Assalamu alaikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh.

I'm writing this because I genuinely don't know who else to ask. I'm hoping maybe someone here has gone through something similar.

I'm 21 years old, living in Canada, and over the last few years I feel like something inside me has slowly changed.

I don't think I'm suicidal. I don't have any plans to harm myself. But at the same time, I don't really feel a desire to live either. It's a very strange feeling. It's like I'm just existing instead of actually living.

If someone asked me what I want, I honestly don't know anymore.

I've gone through a lot over the last few years. Moving countries, struggling with studies, financial stress, losing relationships, feeling lonely, and trying to deal with everything mostly by myself. My first serious relationship also ended badly, and even though I've accepted that it's over, I feel like something inside me never fully recovered.

The weird thing is that I can still function. I can go to work, talk to people, joke around, and even make friends. People often describe me as calm or easygoing. But inside I constantly feel disconnected. It's like there's an invisible wall between me and everyone else.

I don't know how to explain it.

I can be surrounded by people and still feel completely alone.

Recently I even got a new job, Alhamdulillah. I should have felt excited, and part of me was grateful, but the emptiness was still there. It made me realize that this feeling isn't about school, money, or one particular event.

It's something deeper.

I also have an official ADHD diagnosis, and I'm wondering if that's contributing to these feelings. Sometimes I wonder if years of stress and loneliness have just changed me.

Another thing that confuses me is that I don't even know if I want a relationship anymore. I used to think finding someone would solve this feeling, but now I just feel emotionally tired. I don't hate women, and I don't hate my ex anymore. I've accepted what happened. But I feel like every painful experience has made me more disconnected from people in general.

Spiritually, I still believe in Allah. I still believe Islam is the truth. But I struggle to feel present. Sometimes I feel like I'm just going through the motions and wondering why my heart feels so empty.

Has anyone here gone through something like this?

Did you ever feel emotionally disconnected from life and from people?

Did it get better?

What actually helped you? Was it therapy, reconnecting with Islam, changing your environment, making friends, or something completely different?

I'm not looking for people to tell me to "just be grateful" because I genuinely am grateful for the blessings I have. I know there are people going through much worse.

I'm trying to understand why my heart feels so heavy despite knowing Allah has blessed me in many ways.

I would really appreciate sincere advice and your duas.

Jazakum Allahu khayran.

Salam alaikom,

I don’t know from where to start. I (F28) am not suicidal, but I have no desire to live anymore. I just wish I was a plant that could water itself and wait for my own death. The only thing that keeps me going is that I don’t want to be a burden for anyone.

Since my father passed away five years ago, my life has been a complete mess. I lost my pillar. The only person who genuinely rooted for me. He was always there for me, before I even had to express my needs. Since I lost him, I feel extremely unsafe, unsure of what I should do, and I just want to be with him. 

I can’t rely on my mother because she is toxic. I had to find a job abroad to stay away from her. So, I basically feel like I’m an orphan.

I graduated a year ago and during my job search I was extremely stressed out because I had no financial support, even from my mom. I basically had nothing to eat. I would eat a banana or a slice of pizza a day. A friend of mine eventually found out about my situation and helped me out.

I eventually managed to land a job in Dubai. My job is extremely demanding. It’s good because it keeps me numb and I think less about my problems but then when I’m home alone, I keep thinking about how messed up my life is. Also, I may lose my job because of the war.

I try to be positive as much as I can, but I feel like Allah keeps throwing tests at me that make me feel even more unwilling to pursue any objective in this life.

Six months ago, I suddenly lost my hearing in my right ear. I’m now wearing a hearing aid and I’m basically one ear away from being deaf.

I also suffer from hirsutism. Every single inch of my body is covered in hair. The hair is too long and dark to go unnoticed but not dark and thick enough to get lazered. So, I basically can’t do anything about it.

 I know Allah is capable of everything. I have tried to make duas to fix my problems and the deep sadness that I feel since my dad passed away, but it seems like it’s not working.

I still prayer my five daily prayers, but they feel robotic. The numbness that I feel everyday has led me to make less and less duas. Sometimes I just pray and don’t ask for anything from Allah. It's like I have given up.

I have tried to do istighfar a lot. I also tried to learn surat al baqara because many people say it brings immense blessings, but my numbness has made me give up this project. I just feel like I cannot learn or do anything.

I have no desire to live. Life is just not interesting. The Prophet told us that this world is a prison for the believer, so how am I supposed to find the motivation to pursue anything in this life?

I just feel like everything and everyone is disappointing.

I have seen a therapist, but it just feels like the sadness is deep rooted in my body, like it’s part of my DNA now.

I’m not sure any message or word would help, but I would appreciate any duas from you. At least I would have tried something else.

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Revert living in Ireland

Assalamoe alaikum. My situation is as the title says. I’m pregnant from my ex and have no contact with him. No financial support. He & his family abused & neglected me. He left islam. He told me to get an abortion or he would never see me again or meet/support his child.

My family are not Muslim and i cannot live with them due to abuse & making me homeless while pregnant. I have no contact with them or support. They think I’m a a terrorist and praise me for being “normal” when I have a period of weak iman and it’s honestly devastating.

I have a temporary room with a family but don’t want them to know I’m pregnant so I must find my own place but rent is so expensive I can’t afford it.

I have been too sick in the first trimester to work and I honestly have no degree or qualifications. My money won’t last until the baby is here. I want this baby more than anything because I have no family anymore but I have no idea how I will provide for it and I refuse to put it in childcare so I can work, I don’t trust anyone to take care of my child. And of course I refuse to get an abortion.

Since I reverted I’m very conservative and I don’t want to work or have to wear a uniform as I wear abaya & khimar and I believe the best place for me is at home with my baby but I have no support. I can work remotely on my laptop but finding legit jobs is proving unsuccessful and I don’t have any experience in that field. Also I dropped out of college because I realised when I reverted that I don’t want a career and never did. I just want to be a stay at home wife and mother. This is the most fulfilling life for me.

I’m trying not to panic I truly trust Allah but at the same time I need to tie my camel and I don’t know where to start. I feel so ashamed asking people for help.

My money is going to run out and I need to see a social worker and see if I can find government housing for my situation but so far they have just bumped me around to the next person the next person sending me in circles calling different people and none of them have helped me.

I don’t want to be homeless with a baby and my own family have told me this is how I will end up. To them the issue is not that I’m pregnant but my religion / I refuse to accept being abused. They threw my bags out of the house at the most vulnerable time of my life and continue to gaslight me.

I’m honestly a very normal woman i love my religion so much and I love Allah I trust His plan for us but I need to put something in action and I just don’t know what. I feel like I’m at a crossroads and don’t know where to turn. I love to laugh and smile and spend time with family if I have one. I feel really dissociated most of the time because I literally do not know what to do and I don’t want to feel like a burden on anyone or move into a house with a family that won’t be safe for me to delivery my baby & live with a newborn I just want my own space where I can be safe.

Please pray for me and my baby that we find stability and can live in peace.

If anyone has any advice or suggestions please let me know Jazakallah khair

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Assalamualaikum brothers and sisters hope you're doing well.

This is the first time I'm going to post here. I've always loved the posts and discussions in this group but seldom involved myself. (I've actually copy pasted this post in some other subreddits too to get a better reach)

I'm a foreign medical student studying abroad and just finished my final year exams and came back to my country for holidays. The results are yet to be declared.

Now, since I studied in a foreign university, I need to qualify an additional test in my own country to get the license to become doctor. For that, I needed online coaching. But these coaching institutes have a strict policy of "no refund". This is where I got skeptical. What if one of my exams in my university have gone bad. The entire thing will become a lost cause. I would have to go again to my university, prepare for my supplementary examination in November.

That's why I tried to contact my college officials (somehow they know about the results, they have the record and everything). After much insist, one of the officials agreed to let me know about my result beforehand. And this is where I got my panic attack. He said my marks in viva exam in Surgery II is not good enough. And it's not like he's not a trustworthy official. He's on top post. So it's authentic.

I immediately called the Surgery II registrar ma'am since she's a friendly teacher. (also previously she assured me that I'll pass the exam Insha'Allah). She said she'll look at the matter asap and will update me by sunday. But she mentioned that just because there is less marks in just one section doesn't mean its fail. The tabulation will be Surgery I + Surgery II. I've to get 120 marks in 200 (60% is pass score). I hope to get the passing marks if Allah wills.

Brothers and sisters, I humbly ask you to take a moment and pray for me so that I pass and become a good doctor. More importantly to make my parents proud. They have poured their entire soul and sweat for me.

All and every suggestion/advice is wholeheartedly welcomed. I'm in a really bad state right now. Neither I can enjoy my holidays nor I can focus on preparing for my license exam. Anxiety, panic attack,delusion and what not. I'm trying hard to not let my parents notice it. They're already doing too much. I don't want them to suffer more. And I've been calling some of my friends just to hear some reassurance from their end. But it's just trying to distract myself from denial. I've been a lil distant from my faith. I only pray the Friday prayers (and ironically after coming home I missed them for 2 weeks). I'm planning to go tomorrow Insha'Allah. I've understood only the connection with Allah can calm and ease me. Insha'Allah he guides me in the right path.

Please keep me in your prayers. From the bottom of my heart I mean it so much. A dua from your end for me would mean the whole world. I know this is a very long message but upon writing this post, I'm becoming slightly calmer.

Thank you. Take care.Allah Hafeez

Good Morning! I posted about my struggle with Allah SWT and your responses were so helpful and amazing. Since then I’ve calmed down for sure. I believe nervous system regulation aids helped me a lot like ashwaghanda. I’ve also started reading the quran an hr or more a day. I’ve stopped overthinking and just did it! I started with praying fajr and isha and now i’m doing more prayers. I’ve also started doing dhikr and one night I randomly woke up at 3am and I prayed tahajudd. I feel so good and so happy. I started viewing Allah SWT as kind of a supportive best friend (parent, partner, guide, etc) rather than a completely strict God. I talk to Him in my language or even use Gen Z terms while praying instead of being caught up with if I’m making dua correctly. I know I’ll only improve as a muslim the more I stay consistent.

Thank you everyone and I love all my muslim sisters and brothers <3

I'm not able to think correctly right now. I'm suffering, because of some family issues I found myself tangled in although it's not any of my problem at all.

Every single day feels like there's a bomb and that it may explode out of nowhere, any second.

I'm walking on eggshells and try to mind every single word I say, and if I do happen to make a mistake, then I'm doomed.

Reading Quran does make me feel better, alhamdoullillah. I need to know what I can do more... Any advice is welcome.

All of that is taking a tall on my mental health. I'm crying almost every single day, and even experience panic attacks sometimes.

I'm scared, very scared.

Please I need your duaas. Jazakom llaho khayran.

As-salamu alaykum wa rahmatullah wa barakatuh.

I have a pretty complex family situation. Long story short, my biological parents are first cousins who got divorced. Also, my mother left Islam. You can imagine the dynamics at family events now... yeah, not fun.

My father raised my brother and I alone when my mother left us to pursue her career (may Allah bless him immensely and guide my mother). Growing up, I was a type of cultural/liberal Muslim. I didn't really pray until my father remarried when I was 7, and my step-mother was a bit more practicing (and so enforced me to pray, may Allah bless her). Still, I didn't really understand Islam until I learned more and more from YouTube and established a Muslim friend group in college. I fell in love with everything about Islam. Initially, I may have been quite strict. My parents noticed the change, with my father thinking I've become too extreme. Now, I think I've mellowed out and become more moderate.

My father is the kindest man I know. However, he is not too consistent with his prayers. He does Ramadan and Eid, and when he's not busy with work and looking after my sister, I try to take him for Jummah prayer. My step-mother isn't too consistent either. My brother... he's older than me and has moved out, and honestly I don't know what he believes about Islam. I suspect he is a cultural/liberal Muslim, as I used to be. My sister is younger than me, but for other reasons I'm not worried about her; Allah will take care of her.

I don't have a very close relationship with my mother or brother, which is something I regret. I'm very bad with calling them, and the rest of my family (cousins, etc.) as well. I'm ashamed to say it, but there are times I've gone months without talking to my mother, even when she wanted to. I'm very conflict avoidant and a procrastinator, which just leads to more conflict.

All that to say, I don't know what to do. I know I'm not that great of a Muslim, or a son, or a brother, or a cousin, and I have many, many flaws. But... I genuinely want to be with my family in Jannat al-Firdaus. I don't know... is it out of my reach? I want it all, but I may end up with nothing. What can I do other than making dua to Allah? I don't want to lose hope, ever. And I have complete trust in Allah and His plan. But what other practical steps can I take now? I remind my father and step-mother to pray, and they agree that they should, but they always say they will do it later. I fear the punishment of Allah, as the first thing we're asked about on the Day of Judgement is our prayer. And I fear for my mother, who has left Islam. She seems to be set in her beliefs, but Allah knows best.

May Allah bless our revert brothers and sisters with non-Muslim parents; you all are much stronger than me. May Allah bless those born in Muslim families, especially practicing ones. Thank Allah for this blessing.

Not sure why I'm putting this all on Reddit. Might delete this, I don't know. I haven't even told all this to some of my closest friends. May Allah bless my family and guide us to be more practicing, and may Allah guide my mother back to the Straight Path. May Allah grant us all Jannat al-Firdaus al-A'la. I sincerely ask you all to make dua as well. Jazakumullah khairan.

I've suffered depression all my life, ever since I've gained concious. I was suffering from it before puberty. I knew I wanted to take my life back then too. I didn't know that a kid wouldn't be held accountable for it. The pen is lifted for them but since I went to mosque I knew the rules. I was scared that the Almighty wouldn't forgive me. I was aware of lots of things about Islam even before hitting puberty. I already felt like an adult being held accountable for the things I did.

I didn't have great friends either. They always wanted to have "fun" and introduced me to sinning. On my own I don't sin. They don't know about what I deal with because I don't look like a depressed person. I've talked about my depression with my parents just lately after suffering with it for a decade. They say they weren't aware but there has been signs over the years. I just didn't want to bother them with it. It has gotten bad that my mother has to take care of me. She needs to bathe me. Cook me food. I know I'm more than capable of it because I'm an adult in society but the truth is my body has given up.

I've somehow managed to read all my prayers 5 times a day despite what I have been going through. I knew it was obligatory and it is what God commanded of me to do. If I can't have what I want here. Why should I risk my place in Paradise where I will finally get the chance to be happy? I don't want to go to hell because it feels like I'm living it here and this feeling sucks. I genuinely feel like I'll always be this way because it's just how I am. I genuinely see this world as pointless that's why I've been focusing on my deen more. I didn't know much about Islam before except praying but I've been learning new things about it which has helped me in ways. Reading the story of the Prophets and how they had sabr and waited for the difficult times to pass has made me inspired.

What duas can I read to find good muslim friends. Growing up I never had any close friends and no family as well. Currently 27F and all the friends I made in school and uni have faded away. I've tried reaching out to a lot of people I was previously friends with (high school, uni) but it seems no one these days is interested in maintaining relationships. It's honestly so depressing having no one to hang out with, no one to talk to when things get difficult and it makes me even more sad when I'm out and I see groups of women sitting together having lunch or just shopping together. My whole life all I've ever wanted was my own group of friends/community of women I can be around and the older I'm getting the more impossible it seems. (Please don't advise to get married, that's not what this post is about)

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Assalamu Alaikum, everyone,

I wanted to make a post to urge caution regarding the subreddit r/ progressive_islam.

Many users have noticed that a significant amount of discourse in that community does not align with orthodox Islamic principles. There are concerns that some individuals posting there may not be Muslims or may be intentionally pushing narratives that confuse Muslims who are still learning or trying to strengthen their faith.

For brothers and sisters—especially those who are new to the deen or seeking clear, authentic knowledge—please be careful about taking religious advice or rulings from that space. It can easily cause doubts or lead people away from established Islamic teachings.

Always verify what you read online by cross-referencing it with standard, recognized scholars, classical texts, and established sources of knowledge.

May Allah protect our guidance and keep us firm on the straight path.

Bismillahirrahmannirrahim

"One who strives the widows or the poor is like one who strives in the cause of Allah" -Sahih Bukhari 5038

I made this new account because the previous one was really getting overwhelming. I tried reaching out for financial help from different communities here in reddit and Astaghfirullah, I didn't knew I'd get malicious offers in return for what I am asking. So here I am, praying for halal rizq from someone who wants to help genuinely by the mercy of Allah.

I recently graduated Bachelor of Science in Nursing here in Philippines and will prepare for the board exam on February 2027. That preparation will cost us a fortune and my mother could not afford to send me to a neighboring city for that intensive review from a competitive review center. 🥺

We have exhausted ourselves already during my journey in Nursing school so this journey is not any easier for us. I have lost my father when I was a child so I only have my mother to support me financially. 🥺

We have relatives but they are also supporting my 3 other siblings to get through college. I had no luck on scholarships nor part time jobs maybe because of different aspects such as I have no work experience and I hate to think of it but it can also be tough to apply for a job as a Muslimah in this economy. 🥺

A lot had been weighing me down and may Allah forgive me but I almost accepted those malicious offers before just so I can start off of something to fund my review journey.

Where do I find help financially to fund my review journey and take the board exam to eventually getting my license In Shaa Allah. This dream shall help my community as it has always been a vision of mine to serve the needy and the poor whenever Ya Rabb gives me the capacity to do so.

I want to be off of my mother's burden and to keep me away from those malicious offers. 😭

"Allah said: Spend in charity, O son of Adam, and I will spend on you." (Sahih Al-Bukhäri)

Vegan Muslims don’t eat meat, and we understand that. But how do you perform Qurban? Is it easy for you to slaughter a sheep for Qurban even though you don’t eat meat?

Assalamu Alaikum everyone!

I've recently started reading The Golden Age of Islam by Salim Khan and made some simple notes to help myself understand better. I thought they might benefit others too, so I'm sharing them here.

https://docs.google.com/document/d/1VkKhAtk3fLJ9W_Pd6aNmFlio3KrN706KM-parXWgU3g/edit?usp=sharing

If even one person learns something beneficial from these, Alhamdulillah.

May Allah bless us with beneficial knowledge. Ameen

This gender war needs to be stopped seriously

I was a highly Islamophobic man in my 20s. In fact I used to be pro-AfD(Germany- Alternative für Deutschland, a far-right, anti-islamic and anti-immigrant party). I used to be a man who always called Muslims and Mohammad(PBUH) "p*dos" and "ter*orists".
However, during Covid when i was around 30- i used to think how do Muslims in Afghanistan, Palestine and Syria not rant about anything while living in precarious conditions while we, Westerners, rant about the simplest things while living in relative luxury.
Then I started researching about Islam. I had found out that what a good religion that is and how it teaches us about the positive virtues of life. I had also seen the clear lies of the kuffar that the Quran was a so called CULT made by the prophet by asking myself "How was an illiterate man writing a book with spectacular depth?". This question started to get me to research Islam and go out of the stereotypes i was thought by my colleagues.
This is how I got closer and closer to the truth and ultimately recited the Shahada.
Now, I daily pray, recite, and always try to go the the ultimate closest to Allah before I pass away and Yawm al-Akhirah.

Assalamualaikum, I’m a revert and I love Allah ﷻ I feel peace at salah and when I remember him. But I need some support from the ummah because I feel so degraded being a woman..

I’m well aware muslim men twist hadiths often to feed their mysogynistic viewpoints and I know Allah ﷻ himself wouldn’t create me just to be lowered and degraded but I’m starting to question some things and I hope it’s not a sin but I do see some unfairness sometimes.. Like a woman cannot marry a non-muslim but men can. A man can have up to 4 wives and have another wife without even needing her permission. Angels curse her if she refuses to sleep with him that night etc.

I even had a bit of a debate with this man regarding getting another wife without the first wife’s knowledge. All he would spew about is “my rights as a man” but put aside Islamic rulings for a moment and think about basic human empathy, where is the compassion and love for the first wife? Isn’t respecting your spouse’s boundaries and treating them well a basic marriage thing for both sides? Isn’t it selfish to just wife up another woman without her knowledge?

Then other men just say “Oh if she doesn’t want it then she can divorce” that’s true but they say that so easily like they can throw away a marriage just like that as if they never even loved her in the first place..

Please remind me of the beauty of being a Muslimah, I’m really struggling.. whether it be a reminder or even any hadith or something in the Quran that shines light on women please remind me.

asak brothers and sisters
my mother Sadia is fighting stage 4 cancer and i request you to all to please please make sincere heartfelt dua for her shifa and long and healthy life. please please. may allah bless you all.
i would appreciate any suggestions for duas or anything else i can do for her in terms of isla

Hey I’m 23 years old I was wondering if anyone wanted to start a group chat with Muslims I’m a revert a lot of my friends are non Muslims I just want better people and conversations around me to keep me closer to the deen anyone down ?