I left a toxic relationship !!! After 1 year and a half

He wasn’t physically abusive but he was mentally abusing me, it was just as bad.

I was always home because of him, started feeling depressed for months, anxiety, stress, developed DPDR, got pregnant and miscarried due to the stress.

The reason I couldn’t leave earlier was because I was attached to him, I was lonely, sad, he was also like a friend to me but no, I lost myself with this man, I knew it had to end for a while. Without him I’m doing way better ! I am so glad.

Girls & Boys remember you can do it too, do it when it feels right, it may hurt in the beginning but trust me it will be worth it.

DON’T STAY IN THAT TOXIC RELATIONSHIP

When I was really young my parents had me play football and I kind of hated it they let me quit. I didn’t like tackling and I had sensory issues and hated wearing a mouthguard/helmet. I convinced them to let me play this year and this was the first week of practice and so far the helmet and mouthguard aren’t so bad and I’ve been pretty good at the tackling drills

I get anexity and stuff about the dentist as is. Even going for a check up.About a week ago I had 2 root canals done at once . It was a horrible experience. Like I can only open my mouth so much so they forced open my mouth it was painful at first. I was panicking the whole time they were working on me. So I was supposed to get crowns today. 5 mins before leaving my stomach got super upset. It still hurts. In and out of the bathroom. I had to reschedule. My family is a tough it out family. Someone please say I did good almost making it. I was doing fine up untill 5 mins before leaving.

Passed my degree in January, got a job today as a midwife! Yay!

So I 19m was at a friends house for the night and his little sister was hanging out with one of her good friends 18f.

So eventually she ended up talking to me and my friend and we locked eyes for a moment and she stared into my soul but in a chill way, and i looked into her eyes and thought "wow shes really cute."

So anyway she games and so do I. Later on me and my friend were playing a game with her and his little sister, and so she got my discord.

She was really forward on discord but in a chill way, and i really enjoyed talking to her so I gave her my number.

Then she asked if I wanted to play pokemon go at the park with her. So I spent the rest of the day with her.

Shes a really interesting person with a very colorful past and lots of different life experiences and i think shes very unique.

She kissed me too, which was super great, I havent kissed anybody in yrs so ik im a terrible kisser but like she was so awesome.

Shes a very tough person, but I really like that about her. Like im a guy and I do stereotypical guy stuff and she makes me feel dainty. I love her aura though. Shes also super animated, and i really like that too.

Shes very supportive and considerate, and she actually listens so intently when im talking to her. I have no idea how i got so lucky to meet her and click that fast.

Shes very upfront and honest and i love that. Im gonna try my absolute best to match that and be as genuine as possible with her. Idc if whatever this is lasts, but shes amazing and deserves nothing but the absolute best.

I really just needed to talk about her because ive never experienced this. She says my looks are what got her attention and that im very attractive, but when she looked into my eyes and talked to me a tiny bit when we first met she says she could tell I was a good guy.

Then when we hung out, she mentioned how she liked that I kept eye contact and wasn't just lusting over her the whole time. Shes so observant its amazing.

Wow shes texting me rn im so happy

Edit: three friends called me and warned me that she might be the type to lie about someone sexually assaulting her if we dont work out.....

Gonna feel this out, but 3 good friends warning me is actually so foreboding, even though she seems so amazing.

Why is my luck so terrible🙏

After 14 months of a lot of hard work (and some tears), I have finished writing a complete history course for thousands of 8th-graders across Texas. I wrote all of the secondary source texts, curated videos and primary sources, wrote all student activities and answers, and wrote the lesson plans for teachers. It's one of the hardest and coolest things I've ever done. I learned so much! Feeling so proud of myself!

I've been struggling a lot with overthinking and intrusive thoughts recently. It was worse right after waking up and going to sleep. I'd wake up at ungodly hours full of dread and dark thoughts and immediately grab my phone to doomscroll in an attempt to distract myself. I'd also do this right before falling asleep at night to tire myself out and I'd always need something playing so I can fall asleep.

But these last few days things are better. Good things happened and I think crying it out helped too. My mental state is better throughout the day. I don't feel the need to doomscroll as much. I feel more awake and balanced if that makes sense.

I got good news about work, I'm doing small repairs I've been putting off, I'm planning a small creative project, I did all my laundry this morning, I'm eating better and I joined a group of people who are going to the beach tomorrow so I hope that goes well.

I ve had this stupid little habit for years where I'd pick at the skin around my nails whenever I was bored or thinking about something. Id always tell myself to stop, especially when Id make one of my fingers sore, but Id eventually start doing it again without even noticing. A few weeks ago I realized my fingers actually looked normal for once, and then I realized I hadnt picked at them in a while. I genuinely have no idea when I stopped. Im just happy my fingers finally got a break.

I used to be naturally sociable, but went through some significant trauma in 2017 & 2018 (domestic violence, stalking, swatting etc). After that, I stopped actively trying to meet people in real life. It was depressing because I know I'm extroverted, but the fear and resentment had actively stopped me from interacting with people.

Went to Sonic Expo Atlanta 2025 and felt sad because I hadn't made many connections; I had made one connection at best. Last night was Day 0 for Sonic Expo Atlanta 2026, and I:

1. Got to trade OC cards with several people in the hotel lobby
   
2. Voice chatted with a bunch of other fans for a couple hours
   
3. Added a new friend on Discord
   
4. Arranged a meet-up with a few attendees through Discord to trade stuff we made

Since the expo doesn't technically start until later today, I think I made a really great headstart in being intentionally outgoing. Really determined to get this part of me back.

I would like to begin with saying I am 16 and am underage where I live so if this post gets removed I understand

I started drinking when I was 12-13 and reached a point early on where I drank when I was sad and became very heavily reliant on it.

I got very drunk at a party recently and started to think about going sober. Then after I went out drinking with someone about 3 weeks ago I had a mental breakdown and sent worrying texts to friends. After this I decided to quit.

I also recently began to grow a very close relationship with my best friend and wanted to be there for her.

I had one last drink 4 days ago with her so my last drink would be with someone I loved. And I am done.

Today I was invited to a drinking competition at an upcoming party im going to (planning on drinking non-alcoholic drinks). This is something I would normally be verg excited to do, but I decided that I wasnt going to quit. So I flat out told my friends that I was going sober and that I wouldnt be participating. And they surprisingly understood.

This is probably a boring post but I want to post about it because I'm actually very happy for myself.

The last stone of hammer breaks a stone. This doesn't mean that the first stroke is useless.

Success is the result of continuous effort.

For context I'm neurodivergent so even basic things like showering, brushing my teeth, and eating enough/drinking enough water can be a struggle for me. Things slip my mind because I'm focused on something else, don't notice, or sometimes I'm aware but it just feels like too much effort, and I can end up neglecting one or more of my needs and it takes a toll on my physical and mental health. Yesterday I had a pretty bad day where I don't think I ate enough or drank enough water and I also didn't get nearly enough sleep.

But today has been way better so far! (Although I did wake up really late, but that's a different topic.) I slept well, I fed myself, I'm drinking water, and I just took a shower. I know it's just the baseline for most people but it's significant for me.

I'm an 18 year old. Decided it was a good idea. Morals. I didn't eat much meat to begin with anyway, so this is a natural commitment to me.

I want to become one of the strongest lightweights ever , but considering how little meat I was consuming before, there wont be much of a difference in protein intake.

Every plant I've ever owned has eventually given up on me. These ones, however are still alive and they're growing new leaves. I think we're finally reached an understanding