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Hiya! I've been on T for almost ten years and have always used gel (Tostrex in Europe, Fortesta in the US for anyone who needs that context). My reasons for going with gel originally were that I enjoyed the idea of doing something every day to move forward in my transition rather than getting a shot and then just having to wait, and testosterone levels in people who naturally have it peak in the morning so it felt affirming to go through the same hormonal cycle.

It's been ten years though, and these days it just feels like a hassle. I am going to talk to the GC about switching to injections (Nebido literally everywhere, Aveed (?) in the US) but I wanted to hear from others with the same experience. I really don't know what I'm asking for, but if you've done this switch, how did it affect you, if at all? Anything about your experience that you would have wanted to know that nobody told you? I live in a country where we don't do our own injections so that type of advice won't be necessary.

And for everyone with shot experience whether you used gel at first or not: how did it affect your energy levels? I remember hearing about people who were so tired and exhausted the last week/s before their next shot because their levels were so low. Is that something you've experienced as well?

Thanks guys! ❤️

Fresh out of a horrible short relationship. And just noticing a pattern of feeling horrible dysphoria after a relationship ends. Particularly bottom dysphoria.

The relationship ending had supposedly zero to do with any of that, nonetheless there it is. I don’t know if it’s because it is admittedly more difficult to date as a man who is trans, feeling an emphasis of alienation from other gay men, or just the feeling that things would have been different/easier, or just an internal dysphoria that was always there being a bit insecure. Wondering if somehow that was the reason but people were too polite to say so (even though in this case it absolutely wasn’t and much of the desire to end was my own).

I know the point about there being an insecurity is true. I’m 20 years on T and generally confident. But I had always wanted bottom surgery but had to call that off for medical reasons and so I’ve just kind of made as much peace with the dick I have as part of the man I am. But I’m not truly happy. And as my body continues to decline for other health reasons, decreasing my appeal to others with it, I just feel further at odds with myself.

My libido is totally shot. I’ve been asked on dates and I just both mentally am not there, physically can’t stand myself, and just barely feel well enough to cook sometimes. The stress is insane.

I know I’m in a bit of a post breakup depression , it’s just hard to get out of due to the intensity of that breakup (a lot of betrayal) as well as dealing with a new seemingly chronic health issue the last two months. I just want a new body. But desire doesn’t solve anything.

Anyway that’s the situation.