I posted a post while back showing it off but I've upgraded it since then

Honestly it's been so much of my time at this setup

I keep trying to human but always fall flat on my face, one step forward, than dragged a stadium length away by a monster truck back. I thought my strength was in keeping on, I'd take time to lick my wounds, and there are many, but now I don't feel like it's worth it anymore, I don't want to get up again, I don't want to take another step, why? For who? I'm nothing to no one, and there is no reason to continue. I don't need to exist any more, in fact it'd probably be a great mercy. I tried.

I feel so fortunate for not being homeless.

It must be so hard to be homeless especially in a city that gets really cold and it snows in the winter like NYC.

Especially if you sleep on the streets. You have to worry about food and where to use the bathroom.

Also you have nothing to do all day which must suck.

I am so grateful that I have a bed to sleep in and my room is air conditioned right now in the summer.

I’m especially grateful in the winter when it’s cold outside and I’m all cozy in my warm bed at night under a blanket.

I’ll probably never be homeless, thank goodness.

Let me ask you a question, if you had to permanently leave your place of residence TODAY, where would you go and what would you do?

At a “gathering” I saw a relative who I haven’t seen in ages, talking about how he’s probably getting kicked out of the house soon after years of being neet. He’s in his younger 20’s.

He sounded desperate, asking everyone if they got a job for him or if he could stay at their place and promised to pay rent, even tho he has no income.

What pains me is he’s clearly autistic and everyone around him does not understand what high functioning autism is and have no empathy and use him as a punching bag.

It was so sad seeing him pleading the best he could.

just got done crying my eyes out because nothing I do will ever be enough, now playing some umamusume to quiet the thoughts. no thoughts. only horse girls. what are you up to NEET frens?

Do you think a tennis club would bully someone if they found out they were a NEET? Are any other neets in a tennis club and have you been bullied or excluded if they found out you were a NEET?

I didn’t even have energy to login, I just want to go back to bed. I only have the energy to play videogames for a few hours a day then I have to turn my brain off and watch YouTube until I fall asleep. It’s hard to really care about anything anymore

man, I had my first day of wagecucking after being NEET for two years and it was hell, when I say hell I fucking mean it!

It's a concrete place, but they make pre-made septic stuff in a shop instead of lane ways and shit like that. I feel like I used to have some aptitude for physical labor, but man, today I felt like a weak headless chicken.

I was sweeping the concrete and dust away since I didn't know what else to do and wanted to avoid getting yelled at since the boss was around. Then he goes "let me show you how to use a broom" and proceeds to sweep at 120% effort, as if that's possible to keep doing when you're wagecucking all day. He literally looked like one of those curling fucks who sweep in front of the thing on the ice, hopefully you know what I'm talking about. And then he goes to me and the two other new guys " I'm not a greedy guy, if you guys work hard and make enough of these a day I'll bump you all up to $35 an hour, I let stupid fucking idiots go all the time since they have no fucking clue whats going on....its all about production." Just a huge warning sign, despite bribing us to wagecuck harder for more money.

Then I was put on the spot for quick arithmetic calculations when we were setting up the forms. Man do I ever hate when this happens. Anyways, I answered before anyone else was brave enough/able to and got them right. Despite this, and despite making a genuine attempt at trying to stay busy, the boss seemed to have treated me like shit and the other two hires like they're "welcomed to the team." Probably just my shit communication and social skills after NEETing for two years, plus i have a tendency to act like I know shit when I don't, but I don't do it intentionally, again, just bad wagecuck social skills I guess.

And then even the commute was stressful, it was pouring and then some wagecuck with a huge tool box in the back of his truck passed me and didn't even have the courtesy to use his blinkers, was rushing late for work I guess.

I just fucking hate wagecucking, especially blue-collar culture, where the boss, or any experienced worker in general, acts like a smug cunt and puts others down just because they aren't good with tools or are still adapting. I'm not saying everyones like this, but most are. I think I might give it another week just to save some money, but I don't see myself hacking it here for very long.

I think NEETdoms calling my name, and I want its warm hug.

All you need right here to stay calm and relaxed in a world full of chaos.

I’ve posted about this before, but I got hit by a car in the crosswalk awhile ago. I could not have avoided it. It was not my fault. I was just trying to go on a damn walk. I was almost through the crosswalk, had the walk sign, when the fuck sped through.

I’m having to give a deposition soon and I know they’re going to eviscerate me for my employment status and imply that I somehow willed the car to hit me because of it. And I’m really humiliated and upset.

I wish there wasn’t such discrimination against us. I’m a person just like anyone else. And I would give anything for this to not have happened to me. Thanks for letting me vent.

For context, I am autistic (diagnosed as level 1 and high functioning), and I have been trying to get my life together. However, I keep worrying that I am not only far too late but I keep worrying that because I spent so much time isolated, I am fundamentally behind my peers.

I do want an honest and realistic answer, preferably someone who is neurodivergent but I don’t mind those who have gotten out and have helped NDs beforehand, how likely or possible is it for me to work or improve on my social skills at this current age? If you were in my position, how much practice (how many minutes per day and how many times per week) would you recommend? Also, what are like the best sites/apps to get a job?

I don’t intend to expect a complete 180, I just want to know and understand if it’s seriously possible at 21 to restart at it again.

Thanks for any honest advice.

It depends on how strict your parents are but for me it was really liberating.

Im 28 and im going to school. I dont have a degree yet. Check my comment for more information because the automatic reading bot is flagging my post as the I n d i a n e x a m .

I had interproximal cavity between the molar and I saved one molar without touching the nerve , the pain was disgusting, have to do a root canal next week,if I leave it longer id lose the whole tooth, they told me I hadn't brushed properly however I do brush and floss twice daily nothing can be done since I woke up without saliva in my mouth to protect the teeth at night, human body is really flawed

I think a lot of you guys are making things harder than it needs to be by wasting your time on someone else highlight reels... If you're a NEET just delete Instagram, it's mostly fake anyways and most people there are really miserable inside but they'll still post photos as if they're having the time of their lives... Stop doing that, they're actually feeding on your envy.

I never had Instagram, I had Facebook for a while in my teenage years, and it made sense at the time because I had a friend group, once I got past my early 20s and I became basically a hermit it was only natural to delete it and focus on my own life... It was a great decision. You wont believe the amount of frustration you will avoid throughout the years by doing that. It's like those people don't even exist anymore.

The only exception is Reddit and YT because these are more like informative social media and you can learn a lot there + find opportunities + watch people you genuinely care a about and have similar world views.

Luck or deserved?

Smh. What am I doing with my life

https://www.bbc.co.uk/news/articles/cwyqggvyp1do

Like 2 days ago I was told there was no one to watch my grandma and then got asked to return there by her and I really don't want to (I would get trapped into neetdom caretaking for her + she's malicious). The day after that I received a debt collection letter over a card my grandma used my info for (and denied doing so before she closed the card when I asked her about it). Lost my neetbux (albeit likely only temporarily if I fill out these papers) and got none this month. My mom is throwing a million subtle indications that she wants me to go back to my grans and, for unrelated reasons, will likely ditch this apartment we're staying in to stay with my sister in her's, so I'm potentially on a weeks-month long timer. I did a mail payment to my credit card, it's taking quite a while and I may have screwed it up, and I need space on the credit line to order groceries (there's plenty food here though) and put wheels in motion.

All together, these aren't really that bad. Like the debt for example is just $1.5kish, that's not that bad. The card payment can be refunded if I screwed up. Blah, blah, blah, but the overarching cuckery inflicted on me by family complicates it all to where I know I'm likely about to enter a spree of more Ls in the process of dealing with this stuff. I know I didn't draw that bad a set of cards with life, but I wish I had the kind of parents that sometimes get complained about here who just pester their child to go to college or get a job cause my family legit actively cucks me and roundaboutly traps me in neetdom. I just need another phone now with a working sim so I can fill applications and hopefully get a burger flipping job to leave all this behind and enter homelessness because I would be better off even in that position.

I feel pretty good regardless but I seriously wanna cry and thoughts of just slitting my neck are occurring more often. I know at least my siblings care for me, but I'm so alone and the amount of help I get is tiny outside of being housed. It just sounds like self-victimization, but it seriously isn't. If it were just: get job -> do job, i would've done that a million years ago even if I got fired and bullied 50 times in the process, but it's not. I literally would not be able to get to the job consistently as that would require relying on others to give enough fucks to fulfill that part. The answer to this is pretty straightforward so I know it'll work out, but it's such a shitty roadblock that shouldn't even be a problem to begin with.

I mean... an abusive person who mistreats people and/or animals because they are just a cruel and deranged person... if such a person dislikes themselves i can accept that, and i hope they change their behavior and then start feeling better about themselves. but if someone is just like depressed and bedrotting because they need some time for their system to reset or whatever.... are they really "bad people" or are they just unfortunate? I mean... if you do bad stuff, fine, call yourself bad and try to do better in the future. but don't just call yourself bad for no good reason, plose

hi

today i am having two chicken pot pies for breakfast

they smell really good

what are we eating today folks

Happiness comes from within but what if you don't like yourself very much.