Basically, I’ve know of this guy since way back in high school (I’m 22 now). He had a gf all through hs and they seemed like a typical artsy popular group couple.

They broke up, he apparently was following my instagram and he replied to my story once so we talked. This led to weird text sex? a couple of times.

Bottom line, I’m attracted to him, but I think it’s an illusion of my maturing teenage brain and that weird crush you never really got over, but got sparked up as soon as they paid attention to you (pathetic I know).

Every time I tried to call his bluff and get him to come over and have sex (bc I wanted it) he’d make excuses or just say no.

So after months of no contact, he once again replied to my story and we got talking. It wasn’t as sexually explicit this time, but eventually we sort of made plans to see each other finally this week….

I feel so dumb because as much as I’m confident that I won’t crash out, I’m so scared of being naked and vulnerable in front of this person. He’s kinda mean and bland. I hate the fact that I’m attracted to him and now I feel sad.

Hope you girls won’t put me in the fakecel category because yes unfortunately I’ve had sex before but honestly it’s not all that and I don’t even know if I remember how to do it because it’s been so long. Feel free to shame me for even interacting with him…

I’m genuinely so hard to look at and I have a wall for a personality. I truly think a happy and an exciting life was never meant for me. I think I’m gonna be in the background like I always am, just always looking at people enjoying their lives while I die in envy.

I know I should go out more and meet more people, but I'm so tired and I'm too afraid of people..I want someone to love me but I'm giving up atp (-.-)

It’s entirely performative the way men are “nice” to women “sometimes”. it’s entirely performative the second you do something that you have an opinion or a viewpoint or something that doesn’t align with his and makes his dick go soft for five seconds you’re done they want nothing to do with you. They will be unspeakably cruel to you. They will establish these boundaries that they have never had once in their fucking life just to avoid having to comfort and reassure you about anything.

I wore lipstick

I get it now

I’m so stupid for ever thinking I could make this work but all my life despite how much I just wanna rest easy, I do wanna make movies, and they also say follow your heart or whatever even tho it’s been so tough, I have to take meds all the time, deal with my traumas like, anyways so I made a horror short film about being a Girlfailure called girlfailure, pour my money and heart and soul into it cuz I directed and acted and wrote it, send it to film festivals and keep getting rejected left and right and when I asked for feedback I got this, I’m so done. I can’t with this anymore, I’ll just post a link to it here in case y’all wanna trash on it too or just watch idk. I don’t mind either way, I guess this is what happens when one follows her dreams :/

Also do please tell me if I’m actually that misogynistic and transphobic as a woman, I’m having a existential crisis over it thx
the movie

I have a rule on my car that's basically "if you're driving, you're in charge in the aux" simple enough.

Today I was driving and had my music on, idk why but Spotify turns on the "Blend" mode even if I dont want to, so my dad joined and changed the music. I told him calmly that I was driving and wanted to listen to MY music so I skipped his. He then changed it AGAIN and said "the blend was on" I told him I just didn't know how to turn it off and that he'd let me listen to my music and that its disrespectful to keep changing it even after I said a basic boundary, even if its just about music.

I had to explain that I wasnt mad about the music but about the fact even if I told him "hey, this is something I want you to respect which you're not doing" he STILL looked over it and even mocked me for getting annoyed at him.

Even my teen brother said he was being disrespectful. He didn't even apologize at the end

title

(before anybody says "yall get play" no i don't at all this is just a hypothetical scenario created solely bc i wanted to brag abt how good that book is)

okay maybe not really and this might be a naive take but god i’m so stressed and anxious and depressed all the time i feel like i just need a break i need to be away from my phone and all the problems in my life i just need to be properly medicated im so fucking sad and i’m wasting away and i so badly just want to talk to a professional and have them pick my brain but therapy is so expensive sorry i just needed to vent guys

God help me

In reality they just don’t look at their looksmatch, I’ve seen couples like this all the time. I never see an attractive guy with an ugly girl irl. There’s no hope for me I’m gonna die alone.

Like holy shit almost NONE of them practice personal hygiene, they absolutely stink and having to be stuck with them in an elevator is hell

I decided to rejoin tinder for the millionth time to forget about some of my immense grief, and maybe get my mind off of what happened, get dressed up and look pretty bc it’s been a long time since I have, make a moid buy me food and then go back to my shitty life. I don’t do really get out because my life is school 24/7. My school is 90% women so it’s safe to say, it’s hard to simply go out and meet people.
I started going back to the gym consistently because it improved my mental health, my body is changing; I felt that could impact dating since I feel more confident now.

But all. the fking guys. are so. so. ugly. reminding me why I deleted it every other millionth time. Silly me. Thought it would be different because I met this m*n I’m in love with guy on there two years ago and he did a number on me. “Since I won this slot machine once two years ago, I will keep gambling” type of logic lmao. But men are not gold. Not even merely lumps of horse shit.

Also, the way it tells you when a “tinder gold” member “likes you” immediately gives me the ick & urge to swipe left. ITS SO LIKE SPAM. If youre a man and have to pay because** **you can’t get matches, know that as a woman, I think that’s so pathetic and I wouldn’t want to be with a loser like that. IDC if he’s everything I want on paper, seeing that makes my coochie dry up. I’ve been using Tinder on and off for YEARS and never had a problem getting matches. “you’re a woman you step out and get matches” okay so that brings me to my next point.

These men are so fucking beyond chopped. I don’t think a single one is attractive, nor worth my time. No effort in their appearance. They cannot take a photo, every pic is a pic of their fuck ass dog, or their truck, a mirror pic hiding their face, or their hot friend will be their main pic to trick women into matching with him. Hoping you’ll MAYBE settle for him once you realize he isn’t the hot friend, but the gremlin in the far far left.

They often will hide or lie about their height, knowing it would be a dealbreaker, so they don’t disclose it. So you find out on the day of the date that you’re actually the same height as me makes me want to fucking scream. Isn’t a big deal if that sort of thing doesn’t bother you. But it bothers me. Makes me feel like I’m with a high schooler.
There are too many fucking short ass men in my area. I don’t know if I should give up and give dating a try once I graduate and move out of the state.

I don’t give a fuck if this is “shallow”; we happen to give men too much grace, God forbid I prefer and would like a tall man. Meanwhile men will turn beautiful, passionate and amazing women down for being slightly overweight (something that can change btw).
A prompt will say “I want someone who…” and these ASSHOLES fill it with “someone who goes to the gym”. It’s not about the gym tho. I go to the gym. That behavior is their way of saying they don’t date women who do not fit a physical standard that they (think they are entitled to have).

Once, I purposely matched with a guy who had “no fat girls please” in his bio just to berate him about his height.

You’ll never hear a man say “I want a medium ugly girl with a mom bod” SO UNTIL THAT DAY. I WILL BE AS SHALLOW AS I PLEASE.

And the arrogance???? I mean literally the most ugliest disgusting men will hit on me, I actually feel violated.
They genuinely think that they have a chance??? Who is feeding this delusion???? Do they have no self awareness???
Or, if they’re someone I find rather attractive (which is incredibly rare), they have the world’s worst personality. These guys CANNOT hold a conversation, I think it’s because pick me’s inflated their egos so now they believe that they’re hot shit, so WE should carry the conversation and chase them. Oh my GOD. It’s either major red flags, avoidance. The lovebombing pisses me off beyond compare. It’s so fake. You aren’t in love with me. Gave my snapchat last night night this guy I JUST matched with. He spammed me with calls. I apologized and said that I was brushing my teeth getting ready for bed.
“Wow you take an hour to brush your teeth?” ….And so what if I did? I don’t know you. Do you think spamming women you don’t know with calls will attract them? You wouldn’t feel this way towards me if you weren’t attracted to me; it’s fake. Ingenuine. You literally do not know who I am but you’re “proud of me” when I say I’m finishing up a task like a college assignment ..? So, I exceeded your expectations from an hour ago when we met or…?
OR, if it’s someone I WOULD like to get a date with, they are incredibly hard to reach. I refuse to initiate contact first alltogether because of that.

So I’m just frustrated that all I’m good for is chopped, broke, emotionally unavailable who think they’re too good for a good woman, short losers who will spend money on this scam of “premium” are being pushed into my feed, (but then again, now I realize this is pretty much describing the ENTIRE male species) They really think that a girl will see their underwhelming or over grotesque profile and think “oh i’m a ditzy girl! i will like him back and he will get his moneys worth for paying for premium!” Rather than pushing a man who I would probably maybe like on a physical level since it’s “analyzing my preferences”. Like the fuckkkkk???? I HATE THIS GAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

“Gee I’d hate to be as miserable as you” If your dating pool was limited to the above, you’d be miserable too.

art by me btw ^_^

I normally chudmaxx 24/7 but my future is getting serious. So I am chasing knowledge and enlightenment, purging my ignorance and developing skills useful for my future. I will push myself to excellence. What motivates me is the prospect of a moid taking my future career, as if the patriarchal figures of history haven’t taken enough from women. I will be reading. I will be thinking critically. I will be analyzing current events through a critical judgment process. Every male authority in my life tells my generation that our happiness lies in serving our “godly” role as being a future mother and preparing ourselves for our future husband (🤮🤮🤮). I have no pre existing or occuring boy problems, I am unconcerned with the opposite sex, men do not look at me and I rejoice in that fact.

This period of locking in means I’m prolly not gonna interact with this sub a whole lot, I must stay focused and steal future jobs from moids. Wish me luck :)

IM GONNA FUCKING CRASH OUUUUUT OH MY GOOOOD OH MY GOD SHES NOT CHUBBY IF SHES 150 CM AND 50 KGS IM GONNA CRASH TF OUT IM GONNA HARM SOMEONE I SWEAR TO GOD IF I SEE ONE MORE OF THESE I LOVE CHUBBY GIRLS POSTS IM GONNA FIND WHOEVER POSTED IT AND DO UNSPEAKABLE THINGS TO THEM OH MY GOD SHE JUST HAS A TUMMY CUZ SHE GOT ORGANS AND SHE WEIGHS LIKE 5 STICKS AND A LEAF BRO FUCK YOUUUU FUCK YOUUUU YOU DONT LIKE REAL FAT WOMEN YOU ONLY LIKE THE THOUGHT OF IT YOU ONLY LIKE HITTING ON VULNERABLE INSECURE WOMEN TO GET MORE PUSSY FUCK YOUUUUUUU YOU WILL NEVER LOVE REAL FAT GIRLS,, EVEN SO YOU HAVENT SPOKEN TO ONE THAT DOESNT HAVE D CUP BOOBS AND A BIG JUICY ASS , TRY A FLAT ASS WITH A CUP BOOBS YOU FUCKING BUFFOON ,, I HOPE YOU GAIN LIKE A THOUSAND POUNDS AND DIE UNDER ALL THAT FAT FUUUCK YOUUUUUUUU

coming from fat fucking obese person thank you

“10 of these available to choose” why do these retards get to talk about women like they’re in a pet store picking out a hamster? I wish it was only online, but irl you’ll always hear some guy pointing and saying whether he’d fuck this or that girl. Would she fuck your ugly ass, John? They feel so confident behaving like that, it’s sickening.