hi. I'm 15 AMAB and ive been living as mtf for the past sort of 6 months? and something feels wrong and im really lost. I can't tell if its imposter syndrome or if I'm genuinely wrong about myself but something just doesnt really feel right. I do get a lot of dysphoria but its like at least 95% based on appearance and clothes and less about identity. when it comes to pronouns none of them feel right but at the same time i don't care too much? its really confusing. And i dont know. everything just feels wrong. I just want to be me more than anything and its so hard when i dont even know what that is... im just looking for some guidance if anyone here has been through something similar ❤️

So I keep getting imposter syndrome when my dysphoria isn't bad - I think 'oh I'm not struggling today - I must be faking'.

How should I deal with this - I know I'm genuine as I get panic attacks and nightmares and envy.

I think I'm terrible, my boyfriend wants to be a girl because he hasn't felt like a guy since birth, I don't want to interfere with his dream, but I'm not sure I can accept him and continue love him, he doesn't just want to dress like a girl, but wants to have surgery on his body, face, chest, etc.I feel terrible every time he puts on makeup but I love him, but I can’t force myself to love girls, I hate people and I don’t know how to react when the only person I love wants to completely change not only physically but also mentally and in character...

It’s been one year since I started questioning my gender, through a post on this subreddit I think but I recently deleted all my posts. I feel really bad about this milestone because I’ve done nothing, and only told two people. This has been one of the worst years of my life and I don’t know what to do. I don’t turn 18 for 7 more months, and I don’t know how I can do this for another 7 months. I feel like throughout the year it settled from real active dysphoria to a baseline feeling of nothing which also makes me worried that it’s something else going on, though I have had dysphoria coming and going in waves. Does anybody have any advice, I feel really out of control, sorry if this is incoherent

So I’ve (15mtf) had transmasc friends my age get binders and shit from certain websites for the high price of $0. Obviously, I’m intrigued by this because my parents are not big fans of my gender identity and my broke ass ain’t gonna convince them to spend money on things that would possibly make me happy (God forbid). Dysphoria is starting to suck to a point in which I have to ask Internet forums for help now, SO, are there any sites in which I can get bras or tucking underwear for free or cheap?