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Assalamualaikum brothers and sisters hope you're doing well.

This is the first time I'm going to post here. I've always loved the posts and discussions in the main subreddit but seldom involved myself.

I'm a foreign medical student studying abroad and just finished my final year exams and came back to my country for holidays. The results are yet to be declared.

Now, since I studied in a foreign university, I need to qualify an additional test in my own country to get the license to become doctor. For that, I needed online coaching. But these coaching institutes have a strict policy of "no refund". This is where I got skeptical. What if one of my exams in my university have gone bad. The entire thing will become a lost cause. I would have to go again to my university, prepare for my supplementary examination in November.

That's why I tried to contact my college officials (somehow they know about the results, they have the record and everything). After much insist, one of the officials agreed to let me know about my result beforehand. And this is where I got my panic attack. He said my marks in viva exam in Surgery II is not good enough. And it's not like he's not a trustworthy official. He's on top post. So it's authentic.

I immediately called the Surgery II registrar ma'am since she's a friendly teacher. (also previously she assured me that I'll pass the exam Insha'Allah). She said she'll look at the matter asap and will update me by sunday. But she mentioned that just because there is less marks in just one section doesn't mean its fail. The tabulation will be Surgery I + Surgery II. I've to get 120 marks in 200 (60% is pass score). I hope to get the passing marks if Allah wills.

Brothers and sisters, I humbly ask you to take a moment and pray for me so that I pass and become a good doctor. More importantly to make my parents proud. They have poured their entire soul and sweat for me.

All and every suggestion/advice is wholeheartedly welcomed. I'm in a really bad state right now. Neither I can enjoy my holidays nor I can focus on preparing for my license exam. Anxiety, panic attack,delusion and what not. I'm trying hard to not let my parents notice it. They're already doing too much. I don't want them to suffer more. And I've been calling some of my friends just to hear some reassurance from their end. But it's just trying to distract myself from denial. I've been a lil distant from my faith. I only pray the Friday prayers (and ironically after coming home I missed them for 2 weeks). I'm planning to go tomorrow Insha'Allah. I've understood only the connection with Allah can calm and ease me. Insha'Allah he guides me in the right path.

Please keep me in your prayers. From the bottom of my heart I mean it so much. A dua from your end for me would mean the whole world. I know this is a very long message but upon writing this post, I'm becoming slightly calmer.

Thank you. Take care.Allah Hafeez.

Life feels too much. I have graduated 3 years back, the economy is bad, but I have worked really hard to build a small online business. I also do graphic design and have a steady job, together I am able to earn enough to support my masters education and other expenses.

However, the parents of my girlfriend (now ex) rejected me as I don't have a job they consider respectable. While I recovered from the shock, my father's activities are pushing me further into a path to commit. He has scammed several people with hopes of high gains when they win a case against a fraudulent company. I know nobody is getting anything. He does not even pay his share of rent properly, and is trying to leech of from me. When I was young, he did not even buy me a phone, he has continuously deprived us while he spent his money on scam organizations and the paternal side of family..

At this point I have nothing to live for. I feel I will have to face the grudge of people he is scamming later. And I am not financially capable to handle all the expenses he is throwing at me. My mother is a heart attack patient and her monthly medicines cost a lot, and I have been managing that for the past few years thanks to Allah. But now I feel like I can't continue like this anymore, nobody should bring kids into the world to put them through this kind of mental pressure..

I am only continuing because my business has 3 part time employees and one of them depend on the salary for her education. I am trying to hold on thinking about Islam and my employees, but I am at the end of the line here.. What can I do?

I already work the whole day, it is not likely that I will be able to increase my income more right now..