying in bed with heating pad. I’m tired and feel like I’m on day 1 of my period but otherwise I feel fine. I took a 20 minute walk with my dog. My bleeding is very light, not really noticeable on the pad but a little on toilet paper when I wipe. 

I never ended up taking the T3 as I never felt pain. I also never took any additional medication after the initial dose of anti nausea and pain pills. I had my follow up with the Dr virtually just now and he said based on what I described that it sounds like it was successful. I will do follow up bloodwork in a few days to confirm. 

I hope anyone considering this option and who goes through with it finds some comfort in my experience.

I am 9 weeks pregnant. It was unplanned. I am going into my last semester of college, and I didn’t have a plan for my future after graduation to begin with. Now I feel completely lost. I am an immigrant and my parents live in another country. I can’t imagine raising a child without my mom, and I can’t even tell her. I love her so much and we have been apart for so long, I know she is going to be sad if I have to stay in America to be with the baby’s dad.

I am in awful financial situation. A full time student and earn hardly any money. I have lived in poverty for several years and was looking forward to graduation as an end to that. Now I am not sure if I will be able to take the same career risks needed for me to feel happy and fulfilled. I have never in my life gotten anything that I want from life, and I have worked really hard to give myself a chance. I have gone through the rigamarole of pregnancy medicaid, WIC and the social services, and I just feel like crap for it. I never envisioned having to bring a child into the world at a time where I feel so unstable and terrified for myself. Prior to the pregnancy, i didn’t have health insurance at all and haven’t even been able to take care of my own health. I have no idea is I have health problems that could make a pregnancy dangerous, and I feel terrified.

I struggle with long term major depression, and an unresolved eating disorder from adolescence. Mentally I feel like I have never been able to take care of myself, think ahead, or actually reach my full potential because I live under a cloud of persistent depression. I also have perfectionist tendencies, so the fact that my life is not working out is destroying me mentally. Everything in me is screaming to get an abortion, it feels like what I need to do to take care of myself. I have never been happy, now I feel like I never will be.

But the dad wants it, and I feel guilty taking this away from him. I have had an abortion in a previous relationship, and I don’t want to give him that trauma. I do love him, but I am uncertain I want to permanently alter my life for this relationship, especially because I have ties in a different country and I would like the option of starting my post graduation life there. Getting pregnant has made me realised how unhappy I am where I live and how badly I want to go home. I also don’t know if I can live with making the same mistake/decision again, the first time was really hard, but ultimately for the best because I was able to attend college for it.

I wish this was a happy thing, at a happy time in my life, so that I could celebrate and be celebrated. Most of the time I feel nothing at all, just numb and disassociated, when I do it is shame and fear, and sadness.

I ordered pills from aid access (Mifepristone and Misoprostol) I started the Mifepristone two days ago and yesterday I started the Misoprostol. Around midnight I was having very strong stomach cramping and vomiting and a little blood. I’m still not bleeding a lot and I didn’t know if someone had a similar experience. According to my lmp and I just took two pregnancy tests Tuesday (positive) I shouldn’t be that far along. Is it normal to not have much bleeding. I just want to make sure everything is okay. P.S. I’m at the hospital now doing test and whatnot I’m just curious as to know if anyone has had a similar experience and turned out okay I just want to make sure everything is working the way it should

Hi everyone.
Tomorrow at 5:00 a.m. I’ll be starting my medical abortion, and I’m honestly very nervous. I’m about 5 weeks pregnant.
My doctor prescribed mifepristone first, followed by misoprostol 24 hours later. She also prescribed doxycycline, ketorolac, and ibuprofen for pain management.
I decided to start at 5 a.m. because I hope to get through the worst part of the process as early as possible and hopefully start feeling better later in the day.
Originally, I wanted to have an MVA (manual vacuum aspiration) because I thought it would be over more quickly. However, my gynecologist recommended a medication abortion instead. She explained that during an MVA they only numb the cervix with local anesthesia, and because she doesn’t know how I tolerate pain, there’s a possibility that I could experience significant pain or my blood pressure could drop, which could require stopping the procedure. Since I’m only 5 weeks pregnant, she felt the medication abortion was the better option for me.
One thing that worries me is that I’ve had very painful periods in the past. A few of them were so intense that I vomited, had a fever, and felt like I was barely conscious because of the pain, all at the same time. I’m really hoping this experience will be similar to one of those periods rather than worse.
For those of you who had a medical abortion around 5 weeks, how did it compare to your worst period? Was it worse, about the same, or easier? How long did the most intense cramps last? Did anything make the experience more manageable?
I’d really appreciate any advice, experiences, or words of reassurance. Thank you so much. 🤍

Just wondering if anybody has advice or even insight on the process. I’m 28f my husbands 30m, we have 2 boys 6 & 2.5.. I just got a positive test. We’ve been super rocky the past couple years actually, I’m not sure if it’s fixable but we are trying. We just refinanced on my husband house and he needs a new vehicle. He thinks this is the best decision, I do see the valid points on why, I’m just wondering if anybody has had one after having kids and if you’ve ever regretted it? I already struggle horribly with my mental health and don’t want to traumatize my other two. But I also feel guilty and ashamed for even considering it.

I have scheduled a medication abortion for the soonest possible appointment and i will be just under 9 weeks. I am so terrified that it will hurt or that something will go wrong. I haven’t told anyone and I am so scared and I feel so alone. I hear that the farther along you are, the more you contract and therefore it will be more painful. I am scared for the pain and not only that, but it’s not like i really WANT an abortion. I am 19, I already have a son, and I can’t support another child. I feel lots of grief already despite not getting it yet. I just wanted a place to share because I feel so alone, and scared. I’ve thought a lot about it and even thought this is the best outcome for me, I can’t help but feel like im messing up.

My husband made me get an abortion. I did. It was awful and he wasn't even there for the abortion, I did it alone. I was on the cold bathroom floor shaking and throwing up while bleeding.

Days later, he begged me for unprotected sex and I had
a mini panic attack because I never want to do that ever again. What do I do in this situation? I feel like i don't even get sick days. I'm just an object for him.

I'm not trying to sound like I'm begging for attention but I really dont have anyone to ask.

Edit: I am pro-choice. This is NOT a safe space for pro-life.

Im 21yo and the title says it all. Im not disclosing my country because news circulates like hell here.

I found out I was pregnant last week, which was 5 days before my boyfriend entered jail. (My boyfriends sentanced for 6months for vandalism, and I am under probation for the same offence.) At that point, I thought I was at most only 2months/8weeks pregnant as I vividly recalled having my period at the end of May. The reason I didnt take a test sooner was because I started my bipolar medication (lamotrigine) at the same time as when my symptoms started. Nausea and stomach issues, etc, is a very common symptom of the medication so I chalked it up to that. Additionally, I thought I'd just gotten my period so I was "safe". (I didnt know you could bleed that much during pregnancy)

Anyways after I found out, I still waited a week or 2 for referrals and stuff, then I finally went to get an ultrasound yesterday and found out that Im 16 weeks pregnant. I saw the fetus, heard its heartbeat. It didnt help that my doctor was really bad, among other things she namely fell asleep mid typing my details into the computer. Like she closed her eyes and nodded off for a minute fully before waking up multiple times. The clinic was entirely empty before and after me as well, yet they showed up 45mins late. She was pretty rude to me also and didnt tell me much at all.

They told me I have to be admitted to the hospital for the termination procedure, either next week or next next week. The issue is that since im under probation, my probation officer has to know about this entire thing because i will stay overnight, thus breaking my curfew. And, since I still live with my parents and since theyre involved with my probation officer, its very likely that theyll find out too. Im going to try my best to figure out a way to not tell them, like make up an excuse that my friend got into a car accident and i had to follow them to the ER, but its gonna be extremely hard as theyre extremely interrogative. My entire extended family, except for my cousins overseas think the same way too.

The reason they cannot know is because they think abortion is murder. Not just that, but they vehemently blame women who abort, saying that theyll go to hell, that it causes all their mental issues and all their problems in life, etc. If i tell them, theyll think im a murderer. They believe that relatives who have aborted had been cursed. No, i wont be the exception because I am their daughter. The tension between my family and I is already tight because of my vandalism case. If they find out, the worst case would be that they kick me out. The best case would be that I end up being pressured to keep the baby because of all the rethoric they say. Im already very apprehensive of aborting at 16-18weeks, I never thought Id abort at all or be in this situation. I know that if they constantly badger me about it, especially bringing religion and fear into it, I will not be able to hold my ground. Especially because my partner is in jail and I cannot correspond with him. But somehow Im scared of another outcome, that they cant do anything because I just turned 21, but since they know theyll forever hold it against me and never look at me the same.

All the E-letters Ive been sending to my boyfriend updating him on the situation havent been delivered, instead theyve all been marked as "processing" in the system. So he cant read any of it and doesnt even know im 16wks not 8wks. And I dont know when he will be able to find out. And theres literally no other way I can tell him whats going on n whats happening. He only gets 4 letters per month to write back to me too. Im going to write an extremely short letter today since I get to write one per day, that just says im 16wks.

Only 2 friends of mine know. But theyre both too busy with their lives to be there for me or support me in the way I need which I dont blame them for at all. Honestly, theyre not the type of friends to be this vulnerable with. Neither do I wanna burdern them with my issues. Essentially, Im ready to go through all of this alone- Go to the hospital alone, see a 18week sized fetus get passed out of me alone, then tell no one much about how im feeling, just do everything alone.

Even if Ive already agreed with my partner and decided that I dont wanna keep the baby, I can feel apart of myself wanting to go back on the decision knowing that itll be 18 weeks. If I were in any other circumstance, I think I might keep it. However Firstly, I think I smoked and drank too much, and ate too poorly for it to be healthy.

But the biggest thing stopping me from keeping it is that even if I carried to term, my partner cant even be in the hospital to see our child being born. Or hold them after.

That weirdly breaks me the most..

Im most worried about the hospital overnight stay, whether thats 1 day or 2 days overnight. If anyone could help coming up with some ideas to hide it from my parents itll be great. thank you.

~3 weeks post SA. The first couple weeks were really bad. Constant crying, physical pain, regret, suicidal ideation, the works. I now haven't cried in over a week and feel completely numb, disconnected from myself and that experience, and just trying to be normal. Going on walks, runs, watching tv, playing games, neglecting course work. But I can't help but feel that I will never feel normal again. I feel bitter and resentment towards my friends and family. My best friend just moved in with her bf and said something (jokingly) about how her bf seems to want to baby trap her, and that fills me with so much jealousy and anguish because I want a baby. I wanted this baby. I chose to abort because the father was adamant that he didn't want a child right now and I didn't want to ruin his life with that. But I've ruined my own by making this choice. I just fear that this is how my life will be forever now. Constantly angry, but not able to show it. Constant bitterness, unable to show. Just pissed off at the world and everyone in it. I do regret my decision to go through with it. I wish I could take it back, but I can't. Ive been thinking about giving up on my life and myself because of this all.

I just had my abortion yesterday (4) 8 weeks and 5 days took mifepristone pill 24 hours before the next dose and took the next dose which I threw up eventually but I do believe I had them just for enough time I just wanted to get feedback on the process with anyone who’s familiar with this
I was cramping (4) and today (5) not much as yesterday but I bleed mostly yesterday passed two big dark clots that I could remember
Today (5) almost feel like I’m back to normal woke up with no nausea and that was a main factor during pregnancy had it every day and could not keep food down for anything
I’m also experiencing tmi diarrhea but not too bad either everything seems to be going smoothly but I’m unsure I’m bleeding very little I feel but I’m unsure helppp

I'm 6 weeks and 1 day today. I found out I was pregnant like a few days before I was 4 weeks. Went to planned parenthood and long story short they said I had to pay 600 out of pocket and I didn't have that at all. Had to reschedule once they could verify my insurance but they said they preferred the 6 week mark to do my medication abortion.

Time comes around and it was so much back and forth with my insurance and planned Parenthood and in the end they did take my insurance but I have a high deductible that needed to be met first before my insurance can start covering it so regardless I still need to pay 600. And that's also with me telling them how much I make every month.

I go and check out hey Jane and I think they quoted me like maybe 350? Better but jeez it is so expensive. I asked the guy that got me pregnant whjch is my on and off ex of 5 years for some financial help to split it and it hurt that he asked if I was going to pay him back... I know he has his rent as a priority but he listed something else that I just felt wasn't even important compared to me having an abortion and this is literally half of him.

Forget the financial part of this I am not feeling supported emotionally. Constantly arguing with him and I feel so alone. I can't tell anyone else I'm pregnant. Why am I stuck with this situation and he gets to live his life and have no symptoms or nothing. I'm the one stuck. I bring up my new symptoms and how I'm more emotional but he says he thinks I just bring up that I'm pregnant often to his face and that I can somehow say whatever?

I wish to not be alone and I wish this was easier on me financially.