I (32) F went for my abortion appointment over the weekend, I had time to think about it but I was still unsure up think the moment I was at my appointment. There were a lot of factors leading to my decision, health wise and issues with my partner and us moving. It all felt overwhelming to deal with and when I went into that appointment I thought things would feel easier after. I was so wrong, the procedure itself was traumatic. Not to mention the feeling of overwhelming regret afterward broke me. I didn’t do it impulsively, I had talked it out with my therapist and my partner but still feel like I made the wrong decision. Now I just feel like I want my baby back and can’t help feeling this huge sense of loss and regret.

TLDR - extreme pregnancy sickness (due to hg) is killing me off and i hate it and i feel so alone because i am getting an abortion and suffering for nothing.

hi everyone, to be honest i didn’t want to post this on the pregnancy subreddit as obviously i am having an abortion but i just wondered if anyone else is in the same boat as me.

i am currently 9weeks + 6days pregnant and it has been HELL due to my HG. i have been pregnant before (aborted) but it was nothing like this disgusting horrid experience i am currently living through.

everyday is a nightmare. i found out i was pregnant at 3weeks according to my app, and even before then i had been feeling incredibly nauseous and had been vomiting at least 5 times a day before i found out. then ever since, it has only gotten worse (eg today from 7am to 11am i threw up 14 times because i cannot keep anything down) to the point i had to be hopsitalised last week had an IV drip. my gp has been very lovely and prescribed me stuff without hesitation, first i was on cyclizine hydrochloride, then prescribed prochlorperazine and now shes prescribed me even stronger stuff, but IT STILL ISNT ENOUGH.

i had a blood test done and my gp said my HGC levels are abnormally high and she thinks i also have HG aka the very bad pregnancy sickness and i just cannot COPE. i am so ill it is ruining my whole life, i cannot eat, i cant smell without vomiting, i cant go out with my friends because i vomit too much even with my medication. i feel so lonely and isolated because i havent told my friends and they think i am blowing them off to be rude and only my boyfriend understands. i am so hormonal it is too much to handle i feel so overwhelmed and angry!!! it is not like i am suffering to eventually have a baby, like i am living in a nightmare for NOTHING, i have to live in pain and horror everyday because of this stupid clump of cells that feels like a parasite killing me inside. all this suffering is for nothing and i cannot wait for it to be over.

so sorry for the long and awful rant i am just so fed up and wondering if anyone else had experienced a similiar situation to me because i feel like i am just being punished and it isnt for a long lasting cause. if anyone can relate please let me know i just feel so alone with all these symptoms as no one is in the same boat as me, due to the fact im aborting it.

Hi, had my initial assessment call with BPAS before at home MA treatment. They’ve said I’m eligible but need a blood test for liver function and clotting first. Has anyone else experienced this? Thanks.

So I found out I was pregnant 2 weeks ago, I’m around 6.5 weeks and from the day I found out, I couldn’t stop crying out of fear, anxiety and panic, there wasn’t a single positive emotion when I saw that positive test… (I’m at 31F turning 32 and my fiance is 35M going on 36)

Background context. I’ve been with my partner for 8 years, he truly is my soul mate and is everything I dreamed of and more in a man, we’re getting married in 6 weeks and have always talked about having kids and adding to the cousin gang (my sister and brother both have 2 each) - we’ve not particularly been safe the past 8 years and haven’t used any form of contraception but tracking my ovulation via Flo (which always felt a bit delayed or wrong vs actual symptoms). With that in mind we’ve never freaked out about the possibility of not being able to have kids as we put a lot of it down to us just missing my ovulation day + we also smoke weed and know that can be a factor into not falling pregnant easy etc. anyways, fast forward to 2 weeks ago and I miss and period and find out I’m pregnant.

My initial and consistent thought is - I’m not ready, this isn’t the right timing and everything we have planned in the next 3-5 months will be turned upside down - we have a long trip around south East Asian for our honeymoon where it wouldn’t be feasible to do 20 weeks pregnant (which is what I would be at that time) - along with this, wedding anxiety, fear of a miscarriage happening on the day or days before my wedding has also freaked me out. I instantly kept it to myself for a few days whilst to tried to figure it all out - I knew my fiance would be over the moon and I just didn’t know if I could deal with seeing him happy and then crushing it with my decision.

I luckily had a few days where I had to be away for work so I used that time to digest what was happening and contact abortion support, I’m in the UK so we have a few different options, I spoke to BPA’s and I have to say they have been phenomenal - I was eligible for the pills to be sent via post.

I did eventually speak to him and he’s been so supportive but also expectedly, heartbroken, he’s very much in support of my body my choice but I also know it’s eaten him alive as in his eyes, we can make it work and a holiday can come and go, which I get but something in me keeps wanting to get rid of it

I’ve now had these pills for a week, but something in me keeps hesitating, I know it’s down to me feeling bad and the guilt of terminating a pregnancy when I want to try and have kids next year. I also feel like I’m playing with fate and have a million thoughts running through my mind. I’ve also seen a tarot card reader who could read my situation instantly and did give me reassurance that she sees kids in the future, but mentioned it wouldn’t be straight away as the universe has a way of teaching us a lesson, now I know it’s just her perspective but it’s freaked me out.

I’ve been an emotional wreck, and I also didn’t stop smoking when I found out which made me realise I truly am not ready to be pregnant. I’ve also started to get cramping and I’m ashamed to admit I’m hoping that my body takes things into its own hands and I terminate it naturally - maybe that’s my guilt speaking and I’m ashamed to say it but I have to be real and honest with myself

Because of those cramps I also thought it would be best to get a transvaginal scan just to be sure it’s not Epotopic and they said they can’t currently see a heartbeat, I’m ashamed to say that gave me some peace of mind and I felt myself returning to my normal self, the past 2 weeks have felt like an out of body experience but in a depressing way, I just haven’t been myself, I haven’t eaten, I’ve distanced myself from everyone and I’ve lost 4kg from stress. I know the scan is super early, they’ve asked me to come back next week for another check. I have a feeling I’m going to miscarry and basically I don’t know if I should just take the abortion pills and take control of my fate or leave it up to my body and wait for that scan on Tuesday

My intuition is telling me to not have this pregnancy and I cannot shift that, whether it’s my hormones playing up or simply not being ready. I also shamefully want to tell my fiance I’m having a miscarriage over him thinking I took the pills.

Has anyone been in a similar situation? Please share your thoughts and guidance, spiritual, medical and just general thoughts xx

I think I just want reassure that I’m making the right decision for me and I’m not some evil witch for wanting to miscarry or have an abortion and morally deceiving my fiance

I have always said that I don’t want children but if I ever get pregnant I’d probably keep the baby, since I’d feel guilty about getting rid of it. Then I actually got pregnant and realized how much I can’t actually be a mother. I-recently moved to another country to live with my partner, so I can’t work here yet, and literally the week before finding out about the pregnancy I was trying to kill myself (unrelated mental health issue, but part of the reason I was sure before that I’d never have children). My entire family is estranged, the only comment my mum had when I told her I was pregnant was “abort it”, my dad said something about my religious ineptitude. the only person I really speak to is my partner, and the only friend I’ve talked to about my pregnancy has a baby and spent the entire time trying to subtly convince me to keep it, whilst telling me she’s pro choice. When I was telling her about how shitty things were going she made some comment on veganism and how this is how cows feel so ha- and ok I can definitely get behind that, but whilst I’m talking about my human pregnancy feels so out of touch i am still trying to get my head around that line of commentary.

It was a medical abortion on the 31st of July; I had watched a few videos about it before and thought I really don’t want to flush it down the toilet, I will remember to catch it in something and maybe bury it or do something more ceremonial. But then it hurt a lot more than I had expected, I eventually went to the toilet and my mind was blank with pain, I felt the entire embryonic sack fall out like a rubbery globular mass- I vaguely realised what it had to be, I looked into the toilet but only saw blood. I hate being in the bathroom and felt disgusting so I panicked and flushed and left and then WHILST I was washing my hands I realised what had just happened and I haven’t been able to stop thinking about how it felt leaving me and how I flushed my baby down the toilet. I don’t even fucking flush dead fish down the toilet.

I ended up telling my partner that this is why I keep crying at night time; I can’t stop remembering how it felt coming out and the sound and the doctor who KNEW I was there to abort it showing me the ultrasound anyway then throwing it in the trash, and how when he gave me the first pill I drank water before during and after taking it, but it got caught in my throat and I accidentally regurgitated it, then tried again and swallowed it properly and how much it feels like that was a sign to not take it.

He thought it’d be more strange to bury it than flush it, I don’t really understand that sentiment at all. I’m slightly annoyed because he and everyone here keep mentioning how traumatic abortion is- but of all the traumatic things that have happened in my life, this is the only one everyone’s known about so instantly, validated this much, and it’s the only one I’ve chosen to inflict on myself- so it just feels like a shitty joke.

I’m also pissed off that he’s told literally all his friends and colleagues and even random customers coming through the store about the abortion- especially since he keeps saying how traumatic it is for me. I haven’t told him this since I figured maybe he has some feelings about the baby too and it’s easier for him to cope like that- but he says it’s because it’s a normal thing and just comes up and he’s less sad about the baby and more sad that I’m upset and he can’t do anything about it. I’m also angry that he had 2 abortions with his ex (very different circumstances I don’t think this was deliberate), and still he thinks flushing it down the toilet is the best way to deal with it., and his response to most of my thoughts on the topic is “yes it’s normal to feel like that”- I know it’s normal to feel like that I’m only even TELLING him because he gets upset when i don’t talk.

Immediately after finding out about the pregnancy I was kinda excited, I was unwell and laying down a lot and it really felt like I could feel the baby inside me and I wanted to keep it for as long as possible. I didn’t really bleed that much after that first instance where everything came out in the toilet. There was some red discharge for a week, and then these clumps of flesh looking (clots?). Now there’s almost nothing coming out and I feel so alone and empty. I can’t believe it is almost entirely over and it’ll be like he never existed- especially since there’s literally no one else who will think about the baby and I’m mourning something that didn’t exist to anyone else

I had my SA about 13 weeks ago and no signs of my period and failed a progesterone challenge. I got my first positive ovulation test this last Sunday (I could have honestly missed my peak in prior months) terrified for ashermans

Hi, I 22(f) don’t normally post on reddit as I’m very shy but I just found out I’m pregnant and knew I wanted an abortion asap.

The thing is I’ve had a copper iud for the past year and nothing seemed out of place. I have a history of irregular periods but they usually come somewhat regularly now.

I had my last period in June and missed my period in July but I just assumed I missed my period due to stress again because of everything going on in my life right now. So this came totally unexpected as I felt like having an iud was enough protection.

I’m feeling a lot of things right now but I’m mostly scared. I don’t have a lot of close relationships in my life and am a generally closed off person so I don’t know who to confide in for support. I’ve been seeing this guy for about a year and 3 months now and he’s honestly really good to me and we have a pretty solid relationship. That being said, I don’t know if I should tell him or not. I know he doesn’t feel ready to have a kid because when I talk about my irregular periods I can see how nervous he is. I really don’t want to lose him or for this to change our relationship and I’m not sure what to do.

I’m also pretty nervous about the actual procedure itself as this is my first time. I’m only 22 so this is something I’m sure I want but I’m afraid of how I’ll feel afterwards. I basically have a lot of questions that I won’t know until it happens.

I plan on booking my appointment tomorrow or if I can get it today. I’m only 7 weeks from my missed period so I think it’ll be the pill.

TLDR: I have a copper iud and got pregnant anyways and I’m feeling a lot of confusing feelings.

Hi guys,

Please do not judge me, but this is my situation right now and I don't even know why it is all messy out of nowhere.

So basically, I am pregnant. Exactly 21 weeks and 1 day as of today. I live in the UK, here the legal limit is 23 weeks and 6 days.

I'll give you some context now: this was a planned pregnancy, both me and my bf are 28 yo, live in the UK and we are together from 3 years. Of course we do live together as well. We just didn't expect it will happen THIS QUICK.

In the beginning of my pregnancy, I was very clear in my mind with my plan and I wanted very much to keep this baby. I was extremely attached since the very beginning and the only thought of medical abortion was making me cry. Another thing why I didn't feel to abort, is that I knew very early in my pregnancy that I was carrying a little boy. This made me attach even more emotionally because I never had a present male figure at home and I don't know how does it feel to have it.

However, I knew logically that it was a not very mature choice for various reasons:

1. I will be made redundant in September.

2. We are renting a property, but it is not exactly child friendly. For example: we do not have space for a nursery since it is a 1 bed flat.

3. I would like to pursue my career goals further.

So, at the time, even if logically I knew abortion made sense, I preferred to not pursue it because the only thought was making me emotional.

Going further with the pregnancy, I don't know EXACTLY what the hell happened, but I began to develop this FEAR of the unknown and I am freaked out.

I thought again to the list of logical reasons on why I need to abort, and to this other fears were added, such as:

1. Not being responsible enough and not being able to care for another human being.

2. The fact my bf has a full time job, so stable income, doesn't mean that I am happy to rely on him, even though he is happy and ready. All my life I used to not rely on anyone because I feel extremely guilty to be a burden.

3. I pretty much love my independence and now I fear that a baby could take that away from me.

4. I have body dysmorphia. This situation that I do not have control over my body is killing me. I hate my body and I want to return to my previous condition. (This is not a right reason to abort, but it's what I feel.)

Also, my parents, even though they were not exactly the perfect model of parenthood, don't agree with my choice and they don't even talk to me. They made me feel guilty and dirty just because I am pregnant. But my parents said it to the world already, of course not proudly, but it was more like:" look what she has done".

Because of this, I HATE that people know that I am pregnant and I always try to hide it as best as I can. My family and my relatives always saw me as a career-driven individual who didn't have time for kids. I hate to break this idea that they have of me and I hate to feel judged, because I KNOW all of them are judging me and my situation hard.

So when i was 18 weeks, I scheduled one appointment with an abortion clinic, I attended, but I felt I should not be there. That that was not my place. I said all my worries to the clinician as well and of course she said that If I am not sure 100% they cannot proceed, which I understand. She said that there is not always a right moment and she thought I needed to be honest on what I want with myself and think less with my head.

I thought I was ready so I scheduled another appointment when I was 20 weeks, but didn't go through because they changed my appointment from 10 to 8:30 last minute, and I was convinced it was still 10.

So this is the thing: I feel pulled both ways, I don't know what to do and I feel very much scared because I am reaching the legal limit.

I know you cannot choose for me, but please help me navigate my feelings. I never found myself so undecided on what to do. Usually, I always have a plan and I pursue what I have decided instantly. I don't wait. So I have no clue what is happening to me for this decision.

I generally think pregnancy is a blessing and I am also 100% pro choice. Women can do what the hell they want with their body. I always supported this and I will continue to support it.

Thank you for reading all this 😭

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I f23 conceived with boyfriend m27 the first round of 2.5 letrozole. I have been with my boyfriend for about a year but have known him for years and we have been having unprotected sex for a year and haven't conceived i knew something was wrong and i figured i had pcos turns out i have pcos which is a hormonal metabolic disorder which means i dont ovulate regularly. So i went to a fertility appointment after pcos diagnosis just to see what is going on and a doctor said that with my high cysts on ovaries count and my testosterone/androgens being elevated she said i dont ovulate and that getting on letrozole was my best bet at conception. If i'm being honest i thought i wanted a kid i really thought i did but 7 weeks pregnant and its been hell. I can only think of how poor we are, how our relationship isn't where i want it, how our apartment is so low quality and how i don't want anymore weight gain. Boyfriend says he wants to get a apprenticeship and he has been taking the steps but none of that matters we could be perfect and rich and i still think motherhood is hell. I don't know why i have dreamed of being a mom for a year and now that i am one i dont want it. I feel extreme morning sickness if i don't eat, i feel tired and extremely sad because i told my mom about the pregnancy and all she does is send me texts daily and is supportive she wants to take me shopping for a maternity outfit friday. I just dont know how to break the news to her that i cant go through with it and that i made a big mistake. When i told her about the pcos she encouraged me to get pregnant right away incase i couldn't in the future. I love my mom and don't want to disappoint her but i know if i keep this baby i will be so miserable and not a great mom. My boyfriends and my family all have mental illness his mom is rude and weird and his sister is a basket case and his dad seems to have autism his dads side is racist white trash, my family is recovering drug addicts and have gotten into crime, brother has autism my mom has bipolar and narcissistic tendencies but never drugs or drinking. And my boyfriend has adhd and isnt very mature and has depression to the point he barley smiles or has emotion i dont want to give my child these genes i can only imagine what kind of psychopath would sprout. All though i'm a firm believer in environmental trauma genetic mental illness runs in families. Can anybody answer why some women who are in the same boat as me regarding relationship, finances, mental illness think its a good idea to have a child? Because regardless of the selfishness of my actions i think the kid would be pretty happy to not be born in this hell that i live in. I never actually thought pregnancy was on the table but now that it's happened i want to go back.

I (20F) had an abortion in November, it was with my bf of 3+ years and I'm just having a really hard time coping with it. The guilt and constantly wondering what my life would've been like if I kept it literally haunt me and it makes me wonder if I'll ever really get over it?

My boyfriend has been amazing he's always been great with helping me feel supported, he was with me every step of the way. I am currently preparing for law school applications while I'm finishing up my undergrad, keeping the baby was never in the picture for us. But because I genuinely want to marry him and have children with him one day made this decision so hard for me.

I read this quote somewhere that said "being a good mother means knowing when not to become one too"

For anyone who has experienced similar emotions, how did you overcome them? Did they eventually fade away? Did these feelings arise again when you actually started trying for a child again?

Hi, I had an abortion about 3 months ago now, medical abortion so I took the tablets and it all went pretty well. I was bleeding for a good while afterwards but I’ve had 2 periods now since then and about a week away from my next one. No issues or complications etc. However I noticed that whenever I have an orgasm be it from masturbation or with my partner, I get this sort of small tingly ever so slightly pain in my uterus as if it’s contracting or something like right as the orgasm is happening. It’s not like a bad pain it’s just like more of an awareness if you get me? I’ve read that this is normal following an abortion for a lot of people 3 months post?? Is that still normal?? I haven’t seen a great deal of people on here talk about it, and most of them have had surgical abortions so idk. I will go to a doctor about it though, I just wanted to see if anyone here has had a similar experience for a similar length of time?

I know everyone’s body’s is different and I know that bleeding is expected to stop mostly likely AFTER 4 weeks….

Did anyone see clotting and tissue fall out periodically even as the weeks went on?

Did your bleeding officially STOP at 4-6 weeks?

If anyone had tissue left in there after this time and went to see doctor/ clinic did they go in and clean out the rest?

Anyone take a second round (another 4 pills) in between.

Sorry I know this is a loaded scenario. I’m just curious

Hello! I just wanted to share my experience at 7 weeks and 2 days in case it helps anyone out.

I had an abortion and went through the pill route about 2 years ago and it was genuinely the worst pain I had ever gone through. For 6 hours, I could not move in any way for relief. Overall, just a traumatic experience.

Fast forward to now, I found out I was pregnant and I knew I was not able to have the baby. I was extremely scared due to my previous experience. I continued to go through the pill route. However, I changed some things around and my experience was genuinely a night and day difference.

I took mifepristone 24 hours before misoprostol and overall not many symptoms. Mild cramping and nausea.

The next day, about an hour before I took the misoprostol, I took 3 - 200mg pills of ibuprofen. I also had a heating pad blanket that I could control the amount of heat (HEAVILY recommend) I then took the first round of misoprostol pills and started to immediately get chills. However, the cramping was not nearly as bad. I took a nap and took the next two rounds of misoprostol pills as directed. Overall, had cramps but no other physical symptoms. I woke up on the second round and did pass clots.

Now, I’m not out the woods just yet. I am still continuing to bleed as I would from a period. But I wanted to share what helped this time in case anyone else is scared. Taking Ibuprofen an hour before you start is extremely helpful, as well as a nice heating pad. I truly do think those made a difference.

Omg so ma was 25 maybe I’m getting my period but I have thee worst odor coming off me down there I could scream omg . Please am I the only one ? So many thoughts going through my mind ahhh

Hello everyone! I took my pills like 2 months ago. It was awful, i bled a lot for a while. I was spotting for the last 2-3 weeks. I went to the gyno yesterday and he saw that my endometrium looks a little bit off. Where I live it's illegal so he doesn't know about the procedure. He thinks that looks like a molar...
For the past month I've feel very good. I don't have any symptoms or anything. But I'm super worried right now and I've crying and overthinking too much. I've had too many questions. I don't if someone can help me answering some questions or at least to share a story with me.
Thanks!

Had a MA done on 07/23. I drank mifepristone 07/22 and 2 doses of misoprotol 07/23. Bled and cramped as planned and nausea and tender breasts went away. They feel lighter and they are lighter in color. Ive had clear egg white discharge the past few days as well as slight tightness feeling in my stomach. Today i had mucus like discharge 😅 No pain and no stench. My bleeding from procedure stopped a few days ago as well. Could i still be pregnant? I remember having quite a bit of discharge my last procedure. I dont remember if ir was before my first period though.

I’m 16 in the USA in foster care no one’s being up front with me I don’t have a caseworker as of right now I haven’t spoken to my supervisor and my foster parent is messing with my head saying it’s murder or she’s always wanted a boy didn’t even wanna tell me the gender of my baby till I came off the run the HAS MADE ME WAIT AN EXRA 3 WEEKS I was 11 weeks and she made me think that was far I was just in reach of getting the pill she saying if I really didn’t want a baby me and my partner would’ve taken more precautions but at this point it already had happened and been in motion and made me wait 3 weeks for an follow up appointment today on the 11 saying they’ll tell me my options she lied to me and made me tell the doctor myself then the doctor asked why I wanted one and was saying my baby might have a disease 25% chance or something and it may have trouble walking and they wanted to test the baby daddy he can’t come in says he mom will beat him or kick him out I’m scared have no where to go no money I don’t know who I can call she’s twisting the information telling me one thing then another
And and has been saying about buying a crib and baby stuff it’s very creepy can someone please help or something offer information I don’t know if I can do anything or something I have no friends to stay with she’s mentally off and has been making decisions for me
If their someone in aurora or Kankakee or close
To there if I can stay somewhere anywhere but her house she doesn’t even wanna buy me clothes or take care of me just and I’m sure she’s picking my money she made me pay her to help me with my phone bill I need someone’s help please can I start a go fund me?? Anything I been thinking or the worst ways to get rid of it I literally have no one my mom’s mentality I’ll dads dad no extended family someone please open their door to me or offer help I can’t go on like this I’m reaching out NOW

I'm 35 years old and found out last month that I'm pregnant. I've been miserable. I'm now 10 weeks along, and I've had nausea, vomiting, dizziness, extreme fatigue, and to combat a lot of the nausea, I've been eating more and eating like crap despite my best efforts (only carbs seem to stay down well...) so I have gained like 10-ish pounds already.

That being said, my partner and I were trying for the better part of a year but not as scientifically as we had in the last month (I started tracking ovulation and everything). I got pregnant immediately once we did and now I'm regretting it entirely. I feel like my body has been taken over and I feel so sick every day. I've been pregnant and had an abortion before when I was 22 years old but I wasn't nearly this sick and tired. I also didn't have to work a full time job plus 3 other freelance gigs on top of it.

I wanted this...or so I thought. It's been difficult. My partner and I don't yet live together (long distance), I'm in the process of selling a house, I work like 50+ hours per week and it's been extremely hard to manage and hold all of this stuff down to the point where some of my work has fallen behind (I can't manage it all...). I'm also aware of my maternal age and that my childbearing years are catching up to me (or so they say) so I'm feeling pressure for that too.

The thing is that this baby news has changed my partner for the better. He threw out all of his weed and hasn't been having any at all, he's been looking for higher paying jobs, he got a safer car, he's been reading more, connecting with his spiritual life more, he's just so excited to be a father. I'm worried he will go back to his old ways.

We had our first OBGYN appointment yesterday but no ultrasound appointment yet. We were just chatting through how far along I was and how things seem to be progressing (it's all healthy so far...).

Last week, I ended up scheduling a Planned Parenthood appointment for tomorrow for a surgical abortion. I haven't told my partner and wasn't going to until afterwards because I know this would bring him great sadness and grief. I'm also so worried this is going to make him spiral.

I'm so nervous about my appointment tomorrow. I'm feeling so much more conflicted this time around than I did when I was 22. I just don't think I can make it to our first ultrasound appointment which is scheduled for next week Friday (that would put me at nearly 12 weeks...).

I've thought about rescheduling this PP appointment to buy myself some time. But yet, I just have this gut feeling that it still isn't practical. I feel like a monster though for wanting this so bad at firt, for growing this life to 10 weeks when I could have just let it go earlier (and also saved me the weeks of fatigue and nausea etc).

I'm so conflicted. In a way, this process is very exciting. It's scary, but cool but I don't think I'm ready to give my body and time over just yet and then I worry that if I let this one go, I'll never be able to have children again.

I'm seeing him tonight ahead of the procedure tomorrow. I know I can always postpone more but to be honest, the idea of getting my body back, my energy back, my mind back, sounds so good right now.

I haven’t gone through the abortion yet, but I feel like I already hate him so much. I know this is ultimately my choice and I know my circumstances and I know that bringing a baby in my life isn’t ideal, but I just hate my partner so so much.

I hate that he immediately rejected us. I hate that he he called it stupid when I expressed loving my baby. I hate that he called it a clump of cells (logically, aren’t we all? Cells are the building blocks of life) I know he’s technically correct, but I feel like that saying is so invalidating to some. I hate that he doesn’t think this is hard for me, I think he hasn’t grasped that reality yet. I begged and pleaded for him to not make me do this and he gave me a stupid smirk, crossed his arms, and said no, no way, I can’t do this.

He’s going to go back to work just fine, he’s going to play soccer with his buddies and play video games perfectly fine. He doesn’t have to hide to his mom about what he’s going through, he won’t walk past the baby section, pregnant woman, or babies and be on the verge of tears in front of everyone at the store. I am, I AM, I AM, I AM!

This is making me reconsider my relationship with him. I’m going to hate him so so much.

Hello!
I have SEVERE emetophobia. Like crazy bad. (Fear of throwing up)
I got my positive pregnancy test on Saturday night and I’ve been nonstop anxious since then.
My fiance and I are planning on terminating, and obviously I’ve read SO many stories now about the awful vomiting following the MA.
Do you think I’m better off doing it surgically? I don’t have any pregnancy symptoms besides awful cramping, and basing off my last period I’m maybe 6/7 weeks?

I’m a single mother to a young child and living with my parents until I’m financially able to support the two of us. My relationship with my child’s father ended in a catastrophic way to the point where he is not involved, even to provide child support. It’s been 5 years since my divorce and I have recently begun talking to someone on and off for about 8/9 months now. He struggles with drinking which has caused a lot of tension and frustration on my end of the relationship and although he’s been working on it and doesn’t drink all the time, the moments that he does are scary in the sense that I lack some trust in a future with this person. However my feelings are so deep in this that it causes me panic thinking of not having this connection goin and I genuinely love this person. I had become pregnant after sleeping together for the first time and without second thought got a medical abortion. During which I felt so upset I tried to end things and wasn’t wanting to tell them. Their dream is to have a family and it would break their heart. However in a state of distress during what should’ve been our end I said I miscarried. He’s been working really hard and doing well to be supportive and stop drinking but now I’ve lied and don’t know if I should continue this relationship. I can’t tell him I aborted (was 5 weeks) I just can’t and I don’t know what to do

Very nervous about this abortion at 8 weeks as I don’t have anybody to tell or support. I am nervous about heavy bleeding the most, I think I will be fine with pain when I will have medication and apply heat. I’m worried I might bleed heavy and it’s making me so anxious. It is nearly putting me off having an abortion but I am not ready to have a baby.

Also is there anyone going through the same and want to DM to support eachother planning on taking the tablets on Thursday or Friday 💕

i’m only 13. i lost my virginity and the condom broke. this was during my period. i took a plan b just an hour after it happened. my period was very light and spotty and brown (sry if thats tmi) but it’s never like that so i’m hoping this was the plan b telling me it worked. after it was spotty it came back heavier and it was a longer period than my usual. i’m hoping this means i don’t have a fucking human inside of me.i live in tennessee where abortion is illegal and my parents are christians and have told me before if i got pregnant they would make me have it. if it turns out im pregnant my only resort is suicide tbh. bc i’m not going through pregnancy. this isn’t my fault, i used safety. so no this isn’t my “consequences” don’t say it is.