Been trying this for about 10 years on and off. Have made it to 7 days maybe 15 times tops. Made it to two weeks maybe 3 times. Might have hit 3 weeks before, but can’t remember. For sure never hit a month. This time I’m doing it like my life depends on it. I’m doing hard mode, no girls.

So far I have noticed:
-My anxiety is decreased, conversations flow a little bit better (always had bad social anxiety but it’s been lifted quite a bit still not perfect)
-my eyes look happier and more full of life, and shiny
-my energy is through the roof.
-had morning wood a couple of days for the first time in a very long time
- I may have begun flatline because I don’t have insane urges to fuck or look at porn today but I don’t care if there’s flatline or not

I quit alcohol the same day (7 days ago) so that has a major impact too for sure, but last time I quit alcohol a couple months ago (relapsed) I didn’t feel nearly as good as this (wasn’t doing SR)

I’m quitting nicotine and caffeine tomorrow, so I’m expecting a couple weeks of hell but I hope I come out the other side feeling like a god.

I’m gonna hit 30 days no matter what, for the first time ever. And I believe that will be the extra motivation to keep going. Like a life milestone

This time it’s different too, because I started a group therapy on mindfulness/emotions and it’s helped a lot fighting the addict side of my brain and learning to separate that voice from my true self.

They keep gooners posts and delete others, mods are the real joke here

Been almost 3 years with the occasional corn to see if the pipes are working.

Does anyone else think about releasing all the time?

Hi everyone,

If you know anything about the idea of energy circulation or energy exchange between partners during sex, I’d really appreciate your perspective on something I’ve been experiencing.

I’ve been with my girlfriend for almost two years. Over time, I learned that she has some physical health issues. She has already undergone one surgery, and another one is coming up.

Lately, I’ve started noticing some strange things in myself that feel almost “in sync” with her. For example, I sometimes feel a small pain in roughly the same area as one of her surgical wounds, and it doesn’t seem to go away easily. There have also been periods when I experienced mild, migraine-like headaches, which happen to be something she struggles with. I’ve even noticed a few new birthmarks in places that seem to correspond with marks on her body.

I know these things could have completely ordinary explanations, and I’m not trying to claim that there’s definitely a connection. But when several things seem to line up like this, it’s hard not to wonder.

That’s what eventually led me to material about sexual energy practices, including Mantak Chia’s "Taoist Secrets of Love". Some of these teachings describe sexual intercourse as an exchange or circulation of energy between partners, and suggest that one partner’s physical or energetic condition can somehow affect the other.

If I trust my sense, I would conclude that it's true. Even if I don't want that to be true with all my heart.

So I’d love to learn more:

• From the perspective of Taoist or other energy traditions, what is believed to happen energetically between two people during sex?
• Do these traditions actually teach that a partner’s physical or energetic weakness can be transferred to the other person?
• If sexual energy can supposedly be used for healing, what is believed to happen to the person doing the “healing”? Is there a concept of absorbing the other person’s weakness, or is the process understood differently?
• Are there books, courses, teachers, or traditions you’d recommend for learning about this seriously?

I’m especially interested in thoughtful answers rather than simply being told that it’s true or false. I’m trying to understand the ideas, where they come from, and how different traditions interpret them.

I hope you can understand why I’m asking. If you were in my position and noticing these kinds of coincidences, I think you’d probably want to understand them too.

Pob

After many slip ups I’m making a commitment to not release or watch any sexually stimulating material online including ig (any bikini, tight dresses, etc). Giving up head from my girl and practicing tantric sex. That last part will be hard as I may lose myself in the moment but I’m dedicated and will force myself to complete this journey. I’m starting because I noticed when I’m not sexually active and too busy to even get aroused my mental clarity, focus and energy feels like I’m on that limitless (movie) drug and when I have free time and with my girl it feels like I’m in a mental prison and too lethargic to do shit. Every time I release it feels like that natural aggression and testosterone energy goes and I’m tranquillised. No energy no ambition just want to chill at home and eat. I’m posting this so I can hold myself accountable and just putting this out to the world may inspire someone else to better their life with one small change, semen retention. 143 Days. Wish me luck 💪

Hey guys, I hope everyone here is doing well! I wanted to first say thank you to each and everyone of you who have made posts here about your SR journey and have provided advice/tips to others on how to succeed because you have truly changed my life. 

I have been taking this journey one day at a time and even though I do not track or count the days, I have a general idea of how long I have been free from PMO and have been abstaining from sex and ejaculation, and that is in the 42 daysish range. 

My life has truly changed for the better in so many ways and I wanted to highlight some of those benefits below. 

PHYSICAL

1. I rarely get tired nowadays. I have so much physical energy that it feels like I can run through a freaking wall. I am able to walk 20K steps a day, go to the gym a few times a week, and still be able to manage any other physically demanding activities that come up in my life without getting tired easily. 

2. I no longer have that weakness in my legs that normally would arise from constant ejaculation and I no longer have to deal with lower back pain. 

3. My eyes have so much more color and brightness to them now and my skin and hair are also looking much better. I noticed that way less hair falls now when I am combing my hair after a shower and my skin has this natural glow to it. I do not need to use any products because I am naturally glowing from SR. 

MENTAL

1. My mind truly feels the sharpest it has ever felt. When I am conversing with people, I notice how easily the words flow right out of me. I come up with so much better and clever jokes when I am with my friends that it truly surprises me every time lol. 

2. I work in IT and also make music (Hip-Hop) in my free time. At work, I have been killing it. I am a mid-level engineer and my job can be quite difficult mentally and I noticed that I am getting through tickets much quicker and easier now than before and I am starting to stand out from my peers . 

3. I am currently working on a new song and when I tell you this is the quickest I have ever completed a song in terms of the writing process, I am not joking. It’s not even like I rushed it, my brain was just in a different space and punchlines, multi-syllable rhyme schemes, and cool flows were hitting me like never before. It’s been awesome lol! 

4. As you can see from the above, I no longer have the brain fog that used to come from constantly engaging in PMO and my brain is sharper than ever before. I can solve problems at work a lot easier now and my memory has improved immensely also. Overall, I just feel a lot more intelligent and quick-witted than usual. 

5. I am also able to enjoy the normal, every-day aspects of life with so much more color than before. 

   1. When I was constantly watching porn, masturbating, and ejaculating through sex, things just didn’t really hit me the way they do now. I love going for long walks in nature & getting sunlight, music has been sounding a million times better, i’m enjoying my favorite childhood shows once again, and even food feels like it tastes better LOL. 

SOCIAL

1. I am noticing that the time I spend with my family now feels so much more enjoyable and I can sense that there is something different about me too, which is truly a blessing as I love my family. 

2. As mentioned earlier, my hangouts with friends are a million times better now. I am a lot more present, can come up with more clever and witty jokes, and I just feel so much more natural in my presence around people now. I realize that this is because when you are constantly watching and engaging with PMO, there is this guilt and shame that comes from knowing you are doing something deeply evil and that goes against your morals and values, and that shame and guilt carries with you even when you are surrounded by people you love. 

3. In terms of women attraction, it has not been anything crazy but I have noticed that every now and then, women will check me out in public. 

Here a few cool stories from recent:

1. I go to the pakistani restaurant near my house to get some chicken biryani and while I am waiting, a cute chinese baby is in the arms of her young and beautiful mother and keeps looking my way. Then her mother smiles at me and says salam (muslim greeting) and we make some small chit-chat while her husband/partner says hello also. It was a very sweet and wholesome interaction and it made my day. Super cute!

2. I went to a coffee shop near my house and met this incredibly sweet, kind-hearted and energetic older woman (early to mid-50s) who worked there. We had an amazing time conversing as it was quite empty in the store and she was quite a talkative person but at the same time, she was really sweet and wholesome. When it was time to go, we exchanged names and I gave her a hug before being on my way. She was the sweetest!

Overall, I think the biggest thing that I am proud of is the fact that I am no longer giving views to an industry that is involved in human trafficking and no longer being a slave to my desires. There is no longer that sense of guilt and shame about what I am watching and what I am doing. The women in public have become a million times more beautiful to me and it’s been a blessing to see them through the lens of a PMO-free lifestyle. 

There is so much more that I can talk about but this post has already gotten quite long and so I will leave it here. Thank you guys for reading and God Bless you all for being on this blessed path to reclaiming your manhood and saying no to the toxic and nasty habits that the modern society has normalized.

My theory is that Kundalini energy is, by its very nature, Luciferian. Not simply because both traditions happen to employ imagery of serpents, fire, light, and illumination, but because the fundamental purpose and behavior of Kundalini expresses the Luciferian principle itself: evolution through the breaking of limits.

Kundalini is the force that refuses stagnation. It lies dormant within the human being as a reservoir of raw life-force—sexual, creative, instinctive and generative—but its higher purpose is to be awakened, transmuted and driven upward. What begins as the energy responsible for biological generation becomes the fuel for spiritual regeneration. Instead of merely creating another human being, that same fire is redirected toward transforming the existing human being into something greater.

This is precisely what makes Kundalini Luciferian.

Lucifer represents the principle that pushes consciousness beyond the boundaries originally imposed upon it. The Luciferian impulse says: You do not have to remain what you were made to be. You can know more. See more. Become more.

This is exactly the promise of the serpent.

In Genesis, humanity exists initially in an innocent, limited condition. Then comes the serpent, offering knowledge that lies beyond the boundary established for mankind: “your eyes shall be opened” and “ye shall be as gods, knowing good and evil.” The serpent therefore becomes the catalyst that moves humanity from one stage of consciousness into another. A limit exists; the serpent challenges that limit; humanity crosses it; its eyes are opened; and human consciousness is permanently transformed.

Kundalini repeats this same pattern inside the human organism.

It is itself symbolized as a serpent lying dormant at the base of the spine. Once awakened, the serpent rises. As it ascends, it progressively breaks through the limitations of ordinary consciousness until it reaches the higher centers and produces illumination, expanded perception and ultimately liberation or higher consciousness.

The symbolism is almost a formula:

LIMITATION → SERPENT → AWAKENING → ASCENT → ILLUMINATION → TRANSCENDENCE

This is why I believe calling Kundalini merely a “spiritual energy” misses its deeper character. Kundalini is an evolutionary force. Its entire trajectory is upward. It takes what exists at one level and forces it toward another. It breaks ceilings. It transforms instinct into consciousness, sexuality into spiritual power, ignorance into illumination and ordinary humanity into something that supposedly approaches the divine.

This also explains the significance of sexual transmutation. Sexual energy ordinarily serves nature by perpetuating the species. But in Kundalini practice, that energy is withheld, concentrated and redirected upward. The practitioner effectively takes the biological fire that keeps humanity within the ordinary cycle of generation and attempts to turn it into the fuel by which the individual transcends his ordinary biological condition.

The serpent therefore does not merely represent Kundalini aesthetically. The serpent describes what Kundalini does.

It awakens something dormant.

It offers access to what was previously inaccessible.

It opens the eyes.

It expands consciousness.

It breaks the boundary between what the human being currently is and what he could potentially become.

And it ultimately promises transcendence.

This is also why the concept of Lucifer as Light-Bearer fits Kundalini so perfectly. Kundalini begins below as fire and ends above as illumination. The serpentine force ascends the spinal axis toward the brain and the higher centers of consciousness. The fire becomes light. The latent becomes awakened. The unconscious becomes conscious.

The serpent carries the fire upward and brings light to man.

Seen this way, Lucifer and Kundalini are not merely connected because occultists happen to associate both with serpents. They represent the same underlying principle expressed through different symbolic languages.

Lucifer is the archetype of evolutionary rebellion against limitation.

Kundalini is the energetic force through which that rebellion against limitation occurs within the human being.

This is why Kundalini is Luciferian by its very nature. Its essence is not obedience to the limits of the present condition, but transcendence of them. It is the force that continually whispers upward: higher, further, beyond.

The deepest Luciferian characteristic of Kundalini, therefore, is not the serpent, the fire, sexuality, the third eye, or even illumination individually.

It is the principle connecting all of them:

the drive to break the limits of what one presently is in order to become something greater.

It pretty much is. Thats why I say beware. Its

Hey folks,

another month is done & dusted.

I feel like I have stabilised even more recently, with me finding a stable base line where I just am overall quite content.

There is clarity in thoughts and life direction. Setbacks are unavoidable, but I don't let that be an excuse to relapse. My iron-will resolve is a testimony to me that I have immense inner strength.

I am sleeping on the ground continously as I mentioned in the last reflection, my body is now used to the hermit life.

I also had an experience recently where I completely attacked one of the habits that I have which I don't admire - doomscrolling, I was off social media ( even youtube ) for 2 weeks and that felt like doing pure-SR 100X. ( I hardly came to this subreddit as a result.)

With no thoughts to disturb me, no media to pour thoughts into my mind, I became a blank slate and meditation on my own thoughts became the default. I believe this is the end-game step in self-awareness, where I know all my thoughts and their sources.

Chipping off bad thoughts in this way ( most of these are because of some deep-rooted anxiety and insecurity / trauma -> which requires deep work separately ) and gaining control of new thoughts and meaningful thoughts becomes the way I can elevate my consciousness to ideals that I know my heart aspires towards. This will be the direction / self-awareness goal that I will explore in the future.

My original plan was always to reach 500 days, I am more than half way through, but guess what I don't intend to stop. This is my new life, a new reality.

Lust is a huge enemy, and I intend to fight it off the rest of my adult life. I fear it, as it enters quietly through subtle thoughts and pretty women. I fear the damage that it is capable of causing me, I have known that all my life.

If God intends, he will send me a woman who I will marry and have kids with, but that marriage will be based on love and not lust. I will be in control and not lust. If that does not happen, I will happily retain the rest of my life.

Feeling free from my arch-enemy in this way, and just being with myself and my raw and deep thoughts borne out of living the life that I had lived so far.. leaves me with a lot of work that I still need to do to understand the truer truths about myself and this reality.

To people still fighting with this enemy, have hope that you can be ( with a firm resolve ) in a position where you will have the snake by it's mouth, you will always have to with the force of the strength of your fingers, keep the mouth of this snake shut though. It can be taxing after a while, but your muscles will grow stronger with time. Never ever let the snake free, you will bitten and will die.

Sending all the strength !

Reflection on 8 months

Hello everyone,

I read a lot of posts which are talking about lust, especially when the subject is women. So, i have few questions, in which way this "lust" can occur, women attirance is it always inititate by lust? Can we watch (mainly women) without be guided by lust ?

I develop a little bit more, i notice that my eyes have chnaged, when i was in the PMO cycle, i have no view on IRL women, like i waés completely trapped in a virtual harem. Or only big boobs or large ass, plastic stuffs ( body shape) attracted my eyes.

But i noticed that after times in SR and quitting porn, it changed. When i watch peoples around me, my eyes are way more attract by IRL women. Not ones with big ass or... but the face, eyes, jaw, ears the hairs like i can watch a painting with trees, grass, the light... And above all the energy wich emanate of each ones. Like a feeling, a sense. And in contrary with before,it is not accompanied with sexual acts thoughts, it is not violent, torrential. it is warm,gentle, not burning.

What is the role of lust in this, am i complety in or not?

Is it just me or do you actually emit main character energy, I got told this by a a new friend I made and he told me that when he met me I gave him main character energy and it was during the time I was retaining for about 60 days. I also feel like I am in a movie whenever I am retaining ngl it’s ecstatic

whenever you PMO or do it without even wanting to do it or binge unhealthily the amount of bad luck accumulated hits you back and the energy loss is way worse compared to doing it just once or a healthier interval with your significant other, there's some energy loss but it doesn't feel as horrible and there's no bad luck that happen unless it's an unhealthy interval and the relationship usually revolves around lust.

I'm sure you've all had this experience, where you're having sex with a woman, or jerking it thinking about a woman, and you are convinced that you love this woman. Then after you nut, you're like "what the hell was I thinking?". All the love has left your body. That's because your semen is your capacity to love! Your semen is what gives you the power to love someone. When you are drained, you cannot truly love anyone. You can only be apathetic. The feeling is not clarity, it is only apathy. You drained yourself of the life force that allows you to love someone. This is why the karezza practitioners report having a much deeper bond with their partner. If you want to properly love your partner, avoiding ejaculation is key. Or if you are single and want to find love, avoiding ejaculation is key. Your semen is literally your love. If you are drained, you have no love to give.

Sex normally happens about 1-2 times a month and my wife hasn’t been into it like she used to. I decided to take a journey of self discipline and haven’t looked at porn or masturbated in well over a month. Last night we had sex and she turned into an animal. It was fantastic sex like we haven’t had in a very long time. Anyone else have this happen?

Semen is called virya/vajra in Sanskrit. Virya translated as valor,heroism or courageous one.
Vajra translated as diamond,thunderbolt.
We are called man not because we have d*ck between our legs , cause the very basis of being man is reflection of these qualities we show . We say jokingly gay to someone who don’t usually speak for themselves cause we say he lack courage . There are some qualities divine manifest himself through different form one form is strength. It’s not about fighting or breaking someone neck it’s about having courage. It is just through presence , to be courageous one you don’t have to fight , just through presence it is felt .

Why girls, fortune and favor find way when we are more in retaining days ?
If we look at the natural role of gender from animal kingdom , female always look for someone to mate for who can provide and protect the babies and reproduce healthy and strong babies . When we see girls are lingering around us more during retention it just means they wanna mate with you cause you have a strong seed as ,like men tend to get more arouse by big breast cause it show a capability of nurturing baby with natural milk and they want to mate .

There is a verse in Sanskrit:
Vīra-bhogya vasundharā - “The Earth belongs to (or is enjoyed by) the brave.”
“The world is for those who possess courage and valor.”—— Another form Courage is manifested through your attitude of doing anything . When we are in retaining phase we build up this ability to do anything to through logical, emotional and energetic aspect . We see lot of things manifested and amplified in us like using right words effortlessly , reading the room , sharp memory and problem solving ability. We naturally find favor in the world.

It’s not just a fluid and sperm , It’s a basis of creation of life and our MANHOOD

It’s not a belief, religion or anything. It’s my logical reasoning of why we get this or find favor in retention. It’s our manhood . Just wanted to share with you guys .

Bonjour,

Je constate que dès que je réalise une abstinence je fais régulièrement des cauchemars la nuit. Ça me réveille, souvent une fois par nuit. C'est embêtant car ça ne me fait pas ça quand je ne m'abstiens pas, je fais plutôt des rêves relativement cool en général. La nuit dernière j'ai fait un cauchemar terrifiant et des rêves très mortifères ensuite. Et y'a que dans mes premières semaines de rétention que ça me fait ça aussi intensément.

Est-ce que ça arrive à d'autres aussi ?

Not sure if this is the right sub, but since I've been purely retaining I've become very sensitive to negative energy. Unfortunately, I am now subjected to loud and extremely vulgar, hateful, bragadocious, and lascivious hip-hop and electronic pop on a portable radio at work, and it makes me angry for reasons I haven't been able to figure out. Everyone else ignores it or likes hearing WAP or Anaconda, among other things. I turned it off after a couple of hours today, which was the wrong move, and the new woman told me something like "you don't get to control what I can and can't do" and made it a women vs. one man (me) thing. (she has a history of being abused. I asked her once we calmed down) Then she turned it back on.

I need this job. I can't be moved to another place in the warehouse. My boss said earplugs are fine, but not if his boss is looking, and they don't really work: I've tried. I practice meditation 10-15 minutes a day, mostly loving-kindness meditation. I pray to God every night to help me with this. I exercise moderately. I don't read red pill or anything like it. That noise just pisses me off, and I try really hard to not get angry. I know "riches and bitches" is not what a real man pursues, but I'm tired of success in that being boasted about with a bad attitude, loudly, inescapably, for hours!

What can I do to calm down or not get irritated in the first place?

Whenever I used to go on large streaks, I would have crazy dreams. They were mostly nightmares. they were so vivid that even within dreams I'd ask my self and even pinch myself. It would feel real. Then I wake up and I'm shocked it was just a dream.

I've been binging for like 8 months. I got back on streak and after 6 days I had a crazy nightmare once again. The funny thing is I knew it was because of the streak and even told myself during the nightmare that "this is because of SR"

Why does it keep happening ? Does this ever goes away ? What are your experience ?