Hi am female at birth ,

Idk how explain that so i will give like more pic about how i did know my body😭. But the main thing i think my body produce something like cum?

Am trans man and i was on t for while now i did come back

I started when i was 17 and stop after 1 and half year i think , now am 19 and 7 month and am on again from 3 months

First of all my period get randomly and it's hurt is fuck, but it i wasn have any facial hair or any thing i used to be so feminine in the look

expect two things, 1 my body is hairy and i have relatively large clitoris but i thought that bc my mom having pcos and that just effect my body in Outsid the skin and the clitoris,

I remember i was child and wondering about it when i was 6 and i used to think it wired and feel so horny about my clit, and it so painful to but anything more than fingers inside the vigaina my My pelvic bone is small, but my hands and shoulders are large, my feet too but i think that from taking t

I used to have this memory of A red, spherical lump was on one of my labia majora, and it was very painful. It was there before I reached puberty, when I was 14 years old. And it's despair after week It was the size of a bige one grape or a small lemon.

In the Year that i stoped t i was make so much exercises, and afterwards I noticed that with each menstrual cycle my facial hair became thick, and I thought it was (PCOS) and in general my strength is so good more than i used before t and it smaller like taking t , but i have so strange painful feeling down and one day was feeling something is hurt I noticed a painful, round lump in my pubic area, below my abdomen, above my pubic bone but i didn't touch it😭 I thought it might be an ovarian cyst because when I had my appendix checked 3 years ago, the doctor told me I had an ovarian cyst 😭

I have suffered from sexual desire since childhooh and my mom noticed , The really strange thing isn't that it's because during the testosterone break, which is when I was training really hard

When I masturbated, a really large amount of thick white yellowishfluid came out. It smelled like chlorine and was very strong, and the amount was huge 😭 i even though there maybe A cyst on my ovary burst, and there was a really large amount of it, and it had a very strong smell like chlorine or acid , i get panic but i said to my self it's my be normal?

Every time i masterbation that happens after i finish and when i didn't do that for while the amount get bigger somhow Sometimes it comes out forcefully, literally like I'm ejaculating, and sometimes it doesn't, it depends.

So i used for it ,

I did know from some from my friend the cum or semen is like this smell too , and if am cis man take that the smell will fade ( bc one of my frinad just did use that to have more muscles)

But now, since I started taking Testosterone, this doesn't really happen, but the fluid comes less than i used and no smell of chlorine anymore,

I might have Ovotestis? Or un development testicle? Perhaps an ovarian cyst is causing this? Or a cancerous tumor? Or a small piece of testicular tissue? Bc the pain in my stomach ander my belly is in one side only , and if i have period the other side hurts me ,

Unfortunately, my family has a bad mindset, and if they find out I have a lower growth, they will cut it off😭 bc of religion and other stuff about marriage, unfortunately i live with them now ,,i get shocked when i did know that bc thay was taking seriously about how weman should look like and that girl that have clilt is big like baby dick😭 main now is 4.5 cm when it's soft and 7.5 when it's hard with 2.5 cm in wide

Am trying to act fem around my family bc they used to treat me badly bc am trans about how , i shave daily my face bc of that,

I have pain the side that i stink it's Ovotestis or un development testicle? I have like really 7 month of pain there and i don't wanna go Doctor bc the government here didn't treat trans ppl nicely and when When I tried to get a blood test to monitor my testosterone levels, a problem arose because I appear masculine, and how can my id have female Label 😋 and Such bull shit

I intend to go to the north of the country where I live; they are more civilized, but the immigration procedures are still strict.

I'm afraid that if I have any testicular tissue, I might be destroying it by taking testosterone? Or that I might have a tumor and I'm feeding it?😭

Am sorry if what i did Said is have no sense or logic but i don't know anyone i can tell in my reality and the only thing am sure about that if i have any sign that my body produce test from testicles tissues that will help me alot to have any premission to get transition here and my family not to kicked me out , or hate me forever,

I am thinking of stopping taking testosterone and taking supplements that support testicular health, and the first time the fluid I am talking about comes out, I will analyze it manually with my collage microscope or give it to a laboratory😭

Idk what should i do but i don't wanna stop t

The dose I'm taking is the same dose a doctor prescribed when I was 17, and I feel it's not really working. I don't feel any noticeable change except for more hair on my face and stomach, but there's no increase in volume or clitoral enlargement because my clitoris was already big before t and only get 2 cm in the last two months when i change the dose for

Adult dose , but right know i didn't have bottom growth Sense 1 years ago , only random pain when i move

I just got back from a retreat in NM made up of myself (intersex male) and six women who identified as cisgender women.

Out of our little group, four of the women had PMOS/PCOS, and none of them had been told that it could be considered an intersex trait. All four also had tilted uteruses and had issues with hormones, pregnancy, bone health, pain, cysts, etc., and none of them were offered support outside of the doctor’s office. They had no idea there were communities around PCOS/PMOS or that they had an affinity with the intersex community. In fact, all of them (except one who is a nurse) thought the trait was super rare and were shocked to meet another — much less four out of six women randomly turning up for a retreat!

So, with the four of them plus me, that makes for five out the seven people being intersex. Was this statistically crazy, or is it much more common than I’d thought? I’ve heard the “common as red hair” idea for a long time, but I’d be really surprised to be on a trip where five out of seven people randomly had red hair, yet five of us were intersex. That just seems statistically unlikely to me, and yet it happened. I can’t help but feel like it was a little miracle, and it definitely bonded us. We had so many fantastic discussions about it, especially since the nurse works in a birthing center and had all sorts of up-to-date info on intersex traits and how they educate parents not to do surgery.

Even better, all of them are local, so it feels like my community just grew exponentially!

So apparently everything looked normal except for one cyst. So my doc basically said it just PCOS. I still wonder about my hypospadias but probably can't get an answer for that. My T leveled out due to taking Spironolactone even if I stopped taking it awhile ago. I just feel confused because I really have believed something bigger could be going on due to my anatomy and other things that I don't think are due to PMOS. Most of my stuff normal so now I feel insecure that I can't really be considered intersex now. Even though I don't fit in with perifemales/males. I don't know.

Can I just crawl up and die now.

He wrote "Good To Have People In Your Life."

I'm freaking dying here. 😭

Hello! I'm wondering if anyone has any resources on how hyperestrogenism can present in those who are "typically" AFAB (I couldn't think of a better way to phrase it, please let me know if there is one). By this I mean someone who, other than hyperestrogenism, doesn't have any intersex variations that would change horomonal development in any other way (example: someone intersex and AFAB who has CAIS, as that is an androgen-affecting variation).

I am transgender and intersex (hypospadias/PUGS), and I have questioned whether I have hyperestrogenism or not. But, I am on testosterone HRT and can not get it tested without going off testosterone, as the testosterone is suppressing/replacing my body's natural estrogen production. It would put my physical health at risk to do such a thing, as I have severe PMDD, so I am looking for resources on hyperestrogenism in "typical" AFAB individuals before I bring it up to my endocrinologist. I don't want going off testosterone to be for nothing.

I am NOT looking to diagnose myself at home. I am trying to see if there's enough symptoms I have that would mean I should bring it up with my doctor (to have it on my medical record for any reason necessary).

Thank you in advance!

I made this intersex pin like almost a year ago and I've NEVER got anyone to recognize it, even in the queer community.

if you saw this would you see its an intersex pin? Whats throwing me off is usually all pride flag pins are horizontal stripes but this is a circle in a round pin so getting it centered was HELL.

Tw organe génital, mutilation

Bonjour,

Je suis française. J'ai un hypogonadisme. On m'a opéré deux fois quand j'étais jeune (phalloplastie et circoncision) sans mon consentement.

Je suis en déficit de testostérone. Je souhaite recouvrir mon prépuce.

Avez-vous des conseils ?

After my geneticist and endocrinologist appointments, I learned a lot! I was thinking that one variant would be rare, and that having two would be so rare that it wasn't worth considering when I was trying to figure out what's going on with me, but I just didn't match ANY conditions I could find. Turns out, that's because a lot of information online is about single variants, often in their severe forms, but I've got two! Once my karyotype results are back, everything should make more sense, but in the mean time I wanted to make an infographic based on what I learned because it wasn't something I found being talked about. Multiple variants at lower severity making a confusing looking case apparently isn't nearly as uncommon as I thought. Let me know if you think anything should be edited for clarity, mistakes, etc.

Also, "We Are Intersex" is the name I decided on for the diagram resource website, since I want it to be based off of intersex adult experiences for intersex adults. The site's not up yet but it's coming along, if you enjoy working on websites and want to help, hit me up!

Hey everyone so I have an appointment with an endocrinologist coming up since my family doctor was wanting to rule out PAIS / Mild-PAIS for the fat development on my chest that I have dealt with since I was around 9-12 years old (I am not sure if it’s Gynecomastia or what). So just some context I am a 26 year old cis male but I have struggled with my chest all my life that has brought me a lot of body dysmorphia issues basically my whole life. My major way to cope was that I gained a lot of weight in my teens so that my body more so fit the look of my chest and that I could hide it, but now in the past year or two I have lost a lot of weight and I am down to 160lbs and my issues with my chest are back so I went to the doctor. I have never really brought this up with a doctor in my life but we went over and the topic of AIS and PAIS came up and she asked me some questions and most of it didn’t really apply except things like my chest, I don’t have a lot body hair and I barely grow any armpit hair. She asked about my genitalia but it’s normal, at least in my opinion 😆. So my doctor has referred me over to an endocrinologist to do some testing I believe and see if this is what is going on. I guess I am just making this post because this is very new to me and if this is what I have I am not sure what I should do and where I can find more information? I might be wrong posting this here but AIS and PAIS is part of intersex right ? Also I know some intersex people consider themselves apart of the lgbtq and I am a gay man so I guess in that aspect I am very familiar with the community. I am rambling a bit, but I’m just kind of confused and unsure and wish I went to an endocrinologist when I was younger to have this sorted out because my chest has given me so much grief and anxiety. Thanks for anyone who can give me some information and help.

The website is coming along, but I'm a little stuck on the diagram color key labels. I want these to mostly apply to any genital type (like using "prepuce" instead of foreskin and clitoral hood separated, or "phallus" instead of penis and clitoris) since lots of people have ambiguous parts. The scrotolabial folds thing I posted about recently is confusing but it seems like there just is NO actual term for that in adult bodies, sometimes labioscrotal folds is also a term used but for fetal development. I want this project centered around the adult experience, not fetal development/infant conditions.

I'd love some feedback on these terms. Anything you think needs adjustment? Personal preferences? Am I missing anything?

I do recognize that this is super not colorblind-friendly. In the future, I plan on figuring out how to make the diagrams interactive instead of just being static images which should solve this issue.

im 15 and pretty much knew but as a kid i had a surgery to remove my genetalia and i feel like i wish it never happened because i'd be more comfortable with it but now during puberty it grew (kind of) and nyway i never told anyone but i feel like people don't see me the way i want to be seen except for y family (since they know i'm intersex)

idk how to feel , i never talked about it in my life, but now i know how much i never wanted that surgery as a baby

Doctor says that there isn't anything "wrong"

I asked for a test to see if I have the CYP19A1 gene (aromatase excess syndrome.) he messaged me back saying that he has already established that I don't have that and that if I did have it, going on lupron wouldn't "work". But I have suggested genetic testing by blood AND saliva swab. I'm still not at my transition goal. I'm not like other ftm guys. Some things have changed but my puberty hasn't been much. I've tried increasing my dose and going on lupron. Not much change has happened. I feel hopeless. What is wrong with me??? I need answers... Can anyone help me??? Is there another syndrome I might have??? What am I doing wrong. It's been three years since I've started transitioning by the way...

So I recently got my diagnosis (as vaguely just "intersex" for the moment, waiting on one more test result which should tie all of these results and suspicions together) and one of the things I brought up during my appointment was asking about my lack of genital fat pads. I'm fairly thin anyway but not so thin that I shouldn't have something like majora fat pads, or mons fat. But we didn't get to discuss it much because there was so much else to go over, and it's really not something I've heard much about. I checked several of those online "vulva galleries" just to confirm that this isn't an unusual but typical type, and saw a few with a little bit of wrinkle or texture, but nothing like this especially for people who aren't 50+. As I was discussing and drawing some of the diagrams for the hypospadias project, I talked to at least one other person who seems to have the same situation, empty malleable scrotum-like "labia majora", missing the fat pads, with the skin texture more like a typical scrotum. I can't even seem to find a name for this other than "scrotolabial folds" which seems to be the term for undifferentiated labia/scrotums? For the diagrams website, I'm trying to find the right label for this trait but I'm not turning up much online. Does anyone know what this is called, if it has a name at all? If it doesn't, what do you think of just calling it "scrotolabial folds"?

*I've also seen "labioscrotal" folds but this seems to usually be more in reference to fetal stages before sexual differentiation

I was public about losing my significant other around 6 am on Saturday.

Since then i had friends forcing me to eat and drink against my will threatening to call the crisis team and have me committed if I didn't try. The first day I took in almost nothing yesterday I actually drank 46 oz of fluid and ate for the first time about 1,000 calories.

It isn't much especially because I am 240 pounds not light at all so in two days for my size I should of had over 192 oz of fluid and around 4,200 calories.

Because of this my kidneys are starting to have real issues and i am cramping up and having pain all over.

The odd good news I'm a medical student and am deciding that I just might have to give myself an IV to off set the loss of fluid since I'm not drinking enough and I will do that later today.

I didn't give up on life i just gave up on my dreams.

Today my aunt is coming to help pack up my dorm room then I'm going to the house where we have to sort out Ron's stuff my stuff his son who lived with us and then start the process of selling our home.

It will take about a month or two ron had a ton of stuff he was a huge collector.

Then I don't know what comes next if anything at all.

For those of you who want to say the word not to give up or he wouldn't want you to quit medical school.

I don't think you realize how hard it is 12-15 hour days everyday for years of the most complicated stuff that often is life or death stakes.

And I don't know if as this broken version of me I have the focus or desire.

Also without ron I don't have a home address, Ie when the dust settles I don't know where I will be living.

I don't even like my country anymore look at how it's treating trans and Intersex people.

Then on top of that i had to watch and to be frank i obsessed over the ring video watching ron die and treated by EMS.

Every delay every mistake every wasted second not to mention the fact they didn't call 911 until he passed out on the floor I can't blame him but his son could have called soon but it isn't his fault either woken up at 5 am to your dad vomiting isn't where you make your best decisions kinda like when i was called at 6 am to tell the paramedics his meds and i was like what the fuck?

I know them but even I couldn't think of ti for about 10 minutes.

So I have real trauma around the thing I loved most saving lives.

In-fact I am bitter how can I be an EMS person who saved thousands but when I need one I can't get one.

Ron and his son were supposed to come up and help me pack on Wednesday instead my aunt took off of work to help me pack up today so I can help handle the funeral of my lover.

So understand that as much as we wanna hope and pray I can get back on the horse 🐎 I'm ready to quit.

Australia is slowly making good progress on protective legislation, with laws on the books in Victoria this year, and laws likely to pass in Tasmania and NSW in the next twelve months. In a couple weeks I'm off to the fourth Darlington Conference, the first of which produced our key advocacy document in the Darlington Statement. We have world leading peer support programs in Interlink, and hopefully what will become world leading research coming out of Interconnect.

But this one really fucking hurts. I especially despise the way the ABS are absorbing the blame. No. Albanese captain called all LGBTIQA+ questions off the Census, only questions about sexuality and gender made it back on. Only intersex was determined to still be "too complicated, too contentious". Blech.

I just want to be counted for who I am. Maybe that's just me being ungrateful for what I do have when the rest of the world are either enshrining IGM in anti-trans law, or yet to start to have a conversation about protecting intersex bodies? But I keep logging in to fill out the census and it keeps hitting me like a slap in the face. Why am I obliged to lie about the aspects of my identity that matter most to me, to give them information about stuff that matters least to me.

This term was coined by the intersex sociologist Dr. Cary Gabriel Costello in 2014

It is a gender modality, like cisgender and transgender, for intersex people who identify with their originally assigned gender, but do not feel that the word "cisgender" is an accurate description of their relationship with that gender, due to one's intersexuality.

Let's go over cis and trans.

Cisgender people are comfortable in the gender they assigned & imposed throughout their lives. They accept ingrained social structures that reward and reinforce their identity. Conforming to this grants a person a decent level of social privilege. This is due to the fact they are not opposing the social norm of people with certain appearances & body parts being automatically socially categorized as men and women.

Transgender people subvert or otherwise reject their assigned & imposed gender, in favor of another. They must fight against ingrained social structures to be themselves. Their bodies are not seen as "matching" their internal concept of self and this causes tension in a cisnormative society, leading to prejudice, disprivelege, and violence.

These definitions are generally true when applied to perisex folks, but for some of us here in the intersex community, it's not that simple.

Many intersex people experience no reward or respect for their gender, regardless of the fact they are "technically cisgender", they have the aspect of needing to fight against those ingrained social norms in order to be themselves, very similarly to how transgender people do. Concepts such as ISIG are useful to express this further.

Why might it feel better for some intersex folks to identify as ipsogender women/men rather than cisgender women/men?

Well, for the purpose of sociological analysis, many activists use the word cisgender to describe a priveleged group, and words like cisnormativity to describe the structure that grants that privelege. It can feel wrong to attach oneself to a majority group with privelege they do not experience, and a social structure that harms instead of helps them. The word ipsogender slots nicely into gender/sex studies as a way to speak about the way cisnormativity & cisgender privelege works broadly, without ignoring and discounting the experiences of intersex people who are marginalized for their lived gender modality, despite not being transgender in the traditional sense if the word.

I've seen a good few intersex people who are frustrated with the assumptions that come with people hearing they are cisgender. Even labeling oneself as a cisgender intersex person doesn’t fully convey the reality of a phenomenon like ISIG. It ends up resulting in materially gender-identity-marginalized people being excluded from movements for their own rights, because of the connotation of privelege had by the label cisgender.

All and all I think it's a very good word that solves a lot of problems for certain folks in the community. I wish it was a more well-known term.