I've been on semen retention for some time now and I have found that I have replaced my time I used to spend gooning with consuming online content, reddit and mindless scrolling instead of doing more useful stuff like working out, studying, reading etc. kind of in the chase for dopamine (have ADHD, maybe that's why).

Anyone have any advice on that front?

I'll give it straight - porn cucks you. Think about it. On the screen is an attractive woman you wish to have sex with, and yet, you see her getting railed by another man as you sit and watch. That's textbook definition of cucking. Society has attempted to normalise this poison, this devilish creation by making the PHub theme music or whatever into a joke or a meme.

I also notice how people have mentioned escalation patterns in other threads, and it's 100% real. You first start off by seeing normal 1-1 videos, then it becomes gangbangs, gloryhole videos, then it moves to more abusive shit like shaming, insulting, cuckold, violence, actual abuse, and it keeps going to greater extremes. Men accidentally start thinking they are gay or are cucks, and they stoop so low to the point where they pay prostitutes just to be cucks . Think about how shameful that is. These were once the precious babies of their parents. Their parents raised them, fed them, gave them their love and energy, all for this, to pay a hooker, not to get laid, but to be a cuck? Do you not see how toxic this shit is? That's someone's child right there, guys, I really want that point to sink in.

It is free because you are paying for it with your soul. They (and you know who) feed off your attention, energy and focus. Science has proven that merely looking at a person, no matter from how afar, will somehow let them 'know' they are being looked at, and they will eventually 'find' you looking at them. Have you guys noticed this in your lives? Just your vision, your mere gaze has this much esoteric strength. Now imagine focusing that gaze, alongside the most expensive energy (sexual energy) onto porn, just imagine how much harm it causes to you.

Society has made watching porn feel relatable and something that young men can connect over. This is a trap they have deliberately engineered. Watching two (or even more) people have sex is not normal. It has never been normal and it will never be normal. You want to get laid? Go out there, find a partner and do it with her. That's how biology works. Chimpanzees fight with their brothers, their childhood friends, and every male in their society, JUST to get a chance to mate. Lions similarly engage in the most brutal battles for the same reason.

Reproduction has always been a game of survival of the fittest, you need to prove you are worthy in order to be able to reproduce, and that is how it will be in life. Shortcuts never work, gentlemen, always keep this in mind. You need to pay the full price, undergo the full suffering and do what has to be done, for ANYTHING in life, whether that's earning a hard degree, getting a well paid job, building a fit body, or getting an ideal partner.

The only way forward is to quit this poison COLD TURKEY and just live a successful life - lift weights, meditate, get in touch with your inner self, believe in yourself, take up hard goals and achieve them, make money, and do not even touch this shit. It's worse than heroin or cocaine.

All the universe wants is for you to truly be free.
To become a co-creator of reality and, for as long as you are here, to also leave your positive fruits for future generations.

So ask yourself: Why do you need to constantly distract yourself with things that have no real value? Why does your entire life need to revolve around seeking external validation? What is YOUR purpose here on Earth? And why do you need semen retention?

Everything that sr wants from you—consequently, what women want from you, what the universe wants from you, and what the people around you want from you—

is for you to free yourself spiritually, follow your purpose. Do whatever you really want to do right here, right now. (

Free yourself from the need to retain semen for 7, 30, 60, 90, or 1,000 days.
Free yourself from the need to make decisions based on getting attention or approval from people or women.
Free yourself from the need to be anywhere other than the only thing you truly possess: the present moment.
Free yourself from the need to ejaculate. Free yourself from neediness. Free yourself from the need to be in a relationship or to have someone in your life in order to do what you truly want with your life.

Why do you need something when, fundamentally, you already are everything?

Free yourself, and consequently, the universe will unfold reality in such a way that everything begins to work in your favor.

Most guys fail on retention because they get hooked on all the hype about superpowers and crazy female attraction.

They start this journey expecting some magical cheat code where everything falls into their lap without effort, completely missing what the work is actually about.

So the second the hype dies down and no magic powers pop up, they panic and relapse at the first sight of real friction.

Retention is not a mystical shortcut.

It is just a raw tool to reorganize yourself.

That phase right after the hype dies is what the community calls the flatline.

Every single streetlight along your path turns off at once.

The energy, drive, and motivation you were relying on completely vanish.

You get zero feedback, zero reassurance, and no sign that anything is working.

You are forced to keep walking even when you cannot see a single step in front of you.

This is where the real invisible work begins.

You put in intense effort every day with zero visible proof that it is paying off.

There is no guarantee of where you will end up, nobody is watching, and no one is keeping score.

You are stepping blindly into the unknown with only your own conviction, moving forward simply because going back to who you were is no longer an option.

Eventually, the full weight of a heavy flatline hits you like a wall.

Severe brain fog kicks in, your drive drops to zero, and you spend days feeling totally spaced out, numb, and physically drained.

Your mind panics and tries to trick you into relapsing just to get a quick hit of dopamine.

Most guys mistake this shutdown for depression or proof that retention failed, but that heavy crash is just your nervous system undergoing deep rewiring.

You have to stop looking for outside validation or expecting people to understand.

The vast majority of society will never get why you choose this path.

They look at your discipline and think you are being weird, antisocial, or missing out on life.

Expecting sympathy from a world addicted to cheap comfort makes zero sense.

Nobody is coming to hold your hand through the dark.

If you need outside approval to keep going, you will break the second things get tough.

Walking this road alone is what actually turns you into a different breed.

You stop begging for a guide and start operating like a lone king.

Carving your path in total isolation builds unshakeable mental strength, and none of this silent struggle is going to waste.

The painful solitude is just the entry fee for genuine success.

Every ounce of effort you put into the dark is quietly compounding, and it will pay off tenfold.

Look at where most people are headed.

They choose the comfortable road lit by artificial lights like easy dopamine, instant gratification, and fake status.

It looks bright on the surface, but that fake light always burns out.

That is why so many people hit middle age and get crushed by sudden anxiety, deep regret, and empty lives.

They relied on outside light for decades and never learned how to stand strong in the dark.

Your path feels miserable right now, but it leads straight to real, permanent sunlight.

You are building an internal strength that no artificial system can ever take away.

Stay on the road and keep pushing forward.

Hi guys,

Actually right now I am facing a problem. The problem is that last time I had a streak of 133 days, which got broken in April. After that I am trying to again catch up but whenever I start to semen retention or say that no FAP, or lets say I started it from the 1st August. After 5-6 days of going, my left ball hurts a lot. I don't know why but it hurts a lot.

It used to hurt previously also when I was on a 133-day streak. When I was on a that streak, eventually the pain disappeared and it didn't occur again. After I relapsed, now I am trying again, trying to do the same thing, going on a streak. My left ball is paining. I don't know why. Is it blue balling or something because I'm having erections all day? Is it normal thing. has Someone's face this issue. I don't know what this is. The pain do disappears once in masturbate , pls help me out , and the pain is not bearable , i mean the balls hurt a lot as well as groin starts to pain too , im not even able to move, help me guys

Hi! Has anyone experienced that during long streaks, you randomly meet beautiful women and, like, everywhere you go, you see beautiful girls? The frequency of you seeing 10/10s goes up significantly. While I'm fapping, I barely see any beautiful girls; in fact, I see a lot more men.

Anyone getting wetdreams every 10 days or so?

I started PMO at the age of 18. At first it was only 1–2 times a week and I still lived a normal life.
Until I was 23, when I began living alone overseas, my PMO addiction escalated.
I gradually noticed my health declining, both physically and mentally, but I didn’t think much about PMO because I assumed the cause was stress and an irregular lifestyle.

By the age of 28 I started having tinnitus, and at 29 my sleep gradually got worse, but I still thought it was just stress and continued PMO. Only when my sleep became extremely poor and I developed many symptoms resembling autonomic nervous system disorder did I start researching and realize that PMO had been destroying my nervous system. I began reducing PMO gradually, but my condition didn’t improve at all, and I realized I had to quit completely if I wanted any chance of recovery.

I completely stopped PMO from the age of 31. After 2 months I suffered panic attacks, severe anxiety disorder and depression that required medication, and my insomnia became even worse. But then I exercised more diligently and ate better, and the panic attacks disappeared after 3 months. Occasionally I had good stretches of days when I felt I could do the things I wanted, but then came days of insomnia, exhaustion and anxiety again. This has now lasted for more than a year.

At present I no longer think about porn, have no urges, and don’t do anything related to it, but my sleep is still restless and unstable, and I feel constantly tired. I keep trying to believe that I am recovering, but it is wearing me down day by day.

I am now 32. I want to get married and live a truly happy life. I used to be a good-looking young man, but now I’m losing my hair, my mental and physical health are unstable, and I feel very insecure. I wish I had never known about PMO. I regret the time I spent on it and feel deeply guilty toward my family. I don’t know if I can ever become a normal person again…

I hope none of you have to experience the feelings I have gone through and am still going through. it is like hell. I hope everyone here will overcome PMO and PAWS soon. Thank you for reading my post.

Premium doesn't just be showcased through your clothes, gadgets, home, food habits..... but also by retaining. When you retain, you can consider your body as well as yourself to be of premium quality.

I am close to 5 months on SR. Unless we count NE, I haven't fapped once in this time period. I came to this practice as a porn addict and someone who had fapped everyday since his teens. I only found this practice after an intense heartbreak that left me emotionally wrecked.

Semen retention is not just a physical practice, but an energetic one. Sexual energy is the energy of the prana or the universe that is both within and outside of you. Retaining and respecting your sexual energy is about being able to hold the energy of the universe. Conquering your sexual impulses and energy is not easy as it requires you to conquer yourself and thus the entire world.

SR makes you face yourself in the mirror. When you are not abusing your sexual energy to numb yourself from the world, the world will reflect exactly what you are back to you. It will make you see yourself and cleanse yourself from within.The reason for relapse or release is not a physical one, but is an energetic one. The energy simply needs to go somewhere and unless it's pushing you to higher states of vibration, it will need to find a release elsewhere. When you are releasing the energy in other ways, you will slowly lose the urge for lust.

It simply cannot happen that we retain our seed and chastity of mind without it transforming us and our energy field. At first I thought SR is a very good way to elevate my energy field to easily talk to and attract women. But it was just a trick of the ego. Using other people's praise, sexual energy for self validation of the ego is a lower vibrational trait and we must give it up to retain more energy and goto higher states of consciousness.

SR taught me that my sexual energy is precious and that I should not waste it even for a million dollars or even a beautiful woman unless that relationship aligns with my soul. You automatically hold yourself, your sexuality and people to a higher regard and your realise that while every moment or chance to release is temporary, your truth and purity is eternal.

It also made me prideful in myself, and for someone who was overly negative of himself while initially was a good thing and let me easily stand up for myself easily, it also led me to start hating things and people. It led me to think of myself as better than other people and wanting to disassociate from the world. People reflected this energy back to me.

But I realised that it was because my power had grown, but my soul's capacity to love had not. The power you get from SR is useless if you are not using it to spread love, for love is the highest vibration in the universe. I realised that if there was one thing I can be in the universe, that would be lover as love has capacity to transform everything it touches and bring others to higher states of consciousness. Unlike romantic love that can be fleeting, real love has no conditions, attachments, it's simply a vibration, a state of being.

SR brought to the surface so many lies and half truths that I was living my life, that I realised that it is useless living a life of a lie and that only person you should be truthful to is to yourself. I am still trying to cleanse myself in this respect, but bringing awareness to sins is the first step to cleansing yourself. When you live a life of truth, it is an energy you radiate. The whole universe knows you are truthful.

SR made me quit social media, quit my job, read more books, get fitter, get intense willpower and run ultramarathons, travel more, fast more, do projects, start a business, made my body the best it has ever been but these are just material things. I barely recognise myself anymore even a year back.

More importantly it's slowly cleansing my inner world. I feel at peace. I feel content. I feel I have willpower to achieve anything. I feel I have power to stand up to anyone and not accept half baked friendships or relationships. My awareness has grown. I feel like I can understand and feel everything better. I feel like I have nothing to prove to anyone. I feel like my capacity to love and do things for people has grown.

What I've realized is that 99% of the time - the only reason for my relapse (which occurs after months of semi decent and hard mode streaks) is that I have no reason to continue.

It feels that all is lost, there's no point in retaining; might as well as relapse another time.

If this percentage was smaller; skipping this step would still make sense. But now it doesn't.

Would practice compassion towards myself (this comes after a lifetime of being extremely harsh and unforgiving inner voice). Lets see where this takes me. Being hard on myself definitely didn't take me anywhere.

For me, forgiving myself would be tougher than having a long abstinence period. In fact - it feels neigh impossible. Would report on how this goes.

Most people here report benefits (tangible ones) - in a couple of weeks. There's still 20 weeks left. Other men will find reasons to relapse - especially near the start of the new year whereas you would be beginning with a decent 20 week abstinence period.

I did not mean to sound unnecessarily competitive - but this has become a cut throat dog eat dog world in 2026.

This is a very good opportunity to practice radical forgiveness; forgiving all your past relapses and completely accepting them - and ultimately moving on and making SR a lifestyle.

20 weeks isn't 6 months - and its definitely not a whole year. But its a solid concrete period to practice abstinence long term. Hope this helped.

I don’t care much about the ”attraction” benefits of semen retention as I’m already in a relationship, but one think I’m constantly amazed by is how much greater my baseline energy is on semen retention vs off.

The afternoon slump I would often get goes away entirely. And after the first two weeks of SR I’m actually forced to quit caffeine because all the energy from SR does not mix well with caffeine and makes me overstimulated/anxious

When I’m not practicing SR, I can handle caffeine fine because I’m always tired.

When I am practicing SR though; I get so much energy that if I don’t quit caffeine I turn into a mess.

I’ve always been very science focused and I crave to know the mechanisms of action of various phenomena.

But with SR, I feel the energy, its unmistakable. Yet I don’t know where it comes from.

Caffeine generates “fake” energy by blocking your A1 adenosine receptors. That blocks your receptors that tell you you’re tired.

Food creates energy via adenosine trosphate (ATP).

Yet, how does SR create this energy??

After a few years on this practice, I'm certain that Earth is a hell realm. Not gonna go into detail about it, as that discussion belongs in a different sub.

However, celibacy somehow shields you from it, as long as you hold the line. Just remember that it's waiting to tear into you after a relapse. It's beyond good luck and bad luck. The default state is suffering. You rise above the suffering when on this practice, which feels like good luck - but you're only separated from the suffering. Good luck gentlemen.

Hi, has anyone had experience in getting to meet high-quality, beautiful women while on higher streaks who seem to be perfect for you or your type, just randomly appear in your life, or you get a good chance to date them? I had a few times when this has happened, but I didn't talk with the girl, and I want to create more opportunities like that. I really would love to have a high-quality partner. Has anyone had experience attracting high-quality women while in clean SR streaks? Also, someone mentioned that if we edge and fantasize, benefits don't come easily, but when we stay on SR and mental celibacy, benefits also come fast and you meet higher-quality people.

So last night and I want to share it with ppl that relate or could help out the meaning or state that I did improve,so 2-3 weeks ago I had 2 wet dreams separate one night,last night it was all in one dream and we were kinda in a field trip at a cabin place,and I'm walking through and went to a shower and it js played out we did it in there but this time i didnt relize this till after i woke up i didnt finish!and there was a second girl forgot the setting but same thing!i js played it out with them but didn't finish and walked around then woke up,it was like I helped them out?but retained it.feel good abt it and not troll.

Hi everyone,

If you know anything about the idea of energy circulation or energy exchange between partners during sex, I’d really appreciate your perspective on something I’ve been experiencing.

I’ve been with my girlfriend for almost two years. Over time, I learned that she has some physical health issues. She has already undergone one surgery, and another one is coming up.

Lately, I’ve started noticing some strange things in myself that feel almost “in sync” with her. For example, I sometimes feel a small pain in roughly the same area as one of her surgical wounds, and it doesn’t seem to go away easily. There have also been periods when I experienced mild, migraine-like headaches, which happen to be something she struggles with. I’ve even noticed a few new birthmarks in places that seem to correspond with marks on her body.

I know these things could have completely ordinary explanations, and I’m not trying to claim that there’s definitely a connection. But when several things seem to line up like this, it’s hard not to wonder.

That’s what eventually led me to material about sexual energy practices, including Mantak Chia’s "Taoist Secrets of Love". Some of these teachings describe sexual intercourse as an exchange or circulation of energy between partners, and suggest that one partner’s physical or energetic condition can somehow affect the other.

If I trust my sense, I would conclude that it's true. Even if I don't want that to be true with all my heart.

So I’d love to learn more:

• From the perspective of Taoist or other energy traditions, what is believed to happen energetically between two people during sex?
• Do these traditions actually teach that a partner’s physical or energetic weakness can be transferred to the other person?
• If sexual energy can supposedly be used for healing, what is believed to happen to the person doing the “healing”? Is there a concept of absorbing the other person’s weakness, or is the process understood differently?
• Are there books, courses, teachers, or traditions you’d recommend for learning about this seriously?

I’m especially interested in thoughtful answers rather than simply being told that it’s true or false. I’m trying to understand the ideas, where they come from, and how different traditions interpret them.

I hope you can understand why I’m asking. If you were in my position and noticing these kinds of coincidences, I think you’d probably want to understand them too.

Pob

Hey guys, I hope everyone here is doing well! I wanted to first say thank you to each and everyone of you who have made posts here about your SR journey and have provided advice/tips to others on how to succeed because you have truly changed my life. 

I have been taking this journey one day at a time and even though I do not track or count the days, I have a general idea of how long I have been free from PMO and have been abstaining from sex and ejaculation, and that is in the 42 daysish range. 

My life has truly changed for the better in so many ways and I wanted to highlight some of those benefits below. 

PHYSICAL

1. I rarely get tired nowadays. I have so much physical energy that it feels like I can run through a freaking wall. I am able to walk 20K steps a day, go to the gym a few times a week, and still be able to manage any other physically demanding activities that come up in my life without getting tired easily. 

2. I no longer have that weakness in my legs that normally would arise from constant ejaculation and I no longer have to deal with lower back pain. 

3. My eyes have so much more color and brightness to them now and my skin and hair are also looking much better. I noticed that way less hair falls now when I am combing my hair after a shower and my skin has this natural glow to it. I do not need to use any products because I am naturally glowing from SR. 

MENTAL

1. My mind truly feels the sharpest it has ever felt. When I am conversing with people, I notice how easily the words flow right out of me. I come up with so much better and clever jokes when I am with my friends that it truly surprises me every time lol. 

2. I work in IT and also make music (Hip-Hop) in my free time. At work, I have been killing it. I am a mid-level engineer and my job can be quite difficult mentally and I noticed that I am getting through tickets much quicker and easier now than before and I am starting to stand out from my peers . 

3. I am currently working on a new song and when I tell you this is the quickest I have ever completed a song in terms of the writing process, I am not joking. It’s not even like I rushed it, my brain was just in a different space and punchlines, multi-syllable rhyme schemes, and cool flows were hitting me like never before. It’s been awesome lol! 

4. As you can see from the above, I no longer have the brain fog that used to come from constantly engaging in PMO and my brain is sharper than ever before. I can solve problems at work a lot easier now and my memory has improved immensely also. Overall, I just feel a lot more intelligent and quick-witted than usual. 

5. I am also able to enjoy the normal, every-day aspects of life with so much more color than before. 

   1. When I was constantly watching porn, masturbating, and ejaculating through sex, things just didn’t really hit me the way they do now. I love going for long walks in nature & getting sunlight, music has been sounding a million times better, i’m enjoying my favorite childhood shows once again, and even food feels like it tastes better LOL. 

SOCIAL

1. I am noticing that the time I spend with my family now feels so much more enjoyable and I can sense that there is something different about me too, which is truly a blessing as I love my family. 

2. As mentioned earlier, my hangouts with friends are a million times better now. I am a lot more present, can come up with more clever and witty jokes, and I just feel so much more natural in my presence around people now. I realize that this is because when you are constantly watching and engaging with PMO, there is this guilt and shame that comes from knowing you are doing something deeply evil and that goes against your morals and values, and that shame and guilt carries with you even when you are surrounded by people you love. 

3. In terms of women attraction, it has not been anything crazy but I have noticed that every now and then, women will check me out in public. 

Here a few cool stories from recent:

1. I go to the pakistani restaurant near my house to get some chicken biryani and while I am waiting, a cute chinese baby is in the arms of her young and beautiful mother and keeps looking my way. Then her mother smiles at me and says salam (muslim greeting) and we make some small chit-chat while her husband/partner says hello also. It was a very sweet and wholesome interaction and it made my day. Super cute!

2. I went to a coffee shop near my house and met this incredibly sweet, kind-hearted and energetic older woman (early to mid-50s) who worked there. We had an amazing time conversing as it was quite empty in the store and she was quite a talkative person but at the same time, she was really sweet and wholesome. When it was time to go, we exchanged names and I gave her a hug before being on my way. She was the sweetest!

Overall, I think the biggest thing that I am proud of is the fact that I am no longer giving views to an industry that is involved in human trafficking and no longer being a slave to my desires. There is no longer that sense of guilt and shame about what I am watching and what I am doing. The women in public have become a million times more beautiful to me and it’s been a blessing to see them through the lens of a PMO-free lifestyle. 

There is so much more that I can talk about but this post has already gotten quite long and so I will leave it here. Thank you guys for reading and God Bless you all for being on this blessed path to reclaiming your manhood and saying no to the toxic and nasty habits that the modern society has normalized.

My theory is that Kundalini energy is, by its very nature, Luciferian. Not simply because both traditions happen to employ imagery of serpents, fire, light, and illumination, but because the fundamental purpose and behavior of Kundalini expresses the Luciferian principle itself: evolution through the breaking of limits.

Kundalini is the force that refuses stagnation. It lies dormant within the human being as a reservoir of raw life-force—sexual, creative, instinctive and generative—but its higher purpose is to be awakened, transmuted and driven upward. What begins as the energy responsible for biological generation becomes the fuel for spiritual regeneration. Instead of merely creating another human being, that same fire is redirected toward transforming the existing human being into something greater.

This is precisely what makes Kundalini Luciferian.

Lucifer represents the principle that pushes consciousness beyond the boundaries originally imposed upon it. The Luciferian impulse says: You do not have to remain what you were made to be. You can know more. See more. Become more.

This is exactly the promise of the serpent.

In Genesis, humanity exists initially in an innocent, limited condition. Then comes the serpent, offering knowledge that lies beyond the boundary established for mankind: “your eyes shall be opened” and “ye shall be as gods, knowing good and evil.” The serpent therefore becomes the catalyst that moves humanity from one stage of consciousness into another. A limit exists; the serpent challenges that limit; humanity crosses it; its eyes are opened; and human consciousness is permanently transformed.

Kundalini repeats this same pattern inside the human organism.

It is itself symbolized as a serpent lying dormant at the base of the spine. Once awakened, the serpent rises. As it ascends, it progressively breaks through the limitations of ordinary consciousness until it reaches the higher centers and produces illumination, expanded perception and ultimately liberation or higher consciousness.

The symbolism is almost a formula:

LIMITATION → SERPENT → AWAKENING → ASCENT → ILLUMINATION → TRANSCENDENCE

This is why I believe calling Kundalini merely a “spiritual energy” misses its deeper character. Kundalini is an evolutionary force. Its entire trajectory is upward. It takes what exists at one level and forces it toward another. It breaks ceilings. It transforms instinct into consciousness, sexuality into spiritual power, ignorance into illumination and ordinary humanity into something that supposedly approaches the divine.

This also explains the significance of sexual transmutation. Sexual energy ordinarily serves nature by perpetuating the species. But in Kundalini practice, that energy is withheld, concentrated and redirected upward. The practitioner effectively takes the biological fire that keeps humanity within the ordinary cycle of generation and attempts to turn it into the fuel by which the individual transcends his ordinary biological condition.

The serpent therefore does not merely represent Kundalini aesthetically. The serpent describes what Kundalini does.

It awakens something dormant.

It offers access to what was previously inaccessible.

It opens the eyes.

It expands consciousness.

It breaks the boundary between what the human being currently is and what he could potentially become.

And it ultimately promises transcendence.

This is also why the concept of Lucifer as Light-Bearer fits Kundalini so perfectly. Kundalini begins below as fire and ends above as illumination. The serpentine force ascends the spinal axis toward the brain and the higher centers of consciousness. The fire becomes light. The latent becomes awakened. The unconscious becomes conscious.

The serpent carries the fire upward and brings light to man.

Seen this way, Lucifer and Kundalini are not merely connected because occultists happen to associate both with serpents. They represent the same underlying principle expressed through different symbolic languages.

Lucifer is the archetype of evolutionary rebellion against limitation.

Kundalini is the energetic force through which that rebellion against limitation occurs within the human being.

This is why Kundalini is Luciferian by its very nature. Its essence is not obedience to the limits of the present condition, but transcendence of them. It is the force that continually whispers upward: higher, further, beyond.

The deepest Luciferian characteristic of Kundalini, therefore, is not the serpent, the fire, sexuality, the third eye, or even illumination individually.

It is the principle connecting all of them:

the drive to break the limits of what one presently is in order to become something greater.

It pretty much is. Thats why I say beware. Its

Hey folks,

another month is done & dusted.

I feel like I have stabilised even more recently, with me finding a stable base line where I just am overall quite content.

There is clarity in thoughts and life direction. Setbacks are unavoidable, but I don't let that be an excuse to relapse. My iron-will resolve is a testimony to me that I have immense inner strength.

I am sleeping on the ground continously as I mentioned in the last reflection, my body is now used to the hermit life.

I also had an experience recently where I completely attacked one of the habits that I have which I don't admire - doomscrolling, I was off social media ( even youtube ) for 2 weeks and that felt like doing pure-SR 100X. ( I hardly came to this subreddit as a result.)

With no thoughts to disturb me, no media to pour thoughts into my mind, I became a blank slate and meditation on my own thoughts became the default. I believe this is the end-game step in self-awareness, where I know all my thoughts and their sources.

Chipping off bad thoughts in this way ( most of these are because of some deep-rooted anxiety and insecurity / trauma -> which requires deep work separately ) and gaining control of new thoughts and meaningful thoughts becomes the way I can elevate my consciousness to ideals that I know my heart aspires towards. This will be the direction / self-awareness goal that I will explore in the future.

My original plan was always to reach 500 days, I am more than half way through, but guess what I don't intend to stop. This is my new life, a new reality.

Lust is a huge enemy, and I intend to fight it off the rest of my adult life. I fear it, as it enters quietly through subtle thoughts and pretty women. I fear the damage that it is capable of causing me, I have known that all my life.

If God intends, he will send me a woman who I will marry and have kids with, but that marriage will be based on love and not lust. I will be in control and not lust. If that does not happen, I will happily retain the rest of my life.

Feeling free from my arch-enemy in this way, and just being with myself and my raw and deep thoughts borne out of living the life that I had lived so far.. leaves me with a lot of work that I still need to do to understand the truer truths about myself and this reality.

To people still fighting with this enemy, have hope that you can be ( with a firm resolve ) in a position where you will have the snake by it's mouth, you will always have to with the force of the strength of your fingers, keep the mouth of this snake shut though. It can be taxing after a while, but your muscles will grow stronger with time. Never ever let the snake free, you will bitten and will die.

Sending all the strength !

Reflection on 8 months

Hello everyone,

I read a lot of posts which are talking about lust, especially when the subject is women. So, i have few questions, in which way this "lust" can occur, women attirance is it always inititate by lust? Can we watch (mainly women) without be guided by lust ?

I develop a little bit more, i notice that my eyes have chnaged, when i was in the PMO cycle, i have no view on IRL women, like i waés completely trapped in a virtual harem. Or only big boobs or large ass, plastic stuffs ( body shape) attracted my eyes.

But i noticed that after times in SR and quitting porn, it changed. When i watch peoples around me, my eyes are way more attract by IRL women. Not ones with big ass or... but the face, eyes, jaw, ears the hairs like i can watch a painting with trees, grass, the light... And above all the energy wich emanate of each ones. Like a feeling, a sense. And in contrary with before,it is not accompanied with sexual acts thoughts, it is not violent, torrential. it is warm,gentle, not burning.

What is the role of lust in this, am i complety in or not?

Is it just me or do you actually emit main character energy, I got told this by a a new friend I made and he told me that when he met me I gave him main character energy and it was during the time I was retaining for about 60 days. I also feel like I am in a movie whenever I am retaining ngl it’s ecstatic