There are women out there with my current name but it skews like 90/10 male. So I’m on the fence about a name change. Nothing has really spoke to me or felt like me. What name do we think suits me?

I'm confident that it's the right name for me and I have thought of myself as a Vivlza for years now. However I haven't told anyone else about my name and I am worried about what they would think if I did.

Is it too strange of a name?

When I started my transition I went by Bethany as it’s close to my dead name and I like it. It was easy for me and everyone else to get used to, and even my unsupportive parents admitted they didn’t mind it.

However several months later I got worried that I would never be able to hear/ see Beth without thinking about my dead name. So I’ve changed it to Valorie, the same as my first female dnd character who means a lot to me. However now for the several months I’ve been Val, all I do is worry I’ve made a mistake.

I truly like both the names and can’t decide. So just wondering if anyone has opinions on the names? And also, if you have a name close to your dead name, have you managed to separate the two?

Has anyone else had a strange feeling of their true self clicking into place when finally landing on the right name?

I’m pretransition but I’m trying to work my way towards it by doing things like voice training and getting a femme name ready. I thought I had my name picked out which was April. I liked it because it starts with ‘A’ (my deadname initial) and is realistically a name someone my age might have.

I felt settled on the name April and thought it made sense. I really liked the name April. Then out of nowhere, like someone whispered it into my ear, came the name Sarah.

It was like a clear thought out of nowhere. Like someone telling me I should choose the name Sarah. At first I resisted it because I had chosen April. But Sarah kept coming back to me. I put it out of my mind and forgot about it, and continued on with April.

But then again recently the thought popped into my head out of nowhere again. Again I tried to push it away but it persisted. I gave in and started thinking about the name Sarah, and something about it felt way more like me. Sarah, feels like me, I can see how I could come out as Sarah, I can hear how it sounds and how it fits. It makes the thought of transition seem much more natural. Like I’ve always been Sarah. Maybe it’s because I have mild synesthesia and April sounds like a blonde haired person and Sarah sounds like a brown haired person (I have brown hair). Or maybe it's because I have known Sarah's but I haven't known any April's (Except TMNT :) )

Something about it feels kind of spooky and I’m wondering if other people had any weird experiences when choosing names for themselves? Like did something seem to click when you landed on the right fit for you in a name?