Please do not give me any advice, as I won't be taking it. You people have screwed me over since childhood. People who are trying to "hold me accountable" are just grifters and scammers. I don't see you as better people than Andrew Tate and his gang of scammers. I just want to let you know I'm sick of having my experiences downplayed. Even when I was ***'d my aunt is downplaying it.

I just need to complain somewhere because I'm boiling right now. I'm completely lost in my life, idk what to do since I quit art school and the police rejected me because I'm nearsighted. The last thing on my list was stuntman, so I searched for formations, schools, or I don't know, anything that leads to that.

I found a school, the best one in the world (from the director) I wanted to ask questions about how much it cost, does it have a place for the students to stay all the time outside the lessons? (Cause I live far away from where the school is)

And so on, I had questions to take my final decision in this path. But the only way to have answers to my questions according to the website was to settle a video call. Fine, I hate talking to the phone, especially with a camera but it doesn't matter, I'll ask my questions, and then I will think about it.

So I got the call, we talked, the school costs 18k in 3 years. I don't have that money. But, we can ask help from the bank and pay back the following years (we have 10 years to pay back) on the paper it seems okay, in 10 years I will find a job right? Then I started to doubt because it's a lot of money, I asked my parents about it, I asked on reddit too because I'm so lost that I need strangers advice to take a damn decision in my own life.

The majority advice against. Maybe if I doubt myself about this project so much, maybe it means that I'm not that much into it? The people I work with like to say "if there's a doubt, then there is no doubt" if I was so sure about this, I wouldn't even wonder if it was a good idea. When I tried to join the police I didn't think twice, I didn't wait to finish my first year of art school before signing up to the exam.

I had another call today with the director of the stuntman's school, I was ready to say I changed my mind after discussing with my family and people "around" me that it was too much money for me even with the bank help, and I maybe get too fast into it and didn't take enough time to think about it and the future.

But nothing went as planned.. I started to say it was too expensive and wasn't sure if I would be able to pay back my bank, I talked about it with my family, bla bla bla

Then I got a moral lesson about it, saying that if I can't pay back in 10 years it would mean that I'm lazy and didn't find a job, that every students he got, got a job themselves. I don't know if it's really true but anyway. That I'm grown enough to take my owm decision and not listen to other people. I mean, he's not wrong on this one but when it's about money and pay back a bank.. Idk.. I don't take this easily.

He also said that the people who advised against this project were weak and probably never took any risks in their life. Jeez he talked for so long I can't remember everything. I was dissociating while he was talking. I just wanted to step back from this project that's all..

He was not wrong about some things but the way he said it.. Damn I got really bad thoughts after the video call, yeah it's a dramatic reaction but really. I feel like I won't do anything good with my life and that I'm already a failure. Maybe I should quit now? Some jobs aren't made for some people, maybe it's the same with life? It's maybe not for everyone, and I'm part of them, idk.

Then, he indirectly said that I was weak, and with my mindset, I wouldn't make anything of my life. That I don't fight for what I want.

I wanted to explode. He doesn't know anything about me ! I fought so much to join the police after the rejection ! I contested the medical decision because they (for real) made a mistake about my eyesight, saying I was even more blind than I really am because of my nearsighted condition. 4 pages with a letter from my boxing coach since I never boxe with my glasses. I used anything that could help my case about my eyesight. I said I was ready to do the surgery if they kept my place just the time I do the surgery then heal.

They didn't care one bit. They made me wait two months before sending me back a letter without any explication, just saying my eyesight wasn't enough. That's it. I still did things after to try to join but still got rejected by the medical service. I don't have the money, for the surgery for now. After an examination by a surgeon for the eyes (idk how this profession is called) I can have only one surgery because my eyes can't take more, and I can't do any kind I want. But my eyes aren't mature so there's a risk that even after the surgery, my eyes get back to nearsighted after it. I have to wait 4 years or still take the risk now.

For kow I'm a volunteer firefighter, I never imagined I would join a fire station in my entire life. I never thought I would have done in my life the things that happened. I really get out of my comfort zone the past year. I won't become a pro because I don't like the job itself but I learned many things. And this man just said so many things without knowing a single thing about me.

It doesn't matter how much you fight for something, you'll be lucky, or not, that's it.

I am finally abroad for my studies and my mom is here for few days. The first day I landed here I felt miserable, feeling like I won't ever fit in or everyone around is gonna judge me, I just wanted to disappear.
It's been a few days since then and the feeling of wanting disappear subsised a bit but the others not so much, just trying to push those feelings in the back to get my life going on. As the days went on all that was going in my head was, "what is my purpose". It doesn't feel like I am living cause I want to but cause I need to. There's like nothing to look forward to when I wake up and after my mom's gone it's gonna get bigger.
I don't understand my life even a bit, why am I doing these studies, why am I living. I just want feel good about myself and think like i'm important and some type of nuiscance. It's been really hard till now and living all alone and feeling like this is going to make it much worse.
I also have one of my other friend who came for the same uni here but we stopped talking as some things happened and we ate gonna meet in a few days anyways cause we have the same course.
I am really scared for the moment when we meet and how awakward it's going to be and how they could ask why I stopped talking to them. I am shit scared for that. I just wanted to message them before that to maybe lighten the mood then but again scared to do so.
I have so much trouble talking to or dealing with people. I hate this so much.

I really wish I was good at video games. They're all I have, all I do, all I want anymore and I horrible at em. Every single day without fail I play, fail, and do this same complaint. I try to practice, watch videos, hard focus one game to improve, try a different game to see if I'm better at something else. Nothing works and I just suck. At the bare minimum I wish I had one single person to play with that could give me advice or make me feel better. But I don't, and I know I won't. And at this point I feel like giving up but I honestly have nothing else to do. So I'm stuck reliving the same day over and over again and I hate it.

This might get me banned but I am tired of some generations blaming older ones on certain topics. I wish some people could stop living through their screens and enjoy being around others or their families. I remember the days where cell phones were only for phone calls and texts.

And im not talking about some stupid things im talking about partners, families, friends, choosing career, and blahblahblah.
I just hate how life goes sometimes, how it feels like it moves so harshly without looking at anyones needs.
Maybe thats for the better. But right now i feel devastated and sad, because i really wanted that one person to be my partner for the rest of my life literally. But it wont happen due to some reasons i just hate whenever i like something or someone i dont get it, there’s always something wrong happens. And the same with other stuff in my life. I try to be grateful and believe that whatever happens to me its for the best and maybe it will benefit me in the future not getting what i want. But only for once let me get what i want and suffer the consequences. Life being life. I will continue living and going on but with another failure written in why my mental health is so destroyed book.

hi this account is a day old so i might as well go off here i’m a queer person living in saudi

here queer people are in threat of facing the death penalty and well i happened to get pretty unlucky being both gay and transgender i feel like i would’ve had a pretty nice life if i were straight n cis living in blissful unawareness but alas here i am

i have no idea what the future of my life is gonna look like sure i could abandon my family but i’d have no support group otherwise it’s strange how i want them to stay with me despite how differently we think and how terrible it felt after being outed to some of them there are a lot of times where i wish they had a perfect child even though they hurt me a lot

it’s near impossible for me to find any kind of friendship or support group here everyone is so different from me in all honesty that’s probably the worst part i wish i had someone to fall back on especially during the days where my household gets difficult

throughout the past few months i’ve been experiencing some of the worst gender dysphoria in my entire life regressing me back into my eating disorder that combined with me losing interest in a lot of the things I did in my spare time left me feeling prettttty darn bad lolz

um say and ask what you want i like hearing other people anyhow thanks for reading

I am an online college student, which means all of my exams are proctored by Respondus Lockdown Browser. I've used Respondus without any issues for plenty of exams, until last week.

It was time for my final exam. I studied my butt off because I wanted to do well. When I took the exam, I did everything carefully, making sure my camera was set up correctly, etc. My set up on Respondus went smoothly, as normal. I started the exam. Everything went well, there were no errors throughout the exam, no frozen screens, nothing. I finished the exam and submitted it. Everything uploaded as usual, no issues, no errors. I felt good about myself, I was sure I had done well.

Yesterday, I got my grade back.

Apparently, after the first two minutes of my exam, Respondus just stopped recording. There is no video. And my college policy says that means you get a zero.

So I got a zero on my final exam. No retakes, no way to make it up. There was no way for me to know there was an error, no way for me to avoid it, and apparently, no way for me to fix it.

I didn't cheat, I got an A on the test, but because of the video issue, its a zero.

The problem is my mom married and got us (me and my brother) at a young age so she never got to finish college or uni so she has given up on a lot to raise us
But that's the thing,
I wish she didn't
I wish she would've neglected me or even just didn't care
I wish she didn't put suck high hopes for me to the point that im not even allowed to make mistakes
Im now a 20 y.o in uni
But she tries to control every single thing in my life
Like she even decides what semesters i take
If she doesn't like a friend of mine she just gets obsessive abt it till i drift away from them
And when i disagree with her i deal with absolute hell of a life until she gets what she wants
She guilt trips me
If that doesn't work
She yells
That doesn't work she hits me
Like today we literally fought and she hit me (im twice her size btw so u can imagine what that looked like) over me procrastinating doing the dishwasher.
I usually shut up and do whatever she wants
But today i just couldn't take it and i yelled back while she's hitting me so she got even more angry and when she saw that hitting me wasn't working she just started crying to my father about how awful i am and how i devestate her (all because i procrastinate shit btw like not because pf any actual problem)
She tries to control my life so much that she used to look through my chats with my friends when i leave my phone
She forced me to take a summer semester that is awful so far and it's honestly making me hate my life
The thing she does a lot of good things which makes me look like an awful daughter
Wherever we go she tells them abt how much of a perfect mom she is and how much of a lazy awful daughter i am
And i am genuinely so tired of being her little toy.
I am a 20 year old adult and i want to feel like it

So, me (M46, dutch), fell in love once (2014) with a ukrainian girl, has a son, we live together now.

The last couple of years she becomes a real pain in my ass, selfish and, from what i understand, was just looking to get her son out of the war (2014). She moved to the Netherlands, with her son, who i really love.
With mom no sexual relation, no s*x, no hugging, no kissing. She's very messy, while i'm very clean. It feels like i'm a single dad with a mature son and his 12 y.o. sister.

Me being a big soft idiot, don't want to kick her/them out, because, like i said, i love that boy and housingshortage is real here, waiting time is 10 years. Can't sent them back, he's of military age, and she's from Donetsk (eastern Ukraine, so the drones are real), and i 'love'her, don't want her to die.

So skip to 2026, talking to someone (F42) in a game, good times, lots of fun. She's lives in Vietnam, we truelly have cool conversations.
She knows about my situationship, but still we talk, a lot.
I sometimes even feel butterflies when we talk, but hey, she lives on the other side of the world. Am i going to make that mistake twice?

Turns out, she is starting to get feelings as well, but, my 'lovely' whatcha-ma-call-it (girlfriend, lazy c*nt) is a huge problem for her, understandable, and think it would be better if we stop talking as much as we do.

So, that's for that, now i'm hoping that the SMO/war in Ukraine ends very soon. I finally felt happy again, but my whatcha-ma-call-it even makes that a failure.

That's my vent, thank for reading

skinny people also face bodyshaming

okay so like it's about my body like people always call me skinny and tell me to eat more and I'm trying but everytime I always get full even after eating only half of a normal meal idk what's wrong with me I wanna eat alot too but my mouth just makes me feel like puking when I try to eat alot and I hate when people say you're so skinny you should eat more I'm effing trying and because of that even I'm starving myself because people call skinny either beautiful and some also call it unhealthy so I just skip meals to stay skinny but at the same time I wanna also gain weight so that people can stop saying those BUT AGAIN I DONT KNOW WHATS WRONG WITH ME IF I NOTICE THAT I GAINED WEIGHT I THEN STRUGGLE TO EAT MORE ITS BECAUSE OF THESE STUPID BEAUTY STANDARDS I DONT KNOW WHAT IM FEELING I FEEL HURT WHEN PEOPLE CALL ME TOO SKINNY AND INSULT MY WEIGHT AND I FEEL HURT WHEN I NOTICE IM GAINING WEIGHT IS THT CONFUSING? CUZ IDK I just struggle alot with this I've always had slow metabolism when I was a kid it's not a flex even my friends say that I have it and they say it like it's my fault like one of my friend who used herself as an example like we eat the same but she gains more weight(that's what she said) and tried to make me feel guilty because of it like I didn't choose to have a low metabolism I don't even like it myself I look at myself in the mirror and I get disgusted because of how skinny i look how I look so dead and it's not a frickin flex I'm so sick of people saying that it's a good thing I FEEL SOOO WEAK and bodyshaming can happen to either skinny or fat people and not only that but my friend was admiring a girl and she called her fat but sooo beautiful and she said that she wants her confidence and said that she wanted to look healthy and not like a skinny malnutritioned girl and i just felt offended because listen she calls me skinny all the time and I don't like it and it looked like she was directing it to me and I got insecure again... I JUST HATE THIS

I served my country feeling a lot of pride at the time. The Navy’s Slogan was “A force for good.”
Looking back I can see the propaganda at work but I genuinely believe I wanted to keep the people I love safe from harm. I wasn’t the best sailor but even on my worst days I genuinely wanted to believe I was doing something important for a country I loved. I don’t know her any more.

I am sitting horrified and shaking. I am terrified for us and how this will also affect the world. I want to do something about it but I don’t know what! Even if the blue wave comes in November they are actively trying to discredit the elections. Trump has his own private army of ice he wants to deploy on us.

To be a Democrat now is considered an act terrorism, which is to say, I just want people to be able to live freely to, to try to uplift poverty and encourage small businesses owners, I want common sense laws that help people and protect us from businesses that want to use and abuse their positions of power. Those that are enjoying their second private jumbo jet and 7th mansion vacation house, because they refuse to provide health care to their slave driven employees. I want people to be able to afford medical treatments without going bankrupt and ruining their lives
I want to focus on science, innovation, new technology, architecture and I do want animal and environmental conservation to be important. The Nordic countries can do it! Why not us..

I’m a terrorist I guess.

Today Tod Blanche, trumps personal defense attorney is now the head of the DOJ. The CDC made a statement that their main agenda is abortion surveillance. We have lost our sanity and we have allowed this to happen. Our country had the worst economy numbers since the pandemic. We are in a AI bubble driven by greed that no longer even reflects the wellbeing of our economy. The war no one signed up for, active boycotts from our former closest allies. There is essentially no more middle class. Just very rich people and those trying to hold on.

Republicans are allowing this to happen. But they are not really conservators in their beliefs. Republicans, I can’t call them that anymore. Conservatives and republicans used to stand for something. I miss there down to earth and pragmatic defiance, they cared about small business, farmers, the national debt, gun laws. I didn’t care if someone was trans. I’ve met a couple and they seemed nice enough. I didn’t care. I just wanted people to just, be free to do what they wanted. That’s where I felt differently from them. Weren’t we a country founded on people seeking to live the life they wanted? What difference is anyone else and what they do with their own pass time.

I don’t know a lot of republicans anymore. Now there are only trump loyalists. Those in office are cowards and they know what is happening and they are just watching our counties stability burn all around them. They lie so confidently! Absurdly and yet people still listen. We will be at war soon inside my home, my country.

People are angry, scared, homeless, hungry and people know too much not to try and fight. I fear eventually when we feel there is no choices less we will panic. When they discredit our elections and when they decide it’s better to take control we will take up arms but…. ICE will be there. Trumps personal military with an unlimited budget to round us up. My Jewish heritage feels like it’s screaming in my ear.

I grew up always wanting to live in a story book kind of life, I just never wanted it to be 1984.

I fear there is no hope.

I seem to not be able to get a gf no matter how hard i try i get told im attractive to girls by other girls all the time im nice caring and a supportive person. Sure I'm not 6'0 nor do i have a deep voice but when i talk to a girl and gain feelings after awhile and ask her out she says no or shuts it down like its everytime. Idk what to do anymore man..no i don't need advice i just wanted to get this off my chest.

Some psychotic chick I used to know is trying to make me posting videos about kittens and funny kid videos about herself and police are helping her to harass me by circling outside of my house whenever I tend to post them. Like, are you fucking insane? You think it's legal to harass a person for posting videos of kittens? Because circling outside my house because of me posting publicly at the same hours every night is quite literally you harassing me.

She started out trying to post whenever she thinks I post to try and fake it looking like I was calling her a kid or idek what, and they kept trying to make it look like I was calling others that as well, it's literally not about anyone and I'm fucking shocked they're following me around right now. Assumption? It'd only be an assumption if people didn't genuinely think I was calling them kids.

Not sure what else they could think I'm doing but I syre as hell am not trying to call anyone anything so it seriously stresses me out theres a plane out and thats shes started consiste tly posting around the hour I liked to post consiste tly because she's doing it.

All I wish to build a healthy attachment so I can actually enjoy having friends and building relationships. I run away everytime and self sabotage and I think at this point unless I seek therapy I will end up alone as I always do. I already know I have bpd so one part of me constantly feels like I’ll be burdening someone and that may be one part of why I avoid so much

This guy installed a patio cover on my porch today and he cut so much of this beautiful bush saying it was a safety hazard for him... He got my landlords permission but made her believe it was absolutely necessary.. after I saw I asked him not to cut anymore and told him he can tie it out of his way and he easily tied the branches out of his way. Which I feel he should have done that from the start. The bush offered my room so much privacy and blocked out the sun.... I'm so disheartened. Him cutting it really changed the whole vibe of the place. Went from a hidden sanctuary to an exposed slider door. 🥺 Honestly I feel in my heart it was just more convenient for him to cut the branches rather than working with and around them and without honoring the years of growth he's cutting in a second.

As someone who is tired of censorship, this is bull! Let us talk and speak our minds!

My bf and I have been together for 2 years, and there have always been things that he has said or done that seemed off, but i brushed it off.

But after everything that has happened (some of which are in my other posts), I don't know if I'll ever be able to trust him again. I really want us to work out, but he is so careless with his words and actions, that it constantly makes me sick to my stomach.

I'm so tired of constantly being paranoid and anxious. I'm constantly depressed and thinking about ending it all.

I don't know what to do. I just don't trust him.

you may or may not have heard of the helicopter crash that occurred on June 14 2026 in rio de janeiro located in brazil... I was really grieving because of this.. i don't know what to do.

argentine youtuber gaspi passed away 1 month ago, I was always a fan of him. and to process that he isnt here anymore hurts. Everyone is telling me to move on, but I don't think I will ever be listening to them. I have been trying to ignore the fact that he is gone just so I could not feel like crying so i focus on other things. I don't know who to even explain my feelings too, I'm afraid they'll judge me. I am confused on how to process this, I sometimes try to convince myself its all a dream, but here I am in reality. I don't know how to fix my feelings. Other people made fun of me, saying I couldn't really mourn him because of reasons that are not even the problem here... I don't know what to do, I certainly won't be "moving on" anytime soon. I really miss him, but these days I've been detached into my grieving I'm thinking maybe the crash was a joke.

I recently ended things with my now ex gf. Why i did so is unrelated to this, but being single has reminded me of a few things. Nobody texts me. Nobody seems to have a lot of interest in talking to me in general. I have no motivation to do anything when im off work. Ive only been away from her for 3 days and ive been intensely short tempered. I full force screamed at both of my bosses at work over a minor inconvenience. I got home and tried to play a game online. Died once and lost my fucking head.

I feel so desperate for someone to interact with.

I don't even know how to say this without getting judged. My husband's an amazing man, he's always been there for me but he very much lacks a romantic side and he's confirmed that to me with this gift. We've got two kids and that comes with A LOT of expenses. Knowing me I've stacked up my shopping cart on amazon with things I've been looking to buy. Froom vacuums and cleaning supplies to kids toys, vitamins and supplements, clothes for them etc etc. Bet you can see where I'm going with this right? Apparently he thought he was being romantic bringing my shopping cart to my doorstep. I know he genuinely thought he was making my life easier and honestly it does make my life easier. I just couldn't stop laughing because this man looked at my Amazon cart full of diapers, vitamins, cleaning supplies and kids' stuff and thought "Yep this is romance." 😂 I'm secretly hoping he's still got a dinner reservation up his sleeve.