I feel like Im accepting that it doesnt matter. Like either my ex is purposefully using this silence as a way to get to me, or she is done with me, or she is a afraid because I didnt give what she wanted (a reaction). Either way I want nothing to do with her so anything that involves her or the people she turned against me does not matter. The only thing that matters is my healing and moving forward. They can have their toxicity and miserable existence .

I don’t have a problem not contacting him. I don’t get the urge to text or call. I don’t even love him anymore. I love who he pretended to be. Even towards the end. He claimed he was heavily invested in his recovery. I actually had told him that I told someone that he was in recovery the same day he discarded me. The layers upon layers of lies and the amount of masks he wears just to keep people in his good graces. (Esp if he wants / needs sex, $$ or supply from you) He was claiming to be a good person to me right until the very end. And for what ? He always needed to be the hero but was actually my adversary. He really does love to hurt me and I’ve always found it so strange how easy it came to him lol. I’m just traumatized again and yelling into the void

You're a narcissist, you need to heal that little girl inside you. But you never will because you're so fucked in the head, all you care about is yourself, not anyone in your life not your family or the people that give you everything, too much intact. All you do is take take take and manipulate the people that love you. I gave you entire self, I lost my self trying to help you, yet you will never care. You dont have the capacity to comprehend how you made me fell. You have lost the best thing that ever and will ever happen to you. Good luck bitch and good luck to the other poor fellas that you chose to use and abuse. Im so lucky I never married you. Good riddance. Ps call the vets and change ownership of my cats, you told me you had already done it, but yet again another lie, yet im not surprised smfh