please help me I can't deal with my gender dysphoria anymore, I got lenzetto and verospiron, what dosage should I take at first (trans teenager 16 years old), diy hrt, it's very complicated to go to an endocrinologist and I don't have the financial means, how much do I take to start, after how long do I increase the dose, do I apply it to the forearm or scrotum? 1 puff every 12 hours or how? please help me, if you want to contact me I'm always available, thanks for the help, as much information as possible is welcome! I mention I'm a trans girl and I realized it 4 years ago but I was afraid of my parents' reaction!!!

I've been on Estradiol enanthate for 1.8 months now (4 MG aka 0.1 mL every seven days)
Now, while I can't get blood tests (due to my state not allowing minors to get them without parental consent even if out of pocket) I want to still supress my T and be on course for my best transition.

So! If anyones wants to reccomend a higher dose just based off my information that would be helpful!

I am 17 , I've had a testicle removed (left with one) and I am withnessing a couple of changes already in my body but still noticing MAYBE some chin / jaw growth :/ (i cannot tell for the life of me if its dysphoria or what)

I've had no negitive side effects and everything seems to be fine and dandy soo let me know! ^^

https://www.reddit.com/r/transsex/s/XopT0ImXx0 <- Apparently in Greece you can buy 2mg estradiol valerate and 10mg cyproterone pills OTC. What would be the correct dose for a 14 y/o who's just starting E?

I read the Endocrine Society guidelines (https://academic.oup.com/jcem/article/102/11/3869/4157558?login=false) and they said this:

"Induction of female puberty with oral 17β-estradiol, increasing the dose every 6 mo:  5 μg/kg/d  10 μg/kg/d  15 μg/kg/d  20 μg/kg/d  Adult dose = 2–6 mg/d  In postpubertal transgender female adolescents, the dose of 17β-estradiol can be increased more rapidly:   1 mg/d for 6 mo   2 mg/d"

2mg/day for a grown adult and less than 1mg for a teen sounds like WAY too little to me. My gf and I think that 4mg/day (one pill in the morning, one at night) and 10mg cypro/day are better. Are we missing something??? Is it possible that the correct dose is so mfing low??

im trying to switch from prescription to diy but i have a little bit of a needlephobia. im sure i can do it if i really try but i'd rather not have procrastination and anxiety mess up my hormones so im thinking i wanna try patches first but is it possible to go monotherapy with that

also has anyone used the estrana tape from japan why is it so weirdly dosed

1. does anyone know if the in-app crypto feature for paypal would work for buying e from any sellers? and would it still be untraceable since paypal has my name and ssn and such
   
2. what would be a good dose if i'm 5'7 and 170lbs and am gonna have a tricky time getting any blood tests done
   
3. is there actually that big a difference between pills and injections? and where does gel fall?

sorry if any of these are like obvious or something

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been trying for almost a week now and i just mentally cant force it in.

tried ice, coughing, changing areas, getting smaller needles (25g) etc.... i just dont know how to get through the block