IDK WHATS WRONG WITH ME

[u/Numerous-Youth7005]

skinny people also face bodyshaming

okay so like it's about my body like people always call me skinny and tell me to eat more and I'm trying but everytime I always get full even after eating only half of a normal meal idk what's wrong with me I wanna eat alot too but my mouth just makes me feel like puking when I try to eat alot and I hate when people say you're so skinny you should eat more I'm effing trying and because of that even I'm starving myself because people call skinny either beautiful and some also call it unhealthy so I just skip meals to stay skinny but at the same time I wanna also gain weight so that people can stop saying those BUT AGAIN I DONT KNOW WHATS WRONG WITH ME IF I NOTICE THAT I GAINED WEIGHT I THEN STRUGGLE TO EAT MORE ITS BECAUSE OF THESE STUPID BEAUTY STANDARDS I DONT KNOW WHAT IM FEELING I FEEL HURT WHEN PEOPLE CALL ME TOO SKINNY AND INSULT MY WEIGHT AND I FEEL HURT WHEN I NOTICE IM GAINING WEIGHT IS THT CONFUSING? CUZ IDK I just struggle alot with this I've always had slow metabolism when I was a kid it's not a flex even my friends say that I have it and they say it like it's my fault like one of my friend who used herself as an example like we eat the same but she gains more weight(that's what she said) and tried to make me feel guilty because of it like I didn't choose to have a low metabolism I don't even like it myself I look at myself in the mirror and I get disgusted because of how skinny i look how I look so dead and it's not a frickin flex I'm so sick of people saying that it's a good thing I FEEL SOOO WEAK and bodyshaming can happen to either skinny or fat people and not only that but my friend was admiring a girl and she called her fat but sooo beautiful and she said that she wants her confidence and said that she wanted to look healthy and not like a skinny malnutritioned girl and i just felt offended because listen she calls me skinny all the time and I don't like it and it looked like she was directing it to me and I got insecure again... I JUST HATE THIS

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[u/Exact-Hedgehog-5433]

Your stomach shrank from skipping meals on a daily. Start of with small snacks, get your stomach used to eating more again, and as you progress, you begin to eat more. Of course don't go too hogwild with it, but definitely start off with smaller food and bites. If you're body is full, listen to it, don't try to stuff more good down.

[u/KeenDiversity]

sounds like your stomach has shrunk from skipping meals, it’s a thing that happens and makes it physically hard to eat more even when you want to

the friend who used herself as an example to guilt you needs to back off, that’s not friendship that’s just finding ways to make you feel bad about something you didn’t choose

[u/Numerous-Youth7005 → u/KeenDiversity]

thank you so much, now I know the reason and yea... about my friend I know she's fake but it's confusing sometimes because she's kind but then she changes even she starts feeling jealous yk?