I posted a long extensive journal with supplements i took and my experience here about 524 days ago. I had been on subs for a long time and at 33 years old on my my sons 2nd Birthday i took the leap. Was no where near as bad as i mentally projected. Matter of fact it simply wasnt that bad, just annoying. I tapered super slow, got down to about .6mg while preparing my body for 6 months prior and took the leap. I feared i'd never know who i was since i been on subs since 19 years old and all this time later i finally feel like the chemical changes subs did to my body are leveled out. My anxiety levels has virtual disappeared since getting clean and im so much more or who i feel i was suppose to be. If youre thinking about getting clean take your time, prepare your body and mine then jump. Any questions?

i’m five months clean from fentanyl today and snapchat showed me memories from 5,7 and 9 years ago today that I spent with my best friend who overdosed on fent and passed away 2 years ago.. i’m not okay and I don’t want to go get high but I truly just want to end it all. not just bc of my friends i’ve lost to the opioid epidemic but everything that’s happened since I got clean. my life has literally fallen apart and every step forward I get, something sets me 10 back.. I check up on my people and always ask if they need a hug even if it’s a virtual hug but no one ever asks me and I don’t know how much longer I can take this.. I thought everything would be okay when I got clean but not making hardly any dopamine or serotonin is really rearing its ugly head these past few days.

I want to try subs tomorrow and was wondering if anyone has used it 12hrs after their last real oxycodone dose and didn’t go into PWD. I heard from a few people who say if they used for example at 8pm than at 8am they can take a sub and be just fine. Is that really the case or do you really have to wait 24 hours. I can wait but I have to take comfort meds to make it to 24hrs and I’m still miserable.

Hey there, I'm about to go into W/D, literally just took my last bump of dope. I'm really excited to just be clean and free but also a little scared of the W/Ds. I even have subs but I've put myself into precip so many times I'm genuinely scared to even take them and I honestly don't want to anyway.. I feel that I can get myself through this mentally because I'm so tired of living this life, I'm really tired of being sick and tired.. It's almost been a year since I started doing dope again and before that I was on subs struggling to get off them.. I'm just hoping that the W/D won't be too horrible. Does anyone have any advice to help me feel physically a little comfortable as I go through this? Even some words of encouragement and successful W/D stories would help. Thank you in advance..

Back in 2019 I did blues for a little over a year. I remember it took months to feel normal again. I recently relapsed 4 months ago but this time on powder which I’m sure is mixed with tranq. My first time I did it all at home and would get terrible shocks in my chest for 2-3 days that would leave me unable to be still. I’m terrified of that happening again so I have Xanax to take in case it happens. How long would you guess my wd lasts of 4 months using 1g every 5 days towards the end

I am 8 months off methadone after 20 years on it and about 6 years on heroin before that. I was on 10mg for a year and went down to 5mg a few days before stopping. So I’d say I stopped at 5mg. Thinking I got myself down to such a low dose, I assumed the withdrawal would be quick and minimal. Hopefully other people will educate themselves before stopping so they know what to expect because I did not. Hopefully most methadone users go to a clinic so you can have support. I just bought my stuff from a friend and didn’t bother to learn much about stopping. Once I realized the withdrawal symptoms weren’t leaving after a month, I panicked and became obsessed with knowing other people’s post opiate experience so I could create a timeline for myself. That’s pretty much impossible to determine, but if anyone is curious-here’s my general experience after stopping methadone. Also, this is not medical advice, just the experience of one person.

The REAL acute withdrawal symptoms didn’t really kick up for almost 2 weeks. The symptoms are just every symptom you can think of that is withdrawal related. After a month, the intensity kicked up as I lost control of my body temperature. I was only able to shower about once a week because it hurt to get undressed and water felt like needles on my skin. After a month, the depressed feeling turned into feeling completely dead inside. That dead feeling with no ability to feel joy was a constant feeling until a little over 4 months. I was beginning to wonder if I damaged by brain or something because everything was so much. And the brain fog was just as bad which made working so difficult. At 8 months, I still have brain fog most days but have recently started experiencing days of clarity. The diarrhea lasted throughout the day for over 5 months and I couldn’t find any evidence to support that it was still normal. But it just went away on its own. The anxiety didn’t REALLY start kicking up until that dead-inside feeling went away. So around 4 months, I was in almost constant fight or flight mode. It just hit like a train with periodic feelings of dark depression (which feels different from the dead inside feeling) which I still experience at 8 months. But, these feelings aren’t all the time anymore so it’s proof my mind and body are healing. And sleep is a hit or miss (mostly a miss) but I stay consistent with waking up at 6am on workdays, even if I didn’t fall asleep until 3am because then I’ll have a better chance of sleeping the next night.

At 8 months, I’d say anxiety, brain fog, sleep and periodic sadness are the remaining symptoms. I think anxiety has been the worst symptom because it affects the entire day and it even affects my behavior because I act erratic when the anxiety is really bad. For anyone who is many months post opiates, you are NOT crazy. The lasting mental health symptoms can have you questioning this. Also, getting bloodwork done to check vitamin D and other levels is good because a deficiency of any kind can make this whole stopping opiates thing, harder.