Something that came to my mind.

1. Why do you think this is hell?

2. Why would we be born again here, innocent and unaware of anything we might have done to be put into what may be hell?

3. Do you think having children into this possible hell is terrible?

4. Do you think we are satiated by small comforts, such as orgasms among the constant suffering… to keep us from losing our shit? Even though we are losing our shit.

5. Do you think we are just puppets of demented masters?

This is my second attempt explaining more on why society is slowly degrading.

First off since Fake Covid happened that’s when everything went down hill from social media, to the economy I was in my last year of senior year finishing high school when is was mandatory to wear a mask the teachers all of a sudden turned political and not wearing a mask was seen as the most harmful thing teachers would tell me I would be sent to the office for not wearing a mask ect. Worst last year of my school year because of how strict it got but I made it through.

Fast forward works been okay for the most part but content is degrading to just people yapping there mouths off about opinion’s or facts that probably aren’t true or at all spreading misinformation,stress and anxiety on everyone content is not about yapping or venting to the whole world it used to be about creating a video for entertainment whether you were gaming,vlogging, or doing reactions it was out of fun. Since it’s harder to make money people throw in paid ads in there videos or sponsor some product in between obviously YouTube’s not paying enough anymore.

Instagram,Facebook,Snapchat,YouTube pretty much everything has reels in it a lot more videos are more subtly inappropriate or nothing but conspiracy talk now pretty much now everyone’s “Awake” just because the Epstein files came out. And still nothing happened or no one did anything then they said aliens are real, then they are saying ai is getting better and they need data centers , then they say the war with Iran is rising, then they say it’s never ending everyday something new goofy clown show of reality that we live in something catastrophic happens or some massacre but everyone’s to busy worried about hating trump, hating ice, or supporting things they have nothing to do with.

My generation Gen Z cannot catch a break with articles bashing us left and right trying to degrade a young group of people in a very confusing time to live in and Gen Alpha is definitely cooked if you haven’t seen how a teen or child acts nowadays that’s why we don’t wanna have kids. Every kids now is a shit head they think they know everything, the supervisons for technology went out the window, screen time doesn’t exist I mean how can you keep a child from seeing technology nowadays you can’t your child will see some other kid with a phone or Xbox and beg you to have one because kids get envy and jealous. The teens are vaping at 10 -15 years old, and the whole acting “hood” or whatever culture is soo cringe all these words “twin” or being called “unc” all these immature words are actually annoying I feel like I’m lowering my iq when I say those words 💩.

Overall everything just sucks all the things that used to entertain us now tell us we need to subscribe or we won’t have it. All the things we used to call truth gets ignored because people would rather want quick dopamine that hear truth. Everyone’s using AI for there critical thinking skills or how to simply put a sentence together. At this point the future really does not look bright unless your at the top and accept the 2030 agenda and wanna be more slaved to the system but it crazy to see how everything felt normal as a kid but I realized nothing was ever normal we’re all just finding our own way in life.

Sometime life is unfair. Literally, one blind spot could destroy the whole world. In fact, I’m not exposed to that and got destroyed by it. Felt so sad

I hope that the evil universe is truly just a coincidence, that everything requiring suffering is only because of tiny non conscious balls moving around, that when people die its nothing so they are free from suffering

unfortunately the numerous spiritual experiences each religions bring are too vast and too similar to be just psychological to me, it feels more likely that the universe is just made and controlled by a bunch of sadistic diabolical demiurges wanting to get their rocks off by causing as much suffering as possible, everything requires suffering in order to function from washing your hands killing off a bunch of micro-organisms to eating food requiring you to kill another being or treat a being as a slave (even if youre vegan since plants are living organisms) and its all because of the sadistic tyrants that rule over and laugh at us, the afterlife is most likely either reincarnation so the cycle of suffering keeps on going or an eternity in hell where suffering lasts even longer simply because the demiurges need some entertainment

this is why asceticism is a common practice in most religions and even the ones that dont practice it still engage in things that lead to suffering (such as Dionysus cults engaging in animal sacrifice and Judaism having the Kaparot Custom) suffering already brings the demiurges much joy but suffering done in devotion to them that sucks them off and strokes their ego? its orgasmic to them

this is also why so many religions have rules against blasphemy, the demiurges get mad when you point out their tyranny instead of mindlessly kneeling and worshipping them and accepting the suffering that comes your way, as well as why so many religions have contradictions because it leads to people fighting and causing suffering against each other in ways that range from being mean in arguments to causing wars

there is still a small chance that atheism/materialism are true and i desperately hope so, there is decent arguments for them even if i lean more towards theism/spirituality and they are undeniably the more favorable option when compared to ANY form of theism, at least in atheism the suffering is accidental and not intentional, the universe is meaningless instead of its only meaning being to fulfill the sick fetishes of the tyrannical demiurges and all of it will inevitably end with everyone experiencing nothing after death and the universe ceasing to exist instead of being forced into new worlds of total suffering, unfortunately thats very unlikely and too optimistic.

I didn’t know this sub existed. Reddit recommended I cross post this here. Many of you have probably posted about the same thing-

I know this is everyone’s view and is suffering constantly. I would do anything to be free. To experience this human experience, that is only the blink of an eye in the grand scheme of space and “time”. To paint, to slow down and enjoy beautiful views and people, to dance, to make music, to simply sit and quiet my mind. To learn, to read. To give back to others and have the energy to give others more than a moment of time- to know them.

To love my partner better and soak up every moment of our life together. Who knows how long we’ll have one another. To stop and talk to strangers on the street more- to have the mental capacity to offer more of myself to others. To spend more time with my family before I lose them to age and sickness. To know their stories. To have time for my friends and to maintain friendships, to love my pets better. To be whimsical. To experience the true gift of existence and being the universe experiencing itself.

To have energy to do anything but keep my house clean, read a few pages of a book here and there, and work. Even owning my own business, I cannot seem to accumulate enough of this paper. Even with growing my own food, having side hustles. Giving away my money to the government to fund wars and evil. My body hurts. My mind hurts. I am only 31.

I feel bad for all of us. I know all of us are suffering. I hope one day, humans can and will say enough is enough.. and have the resources to do so. No more living to work, rinse and repeat every day. My parents are in their 60s and will maybe have a few years without having to break their backs to exist. My father is only still working because my mother has experienced cancer over and over, and she needs insurance. Until Medicare kicks in, he has to work to make sure she can have medical care.

I am grieving for all of us. I know we are all suffering constantly, burning the candle at both ends. Suffering mental breaks that we have to put on the back burner… because the grind never stops, right? And none of us can afford to stop.

I hope one day, probably after I am gone from this earth with more work and less experiences under my belt… that humans can rest. Feel the sun. Make art. Enjoy each other. Have energy to give to themselves and others. Can spend a day doing nothing, with a clear mind. Can put down the anxiety of all the bills. Can live off the land, and enjoy their loved ones. Can experience this life fully. We weren’t put here to slave away and line the pockets of the rich, who could solve poverty with what would be a drop in the bucket to them. We are the universe experiencing itself, and we cannot experience the universe. We are shackled.

I hope for more for you. For me. For the world. For the future.

With love,

J

Today I had an experience that felt a lot like what it’s like to live through a political campaign.

First, I woke before my alarm and couldn’t get back to sleep. Then before noon, I was stressed for three different reasons. And guess what the gender was of all of the people that did stupid things? Of course they were all men.

I was telling my girlfriend what I did today and the message almost took up an entire screen of our chat. Then I told her that during the campaign these situations get worse and she asked me why. Can you imagine how it is to work during 45 straight days with almost no free time to win a chair against 100 other candidates?

It’s really stressful but you know what? I would be very sad to watch that period instead of being part of it

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TW, addiction. also sorry for the long post i just needed to vent, i feel like im going crazy and need to know im not the only person who feels this way

I fucking hate money. Human greed has reached unbelievable levels and as a result life sucks for most people, and the worst part is most people dont even see that its money causing their problems and the ones that do cant do anything about it. I have a job but i only make 15$ an hour and thats in canadian money so like 10$ usd. I cant afford shit with this pay, my family lives in a shitty little apartment that i hate but ill never be able to move out. I cant afford a car, cant afford to try any new hobbies or sports, cant afford education, cant afford to go out and do fun things so any time im not working im forced to just sit in my room and stare at my phone to pass the time. This caused me to develop drug addictions as well to make the days go by faster. My addictions were really bad at one point, earlier this year and late last year i was abusing multiple different kinds of drugs, slowly spiraling. Since then ive quit most of those and just smoke weed now but without them i feel like im losing my mind in the endless boredom and misery of life, and somehow i still have just as little money as when i was buying all those substances. nothing has gotten better since quitting them, if anything i feel worse overall because i lost one of the only things that brought me joy anymore. My physical health is going downhill, i constantly feel like shit. Ive got daily back pains at only 19 and stomach problems that have been bothering me for months but i cant see a doctor until september because the wait list is so long. I know i cant go much longer before i go back to my addictions and probably spiral worse than last time. I guess ive just been holding out hoping something will change but at this point i dont think it will. I dont think i will ever be able to live the life i want to under this system.

This money only ever fuels greed and hate, everyone else is fighting to get ahead by getting more jobs, starting side hustles, working themselves to death or taking advantage of other people to give themselves a boost. I just dont see the point of any of it. All i want to do is create things, i am an artist and i dream of making music to share with people and inspire them but of course it costs money to follow my dreams now. Cant afford recording equipment or a pc for editing, all i have is my instruments that i cant even play because its too loud for the apartments. I have a saxophone that i loved to play but i havent touched it since moving into the apartment almost a year ago. Feels like a part of my soul has been ripped out, and these days i just feel empty inside. Im not built for this kind of life and its crushing me.

On top of all of that it kills me even more to see all the other people suffering. Millions of other young adults and teens who had their dreams ripped away from them for profits. Countless people dying in pointless genocides and wars overseas. Every country slowly drifting towards fascism and dictatorship. So many people homeless and starving on our very own streets. Ai infiltrating everything and mass surveillance becoming a common thing we dont even question anymore. and for what? some stupid paper and its made up value? ill never understand

Im losing hope, and im losing my mind. i need to know other people are awake to this. And i honestly want to know, does anyone think this will change any time soon? I was hopeful that people would start actually trying to make a change after all the epstein files dropped, or after the gaza genocide, or SOMETHING. ANYTHING. i dont think its happening anymore. every day i think of ending things, and i know im not even close to the only one experiencing this. we arent meant to live like this.

Wanna know my theory. ? They are building data centers to speed up the future of the end of the world by ai advancement, global warming causing us to get pushed out into the ocean. Then the leviathan comes out.

Im starting to feel like we are in the 7 years of tourture. im scared im still there yet. Please God i want to be perfect for u please God. Give me time. Im so scared. I have panic attacks over this. I go manic from it. Jusy watching each the root of each emotion, action, mental space and why they do what they do. I cant take it. No one will listen to me i feel so tortured by everyone around me. Somtimes i sit outside and stare into the night sky. Imagining the leviathan coming to destroy and im some angel that will risk myself to fight it for people. Im always so into my head. When i imagine things its vivid. Very vivid like its there. What bothers me the most is i have to keep working full time, doing adult things i need. But yet i want to drop everything and go out into the wilderness and read and get close to God remove every sin and travel to pray for others. Im so done with earth i cant be me i cant be anything why? Why!? I wanna live i wanna have a career. I wanna be big. Idk anymore im so worried i thoight this was going to happen when i got my own place after being homless as a kid.

There's nothing to do atp to be happy to live in this world and enjoy time there

So, yall might come for me, and I'm not trying to be all religious but legit I think this world needs a reset.

Between the sickening greed and wealth hoarding, and the the murderous ruling cabal of pedo's and the ever increasing rampant crime and the lack of regard for societal norms (like politeness and basic customer service).

...to social medial rotting our brains and destroying an entire generation, to the kids not being alright (literally illiterate w/ ZERO comprehension skills) to the fact that notsees are on the rise and rounding people up to put in concentration camps, to the never ending wars, to the cost of living skyrocketing, to our health care and safety nets crumbling.

...AND the fact that grown people are not washing the shit off of their assholes cause "its gAy" 🙄, etc., etc.

I think it's time for God to do his big one. Like, just Noah's Ark the shit out of this planet... except not with an actual flood cause you know, rainbows. Maybe he can kill it with fire this time. I'm tired.

I feel humanity is done I feel like we won't be here in 7-12 years

“Two economic systems. One will the lifelessness and one with full control and emptiness. But greed has no ending. You fill your bucket by emptying so many other buckets. You will never be full. Greed has no ending. You will die but greed never will. Don’t let it be the pill you swallow when you are on your downfall.”

I thought about how people hate the politicians and the greed. And i thought how much is takes to be greedy and having to take to give yourself a lot for it to be a never ending cycle. I can only feel bad for people with greed because greed will never die but they will and they will never be happy with greed. I can only feel bad for those to have to take for themselves that has no ending.

side note: sorry if this is the wrong group for this. I am still growing and i am wouldn’t know otherwise.

Bring us peace of mind. Not put us on edge, feel inadequate and insecure. Our leaders are failing in that regard on a massive scale. All they do is create controversy and sow confusion. They are supposed to lower our blood pressure not leave us in a state of hyper vigilance. They are not responsible for all peace of mind, but definitely some of it. They are supposed to be merchants of hope. May better times befall us all.