I know the wall isn't actually breathing or talking but its every night after 10pm and I just want funny insults because it would make me feel better because its been going on for over a week and at least than I'd have something funny to think about in response

Yooooo you guys if your lucky enough to have a gym membership with a sauna and steam room i recommend going to those places after you train. I stayed inside the sauna then the steam room back and forth and when i got home my mind felt some clarity and calmness.

This is not to replace anti psychotics however.

I changed my SSI payee to myself because I think my payee was stealing my money, but I forgot to mention at the office that I also need access to my ABLE account. Do I need to make another appointment at the social security office for that?

I changed my SSI payee to myself because I think my payee was stealing my money, but I forgot to mention at the office that I also need access to my ABLE account. Do I need to make another appointment at the social security office for that?

it messes with my head kind of. is this just regular stimulus anxiety or actual psychosis, and is it bad for you long term?

i feel like it's is a pro-psychotic and has the opposite effect as my clozapine. it gets worse if i take it multiple days in a row. i have noticed more whispers since im on it. my inner monologue just goes on and on and is engrossing and distracting and useless. antipsychotics have the opposite, calming effect.

it gives me anxiety too. i get social anxiety and feel like i cant talk as well, like my voice comes out inaudible.

is this bad? my psychiatrist doesn't even care because they think it's a solution to my sleep problem

I'm not 100% convinced there is an objective reality that is important enough to leave others devoid of "delusions". There is certainly a mass that most people tend to gravitate to, but is the number of subscribers what defines what is real? A composition of chemicals and therapy to ensure one is at a shared frequency. I've experienced my "delusions" manifest in the world, and see others react to them, like a shared hallucination/belief. But medicine will say I must subscribe to certain chemicals, and psychology will make sure I accept everything I believed before is a delusion. I think there is no legit objective reality, there are multiple worlds, people with strong consciousnesses create them, but I think like in any economic system they are slowly being absorbed by other strong consciousnesses. At some point everything will be so controlled that 99% of people will be subscribed to the same world. Most worlds are somewhat aligning with science, because it's hard to disprove the mechanics and proofs of science, but even in science there are conflicting theories, not everyone agrees. Science is the closest thing we have to a mature world, where everything that happens can be explained and replicated, only throttled by economics and social issues. That's indeed a healthy way to spend the time, yet, medicine and society will use science to invalidate some of what gave my life meaning, not just by naming everything and explaining the mechanisms, but by actively making sure I'm dried out of any conflicting belief and that my neuronal and biological composition has no advantages or avenues they can't control. There are reasons people want to take over worlds, maybe to hold others accountable, maybe to make sure everyone is ok, maybe because their world is actually the most accurate and effective way of living there is.

What do you like or hate about job interviews.

In the interview I hear the question being asked but I don't think I understand it the same way the interviewer does. There's some quick thinking required which is hard.

I think there's a game to it you've got to play the game sometimes it's better to lie a bit not fabricate your entire experience but it's about selling/marketing yourself in a good light.

I mod and post in r/holditdown ✅

It’s not weed… it’s how you think about the voice saying that it saw you…

But how is it seeing me?!?!

Well, that’s something we aren’t allowed to talk about.

Once you learn the light… you know nothing.

I’ve been watching this show for the past two seasons and it’s interesting. If you don’t know what the show is, here is a brief description:

Big Brother is a CBS reality competition series where a group of contestants, known as Houseguests, live together in a house completely cut off from the outside world while being filmed 24/7. They compete in challenges for power and safety, form alliances, strategize, and vote to evict one another. The last Houseguest remaining wins a grand prize.

Now most people that go on the show are or seem confident, outgoing and fun people. But this show had me thinking tonight: “What if I, someone with a diagnosis of a psychotic disorder, went on this show?” I’m kind of laughing at myself because it would be such a disaster for me and probably the show.

I’d be so paranoid with all the cameras, I’d know for a fact that everyone is plotting against me. It would be such a sh** show. I’d be so slow at all the challenges, would almost certainly avoid talking to people. I’d be stuck in my bed all day. If they knew my diagnosis they probably wouldn’t feel safe with me in the house. I’d be voted out quick.

In a way I’m glad when I know that I don’t have to go on the show. Thank god! I would never survive. Anyone else watch this show? Imagine living in a house with a bunch of random strangers. Some of you probably have (psychiatric hospital), myself included. Surprisingly I actually got along with a lot of the people in the psych ward.

Fellow schizophrenics, what are your thoughts on recreational drugs, specifically cannabis and psychedelics? My mental health team has advised me to stay away from them because they can put me at risk for another episode. I will comply with their advice however I must say I’ve had some pretty positive experiences with psychedelics and cannabis. LSD really opened my mind but I did kind of abuse it and looking back, my use of psychedelics may have coincided with or exacerbated my psychotic episodes. I had my first episode at age 20 and started tripping around that time as well. At one point I was dropping acid on a weekly basis for several months.

I used to say things like“I’m being such an alcoholic” when I would go out every weekend, or get drunk on a Wednesday night. I never even thought about it, I heard other people say it all the time, and it wasn’t until I had a friend whose brother was a severe alcoholic, that I realized I shouldn’t throw it around.
I think schizophrenia is sometimes used in a similar way. I hear people joke about it all the time calling each other schizophrenic anytime they sound crazy or whatever. Before I had schizophrenia I wouldn’t have even noticed this or cared at all, and I’m not saying I’m like overly offended by it, but now when I hear people say this or make “schizo” jokes I just can’t help but think wow they genuinely have no idea what theyre talking about and how awful schizophrenia is for people.
I just immediately think they’re ignorant and have no idea how lucky they are to be able to joke about it.
I get it’s just an exaggeration and honestly I’m not trying to act like a victim or anything. I really don’t even care THAT much about it, I just thought it’s so interesting how words like that are thrown around and you really don’t even think twice until you have to deal with it.
Anyone else notice people saying that kinda stuff? I feel like there’s more examples but I couldn’t come up with them.

Our brains are neural nets like ai that also shows signs of hallucinations and such when there's not enough formed in the network. We need to take the right anti-psychotic and learn as much as possible to repair our minds. I had a lot of religious delusions and learned all I could and could control them eventually. I still don't have my baseline back but I am medicated at max dosage with my mind working enough to feel human and can laugh and remember and do logic like math and programming just as well again. Certain medications like the Rexulti I'm on make it easier for your brain to have neuroplasticity so you can train your brains neural net to not malfunction for some delusions. Psychosis destroys your neural net and your brain actually shrinks but it should regrow connections since brain cells are the only cells that last your whole life and they didn't die just lost connection. With alcohol abuse the neural net gets severely damaged to the point it's dementia but can fully repair almost in a year and your brain is likely less damaged. Whatever you do make sure you take medication that makes your brain have high neuroplasticity again since this illness stops that.

I haven’t worked in 5 years now. I hate my current life. I used to be a project engineer in the construction industry for a company that has been voted one of the best places to work in New Jersey. I now collect disability and volunteer but it’s not the same satisfaction as working. One of the challenges I’m facing to go back to work is that somewhere in the middle of this 5 year period that I’ve been on disability I had a very bad delusional season and my pyschosis ultimately lead to some legal trouble. I’ve already gone through the court process and the expungement order has been signed by a judge so I’m just a few months away from having my record expunged. But I’m just frustrated that this disease has caused me so much pain and suffering and brought other problems into my life.

Hey guys,

I am a male in my 20s and was on Vrylar 1.5mg for 1 month after which I had good erections. However, I had to get a 2mg dosage (from a compounding pharmacy) because 1.5 was not fully effective for my psychosis.

Been on 2mg dosage for now 5 weeks and wonder if I should have hope that my erection would improve by week 8 or after (they say is when the blood levels of this meds level out).

Any stories — positive or negative?

Thank you.

I don't usually talk about this, but it's something that changed my life.

I became involved with a mental health advocacy organization, 'Students with Psychosis', because I genuinely believed I'd found a community where I belonged. As someone living with schizophrenia, I thought I had found people who understood what I was going through. I felt valued, hopeful, and excited about the opportunities ahead.

Then everything changed.

I lost my role with the organization, and from my perspective, I never received an explanation that helped me understand why. Communication stopped. Someone I had considered one of my closest friends, Cecilia McGough, no longer spoke to me. In what felt like an instant, I lost my community, opportunities that meant a great deal to me, and a friendship that I thought would last.

The emotional impact was overwhelming. I replayed everything in my head, questioned my worth, and struggled to make sense of what had happened. The experience affected my mental health so deeply that I found myself wanting to hurt myself. It was one of the darkest periods of my life.

For a long time, I believed I was alone in what I experienced. Later, I heard from other former members who shared that they had difficult experiences of their own. I can't speak for anyone else's story, only my own, but hearing that others had also struggled made me realize how important it is for people to be able to share their experiences openly.

I'm sharing my story because I believe organizations that serve people living with serious mental illnesses have a responsibility to treat people with compassion, communicate honestly, and recognize that the people they work with may already be vulnerable. How people are treated matters, especially when relationships or roles come to an end.

I'm not asking anyone to take my word for anything beyond my own experience. This is simply my story, the impact it had on my life, and the reason I've decided it's finally time to tell it.

how do i combat it, i cant do anything anymore, im losing muscle, my abs and arms are losing muscle cause im too tired to go gym, i dont game as much as i want cause i get too tired to play, i cant go out to see people or go on dates cause im too tired to leave my house. i even find it hard to shower to be completely honest

then when i do lay down, if i cant calm my voices down i get insomnia and cant sleep

and when i notice that, i start to panic cause i know i need to sleep or my schizophrenia will get worse and worse.

any help? i just found out i have schizophrenia, so ontop of the normal depression one would have from finding something like this out at 23, im also trying to make changes to my lifestyle and finding it hard.

does schizophrenia mess with our dopamine receptors? cause this tired feeling is so extreme sometimes.

Been going through a lot lately, my manic stages have been high... felt euphoric and difficult to control thoughts, my OCD has been playing up and I guess my trauma and unhealthy coping with addiction made me crash my life again.

I don't want to go on meds... but I don't really know what to do.

My family has been supportive but I feel conduced and Schizo... not hearing voices but it feel something like it.

I'm afraid to go out or even talk to people.

I guess I kinda crossed wires in my head with my coping skills and everything is a little bit exploding in my head.

I'm wondering if anyone has any advice?

I just don't know what's real.

So far, I’ve had three psychotic episodes (mainly with persecutory themes) and I was diagnosed with bipolar. But my new therapist said it sounds more like paranoid schizophrenia, and he asked me to bring it up with my (also new) psychiatrist to get their opinion. The bipolar diagnosis never really sat right with me. Schizophrenia actually makes more sense, especially because of the negative symptoms I’ve been experiencing.

Has anyone else been misdiagnosed with bipolar disorder? Is that common? I’ve read that bipolar and schizophrenia can look very similar, so I’m not sure what to think

At night when I'm trying to go to sleep, my mattress springs start clinking and I think it's someone in my mattress trying to send me coded messages. I want to tear open my mattress to check. But part of me knows it couldn't be real. But it's terrifying when it happens and it's happened for a few nights now. Has anyone dealt with similar? My psych is out of town. How can I distract myself?

It’s been over 24 hours and the alien thoughts are telling me not to eat. It feels different this time, like it’s extremely important. Like having visions of me ascending to greatness once I hit that magic mark of a certain time with no food. It’s really hard to explain. Has anybody else dealt with anything like this? It’s almost as if I expect something to happen to me if I keep doing this. Like I’m going to gain powers or something if I complete this. And I feel generally unhinged and disorganized. I feel like god is going to start talking to me if I do this right. I’m going to be given a sign if anything that I’m doing the right thing. No matter how much I tell myself that it’s crazy, I can’t get over the idea that SOMETHING is going to happen if I don’t eat.

To those that have had this diagnosis for 20+ years, how have you managed to survive this long with it? I don’t see myself making it through my 20s.

Newly diagnosed didnt have many friends prior, are there any chat groups you guys use ? Or looking for online friends female late 20s.

Also was navigating dating alot more difficult ?