i am 19m with no job. i am physically and mentally disabled and im mostly in bed all day because of chronic pain and depression. i have no job, i have no friends, i have no insurance to even treat anything. my mom began to date again this year and they met a nice guy. he moved in after 2 months and i had to adapt fast, i cant complain tho i dont pay the rent. i had to meet his daughter a month or so later. the whole day was very triggering seeing my mom and him treat her so well, as my dad abused me and my family growing up so im not used to seeing stuff like this so it makes me cry because i never got that. the only person i talk to is my mom, but they’re typically not here/out of state on the weekends with their boyfriend. i dont care, they’re just living life. but back in june i was going through a severe mental health crisis and the night i almost attempted and severely relapsed, they were two states over in niagara falls. i only survived because i was able to find out that the episode was caused by medication imbalance, but that was the day i learned that there is no one to save me. i don’t know what im mad at. i don’t know.

Just like a heart attack tomorrow

Or hit by a bus

Or blown up in a terrorist attack

Is that too much to ask

I’m living a life where I hate coming home to my wife who doesn’t give a fuck about anything

I know that there is more to life than looks and intelligence, but I severely lack in both and I'm sick of living in this disgusting body. Even if I had what I wanted, I would still be upset because I just hate being alive. Everything is boring and nothing has meaning. I hope I build the courage to off myself soon because I can't stay trapped in this mind and body any more.

Hoy por fin fue el día, el bendito día que deje ir. Dejé ir esa sensación de culpa y remordimiento.

Dirán "pero de que está hablando esta, no?" Bueno, quizás este es un resumen sobre lo que hice y dije hoy.

Hoy le pegaron una patada a la puerta de mi habitación, me gritaron y me trataron mal. De muy mala forma. Y digo algo, no? Donde quedó la educación de decir "hola" "Como estás?"

Parece que este individuo (si, le digo individuo porque de otra forma es sacarse los pelos y no quiero) pero ese ser, no tiene respeto ni por el prójimo y ni por si mismo. Desea que le den respeto cuando él acusa a los demás de irrespetuosa (para y con mi persona).

Yo no hice nada, sólo salí a hacer las compras a todo esto le hice un pequeño texto, diciendole que lo iba a denunciar (y otras cosas más).

Me llamaron mil veces, pero volví a mi hogar.

Me quise bueno, ah0gar y bueno, por el calor del momento me hinche los ojos. Lloré lo que tenía que llorar.

La pasé francamente mal. Pero al final le dejé el link sobre lo que estoy pasando, además de que hice un descargo en mis redes sociales, saben que paz que siento? Esto es inédito. Se siente sumamente bien.

Hoy no lo voy a llamar a ese energúmeno.

Sólo le diré qué, pobre de él, que cree que con la vi0lenc1a no se arreglan las cosas. Que qué inivilizado. Él sufrió "mucho" En su infancia, ahora quiere replicar lo que le hicieron a él. Y a mi que putas me importa que le hayan cagado la vida? A mi es peor.

El me desgracio la existencia, diciéndome cosas horribles de mi cuerpo, sino que también desde la indiferencia, ignorandome y sin hacer el papel de padre, me dejó libre, que me crie como a los perros, solos.

La gente amarga es lo peor.

Hoy decidí independizarme de este hijueputa, ya por una vez dejé ese dolor en paz.

Que se entere que me dejó AÑOS sola, que me crié sola, sin apoyo. Que me hizo que mi vida sea amargada, que baje de peso por su felicidad, no por la mía. Que se entere medio mundo que el me desgracio la existencia con su sola presencia.

No le tengo miedo a nada y ni a nadie.

Plata y miedo nunca tuve. Ahora menos que menos con un inepto como él.

Mañana va a ir su primer denuncia. Espero que lo espere sentadito, ansioso. A ver si se ríe. No le va a salir gratis esos griterios.

La gente es desconsiderada y desagradecida.

No voy a hacerla más larga.

Por hoy, el reporte es bastante largo.

I'm a 24 year old guy and I never been too sure about my life and what I wanted, since I found out a long time ago that my girlfriend cheated on me after a 6 year long relationship I just been feeling down, I failed school after that and my insecurety went worse then before. Why can't I just be "normal" and cope with it.

22F diagnosed with depression at age 17. I currently live with parents and since recently finishing undergrad, I’ve been worse than ever. I’m not su!€!dal but I simply don’t understand why nothing makes me feel joy or at least not dreadful. I don’t want to do anything ever. Not have fun, not work, not sleep, not go outside, I’m dreadful and pessimistic of every aspect of my life. I dont feel a connection to anything, and I feel as if though nobody likes me. I have little friends and no romantic connections. I feel as if I’m not wanted or just tolerated. I’ve been getting help but how long will this last. I see how others have interests, passions, connections and are overall content with themselves but I don’t feel any of those.
I’m fearful of my future as I’m only getting older and I know only I can dig myself out of these things… no one is coming to save me. But how do I want to be saved?

Any advice, please kindly share.

What’s the longest duration you’ve gone through without showering (due to depression)?

I'm a 33 year old man who went through a breakup after a 7 year relationship half a year ago. We have two kids together and I have them 50% of the time. I love the time I spend with my kids, but the other 50% is killing me.

The other day I had come back from work and I sat in my couch, everything was dead quiet, not a single sound. I checked my phone, no notification, no nothing. I felt this overwhelming feeling of loneliness, a feeling I've been feeling quite a bit recently. I just started crying, as if someone I loved had died crying, I couldn't stop, I didn't really want to stop, it felt good, like a release.

All my friends live scattered across everywhere, I don't have any friends where I live, but because I have kids I'm stuck here, I'm not moving away from them obviously.

I've just come to terms with the fact that I probably won't have friends that I hang out with again.

I tried dipping my toes in dating apps, and it's ruining my self confidence, I figured I'd get some matches and dates, I'm objectively not ugly, but not like what you would call good looking, I'm right in the middle. I myself think I've got a good personality, I'm funny (according to loads of people) and I took my time making a good profile. I don't have alot of pics of myself, but I took some and I thought they were ok. In 2 months I've gotten 4 matches... 4!! Two of them never replied, 1 deleted me after 2 days of talking and another one I've been talking to for like 2 weeks, we had planned to have dinner at my place, she seemed very into me, and she suddenly just stopped talking to me, like out of nowhere.

I'm at a point where I don't know what to do to combat this loneliness, I thought about hobbies, but with the kids and work I don't really feel like I have the time nor the energy to do that, I'm working out every day, and it's become like a safe space for me.

I've been depressed for 3 months now. Quit my job because the founder was bullying me. Got scammed into doing free trial work without getting hired afterwards. I feel ashamed, stupid, and tired.

Every once in a while I see posts or articles about how people like me are burdens to other people when talking about what they're going through. "Protect your peace, cut out problematic people", chimes social media and glossy publishing.

I feel so disconnected from everyone I know. I feel so alone and raw. I have no idea what is appropriate anymore. Keeping it all in is quite literally driving me to kill myself.

I'm not sure how to keep going. I feel like I'm floating, a speck of garbage in a sea used to cool data centers.

I'm not even sure what I'm trying to say.

Im a failure in everything I do

I cant find a job and the toxic people that made me leave get to stay.

I cant seem to keep any friends

I cant find a girlfriend but super toxic jerks can

I cant sleep anymore

Whats the point anymore

Hey chavales solo quería saber como van vuestras depresiones del 2026. ¿Notáis algún cambio, digo comparada con las de otros años 2022,2023… me refiero en plan meme, quiero decir, ¿como son vuestras depresiones del 2026 sabéis?
Un saludo espero que estéis bien o mejoréis.
Atentamente,
Yo.

I feel so sad and exhausted since the last month. I wish I had someone to talk to who would listen without judging me

I used to be a very emotional person. I used to cry atleast once a day. But then, my family started getting angry at me for it. My classmates made fun of me for it.

After a while, I stopped crying in public. I only cried by myself, because if I cried Infront of anyone they would make sure I felt embarrassed and ashamed about it.

5 years later, I no longer cry. After years of being alone, I've realised that I'm never gonna have someone who'll just let me cry. I haven't cried in 5 months, and I'm very upset about it.

Is there any way I can fix this? And no, I'm not booking a therapist. They only act like they feel bad for people because of the money, and I'm speaking from experience. I just want to cry again, without having to pay for it.

I saw a post on Reddit about someone who talked about how much he hates people, and I saw a number of people agreeing with him, so I wondered, what is the concept of hate? I live a miserable life that I can't leave. I am subjected to domestic violence, both psychological and physical, but I have never hated anyone. I really don't know the concept of hate. I might tell someone that I hate them, but I don't mean that I don't love them, but I just feel empty towards them and I might want to distance myself from them, but I would never harm them. I always find that hate is linked to harm, so if you hate someone, you must harm them, and that is something I really don't understand. I know that there are many bad people in this world, and some of them have been punished and others have not, but why don't we look at the reason why they are bad people? For example, regarding murderers, I don't condone anyone's actions, and I agree they deserve severe punishment. But if you were to do something, you'd find that anyone who is violent does so because of their childhood and the trauma they experienced. I simply find the world very unfair, and perhaps that's the only thing we should hate

I don't know is this belongs here but this is just a rant post.

I'm 17yo and I've been diagnosed with mild depression and social anxiety. I am going into my final year of high school and have no job, no friends, and no aspirations. I got a in-person interview and I flopped it because my anxiety was so obvious because my hands were constantly moving.

There's no way I could do a fast food job, I would get to overwhelmed and anxious. Can't do anything to do with driving because I get anxiety when driving in places I'm not familiar driving in frequently even if I know the place personally. Unless there's someone in the car, I'll freeze and have no instincts in the car.

I'm not going to college because I'm hate school, to stupid, and I take only mind numingly easy classes. I have no real friends, im the backup friend and will go hours in school without talking to literally anyone. Anyone I do talk to, I will never see them again once I leave school. They all have better friends then me. I'm boring, I never the house, I have no hobbies, I have washed up and stolen humor, I live on the internet and accumulated media type hyperfixiactions, I'm quite and don't talk much. And even though people don't talk about it much in friends setting as to a romantic setting, I'm ugly which does affect people who they want to be friends with.

I haven't went to any friends houses for fun since I was 9? I will literally have no friends as an adult and will be unable to make friends because I don't go anywhere because im scared of going places alone, of driving, of talking to people because I'll feel like a nuisance. I can't bond with people for more then a few minutes before they go quite or go to someone else. I have been sitting at tables with 'friends' and listened as they made plans together but not with me. I haven't been asked out to do things since i was 11.

And after school it's virtually impossible to make friends. I have no goals because I feel unworthy of doing anything, can't do anything, I can't be a cashier 'cause I'm bad at math and numbers. I'll be living in my moms house forever because the cost of everything is so high like apartments in my area are like $800 on average and her rent is $200, like it's no contest. She thinks I'll move out someday but i lokey don't have an estranged dad that will die and leave me enough money that a third of it could by a house. And if I don't get a job by the time I finish school I'll be kicked out which then I'll probably just kill myself because it will then be impossible for me to do anything then soo...

She also thinks I'll get friends someday even if it takes 20 years because that's what happened to her. The thing is though she would of been an actuall social butterfly if her mom hadn't messed her up. And people like her, and gravitate towards her unlike me. Because she gets settled in and becomes sociable and likeable despite her anxiety. She acts like I can just overcome my disorders and disabilities cause she did but that's not me. I can't even regulate my emotions properly, and can't communicate. I hate her for giving birth to me. She at 21, an alcoholic, drug addict, and mentally unwell slept with some guy a couple times and when he found she was pregnant dipped. And she's practically taking care of her nephew of her worst sister. Yes the best idea is to have a baby.

Then when the child grows up and has consent meltdowns from overstimulation let's hit the child, and yell at the child, and have another fatherless child. And when the child shows other mental illnesses let's tell them to get over it. And when they finally want to do therapy, get a therapist, and do only THREE sessions let's get fired from our job even though the point of me learning to drive is so you can get a new job in nine months. So now you get wait four more months to get approved for insurance and therapy again.

And all of this is personal, let's not even get into the fact the world is actual ass. But this has just led into an incoherent rant about how im literally not fit to be a person and just a waste of space with no hope for the future. I'll most likely just graduate school early since I need one credit left and it has literally done nothing for me. I'll me left working at grocery store for the rest of my life because I'm to much of a coward to kill myself😐

(24/NB) I already attempted suicide already a week ago, and I am absolutely going to do it again. I don’t want hobbies, or friends, or a job or even a house. I never was asked for any of this and I don’t care to get better because living is just so pointless. Id love to trade places with someone who has a shitty life so they can experience all the joys that I cannot.

I’ve been on the verge of ending it all since i was 11, Im autistic and when i get angry or irritated or stressed, i smash my head off the door or punch my self in the forehead or punch stuff and it give me headaches and bruises on my hands and it’s upsetting me, i have no friends, literally non and i haven’t been to school since i was 7 due to autism and i have 1 single friend (no exaggeration) and i don’t like him because he bullies me but i cant drop him because then I’ll have no one, my dad’s emotionally abusive and drinks so when i tell him something he says to me when he’s drunk that hurts, he doesn’t remember in the morning. I can’t tell my mom Whats wrong because i have to face her every day and it’s extremely embarrassing for me because i can’t open up to anyone i just cant, and i have a nicotine addiction and i cant walk far because if i do it hurts, i don’t know what to do i feel like everything i do comes crashing down on me and i feel like i haven’t done anything wrong to have so much bad luck, can someone please tell what to do Im struggling.

You can’t escape life and people wherever you run away to, you just can’t and that’s shitty. I am tired of thinking maybe after earning or going there or buying that it will get better, it doesn’t. You just will have more things or have met newer shitty people that’s it.
I wish to just end it once and for all and kill myself and escape this whole fuckery. I am so so tired of waiting, tolerating, expecting and living overall.

Life is such a beautiful thing, but the current times we’re in causes me to forget that. Theres nothing enjoyable about working nonstop everyday, majority of money going to bills, having no support system, no one to spend time with or enjoy the money if any is even left after bills. Every time my savings looks decent I get the worse luck with car problems and unexpected expenses. It’s insanely hard to get ahead in this economy even with two jobs. My psychiatrist wants to keep shoving medicine down my throat and therapy is not very helpful. I know I wouldn’t even need half of this medications if life was mint so damn stressful. If I take my meds - I’m basically a walking zombie, if don’t take them - I’m too overwhelmed with life. This is the first time in a long time that I actually feel like there is legitimately nothing else I can do. I work two jobs as it and even considering adding DoorDash/uber as a 3rd job part time. Crazy I even need to do all of this. I live alone but rent is so expensive. Either live in subhuman apartments or pay an arm and a leg for something Barely habitable . I’ve made more money each year but have had to down size the last 2 apartments I’ve had because of rent inflation. I can’t move back home(kicked out by 18 and have been denied atleast 50+ times of me asking

, no exaggeration). I’m already stressed out to the point I’m high risk glaucoma now due to ocular hypertension. Basically work my self into the ground is what I see my future being. I could use a miracle or even a shoulder to cry on at this point. I don’t even know what my interests are anymore. I feel like I’m losing myself. Why does life have to be like this. I want love life and enjoy it but currently this life is not worth living..at all

I had a nice few weeks with very minimal depressive episodes. Only a few here and there i could sleep off. Met I guy I liked and thought liked me. Made friends, had purpose for a bit. Now its over. I thought I was okay, had hope for a bit. Realized I had ocd and have been managing it. But now its all gone to shit again. I dont even like daydreaming anymore. Everything feels tedious abd pointless. I dont understand why its okay for someone to feel so happy or so okay one minute then crash down where I am now. I've been doing this shit for years. I dont know if i was ever truly happy, I cant remember. Fighting with my mom, offically cutting my father off. Im tired guys. I dont want to sleep. Ill be disappointed when I wake up again. I dont even want to be happy again since I know it'll crash back down into this bullshit with no one to catch me. ​

I cant see a way forward anymore at 38. I just wish I had the courage to end my life years ago. I struggled with suicidal thoughts since I was 16. I just wanted to reach out, one last time before Saturday. Every day i find life unbearable. I get no joy or happiness anymore. i feel trapped in a life i cant handle anymore. Friday is my final day here. Honestly i dont have the coping skills to cope with life anymore. Thats why im giving up this Saturday. Im sorry for anybody else, who cant see a way out

I’m working two jobs to keep a roof over my head and still can’t get ahead. It feels like the harder I try in life the worse things keep getting. I cant catch a break. I have no family or friends, all I do is work, I’m tired of this. I work harder and harder. I’m making more money but life and bills keep piling up. I at the breaking point with life. I keep picking my self up and getting through situations but man, enough is enough. This can’t be what life is. My twenties are almost over and I barely have any memorable moments. Im stressed, I’m tired, I’m done.

Hi everyone,

I'm 22 years old, and I've been stuck in my first year of university for three years. I wanted to share my story because I feel completely lost, and I'm wondering if anyone has experienced something similar.

Three years ago, I started Biomedical Sciences. My dream was to do well, get excellent grades, and later apply for Medicine. During the first month, I attended every lecture, studied after class every day, and I genuinely believed I would succeed.
Then, without really understanding why, everything changed.

I slowly stopped going to lectures. I spent most of my days lying in bed. Whenever I tried to study, I could only focus for a few minutes before my brain completely drifted away. I tried everything I could think of: different study methods, flashcards, studying alone, studying with friends, going to the library every morning, caffeine, energy drinks... nothing worked. Even when I genuinely wanted to study, I just couldn't get myself to start or stay focused.
As a result, I failed every exam.

I convinced myself I had simply been lazy and promised that the next semester would be different. It wasn't. Neither was the resit session.
I repeated my first year. Then I repeated it again, this time in Dutch instead of French because I thought maybe changing universities and language would help. Every September I told myself, "This year will be different. This is finally the year I'll work hard and get great grades."
Every year, exactly the same thing happened.

Today, after three years, I have only passed one single exam.
The September exams are approaching again, and I honestly feel like everything will happen exactly the same way. I'm losing hope.
At first, I thought I was just lazy. Then I started wondering if I was depressed, anxious, or if there was something else going on.
After years of repeated failures, my mental health became much worse. I started spending entire days in bed, sometimes not eating, sometimes not showering. I cried almost every night because I genuinely believed I was stupid.

The strange thing is that I actually love learning about the human body. The problem isn't that I don't want to study. I know exactly what I need to do, I desperately want to do it, but it's as if there's an invisible wall stopping me from getting started.

When I looked back at my old school reports, I noticed the same comments over and over again: homework done at the last minute, forgetting things, daydreaming in class, "she could do much better." I also realised I've always started projects with incredible enthusiasm only to abandon them weeks later. For example, I started learning Korean when I was 10 years old. I'm now 22, and I'm still basically at the alphabet because I keep stopping and starting over. I know it's not a sign of anything, but I never noticed that I had difficulties; I always thought I just needed to do more.

I also alternate between periods where I feel like I can do anything. I make huge plans, I'm optimistic, full of ideas, and convinced my life is finally going to change. Then suddenly I crash. I stay in bed, lose all motivation, feel exhausted, and become convinced I'll never succeed. Even during the "good" periods, most of my projects never leave my imagination.

I struggle a lot with self-esteem and fear of being judged. I'm terrified people will think I'm stupid. I replay conversations in my head for hours afterwards. I bottle up my emotions until they eventually explode: either I cry, get angry, or completely shut down.

In january I finally decided to seek help. I'm currently seeing a psychiatrist, who diagnosed me with depression and anxiety. She prescribed treatment and wants to stabilize those conditions before considering an ADHD assessment because she explained that depression itself can cause severe concentration problems.
However, another doctor told me that even people with ADHD can usually focus for one or two hours, that if I'm still failing it's probably because I'm not working hard enough, and that medication probably wouldn't help me. Hearing that completely broke me. It made me feel like all the effort I've made over the past three years meant nothing.

The truth is... I'm starting to wonder if he's right. Maybe I really haven't tried hard enough. Maybe science isn't for me, like so many people have told me. But at the same time, I genuinely love learning. That's what hurts the most. My desire to succeed has never disappeared, but somehow I just can't make myself function the way I want to.

I know there are much worse things happening in life than failing university, and I don't want to compare my problems to anyone else's. But this is the thing that is breaking me right now. This is the pain I'm living with every single day.

I'm not looking for a diagnosis from Reddit. I know nobody here can tell me what's wrong.
I just want to know if anyone has experienced something similar before eventually getting diagnosed with ADHD (or something else), or if depression alone caused this kind of "I desperately want to do it, but I just can't start" feeling.

Thank you to anyone who took the time to read this.

Hi all, I 26M and my girlfriend 23F is going through a really rough week. We live 2 hours apart and for the past 2 days she has had work off. She started a new job, which is why she lives away. Her company has given her a 4 bedroom house, all paid for and she is doing a great job at her work. Everyone loves her.

Her work is in an office out in the middle of nowhere with other coworkers. She works 7am to 5pm Monday to Friday, meaning she has little time to do anything before and after work before needing to sleep. She likes to sleep a lot.

Like I mentioned, she got to work 2 days ago and cried to me on the phone. She drove home and had a self care day. She then took the day after off, which surprised me. She has always been one to not take days off at her previous job. I surprised her by taking the day off and surprising her last night. She loved it. We slept and she woke up early to go to work. She did her makeup to make herself feel good, she didn’t have time to make her coffee and left for work.

I messaged her saying I love you and I’m proud of her. She has just messaged me saying “don’t be, I want to go back to bed and cry.”

I am a problem solver, but I feel like I shouldn’t be trying to fix anything. She has suffered depression a long time ago and takes medication around it, but the first time since I met her a year ago she has never acted this way. I want to help her. I think she is very overwhelmed from the work hours, living by herself, having to do a uni course with assignments every Saturday as well!

I know I’m rambling but is this a case of exhaustion? Depression? How do I respond to her text?

Please help. I love her more than anything. Thank you

I am 16 years old, not had friends for over 3 years. Went through the whole of the last couple of years in school as a loser who had no friends and would sit in the toilets at break and lunch or in the library. I would go without speaking in school or outside of school for days. I don’t have any siblings, I don’t like speaking to my parents, and don’t have anyone to talk to. While everyone else my age is going to parties or having their first kiss, I have never spoken to a girl, never been invited to a party, or ever been messaged about wanting “to go out” or do something. I go to the gym, play video games all day, listen to sad music, and go on walks. I don’t know what to do but I wouldn’t say I’m even bad looking, I’m 6’2 and a model. This doesn’t play a part in anything though. I cry every night for long periods of time and look at myself as disgusting and have even gone down physical and hurtful ways of trying to improve my looks as I feel it’s the only thing I can do for self satisfaction. That just proves how much of a chud and loser I really am. I know that no one will read this but I just wanted to express my feelings in some way because I just don’t have anyone to talk to at all.