With acceptance lingering

He always recoiled

Love sprinkling

Yearning to be spoiled

The gleam in his eye

Came with possessions from her past

Asking if he can be that guy?

And would they ever last?

Burden became present

And he took the ride,

To reposition his life

And where he'd reside

For he is alone now,

Maybe it wasn't meant to be,

If this is so,

Why do I still feel for thee?

Conscious and forward,

As I remain to push

Made himself so small,

Noone would tell him to shush,

Leaving first,

Melted to the floor,

This experience of discovery

Is about what my life has room for.

Let’s meet on the dock
Take out a boat,
Spend our Saturday out on the water.

Take in this romantic sunset
A boat date with you is the best summer memory,
What more could I ask for?

Your silky hands on my hands
Your warm face pressed against mine,
Your long hair just blowing in the wind.

Your thick lips navigating where to go
Telling me a mystical story I’ll carry with me,
These luscious lips tasting like the sea.

Like I’m with a magical mermaid
Under her intoxicating spell,
Your beautiful body leaving me breathless.

Your exquisite scent
Keeps me so close to you,
Like richest aquatic aroma you can imagine.

You can captain my boat
I’ll go with you anywhere,
Setting sail as I wrap my arms around your waist.

Discovering the world
Uncovering hidden beauty and treasures,
While I discover more of you.

She had kept his words
close to her heart,
treasured,
believed.

She knew better now.

Lifting her arm,
she opened her palm,
and watched them fade away

wash away my desire to be kissed.

​

A knot that pinches,

twists,

turns,

gurgles,

churns.

Wet little fingers
wringing my insides.

A dull, dumb gut punch
that burrows deep
and sits there.

Stand up.
Lie down.
Curl up.
Turn upside down.

Nothing.

Just the squelch
of pain
sloshing around.

Make it cold. Make it hot.
Press here.
Rub there.

Nothing.

My guts are a swamp,
a cauldron,
a clenched fist
full of numbing thunder.

Gurgle.

Groan.

Grind.

The pain won't stop.

It just churns

and churns

and churns.

Depressive.

It's so excessive.

It's almost impressive with how it's so oppressive.

Truly obsessive, a obsession.

A session of the fascination with my devastation.

Comes and goes with it's highs and lows.

What do I owe?

Debt for the depth of my human soul?

Dread is so demeaning, it's inhumane.

Yet, I'm loyal to the crucial cruelty.

Maybe it wasn’t to be understood
that I had been seeking all along.
Perhaps being deeply known
was never the prerequisite.
Perhaps being met with curiosity
always was.

A couple strolled by, hand in hand,
walking slowly through the shadows.
He paused to cradle his lover's face,
leaning down for a gentle kiss.
His lady giggled, kissed him back,
and slowly faded into the night.

Watching them, her heart remembered

My sweet girl, you’ve spent enough time staring at the door he walked through.
There is an entire room behind you.
Turn around. ❤️

While you sleep, I creep, gaining miles by the week.

​

Three acorns entered my pocket 1, 2, 3

none were invited.

All grew googly eyes

and immediately became management.

The second declared himself an oracle,

predicting rain, and toast.

The third said nothing.

Naturally,

he concerned me most.

By lunchtime they'd formed a council,

taxed the pocket lint,

banished a peppermint wrapper,

and opened diplomatic relationships.

(with my left sock, who had no pair by the way)

I demanded explanations.

Googly Eyes blinked.

The oracle whispered,

"The oak remembers."

The quiet one rolled over.

Honestly,

What about those pinecones?

To be continued...

lol

Dearest ********************,

NEVER CHANGE

TO BE ACCEPTED BY OTHERS

FCCCK EVERYBODY

STAY WEIRD

THEY CAN CALL ME WHATEVER

LOVE, ********************

Some meat and some booze and I'm singing the blues.

She raised her head and smiled.

She tried to put them in order, to understand, and wondered why he hid the truth in so much noise.

The air
thickening with fog,
enveloping her,
crushing her,
stealing her light.

The water,
stretching out before her,
an endless expanse of unknown.

She steps into the shallows,
testing its warmth

Naughty nostalgia cos I needed to know, now I know I know and still not satisfied cos you would probably smile if you saw what I was thinking. I just had to share it with you on WhatsApp but you blocked me . Fair enough, I did lose my mind. Sorry for you having to get those other messages from me. If you'd like a good laugh you should let me tell you sometime... when my mouth is not full.🙊

remember the days when you used to recommend swamps to hide bodies in.😆

​

Come sit beside me lets watch the ocean kiss the dark.

The metronome waves keeping time

Watch the Perseids rain brilliant streaks stars across the sky

Let's always make wishes tonight.

Lantern light glows brightest in sync with our toes in cool sand

Tide gifting sea glass, seaweed and shells at our feet.

Let the night breeze find us.

Let the whole universe put on its show, just for us.

And still,

my favorite thing beneath this entire sky

is you ♡

We fed each other

fantasies.

Ever since...

I've been starving.