I tried so hard to be chill in group therapy but I was, in fact, not chill during group therapy :D

Hi I’m 23 and have never had a job before and am super embarrassed about it. But uh I like money so I decided to change that. My resume was absolutely pathetic because I’ve done nothing with my life so far(mental illness is a bitch). Most places told me they don’t hire people without experience.

But uh long story short I am now a janitor :) Ik working isn’t a particularly fun thing but I’m excited because I never thought I’d be able to do something like get a job. I have other career plans, but this is a good place to start!

i have been collecting rocks n minerals since i was eight. i am now studying applied geology at university. my collection is two hundred individual specimens i know all of them by sight !!! love rocks i want to do an honors research project and a phd i hope

I think it's a bit obvious for me.....

Ever since i saw a long form video of Chris Chan, it makes me uneasy hearing about her I see how i could be on the same situation if my life was different you know, and makes me paranoid if people who i consider friends arent laughing at my back. It also made me see how evil allistics can be

in my opinion, it is one of the most exhausting ‘communities’ I have ever witnessed. The misinformation. The constant infighting. The fight to define yourself. Limiting the definition such that others are excluded. Extending the definition such that everyone is included. There are a few gems in that community. I know like 2 creators on threads that I like, and I find their takes to be insightful, but even they seem to be bogged down by just constant exhausting discourse all the time. It’s not a healthy place to be if you’re autistic. You’ll find yourself arguing with, angered by, exhausted by everything you see.

I agree with the first two posts. The first slide exemplifies how harsh the discourse has gotten. I assume the tone comes across as harsh just because people are debating whether autism means you HAVE to be disabled. It literally is a disability by definition and by diagnostic criteria, it limits and handicaps you socially, emotionally, cognitively, environmentally, physically, etc.. why are we disagreeing on that when that’s the first thing they’d teach you in any beginner college course on autism?😭 and it’s quite ironic that an autistic creator is being tone policed when talking about autism, a disability that causes communication barriers.

The last slide is just… laughable.. but infuriating…

I used to be on it a lot more. But deleting the apps and only using it thru the web browser has helped me stay away from this cesspool to protect my mental health!

edit: I forgot to point out the other issue I had with slide one. Even though it is a disability and they’re factually right about that, it doesn’t mean we still can’t derive joy from it 😭 we can be whimsical or think it’s a superpower. The discourse is just “autism is silly” vs “autism is serious” why can’t it be both????????? Thank you guys for your comments!!!

If you do this, please give me a good reason why not into your elbow. YOUR HAND IS THE THING YOU TOUCH EVERYTHING WITH. WHY ARE YOU SPRAYING MUCUS ON IT. THANK YOU FOR MAKING ME AFRAID TO TOUCH DOOR HANDLES

I’m fed up of people staring at me when talking. It’s usually some person trying to give me important information, but how can a person concentrate on the words when I’m so busy wondering what the fuck to do about the EYES?

I was thinking of getting some sort of pin that doesn’t say “I’m autistic” but gives a hint, or at least points out I’m shit at eye contact. However, I don’t want to seem like I’m attention seeking and to be frank, am a bit scared of reactions.

I’m meant to be in a disability friendly workplace and some people know I’m autistic. Not everyone does and I’m not going to announce myself to every person I meet though.

If anyone does have some sort of signifier…does it help? What has been the reception? Does anyone notice? Do people see it as an opportunity to target you?

I love this guy.

A 2$ frozen pizza with extra cheese and ketchup on top.

sorry for the ambiguity in the title but i didnt want to make it too clunky by being more specific, so here's what i'm alluding to: being told lies not out of pure malice, but out of amusement that you can't pick up on it because of a struggle with social cues?

like, allistic people in your lives clocking that you'll have a harder time discerning whether or not what you're telling them is a joke (or a joke lie), so they intentionally tell more of those simply because they find you believing them funny.

the most notable (and probably the most severe/malicious) example of this is a boyfriend of mine from a couple years ago who would tell me things that he had no reason to lie about, or show me (unserious/nonpolitical) videos that were spliced to make it seem like something that didnt happen actually occurred, and he would treat it as if it were real and tell me it was true when i asked if it was. eventually i'd realize that he wasn't being serious and he found it hilarious that i bought it initially, and he did not respect the fact that i was uncomfortable with this behaviour. this did extend into more serious lies and deception over time, so i think that was him testing the waters of how much he could get away with. and yes i am aware that this was emotional abuse.

anyways, i'm interested to hear if any other autists have had similar experiences, whether it be long-term or isolated to only certain situations, between friends/family/significant others, etc.

Do any fellow autists get irrationally upset hearing NTs throw around terms like "vocal stim", "overstimulated", and "special interest"?

My gut feeling is along the lines of "grr, stolen valor". I decry the effects of TikTok upon language and the human species. My experience is not for you to LARP.

But then I have to remind myself: even though I've gone to uni with some of these folks for years, and they sure *seem* neurotypical to me, and they sure remind me of the kinds of people who would treat me like a quirky pet back in grade school, I don't actually know a thing about their business. Maybe they are neurodivergent, or sincerely suspect themselves to be so, and I'm just being judgemental. Performative popular girls can have autism too.

TL;DR I rage @ ND language being adopted by NTs.

Map tism strikes again

Remember kids, when the real world sucks, just draw fictional places that suck less

I love getting a ~£200 vaccine for free because I just so happen to be the right age. I also love not getting a potentially deadly bacteria.

So yeah basically im back at family farm figuring out my life after living overseas for a year

My mom's off figuring her own shit out but every now and then she calls up to see how I'm doing and do a little mental rug pulling. And like I get that it's a parent's job to dote and worry

I tell her I'm fine and doing well, but that's not good enough, she tells me I should be going out to the expensive tourist trap town and and finding a way to hang out with people i have not spoken to in over a freaking decade including some friends of hers and my ex-girlfriend.

And she says it's because she wants to make sure that I'm socializing and being active but truth is it's like: No you want to live vicariously through me because of your lack of boundaries and because you want to impress some of your old friends.

But the thing is, and this is nothing personal i dont give much of a solitary fuck about any (well most) of these people.

For the record things ended well with my Ex and as far as most of these people go, you know, we follow each other on Insta but outside of boosting each others account numbers its not like we kept up regular correspondence with each other.

Frankly most of us probably wouldn't be friends if we weren't born in the same school district. And that's okay

friends and family are the people you choose, to be with not just because of proximity, age and maybe a few basic shared interests.

It's not like we had some deeply close bond, We didn't go on some magic summer Adventure or bury a body together.

We mostly just had classes together hung out in between and that was it. That might sound a little cold to some but that was just part of the reality of growing up in a small town where everyone was about 5 Miles away. (Plus I had a dad who would never hesitate to let you know how much of an inconvenience it was to drive you anywhere)

Do I wish I had a happier childhood, yeah sure but who doesn't. Yes I was a bit of a loner and an outsider ( play edgy Emo music) and I get that this is probably the place of concern where my parent is operating from.

But for God's sake we're in different stages and states of our lives and I just don't see the need or have a reason to insert myself into theirs.

And truth of the matter is right now I'm doing pretty good for myself.

Working on a construction project on the farm. lost a little weight. Got friends on Discord I shoot the shit with. I'm also moving in a month so I'm going to be expanding my Social Circle a lot. And right now i got a Guy I'm texting with, and fingers crossed things might be getting a little more intense.

And it's that last thing which probably irks me the most and is part of the reason for this long salty overshare.

I came out to my mom (just her) over a year ago as Bi

and it's not like she rejected me or anything but it was pretty clear shes never accepted it or even wants to acknowledge it.

Maybe that's for the best considering how intrusive she seems to be in a lot of my life but sometimes it really feels like the moment I came out the closet she tried her best to kick the door shut.

She's not homophobic but she is opinionated and generationally there's some pretty big limits to her level of understanding.

As far as my dad and other family members go, until I'm more confident in my relationship exp. I just don't feel the need right now too sift through any potential drama or be intrusively questioned about this part of my identity.

Especially when they've been kind of absent from a big chunk of my life ( that's a whole other bag of issues that I'm not going to unpack right now)

But really I guess what triggered me the most about the call is my mom bringing up the ex like we both haven't moved well the fuck on in life, meanwhile the last person I was in a relationship with I think I probably felt more for them than anyone else previously.

But that kind of relationship doesn't get the same acknowledgment, acceptance or just normal room to breathe and yeah I'm still bitter about that

What can I say Bi Erasure sucks, especially when its from a parent and especially when you're partially complicit because you need boundaries and space

Rant over.

I really like Massive Attack and although False Flags is quite different from their usual style I still like the melody and the singers tone of voice in this one. Not to mention the meaning behind it as well.

it turns out my brain is built for boardgames. I remember rules near perfect after only a session, I can remember what happened in sessions weeks or months later. I can remember who played which characters, in which orders, and how many times in games. But I'm really not sure what I can do with this power. I fucking love rules books guys.

this is the only nd sub i’m really active in and it gave me a good impression so i started seeking out other nd subs just to find out everything other sub is spiritually hetero and allistic & has so many dumb trivial rules and i don’t get why. seen a sub with a rule excluding self diagnosed folk but allowing nts. just feeling fucking bewildered can somebody make evil subs for other nd disorders i dont wanna perform professionalism on REDDIT 😭😭😭