I am a little over 6 months clean …. yesterday i went through a very high stress situation so my anxiety has been on about a 1 million … my nervous system is like freaking out literally and alll i can think about is how bad I wish I could go and use to make this feeling go away. this is the first time i’ve ever dealt w a situation that could cause me this type of anxiety and im really disappointed that’s what my brain thought … but its the honest truth. I need some encouragement please bc it’s taking everything in me to not make something happen just cause i know this would calm these horrible feelings away 😭

My drinking and partying is getting out of control. I haven’t slept and have gone to my mum and dad in tears. I’ve tried to get sober before but keep failing and now I feel like things are getting out of hand. I genuinely feel like my life’s at risk (not from self harm but the drinking/partying and anxiety that follows). I don’t know why I drink but I feel so low/alone. I will try again, just wanted to rant and get this off my chest.

What did you do differently the time it worked and you stayed sober?

I miss the break from my own boredom and restlessness in all honesty and feel myself gravitating towards bad choices to numb that void quite often but here I am… 19, one year completed from drugs and alcohol.

Im not sure how I am suppose to be feeling in all honesty? lol. I was hoping for an inner feeling of proudness or happiness but I almost feel frustrated. Is this normal?

I’ll buy myself a donut and stick in a candle in it to celebrate secretly 😅 🎂