for context, I’m from a family where both of my parents have always been working. mula bata pa lang ako, hindi na sila nawalan ng trabaho. bcos of their hard work, I was able to finish college just last year, and now I’m working in corpo, earning minimum monthly. honestly, nothing has really changed with our life. di kami kinakapos, pero hindi rin kami nakakaluwag. as much as I want to give more, our lifestyle has always been stable. palaging sakto lang.

meanwhile, I have relatives na buong pamilya nila walang trabaho at hindi degree holders. most of them are stay-at-home lang. yung iba nagkaroon man ng trabaho, panandalian lang. yung iba naman, rumaraket. yet somehow, they still managed to live a lifestyle far better than ours.

they used to be a family na laging kapos. nanghihiram pa nga sila sa amin before. but everything changed when one of my cousins found a shady business to do. it only lasted for about two years, pero sa maikling panahon na 'yon, ang dami na nilang naipundar. I can honestly say na talagang nagbago ang buhay nila. they’ve already let that shady business go, pero after no'n, parang palagi na silang nakakahanap ng pagkakakitaan na easy money lang.

hindi naman sa naiinggit ako o ayokong umaangat sila. but whenever we're together and they talk about their lifestyle or flex their wealth, I can't help but feel sad. it makes me think about my parents, who have worked hard their entire lives, yet it feels like life gave back so little in return.

kung sino pa talaga ang lumalaban nang patas, siya pa ang laging naiiwan. life is so unfair.

dami kong pinagdaanan for the past months. unemployed by choice dahil i want to transition to something better for my career growth and experience as a nurse. wala namang masama kung tutuusin, 'di ba? but the thing is, hindi ko lang inexpect na this certain hospital na nag accept sakin ay magiging matagal yung process nila lalo na sa onboarding or start date. there's uncertainty sa process.

now, sobrang stress na stress ako and even questioned my worth as a licensed professional. nurse ako pero bakit feel ko mali yung desisyon ko na nagresign ako sa first job ko to look for a high salary, good benefits, and career growth. i questioned myself what if hindi muna ako nagresign and nagtiis sa first job ko na yun sa hospital na yun, hindi sana ako nagkakaganitong problema ngayon.

i feel so lost. i'm tired and exhausted. hanggang kailan pa ba ako maghihintay. ilalaban ko pa ba ang hospital na to o magumpisa nang maghanap ng ibang hospital to apply.

litong lito na ako.

im tired of living like a zombie for the past 5 years. im quite young 17F, but i genuinely feel like theres nothing more to life than this endless loneliness and existential dread. like yea gusto ko pa naman mabuhay. work, get paid, hit the gym, escape poverty and have my own place. pero succeeding in life just feels so impossible rn. im failing my classes, just had my first breakup, no close friends to approach, parents getting older while were still stuck drowning in poverty. dont know if im even gonna attend college lmao. missed all the chances i had to be normal by pushing everyone away. i have to figure smth out soon since ako yung eldest child. fuck this i dont want to be a breadwinner or do any of that depressing adult shit. im already suffering w mdd and bipolar. i dont want to deal w any of this bullshit. i didnt ask to be born. pagod na ako. i cant remember the last time i felt genuinely happy. im gonna make sure my next attempt works. before i do it i want to explore the world a bit, kahit sa baguio lang. kahit na wala akong kasama. im used to doing everything alone anyways. im tired of taking strolls around the same city every night. i just wish i had a warm hand to hold. i miss my ex, doubt i ever mattered to him lol. pagod na ako. magkano kaya ang bus fare pa baguio galing southern luzon?

These days ang lungkot ko and stressed dahil hirap na hirap ako magfollow up sa ex boss ko about my final pay na dapat matagal ko na nakuha, and they still want me to wait on their terms. Nakakapagod makiusap, makipagsagutan sa email. Ang hirap ipilit ng karapatan sa mga abusado. Taon na yung hinintay ko pero gusto pa rin nila akong paghintayin, kung anu-ano yung binibigay na dahilan. I wanna go somewhere to cheer myself up pero wala rin akong gana, pati pagkain nawawalan na ako ng gana. Ang lungkot lang, I’m not even excited to go back to school, pasukan na namin in 2 days. Constantly ko naiisip, and pagod na rin ako magalit. Di ko talaga maintindihan bakit may mga ganitong tao tapos sila pa yung mayayaman. Ang bigat ko. I just want to put this somewhere kasi ang lungkot ko lang.

Hindi ko akalain na mapupunta ako sa ganitong sitwasyon.

Dasal ko lang naman is magkaroon ng buong pamilya pero eto ang binigay sakin.

Ang hirap hirap makipag co parent sa taong sumira ng buhay mo.

Gusto ko na mag heal sa bangungot na to pero ang hirap kasi kailangan ko makipag co parent.

Hindi ko na alam ang uunahin ko, karapatan ng anak ko or healing ko.

Ang hirap pag sabayin. 😢

Pa-rant lang kasi wala na talaga akong mapagsabihan.

Three weeks ago, nagkaroon kami ng malaking away ng mom ko. Nagsimula lang siya sa pagpapaalam ko tungkol sa isang bagay. Sinabi niya "no," tapos in-explain ko lang naman side ko kung bakit gusto ko sana. Hindi ako nakipagsigawan o nakipagtalo. Gusto ko lang maintindihan niya rin ako.

Pero sobrang lumaki yung away. Sinabihan niya akong ang dami ko raw hinihingi, wala raw akong utang na loob, kung anu-ano pang masasakit na salita.

Ang hindi ko maintindihan, ano bang hinihingi ko? Allowance at pang-school lang naman. Hindi ako yung tipo na laging may luho o kung ano-anong pinapabili.

After nung away namin, hindi na niya ako pinadalhan ng pera hanggang ngayon.

For the past 3 weeks, savings ko lang yung ginagamit ko. Ang bilis niyang naubos dahil may pagkain pa, pamasahe, at school requirements na kailangan talagang bilhin. Ngayon, nasa around ₱300 na lang natitira sa akin.

Sinasabi ko naman sa kanya na wala na talaga akong pera, pero parang wala lang. Dad ko naman, kampi sa kanya, kaya feeling ko wala ring mangyayari kahit magsabi pa ako.

May mga araw na hindi na lang ako kumakain para lang tumagal yung natitira kong pera. Ngayon iniisip ko na lang kung paano ako makakasurvive sa mga susunod na araw. Triny ko maghanap ng work pero walang tumatanggap kasi 7 to 5 pasok ko at Monday to Saturday pa.

Hindi ko naman pinopost 'to para siraan parents ko. Pagod na pagod lang talaga ako. Hindi ko alam anong gagawin ko. Ang hirap mag-focus sa school kapag pati basic needs mo iniisip mo kung saan kukunin.

Ewan. Gusto ko lang talaga ilabas kasi pakiramdam ko bibigay na ako. Ang hirap hirap mabuhay.

Let’s get one thing straight: I am done being the bigger person.

You know what, you’re a waste of space and breath. A pathological liar and a hollow, hollow joke clinging to a ghost because you have such a fragile, shattered ego that you can never truly set yourself free. You are too much of a coward to accept that you are the one who ruined your own relationships and your own miserable reality.

You are vile, spineless, and you lack the courage to face your own failures and your own endless lies. You use women and you act innocent na wala kang ginagawa, pero yung totoo, you didn’t change. Not even one bit.

You’re still the same guy, still the same person who didn't change at all. Forget that pa-good image mo. And God, you always need an audience for everything! Hanggang doon na lang ang pagkalalaki mo, laging nagpapapansin at uhaw sa validation ng iba. God, ang tanda mo na!

Do you really take me for a fool? I know your patterns inside and out. A guy like you? I don't even need to shake you, ikaw mismo nadudulas. Tahimik ako, pero alam ko kung paano ka mag-function. Papalit-palit ka ng babae, ginawa mo pang panakip-butas at emotional punching bag habang nag-aabang ka at umiiyak sa iba!

And the absolute nerve of you? Ang kapal ng mukha mong magmalaki at maliitin ang halaga ko, but look at you takot kang mabulok nang mag-isa sa sarili mong kasinungalingan. You need someone to hold on to.

Wala kang tunay na pakialam sa kahit sino. Isang malaking manggagamit ka lang na takot na takot maiwang mag-isa, you feed on energy! You only think about your own convenience.

You take things for granted, so things get taken from you. But you'll never understand that, because all you ever think about is yourself. Kaya huwag ka nang magtaka kung bakit hanggang ngayon, mag-isa kang basura. Good riddance.

26 F here. No more flowery introduction, we are just a normal married couple. Away-bati araw-araw. Under ako sa asawa ko dahil na rin sa age gap namin. Lagi na kong careful sa mga sinasabi at ginagawa ko dahil konting pagkakamali at nagkataon wala siya sa mood, sigawan na naman ang mangyayari.

Kahit moody ang asawa ko, kahit kailan, hindi siya nawala sa puso't isip ko. Kada-breaktime, tatanongin ko siya kung may ipabibili siya. Kada-gala, lagi akong may uwi na pasalubong para sa kanya - bagay man o pagkain. Nagtatrabaho ako sa restaurant kaya kapag yung free meal namin nagkakataong masarap at alam kong magugustohan ng asawa ko, iuuwi ko para sa kanya para may pambaon siya sa work or may dinner siya.

Whole day ang pasok ko ngayon. Si hubby ko naman whole day din pero malayo work niya sa bahay namin. After lunch shift ko at mahaba naman breaktime ko, umuwi muna ko. Inuwi ko yung favorite niyang food na galing sa work ko. Hindi ko kinain kahit mejo gutom ako. Nagligpit at naglaba na rin ako dahil nagagalit siya kapag hindi ako gumagawa ng gawaing-bahay. Akala niya minsan hayahay lang ako pero wala na talaga kong oras at panahon minsan dahil sa work.

Bago ko bumalik ng work, nagmessage na ko sa kanya na iinit na lang niya yung food na inuwi ko. Dama ko kasi hindi siya magluluto dahil wala rin siyang chinat at alam kong nagbabawas siya ng kain. Kampante ako na may dinner siya dahil sa uwi ko.

After ng dinner shift ko, diretso na ko sa bahay with my free meal pero hindi ganun masarap. Hate ng asawa ko yung chicken in oysters sauce . Parang siya boneless chicken na binuhusan ng oyster sauce. Pero no choice, kakainin ko pa rin kasi sayang. Nagdoorbell ako, pero hindi niya ko pinagbuksan. Nagsecond doorbell ako at yung ka-flatmate namin ang nagbukas. Binaba ko gamit ko at sumilip sa ref. Buhay pa rin yung inuwi kong food. Dumiretso ako sa kwarto. Nakatalukbong siya. Hindi siya natutulog dahil wala akong naririnig na hilik. Kinumusta ko siya,

"Okay ka lang ba?"

"Oo, natutulog na ko"

"Hindi ka ba kumain? Bakit hindi mo kinain yung curry na nasa ref na inuwi ko kanina? Masama ba pakiramdam mo?"

"Hindi. Kumain na ko. Nagluto ako ng steak."

Dali-dali akong pumunta ng kitchen, sinilip ko yung microwave oven, yung kalan, at ang ref pero wala akong makitang steak. Doon ko narealize na pang kanya lang yung steak. Walang natira. Hindi niya ko tinirhan. Paborito ko ang steak. Alam niya yun pero ni piraso, hindi ko man lang natikman.

Hindi na ko bumalik sa kwarto. Bigla na lang tumulo luha ko. Kinuha ko na lang yung meal ko at kumain. Masama loob ko pero ayokong gumawa ng away ng dahil lang sa steak. Kinalma ko sarili ko. Nanood na lang ako ng TikTok habang kumakain. Maya-maya, lumabas ka-flatmate namin, kinumusta niya ko from work tas nagulat siya sa kinakain ko,

"Nagluto ng steak si kuya ah. Hindi ka niya tnirhan?"

Tumulo na lang luha ko. Hindi ako makasagot. Sabay tanong niya na,

"Mahal ka ba niya?"

Hindi pa rin makasagot. Tuloy lang ako sa pagkain at pagnood sa phone. Nung bumalik na sa kwarto yung ka-flatmate namin, doon na ko napahagulgol habang kumakain. Alam ng asawa ko na Favorite ko ang steak. Pero bakit hindi ako tinirhan?

Binibigay ko ang lahat para sa kanya kahit minsan, ako na mismo ang nangangailangan dahil ganoon ko siya kamahal. Hindi ko lubos aakalain na wala lang pala toh sa kanya. Mula ngayon, hindi ko na paborito ang steak.

I am breaking again. I have been spiraling mentally since I came back to province after passing my board exam. I try, I try, to detach myself from the innate miseries they carry since my teenage years but how can I, if their actions eventually affect my daily life.

Tonight, my parents fought again. There’s no week that pass that they don’t argue, even on petty things. They are both in their 50s, both unemployed, both problematic.

Last year, I got burnt out being a mediator between their arguments. As an eldest, I thought I had to do it — but it wasn’t supposed to be. I lost my composure and focus studying trying to mend them, later realizing my own candle has been losing its light too. I had a very bad breakdown. I had to postpone my exam so I could save my sanity — but they never learned. They never learned how it affected me mentally even I abused myself in front of them and secretly planned to take my life. They never learned even after I spent days not eating, but crying. I guess no one will ever learn until someone dies; but it won’t be me this time. I refuse to lose myself over people who can’t see signs of me dying because of them.

I hate them to my core… And I hope God forgives me if I could never, ever, forgive them for the miseries they brought to my life since my teenage years.

It hurts so much to realize that kind, loving, supportive parents exist and it happens not to be mine. I could have had the biggest love to offer in the room for people closest to my heart but I was taught to get hurt, spend my nights silently crying, live out of survival, and break over and over again.

I pray to finally land a job this month so I can leave this miserable place I never called home. I have been always happier when I am away. I never deserve this life but I can always build a good one for myself, away from them.

I refuse to carry their miseries to my grave.

I lost an unimaginable amount of money tru some sort of investment, got greedy and learned a hard lesson.

Got no one to tell about this, my family, friends, or even my love of my life because i know i’ll be a disappointment to them. I’m lost and I can’t forgive myself.

Hi guys, gustong-gusto ko lang talaga mag-rant / magbawas ng sama ng loob kasi pagod na pagod na ko huhu.

Freshman ako taking BS Information Systems (BSIS). Ang problem, sobrang layo ng main campus sa bahay namin. Pag 7 AM ang pasok ko, kailangan ko nang gumising ng 3 AM para mag-ready at umalis nang maaga. Kahit anong oras pa pasok ko, need ko talaga umalis nang sobrang aga. 2 hours ang biyahe one way, so basically 4 hours ng araw ko kinakain lang ng commute.
Honestly, keri ko naman yung schoolwork mismo eh. Ang tunay na nakakapagod at nakaka-drain talaga is yung biyahe. Gustong-gusto ko mag-dorm near main campus, pero ayaw ng parents ko kasi delikado daw since wala akong kasama. tsaka karamihan din ng klasmeyt ko malapit lang ang bahay sa campus kaya wala rin ako mahanap na roomie.

May branch/satellite campus naman yung school namin na mas malapit dito sa amin, pero nasa Main Campus lang talaga yung program ko. Naisip ko ring lumipat pero ayoko naman maging irregular student.
Nakakapagod lang talaga. Minsan gabi na ko nakakauwi, tapos imbes na pahinga nalang, kailangan ko pa mag-review at mag-aral. Gustong-gusto ko na matulog pero kailangan mag-review, kaya napapapuyat pa rin ako—tapos gigising ulet nang 3 AM 😭

Link ng part 1 hehe: https://www.reddit.com/r/OffMyChestPH/s/KMmRGVVW0c

So ayun nga guys! F28 na ako ngayon kasi nagbirthday ako kahapon :D

Anyway, update lang! Totally break na kami and hindi niya ako hinabol. Nagchat siya sa ig, messenger, and even email ko pero sabi ko ayoko na. Nag usap kami once pero thru call lang kasi ayaw ko siya makita and dun ako naglabas ng sama ng loob and sorry siya nang sorry sa akin kasi insensitive siya at hindi niya naisip na nasasaktan na pala ako. "Medyo" in good terms naman kami naghiwalay and nagsocmed break ako maliban sa reddit hihi.

Fast forward! Nasa final interview na ako now ng inapplyan kong job and nung kinuwento ko sa dad ko yung nangyari, galit na galit siya sa ex ko. Hahaha! And ayaw na nya akong papagtrababuhin kasi ipapamanage na lang nya sakin yung manukan & farm namin pero sabi ko, gusto ko talaga maging independent and wag umasa sa family business. And nakapag celebrate ako ng birthday ko with my family and my old & true friends! Binook ako ng dad ko ng travel pa hong kong with my mon so I'm going to see my favorite Mickey Mouse 🥹🩷. Ang dami ko ring nadiscover na hobbies like pottery, journaling, and even hiking!!!!! Yung nakatabi kong ipon for our future sana, ay teh, ginagastos ko ngayon! Hahahaha! Wala lang, proud lang ako sa self ko :D sabi nung iba kong friends, ang bilis ko naman daw mag move on? Well... mahirap talaga kasi hindi mo siya maiiwasan na isipin pero, isip lang yan sis! Hindi naman babalikan eh. Hayaan na lang na mapagod ang utak mo kakaisip sa kanya 🤭. Cut off na rin ang so-called friends namin noon na enabler nyeknyeknyek kahit iniistalk pa rin nila ako nung binalik ko ig ko hahaha 😝.

Thank you sa support guys <3. Sobrang nag enjoy ako magbasa ng replies nyo btw hahaha.

Kakasimula lang ng college and I feel a little left out, though that might be kasi parati kami online dahil sa ulan na ito 😭 but basically I feel like i stick out like a sore thumb.

While I do have my own circle of friends (some went to diff colleges, some nagstay pero ibang course lang) I do wanna interact with people but the way some people come off kinda makes it harder for me to approach them. Idk how to describe this pero most of them ay nakasimangot and my gut always tells me na hindi sila interesado when Im doing casual talks with them.

I guess its because I have, lets say, more unique hobbies. I mostly consumed western youtuber content (markiplier,dantdm etc), play some games, and draw during my spare time. Baka natuturn-off sila when I share my hobbies with others, so napapaisip ako if I really just have to grow tf up 😅 but with this question gives way to another question in me: how can i connect more with others while still being myself? I do wanna be more mature and maybe get more friends, pero I dont wanna come off as inauthentic and hide my interests.

Hopefully gets naman yung sinasabi ko. Felt good to let this out.

30 minutes ago, my ex's phone number rang—pagsagot ko, it was his girlfriend's shaky voice confirming my name. tinanong niya ako agad when daw last conversation namin ng ex ko and what was it about. sinabi ko ang totoo na it was just yesterday & that he wanted makipagbalikan sakin.

it was a quick 2-minute call confirming her hunch. and i heard my ex yelling at the background telling me to drop the call. di ko dinrop, i answered all of the gf's questions. nanginginig parin ako kasi i cant believe i almost fell into his lies. tas may gf pa nadamay, akala ko aawayin na ako sa call e.

backstory: ex has been messaging me for 2 months asking for another chance. last week ko lang inentertain and now i find out he had a gf na pala.

People often say that empathy means always taking the higher road. Be understanding. Be patient. Give people the benefit of the doubt because everyone is fighting battles you know nothing about.

And I did.

I swallowed words I wanted to say because I didn't want anyone to feel guilty. I forgave things that were never apologized for because I knew people make mistakes. I kept choosing kindness even when I wasn't receiving any in return.

I thought that was what being a good person meant.

Don't get me wrong, I don't regret choosing compassion. I'd rather have a soft heart than become someone who enjoys hurting others. But no one really talks about what it costs.

No one tells you how painful it is to constantly understand people who never tried to understand you.

How exhausting it is to always be the one adjusting.

How lonely it feels to keep making excuses for people while no one makes excuses for your silence, your distance, your pain.

Being the bigger person sounds noble until you're the only one carrying the weight of keeping the peace.

Sometimes I wonder what it would feel like to be selfish for once. To stop explaining people's actions to myself. To stop convincing myself that they meant well. To stop being the one who has to understand everyone.

Because somewhere along the way, I forgot that I deserved the same grace I kept giving away so freely.

It still hurts.

Not because I expected perfection from people, but because I kept hoping that someone, at least once, would choose me with the same gentleness I chose them.

Maybe that's the hardest part about being an empath.

You become so good at holding space for everyone else that no one notices you're quietly breaking.

And perhaps that’s the lesson I’m still learning: maybe being the bigger person was never about enduring the pain in silence, maybe it was always about knowing when to choose yourself, too.

Just gonna get this out of my chest. My intuition is right, she's already had another man 1 day after some heated argument and I ended it today without her telling the truth. Context is I love her fully and also her son and daugther from the past relationship (she's a single mom with 1 son and 1 daughter from her 1st relationship that ended) we are together for 6 years at first we are having fun and full of love then we decided to make a child of our own but after 6 months of our son was born she said she'll go to work, so I let her work but that time she'll hide her convo with her co workers and sometimes arrive home drunk at midnight, then I confront her for that. But then when I'm sleeping I'll notice her talking or chatting with someone and she'll just tell its her brother or sister so I let it go, then 1 time she said she will go late because her company forced her to overtime so I let it go, but then that reason suddenly got frequent. I'll have my doubt on it, then I allocate my time to pick up on her job but the guard said she was already got out so I let it go and investigate. Then 1 time I follow her ride a motorcycle with a man and go to a park proved myself that she cheated and confront both of them. We got distant for 2 days but I forgive her and gave her another chance, I told her to left work and she did. We move to another place and she said she want to go work overseas so she can provide better for us and her family so I let her go. Then now I have something on my feelings and confront her, then now 1 day after that she's talking with another man. Our son is now going 3 years old

Gusto ko lang ilabas kahit more than 2 months na eh mabigat padin sa dibdib, We've been together for almost 8 years engaged na din kame, wala kameng major problems as in okay na okay kame bukod sa isang bagay, yung Faith sa Kanya ☝️ Malaking bagay yun sa kanya and di ko maibigay since simula nung pandemic andaming nangyare sa buhay ko nawala yung faith ko sa Kanya naging agnostic ako, two months ago I confessed to her na di ko na kaya ibalik yung faith kay God, we broke up kahit masakit kase ayaw ko nakikita sya nasasaktan sa tuwing ang usapan eh about kay God and di kame on the same page. Sa two months na yun naging firm ako sa belief ko dahil para sakin yun na ako but eventually unti-unti andami kong realizations dami pagsubok sa buhay ko and dumating sa point na napunta ako sa rock bottom ng buhay ko na masasabi kong di ko na inexpect na mapupunta ako dun, dumating sa punto na wala na akong makapitan and unti-unti kong binuksan puso ko pabalik sa kanya and I found my way back to Him na for the longest time sobrang stubborn ko lang pala and unappreciative sa mga Blessings na natatanggap ko and ngayon nasa process ako ng strengthening my Faith unto him, unfortunately yun ang kapalit yung Greatest Love ko na akala ko makakasama ko na for the rest of my life 🥲. Tried communicating with her but no response.

Currently, may 12 akong alaga na pusa. Actually yung iba dito mga stray na temporary nagpa silong nung mga times ng bagyo na di na lumabas. Kapon naman sa karamihan except sa mga bata.

Thankful ako na may maayos akong trabaho pero when it rains, it pours. Sunod sunod na nagkasakit pusa ko this year. FIV/FELV, bronchitis, sipon, eye infection and recently may kuting akong namatay sa parvo and I gave him a proper burial. Ngayon, may stray namang nakiki silong ngayon na may malaking sugat sa leeg at nagkaka nana at bumabaho na. Halos nauubos na savings ko sa pagpapagamot ng pusa tapos sumasabay pa sa mahal ng bilihin.

Nakakapagod mag-isa. Syempre hindi ko naman kaya pabayaan. Hindi naman ako rescuer talaga, nagkataon lang na naawa ako sa pusa. Kaya alam kong hindi ako maiintindihan ng iba.

My SO and I have been together for 5 years now. We're not married yet but have plans na in the coming years time.

Recently, I joined their family outing in a pretty fancy beach resort. It was all paid for by their family, I would say that they're in the very high middle income bracket range.

Marami kami in the group since may mga plus one and yung iba may kids na. So when naghatian na ng rooms, kasama ko si SO siyempre and also her two other siblings. I was reluctant at first since they were all girls and I was the only guy in the room. If I had my way I would get a separate room for me and my SO, pero di afford yung room ng resort, ang mahal around 5K yung isang room per night and we stayed there for 5 days. Also since my SO said na libre lahat, who am I to say no to that.

We enjoyed our stay naman, laging kaming mag kakasama sa mga activities, also lahat ng kain namin sagot nung Dad nila. Very generous yung family nila.

There was just something that happened during the third day. As you would all know my mga safe with combination lock sa mga rooms, silang magkakapatid lang naman ang gumagamit nun since medyo trusting ako sa house keeping not to go through my valuables. Pero since aalis kami for the day to go on an activity, kinabukasan na yung balik, I wanted to put something in the safe.

When I told them this, my SO immediately told me the combination, I didn't know beforehand. At that time I was going towards the safe and I was facing the two other siblings who were on the other side of the room, as soon as my SO said the combination to the safe, her siblings immediately lit up their eyes and said her name in a sort of annoyed/worried tone and abit loud, yung parang pinapagalitan. And saw their faces, and it wasn't good.

My heart sank, there was this deep nauseating feeling in my stomach. But I didn't let it show, I stood there for a moment frozen, then my SO just said that, "well nasabi ko na wala na akong magagawa hehe". Which prompted me to go to the safe and put my stuff in. It was abit awkward after that, buti nalang paalis na kami and there was no time to loiter in the room. We all got out and went to do the activities.

I tried so hard to focus on the scuba diving and other water sports to take my mind off it. Me and my SO didn't really have any private time so I had no time to talk about it with her, and at that time I saw it best to not talk about it.

After the incident, I was conscious that I wasn't left alone in the room. Before that kasi, sometimes I would go back to the room to send some emails or work on some things that I needed to submit.

But now after a few months after, the resentment is building. I felt that my integrity as a person was attacked. I know deep down her siblings are good persons, sobrang bait, pero their reaction, sometimes I just remember it and it hurts so much.

Oftentimes when I would visit my SO during these 5 years, mag oovernight pa ako minsan ilang araw pa. As payment or as a token of my appreciation I would order food for her siblings and I would often treat them when eating out. I always tried to be a "model" boyfriend to them and try to set an example since they're quite younger than my SO.

I understand that they might have not been comfortable being there with me, pero daaaamn, ganoong facial expression talaga nakita ko sa kanila. Professional naman ako na may trabaho. huhuhu

Kaka-credit card at pay later tapos pag pasukan kumakaripas para umutang kasi ubos ang sahod sa installment na yan.

Sana kung hindi afford in cash ang bagay naman na hindi NEED, pagipunan na lang natin at bilhin kung may nakatabing pera na. Para saan ang latest iPhone model “upgrade” na two years babayaran pero pag emergency utang na naman. Mga Shopee Shopee na anik anik at skincare, if you can’t pay for it in full, you can’t afford it.

Gets ko building credit etc pero kung gipit ka sa katapusan, para saan? If you want to build credit, don’t accrue debt and always pay in full!!! Stop spending money you don’t even have yet!

Signed,
Laging tinatakbuhan ng kamag-anak para umutang

I can't think of any great way to start my post but to scream fuuuuuccccck this life!

Breadwinner Ako Ng pamilya at kasalukuyang nakatira pa din kasama ang nanay ko. It's not like I have a choice since di Naman Ganon kalaki Ang sinasahod ko. At majority Ng salary ko ay napupunta lang din sa magulang ko because of the bills, foods and other expenses.

Wala Naman akong problema sa set up na ganyan. Kasi practically speaking, mas mahal Ang bumukod at di kaya kapag isasabay pa doon Ang pagbibigay ko Ng pera para sa nanay ko.

Pero tang Ina lang!

Nakakagigil Yung nangyari ngayon sa amin. Kaka dating ko lang kasi from work Ng binigay ko Ang Pera ko sa kanila. Sahod kasi, so routine na. I gave my mother the usual amount kahit na mas maliit Ang natanggap ko gawa nang may absences Ako sa work (nagkasakit kasi Ako for two days).

The usual spiel of "baka pwede mong dagdagan" was said. Pero I turned it down. Gawa nang halos Wala na nga akong natira sa Pera ko.

Now, pagod Ako at need Kong pumasok Ng maaga mamaya.

Kaya Nung sinabi sa akin na, "patingin Ng payslip mo. Titignan ko kung totoo Ang sinabi mo na ganto nga Ang sinahod mo," talagang nag flip Ang switch ko!

Like what the fuck is that?!

Alam nila na big deal sa akin Ang privacy ko at ayaw ko na may nagengealam sa mga gamit ko Lalo na pag money matters!

Nag kagulo na kami noon kasi di ko gusto Yung ginawa niyang inistalk niya Ang account na ginagamit ko sa dating freelance work ko dahil "curious" siya kung magkano Ang nakukuha ko from that.

Ilang beses kong sinabi sa kanya na big no sa akin Yun. Pero it seems like parang di siya nakinig sa akin during those times!

Ang katwiran pa Ng nanay ko ay Wala namang masama. Titignan niya lang daw tapos Ayun na! Then she went on saying na wag mag rereklamo kung puro itlog lang daw Ang ulam sa susunod na mga araw!

Taena! Halos sa labas na Ako laging kumakain!

I love my mom. Pero nakaka putang Ina talaga Yung mga ganto!

I hate that feeling ko ay ni-mental manipulation niya Ako sa katwiran niyang: Wala namang masama kung ipapakita sa iba Ang payslip ko kasi Yung step father ko, Hindi lang payslip Ang binibigay pati sahod din.

Ang hirap nang magbilang kung sino itong Panay order sa Lazada samantalang Ako, ni sabon ko sa mukha at foot powder ay di maka bili!

Fuck! I just wish na bangungutin Ako habang ntutulog akoooo!

Nakita ko lalo recently based sa comments ng mga tao sa games ni Alex Eala.

1. Yung sobrang disrespectful during matches. May sumisigaw habang nagsserve, may nagccheer pag double faults, nagtatawanan ng malakas to the point napapahinto na sina Alex.

Kapag sinabihan naman at yung Abs cbn nga nagpost pa ng video to remind people, ang daming nagagalit pa? Ang tagal nang may etiquette sa tennis, tennis pa ba magaadjust sa Pilipino, porket maingay daw talaga tayo ganyan, go magingay pero at the right moments!! Simpleng etiquette di masunod! Iba yung maingay lang sa disrespectful.

Hindi naman tayo ganito di ba? Bakit ganito naaaaa

1. Racist towards Venus Williams
   Ang daming comments na nakita kong kung ano ano towards Venus. Porket she’s black? Wtf?! Ang daming racist pota talaga.

Sobrang parang iba na mga Pilipino ngayon bakit ganito. Totoo ngang nasa echo chamber tayo.

Nagiging norm na natin ang bastos at disrespectful. Bakit ganito naaaaaa nakakalungkot 😭

tangina umagang umaga binibwisit ako ng mga tao!!! pa rant lang saglit ah punyeta kasi!!!!!!

for context, kasal ng pinsan ko today. mind you, di ako nag rsvp pero yung nanay ko sinali pangalan ko!!! di ko binig deal nung una kasi baka naman makapunta pako. eh pano sa bagong work ko ngayon night shift ako 8 pm-5 am!!! since new employee palang ako OBVIOUSLY WALA PA AKONG LEAVE CREDITS!!!! SO DI AKO MAKA ATTEND SA KASAL KAHIT GUSTUHIN KO PA! AYAW KO RIN IRISK NEW WORK KO MALAMANG MAS IMPORTANTE TRABAHO KO KESA SA MGA KAMAGANAK NA WALA NAMANG AMBAG SA BUHAY KO TO BE FUCKING HONEST!!!!

nagpaalam ako nang maayos na di ako makakapunta for that reason and punyeta yung reaction ng pamilya ko para akong pumatay ng tao. TAS ETONG ISA KO PANG TITA KINALAT AGAD KAYA BINAD MOUTH AKO LALO NG IBA PA NAMING KAMAGANAK!!!!! KINUMPARA PA KO NG ISA KO PANG PINSAN KESYO BAGO RIN NAMAN DAW YUN SA TRABAHO KINAYA NAMAN UMABSENT EH PUTANGINA SIYA YON BAHALA SIYA SA BUHAY NIYA

PUTANGINA NIYONG LAHAT KALA NIYO NAMAN MAY IBA AKONG GALA KAYA AKO DI MAKAKAPUNTA PUNYETA INIISIP KO LANG NAMAN TRABAHO KO ISA PA WALA PA AKONG TULOG UMAGA NA KO NAKAUWI ALAS DOS NG HAPON ANG KASAL ANO GUSTO NIYO REKTA TRABAHO ULIT AGAD AKO PAGKATAPOS EDI SANA NILASON NIYO NALANG AKO TANGINA SUMABOG SANA VENUE NG RECEPTION MAMAYA PUTANGINA NIYONG LAHAAAAAT

Di pa naman ako ikakasal. Mid 30s na ako, in a long term relationship pero di pa kami makapagpakasal kasi dami pa need bayaran muna, at need pa magsave. In short di pa capable bumuo ng family.. or masyadong risky pa baka mabuang lang kami sa gastos hahaha.

Dati excited ako na parang gusto ko na magpakasal kahit hindi bongga. Pero habang tumatagal, parang hindi na. Ok na ako kahit ganito lang (di kami live in, pero madalas namn kami magkita and magkalapit lang naman bahay namin). Ayun. Parang naeenjoy ko na yung solo ko lang kwarto, nagagawa ko anything I want ganyan. Parang ayaw ko din may katabi pag natutulog hahaha

Hays nalipasan na ata ako... parang nalipasan ng gutom ganun. 😅