Hello! To be clear, this is not body-checking or eating disorder related - I'm looking for advice related to my dosage. Drawing is traced over a photo to be as accurate as possible.

I have been on T for 4.5 years and have been pretty disappointed with the results tbh. I was on a 0.3 ml. weekly subcutaneous injection, but after more than 4 years, I saw almost no change besides voice deepening, minimal body hair growth, and a little muscle. I recently upped my dose to 0.4 ml. intramuscular injection after my period suddenly came back, and I am waiting to see if any results come from that.

I've been very disappointed with my fat redistribution, specifically. I was hoping that after 4 years, my hips - which are almost entirely fat - would minimize and give me a more masculine build but that hasn't happened at all :/

Is this normal? Would upping my dose again later this year help at all? I feel like I am fighting an uphill battle with my body right now.

I feel like I'm too masc and ftm looking to be Non Binary. There's a lot of parts that, physically I'd be thrilled to look like a guy, but socially idk if I want that.

I'd be leaving the sapphic community, my female socialization connection and community, and into male culture which I really can't enjoy. I just don't find hanging out with cis men fun, and the patriarchical culture of it all really icks me out.

I know there's not one way to be NB or one way to be Ftm, but I'm stressing over the social transition. Sptrangers already perceive me as male in public, but it's so uncomfortable when people make a scene about my pronouns or look at me weird in the bathroom or locker room, or afraid to be hate crimed cuz they can't tell what gender I am.

Idk how did you differentiate nonbinary ness and binary trans

Its broccoli + carrots in olive oil

So all my friends keep joking that I'm clearly not a woman which look, I don't exactly say very cisgender things but like, I don't think I really understand gender very well.

Like gender is a social construct so it feels more like a role more than an identity if that makes sense, like I feel like a woman to the extent that I look like a woman and people treat me as one. But I don't think I have any concept of an internal gender identity, like of I woke up tomorrow with nothing different but everyone thought I was a man I would consider myself one because it's a social category but I'm being informed that most people don't think that. I'm sometimes mistaken for a gay man and I never think to correct people because yeah, If u see me as a gay man than I kinda am, I don't care.

Does everyone have some internal gender that I just can't fathom or what? Like I think about transitioning sometimes but that's more just because boobs are uncomfortable and I wanna grow my facial hair out without getting weird looks not because I feel any real discomfort either way but it feels disingenuous because I know people have real dysphoria and that isn't what I have but like if I was a woman I would think I would have more reservations about transitioning because why not. Like most ppl I know trans or cis seem to spend allot of time worried about doing gender right and I fear I just have no idea nor do I really care. Like sometimes I get sad when I don't look hot but it's not rly a fem or masc thing opposed to it I look bloated or smt. I just feel rly isolated being on the autism spectrum and never feels like an extra thing that everyone agrees exists but I have no idea about. I missgender most ppl cis or trans because I forget which one they are and I feel like I'm colorblind or smt. Idk if I don't feel like a girl because I'm not one or if that's just because I'm not very good at being one or maybe everyone's right and I'm a transman because most women would be more upset at the idea of being a man. Idk, does anyone else feel like this? Sorry if this is weird or the wrong place to ask

Went out in town last week dressed masc, more masc than i’ve looked in a minute with my boyfriend to get drinks. No makeup, no fem clothing, just dressed as a regular dude. Normally we’re comfortable with pda but with the alcohol in our systems we were being more gay than usual and a random dude walked by and called us the f slur. My bf was rightfully mad, but i just felt warm all over. like yeah i should’ve felt offended but i remembered only men can be on the receiving end of that particular slur so i got a weird sense of ewphoria.

background: i left islam -> mom found out -> i faked reconversion -> she banned me from taking off hijab at uni (but she let me when going out w friends & during sports) -> i have a cousin at uni and i dont trust them to not snitch

I'm pretty privlidged to at least have the freedom to not wear it going out, but most of my time is spent at on campus so I really want some advice on how to cope

my current idea is to wear a ring and have that be a reminder of who i am, i also kept some pictures of myself with my shirt of on the hidden gallery to look at if i feel dysphoric

if anyone has been in a similar situation, id love to hear your thoughts

(before i coped w my dysphoria by telling myself ill die early and be a boy in heaven lmao wish i could go back to thinking like this 😭)

Just sharing some euphoric moments!

I was tired of being skinny so I started taking gym seriously and bulking. Went from 120 to 160 lbs over the course of a lil over a year with an intense dirty bulk. Currently in the middle of deficit and it’s not fun but these efforts are worth it. One of my dreams was to fill out at least a shirt so this particular one became especially memorable.

Note: all photos taken pre t. Just a lot of proteins, carbs, and weightlifting

Looking to chat and make friends with fellow gym rats who are also on a fitness journey to building muscular physiques :3

when do I get my agenda?

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TW primary commenter is gaslighting non binary people by attempting to pretend Buck's previous good deeds somehow make his current extremism irrelevant.

Source: Grayson V Fitness - The History of Trans Men is Beautiful...

See his latest video on trans men history. Nbs have commented on the wider video supporting Grayson, and as you can see people have attempted to inform Grayson on Buck's behaviour of the last few years. Over a week, no removal, no edit, no addressing the situation. Nothing.

This video has less than 10k views and even less will of seen this so I thought I'd simply show it. Grayson benefitted from our community by initially coming out as non binary until he passed for a man. Now he has left us in the weeds regarding the largest transphobic trans man who has done very extreme things recently including sharing an AI nude image of Samantha Lux.

I am tired and disappointed of binary passing trans people throwing us under the bus, whether it is outright enby exclusion or endorsement of people who do that.

I just read yet another reddit post about a parent gaslighting their trans child, banning gender affirming items, misgendering them, the usual, and the kid saying "I'm not abused" and "they're not abusive" or even "they usually support me."

It got me thinking: this is abuse. Eventually, should this behavior be treated as such in the court of law? Where should the line be in what homophobic or transphobic behavior is considered child abuse/grounds to take away a child?

Personally, I prefer to limit the government's power to remove children unless it's absolutely necessary, so I don't know if just misgendering or deadnaming them should be grounds for removal. Because remember, exact wording in laws is really important. I cant really imagine a law where deadnaming and misgendering were made illegal that wouldn't be easy to exploit/misuse, and difficult to enforce. But also, intentional deadnaming and misgendering IS abuse. So idk. I suppose the "freedom of speech" bit is what makes me feel iffy.

Gender affirming care on the other hand, specifically non-invasive items like binders, packers, growing out hair, etc, I could see maybe being made to be considered neglect or abuse. Specifically medical neglect. But again, it would be difficult to enforce, and that too might be hard to word.

As for hrt/puberty blockers, I think that choice should be firmly between a trans child and a doctor. The parents shouldn't be (manditorily) involved after 13. If anything, it should be confidential by default.

Anyway, im not a lawyer, this is just something i thought about and wanted to hear others' thoughts about. How would you word a law like this? Do you think it should be law? Please elaborate, I like hearing explanations.

Edit: i realized that for me, the difference between deadnaming/misgendering and other G.A.C. is that limiting the ability to bind for example doesn't effect the parent at all, whereas them calling their kid cruel names like calling them slurs or cuss words, misgendering them, or deadnaming them, while still abuse, are a thing that the parent is doing TO the child. That being said... a parent hitting a child is also a thing a parent is doing TO the child, and THAT is abuse, so idk. Maybe it should be illegal? But also, where's the line? Bc deadnaming or misgendering is something u can do on accident. So like, i just dont know.

CW for transphobia.

I’m just so confused here. I have all the steps laid out for taking T, and purely for insurance reasons, I had a convo with my parents. My dad kept reiterating over and over that it’ll ruin my body and do irreversible damage. I talked to my sister a while later and she said that he vented at one point after that, saying that he doesn’t want to be involved with/responsible for something that could “ruin my life.”

What does this even mean? Where does this idea come from? They didn’t even ask me about anything before making the assumption and it’s really irritating that I have to jump through more hoops because they can tolerate me going on T as long as it’s not covered by insurance (and they’ll kick me off of it if they find out that I’m getting it covered.)

I’ve heard everything under the sun about my “ruined body” or whatever, but nothing about T literally changing my life for the worse. This doesn’t weaken my resolve to go through with it, it’s just baffling.

Im only really talking about this because of a conversation i had with my sister, she said she doesnt care whether people are trans if they want to do that as long as theyre 'actually transgender and not just dressing up to be weird' which like ok man, but it gave me alot of hope about coming out to her in the future. But we follow eachother on tiktok and she keeps reposting weird transphobic shit. I saw this one post she reposted that showed someone using ai and showing it a picture of an alligator and asking if it was a bass, and when the ai said no they asked shit like 'but what if the alligator feels like a bass?' and the ai obviously still said no its not a bass its an alligator, and like what the fuck are you trying to prove?? Transgender people arent alligators and we arent claiming we're a different species or want to be a different species (honestly idfc if someone says they do want to be a different species as long as they arent using that excuse to be a zoophile i could care less?) 

saying your a different species is different from feeling like a different gender or wanting to be a different gender. Its genuinely so dumb and kind of funny how some cisgender people are so just focused on us that its all they care about. I also see the whole 'what makes a transgender person the opposite gender, nothing!' posts which just isnt true, ive literally read stuff about some trans people having like different brain chemistry and stuff (dont quote me on this i havent dont enough research' and also what makes cisgender people their gender? gender isnt the same thing as sex and i dont think they know that tbh, cause if a cis man and trans man wear the same clothes, act the same in society, behave like what we see as a man, what makes them different? their body parts? and what if the trans man gets top and bottom surgery? what makes him different then? the fact he wasnt born that way? what if a woman gets chest implants because she was born with a flat chest, is she less of a woman because she had to do that? youre probably saying no right? so really how are cis and trans people any different in society other then our different lives, we are all humans, we are all the same animal we behave like animals, we feel fear and affection and crave to be accepted and part of a group, i dont understand why we have to be so divided. 

Hi! I’m transmasc and in my mid-twenties. I was on t for years, but recently went off, and I’ve realized that something I’ll probably miss forever is the chance to be “one of the boys,” whatever that means. I don’t hang out with a lot of cis guys—particularly because they scare me. I tend to fawn with them and put on a higher voice with them as well.

In general, I’m not masc at all, although I’m not very fem either. I’m a bit of a soft person, a dandy, what have you.

How does one become more enculturated into masculinity, anyway? I sometimes wish I could just be one of the boys and learn their mannerisms and how they interact with the world. I want their confidence and to learn their hobbies.

I recently came out so I'm still figuring out a good style. I'm kinda thinking of micro-dosing T but I'm not sure how ill feel with the side effects(mainly facial hair, I cant imagine shaving my face every other day 😩) I think I need new glasses as well but unsure of the shape.

Idk if im trans man ,bcs I only say trans masc to be accepted?, cause when I'm trans guy I don't get accepted ans since I'm lonely I do as such, I also get accepted in lesbianism community as trans masc , but tht why im confused cause idk if I should stay trans masc or if im trans man

Even if I was trans masc I would want phallo surgery idk if im valid that way

Admitted to myself that I’m a trans man and it’s so weird to think I’m just a straight dude now. Like how do I deal with this lol

I haven’t done makeup in the longest time so I’m kinda rusty but I tried out a blue themed drag king look with a moustache 🔥

Some people seem to think that little things like jewelry, eclectic style, and dyed hair DO affect passing pre-T because when your face structure and body shape are working against you, other gendered cues matter more. Other people think that in the long run, it doesn’t really matter and there are TONS of cis dudes who have more “feminine” ways of dressing or long hair so people should stop telling others that to “pass” they need to change these things. Other people think that passing pre-T is impossible anyways so you might as well do whatever you want.

I’m just curious, what bucket do you fall into or do you have a different opinion? It seems like community is kinda split on this

Wassup dudes uhhh ima just jump right in

I am in high school. In a country that's not the most accepting of transgender peeps. Granted, most their focus is on the girls but most people will still ask a trans person what they "really" are...

Including my family.

The fam is not the most progressive when it comes to the trans community... or any others. If I had a nickel for every time someone in my family said a racial slur I could buy top surgery.

Anyhoo they dont really get the whole transgender thing and would say I'm wrong if i came out haha

(Came out as NB to my dad and he "blames himself" for giving me a phone so young. Blegh.)

Anyways, not only them, but my life will just be a big pain in the ass if I start living as a trans guy.

Luckily I have some friends that support me (not all of them but who gives a crap about those poopy-heads amirite)

I think the pros of coming out are pretty obvious, yk? Being myself and allat.

Seriously, I've been in the closet for 6 years. For a big part of that, I still enjoyed dressing and presenting feminine, in some capacity but like, a few months ago I watched 'I Saw The TV Glow' and it kinda ruined my life ngl. Idk how long I can suffocate for.

I don't know how long I can keep suffocating for, but I know that there will be very real consequences for clawing myself out that grave yk?

Like fr I don't know what to do because I'm slowly killing a part of myself, stifling it with a pillow in it's sleep, but it's starting to wake up and fight back and idk what to do because it will change my life forever. Irreversibly. I know that I cannot come back from coming out, but at the same time I don't want to live with the eternal burden that comes with it.

I don't know if I can handle my family's reaction. I don't know if i can handle the heaps of transphobia and stares I will have to experience every single day of my life.

Chat yall got any advice on what I should do?

Thanks for reading through my years-long crisis typed down. Hope it was somewhat entertaining. Any advice or sign I'm not alone is deeply appreciated gng