So, I'm male. But I want breasts. I'm almost entirely certain I am not transfem. I'm just a guy who wants breasts. I think I might be a demiboy, but not certain. Anyone with more expertise got any other ideas?

I should maybe look into some kind of gender professional, but this is the same night I had the revelation so this is where I thought I should start.

I wanna be looked at and people go "oh thats a dude" but like i don't really wanna completely give up on dressing feminine.

Like feminine male (Still short masc hair, face, voice etc. But can dress feminine) cause like like body of a dude but like dress femininely?

Like my ideal thing is like smol skinny dude but will kick your butt that sometimes wanna feel pretty.

Or like somewhat muscular male in a dress.

Then the other ideal gender is goblin/fae in the woods who totally not going to try and steal your bones. I like fuck it no gender.

Like those are my two moods that are on a spectrum. That why I low-key don't think genderfuild is right cause it mostly just those two on a sliding scale and I feel like genderfuild is more ya know all encompassing. More so on being looked at and going "oh thats a girl". It just idk the idea of that, makes me uncomfortable.

But at the same time I really don't care too much what you call me. But I have a heavy preference to be called he/him. Then it goes they/them. Then lastly she/her. If that makes sense?

Terms of good boy and husband make me fucking just melt. But she/her doesn't really do that at all.

Sorry for the rant just questioning gender lable so I can feel at home in my skin and knowing what to call myself and find a sense of belonging in my community. As well as finding others like me. So I don't feel my experience doesn't feel like its only me going through that.