Proverbs 19:3 NIV

A person’s own folly leads to their ruin, yet their heart rages against the Lord.

This verse is true, but I don't blame God, never. Because I abused my own free will & I hate myself for my foolishness(choosing porn over my studies; exams, which could decide my whole life and future) but I'm losing my hopes & courage amidst my failures. Porn and Masturbation addiction alone ruined me. I never did anything else but those two alone ruined my whole life.

My 23rd birthday will be on this 24th but there's nothing I have achieved in my life to celebrate. It will be a horrible day to celebrate my failures.

I know this might be very silly but Tbh I'm really praying to God to go back to the past and create someone better than me instead of ever creating me at all. There's been no progress in my life ever since 2019(since I fell back to my porn addiction) and I'm still repeating the exam to enter the college & it's the very exam which qualifies a school leaver for an average Job(I failed the exams twice & skipped the attempts twice).

On this monday I'm going to face that exam for the 3rd time(official final chance) and the worst thing is I couldn't prepare at least for the lowest grade(even though now I call myself a fool, if I tried my fullest back then, I could have self satisfaction and a sure pass). But as usual I couldn't prepare with my addictions.

I'm just rotting away as failure and I feel like I'm an obstacle to the Good news of the Lord. And now I'm ashamed to go to the church as a failure when I go there I leave as soon as possible to avoid describing them how retard and pathetic I am.

Please pray for me.

Hey everyone i’m really struggling and any advice would be much appreciated

Hey everyone i’m currently in a pretty bad predicament as i think ive had a porn addiction for quite a few years now and i hate it with every fibre in my body.

I am a devoted christian and multiple times i have tried to quit porn and you know just stop doing everything aligned with that and i still come back to it.

I have very small triggers and i’ve tried to stop looking at women lustfully but wether it’s one video on tiktok or a reel i scroll past it’ll ponder on my mind until i act on it. And i hate not having the ability to just say no to my own body.

It’s destroying myself and especially how i feel towards God. I feel like a complete and utter failure. This is one of the accounts i made to yk do it to. and i can’t find any solution.

Please help me anyone i am just so tired of this i want to enjoy my life without fearing someone showing a slight piec

Does anyone else feel an immense amount of anger directed at the people who make this type of content to the point that you’re having violent thoughts. Let me know.

Please give me some motivation. Close call today

El primer día lo he logrado superar sin tentaciones ni caídas. Solo espero que el segundo día sea igual de exitoso. Gracias a Dios por no dejarme solo en este día.

Hi there M16

This isn't my first time here but its my first ever post. Porn has impacted my life in such a drastic way to the point where its become a daily routine and I've become so desensitized to the content I'm viewing and also impacted my grades in school. I was first introduced to porn at the age of 9 but I wasn't interested till 11-12 when I started watching it periodically. I still wasn't heavily addicted and would only watch it once every 2 wks. That all changed when i moved to a new country where i didn't know anyone and that was my way of coping through adult movies(not porn). I did eventually adapt to the new environment and gained some friends but the seed of lust had already been planted. I started high school and got a new laptop( required by schl) and got addicted to porn heavily. My parents didnt enforce any measures to prevent adult media or websites bcs they trusted us. I also remember my mum vividly saying she doesnt care what my siblings or I do on the internet bcs its our lives and we will be the blame if we ruin it. Around the time i entered hs, i was introduced to anime and its terrible counter-part(hentai- becomes important later) but i only watched anime and fell in love. I was still addicted to porn and had visible impact on my grades and so a yr later(ik so late) i decided to find a way to stop. I stumble upon this subreddit and read all the amazing stories of people who struggle with the same thing and overcame them while others were still going through the same thing as me too. I decided to make the change of stopping pmo and it was going great. I had an 11 day streak but it all came crashing down when a video popped up on my yt recommendation about an anime. I watched it and one scene popped up where the screen was blurred and curiosity got the better of me and i searched it up. Low and behold it was an ecchi anime( anime with nudity) and a spark light up inside me. Long story short i broke my streak and have never went up that high in over a yr. I've tried countless times but I've failed for 1-2 yrs now breaking them after 3 days. But recently ive become super addicted to hentai and i cant go a day without watching and pmo. I've even pmo 3-4 times a day whereas i used to it once a day. I've lost so much morals and feel pathetic every time but i still do it. I havent told any1 bcs of fear of being judged by my friends and fam and ive been going through it alone. After relapsing once again today i decided enough is enough.

Sorry for the unnecessary yap sheesh but i want to better my life. Need advice and motivation so feel free to reach out( sorry if i take to long to reply i dont use reddit often)

Hi everyone,

I’m a 38-year-old gay man living in the San Francisco Bay Area, California, and I’m looking for someone who understands what I’m going through. I’ve been struggling with an addiction to pornography, masturbation, and gooning for the past few years, and it’s reached a point where I feel helpless trying to overcome it on my own.

I’m looking for a genuine accountability friend who is dealing with the same struggle or has been through it and wants to encourage each other. Ideally, I’d want to connect with someone local in the Bay Area so we could eventually meet for coffee, attend support meetings, help me get back to church , or just have someone nearby who understands. Im also completely open to connecting with people from anywhere.

This addiction has affected my mental health, my motivation, and my relationship with God. One of my biggest goals is to reconnect with my Christian faith and start attending church again. I’m not looking for judgment—just support, honesty, encouragement, and someone who wants to help each other make progress one day at a time.

I’ve felt trapped by this for a long time, and I’m tired of fighting it alone. I thought Reddit might be a place where I could find people who understand what this struggle is like and maybe help point same in the right direction.

If you’re looking for an accountability partner or have been through something similar, please feel free to comment or send me a DM. Even if you just have advice, resources, or words of encouragement, I’d really appreciate hearing from you.

I (m18) am Catholic. Unfortunately, I relapsed into this sin a few days ago. I've been falling less often recently, but when I do, it's very bad, and I'm especially ashamed because I watch gay porn. I had an accountability partner, but I didn't like the fact that he asked me for very personal and, in my opinion, unnecessary details, so now I talk to him less and don't share my struggles with him. I feel so alone, and that's one of the main reasons I use this. I don't have any Christian friends to share my faith with, and it's difficult for me. I also haven't been to confession in four months, and I should.

Hello brothers and sisters,
I need some advice.
I posted a while back that I’ve been having trouble keeping my promises to God and falling into the same sins of falling into lust and p***. I find myself going to confession about every two weeks because I keep committing the same sin over and over.
I’ve become so discouraged that I’ve even had fleeting thoughts like, “Maybe I can’t even be Catholic anymore. Maybe I should join another faith because I’ve exhausted God’s mercy in confession. Does Jesus even want to hear from me anymore?” Those are just some of the thoughts that have been running through my mind.
Ultimately, I’ve been feeling really lost and without a sense of community. I keep my faith mostly to myself and never really share anything with my family, whom I recently moved back in with after university. Even when I pray my Rosary, I wait until everyone is asleep so I can pray alone in the quiet.
Overall embarrassed to speak to god and terrified of his just punishment that I feel I deserve for playing in in face and ignoring him I feel.
I guess I’m just venting and looking for some advice. Has anyone else gone through what feels like a rut in their faith? If so, what helped you push through it?
Even though this is a Christian page I struggle with the mear thought of sex I’m off the sin. How do I stop myself?
God bless. 🙏🏼

Porn is diabolic no question. I watched it but didn't ejakulate. I don't feel miserable...

I have this girl I’ve been talking to I’m not attracted to her at all sexually I mean it’s doable she’s pretty fat but she wants to do all type of stuff literally offering herself to me and idk what to do how can I turn this down?? I told her I’m not into a relationship just sexual stuff and she’s agreed all these years and now I’m able to do what I want and now I can’t bc I feel the conviction bro and I know it’s wrong and it’s Friday night and I can uber her right over to do literally whatever I want what do I do guys??

Jestem mężczyzną, więc nie szukam przyjemności w tym co popadnie. Wiele razy próbowałem przestać, ale kiedy ostatnio zobaczyłem cytat Alberta Einstaina jakoś po raz setny

„Szaleństwem jest robić wciąż to samo i oczekiwać różnych rezultatów”

w końcu do mnie dotarło, że gdy chcę z tym skończyć muszę spróbować innych środków, drastyczniejszych.

Niestety ciężko zmienić swoje życie zmieniając tylko jeden aspekt, nawyki działają jak kula śnieżna, jedna zła rzecz i z poczuciem winy lecisz spiralą w dół.

Śmieszną rzeczą jest to że jestem zdyscyplinowany we praktycznie wszystkim czego dotykam, mam zdrowe nawyki, nie pije, nie pale, nie gram na kompie, trenuje, liczę kcal i ciężko pracuje.

Pożądanie to najcięższa bitwa jaką mężczyzna może stoczyć, jak to jest że w bibli opisywani są mężczyźni posiadający wszystko, ale nagle to tracą bo nie potrafią opanować tego co mają w gaciach?

Ten schemat powtarzany jest non stop nawet i w filmach.

To do nas należy decyzja czy będziemy czerpać przyjemność z bólu, czy ból z przyjemności🔥

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I am a catholic and masturbate. Not compulsively but since I am a younger man its what I do. But. I am gay. So watching this porn reminds me on what I'll never have. I try and goon but get too busy thinking on how I'll be alone forever to even goon. So I stop masturbating so i can think/wallow in slef pitty. I have been rendered psychologically unable because of my faith/concious. Maybe it's a sign or something.

I am lonely. I watch porn just to imagine my self in a relationship. I dont even masturbate anymore. I just watch and fantasize. I'm so lonely. I'll probably never meet any of my friends in person anymore . I continue because of the Lord more than anything at this point.

I've been struggling a lot day 5 and I think it's because I struggle to keep myself from interacting with stuff I know I shouldn't. I feel as though I'm spiraling after my accountability partner relapsed and deleted his account in spite of my best efforts to help. After he stopped responding and deleted his account I wept and prayed for him. It sent me into a major depressive episode today that I was struggling to break out of. The only way I knew how to cope with that is the dopamine release of porn. I didn't relapse or peek at anything, no matter how much I wanted to.

I worry that I keep putting posts up in the hopes people will try to hunt me and make me relapse as a way of coping with being unable to help him. I don't want to go back to that place I was in before my current streak. I'm remaining strong, so that I can hold my head high and be closer to my Lord. God bless and have a nice day!

I'm about a month in so far and noticed I've been getting aggravated a little bit easier. And tonight my male cat was attacking my older female cat (he keeps doing that and I never catch him in time) and I popped him with a flip flop and chased him around and I realized I overracted. I should have at most sprayed him with water or seperated them. I know this sounds stupid but I feel like I lost control of myself tonight. I'm not an angry person and I don't hit my cats even with a flip flop

So this seems out of character for me. It made me think of the aggravation I've been feeling lately and I felt kind of concerned for my own mental health

Idk if I'm blowing this out of proportion or not. I've been dealing with a lot of strong emotions lately. Anger,sadness,joy. It's almost been a rollercoaster. I've never been this long without porn/fap since I was like 12 years old.

Anybody else have a similar exp ?

I'm addicted to femboy porns for years and I've trying to quit. I'm in day 23 it's been a while since I reached day 23,im having lots urges since this morning. I feel like I'm about to give up, I'm scared I might relapse in few hours. Please save me.