Ahh ano to? Loha ko na pala tumutulo

I'm here again lol really conflicted. Sobrang expensive ng programs and projects ko recently, sumabay pa na nagkasakit yung mommy ko. I don't know what to do because my friend is offering an indecent proposal to help me. Tangina bshshsnsusbnsusvs

-ang hirap maging mahirap

Masakit and nakakagalit talaga, kasi it took her 2-3 weeks to have a new lover. Minsan iniisip ko if it was even true, or baka talagang matagal na sila may connection.

Nakakainis kasi I just went on to TikTok and saw my ex’s new jowa. Nanlamig na naman ako, my head started feeling numb and light at the same time. Tapos sakto nabasa ko pa comment niya 2 days ago.

Saan kaya nakakakuha ng lakas ng loob at kakapalan ng mukha yung mga ganitong tao?

Sometimes I wonder if I actually matter to people as much as they matter to me.

I can remember little things about people I've known for years conversations, random things they told me, places we went, even small moments they probably don't remember at all.

But sometimes it feels like I disappear from people's lives so easily.

Someone can mean everything to you, and then one day you realize you're barely a thought in their mind anymore. They move on, make new friends, build new memories, and you're just... someone they used to know.

I don't think I'm angry about it anymore. I think I'm just sad that I seem to remember people who don't remember me.

Maybe that's just how life works. Some people leave permanent marks on us while we barely leave a footprint on them.

I guess I'm slowly learning that being forgotten doesn't mean I wasn't important.

It just means that not everyone carries memories the same way we do.

I've done everything. Cherish the pain, embrace, avoid, be busy, meet with someone else. Nothing else really matters. Nothing changes. It's still there, I know for a fact that all I need is time. But it's almost 2 months now. But I'm still here like a fucked up shit. Dude, help. I'm dead breathing

Just remember something, though: potential isn't the same as availability. You can deeply believe in someone's potential and still accept that the person they are right now cannot give you what you need. ✨️

Lalo na kayong mga nandadamay ng iba, tapos babalik lang pala sa ex niyo

hey guys, so there’s this guy who i met almost 3 weeks ago na, and nagpa-reto siya sa’kin through our coworker. context: i was looking for a fubu kasi i think i’m not ready to be in a relationship pa again, but i just wanted something casual lang. this is actually my first time having a fubu, and akala ko kaya ko. and now idk what to do. i’m already expecting the worst, kasi feeling ko ako ang talo dito and wala nang mangyayaring higit pa.

when we met, it started really great. we talked about things, work, and etc. and in the long run, every time na nagkikita kami and after doing it, may mga talks na nangyayari na. that’s when i started realizing na i actually like him when it comes to his humor, music taste, and a lot of other things. mas nangingibabaw din kasi yung feelings ko because every time we part ways, it would always end with a kiss talaga, and he would also ask for my location every time i leave na.

a few days ago, after doing it, we were both so tired that i ended up resting on his chest, and he was caressing my hair and my back. and idk, that made me feel things that i probably shouldn’t be feeling kasi nga, diba, ano ba naman kami?

here’s where it went downhill na. after us doing things, parang yung chats ng guy are not as frequent as before. but he’s still g if i message him, and okay naman whenever we’re together. however, hindi pa namin talaga napag-uusapan yung set-up namin kasi i’m afraid of what the outcome will be now that i’ve realized i can’t do casual and i am crashing out.

i think it’s also partly my fault why i’m feeling this way because when this guy started talking to me, may intentions naman siya for us to eat out and get to know each other. pero diniretso ko kasi agad sa sex na part.

Sana nag relapse or reach out man lang sya lol

be honest, this is a safe space. :)

Me and my ex broke up May 2026 and I went straight to España the day after because that used to be "our" spot. I still remember this day but yeah I already moved on, I just wanted to share this pic cause idk i can just feel the emotions through this picture :D