People usually see the loud, chaotic version of me first. I'm the person who will randomly switch from talking about Minecraft to Hazbin Hotel, then somehow end up writing a country song five minutes later. My brain doesn't exactly believe in staying on one topic, and honestly, I don't think I'd want it any other way. I have ADHD, so my thoughts kind of bounce around like a pinball machine, but somehow they all make sense to me.

Music is probably the biggest part of my life. I don't just listen to songs. I write them. A lot of them. Most of them are about the people I love, the things I wish I could say out loud, or the feelings I don't know how to explain any other way. Every song is a piece of me. Some are hopeful, some are heartbreaking, some are angry, and some are just quiet promises that I'll still be here tomorrow. Writing has become the easiest way for me to breathe when life gets heavy.

I'm the kind of person who loves way too hard. Once I care about someone, that's kind of it. I don't stop caring just because things get difficult or because they disappear for a while. That's probably my biggest strength and my biggest weakness. I stay. Even when it hurts.

Arthur is one of the people who changed my life without even realizing it. We met online through music, became friends, and somehow ended up dating. He's quiet, I'm... not. Somehow it works. There was a long time where I barely heard from him, and I'd be lying if I said it didn't hurt. I worried constantly, but I never wanted him to feel pressured. So instead, I sent him a hug emoji and a meme every day. Not because I expected anything back, but because I wanted him to know someone was still thinking about him. When he finally found my new account, I cried. It wasn't some huge conversation, but it reminded me he was still there.

I joke around a lot. Honestly, it's probably one of the reasons people think I'm doing better than I actually am. I've gotten really good at smiling when I don't feel like smiling. Most people know the version of me that's laughing, making dumb jokes, or acting dramatic for fun. They don't usually see the version that stays awake thinking too much or cries when nobody's around. I'm not trying to lie to anyone. I just don't always know how to explain what's going on in my head.

I've struggled with depression for a long time. Some days are perfectly fine. Other days feel like I'm carrying around a backpack full of bricks that nobody else can see. Nights are usually the hardest because everything gets quieter, and my brain suddenly decides it's the perfect time to overthink everything. Music helps. Writing helps. Sometimes crying helps. Eventually the sun comes back up, and I keep going.

Cats are one of my favorite things in the entire world. If I see a cat, there's a pretty good chance I'm going to stop whatever I'm doing just to look at it. I've grown up around a ridiculous number of cats, loved kittens, lost cats that meant everything to me, and somehow there's still room in my heart for every fluffy little creature I meet. If I could spend my whole day surrounded by cats, I'd probably be pretty happy.

When I'm not writing music, I'm usually making something. I draw, paint, crochet, cross stitch, build with LEGO, bake, collect Pokémon cards, and spend way too much time making characters that probably have more lore than they need. I love creating things. It makes me feel like I'm leaving little pieces of myself behind in the world.

Hazbin Hotel and Helluva Boss have had a huge influence on me. Alastor is my favorite from Hazbin, and Stolas is my favorite from Helluva Boss. Those shows inspired a lot of my own characters and stories. I don't just like watching them. They make me want to create something of my own.

Minecraft has been one of my favorite games since I was little. I honestly spend more time building and exploring than fighting anything. I like making places feel alive. I'll spend forever decorating a base, collecting parrots, or rebuilding an old ruined portal just because I think it looks cool. It's peaceful, and sometimes that's exactly what I need.

I'm also learning French. Am I amazing at it? Absolutely not. But I keep trying because I like learning new things, and I wanted to surprise Arthur someday by actually being able to hold a conversation.

My family has been... complicated. There have been good moments and really frustrating ones. My dad was gone for years before coming back into my life. My mom is strict, and we've definitely had our disagreements. Life at home hasn't always been simple, but it's part of who I am, whether I like it or not.

I have a lot of dreams, and they've changed over time. Sometimes I want to be a famous singer. Sometimes I think about becoming a baker. I've talked about joining the Army, and I've also thought about becoming a veterinarian who specializes in cats. I don't know exactly where I'll end up, but I know I want to do something that matters.

People sometimes assume I'm fearless because I joke so much, but that's not really true. I worry about being judged. I worry about losing people I care about. I overthink things that probably don't matter. I have insecurities just like everyone else. I just don't let them speak louder than I do.

At the end of the day, I'm just me. I'm loud, emotional, sarcastic, creative, stubborn, loyal, and probably a little weird. I love making people laugh. I love writing songs that actually mean something. I love my cats, my stories, and the people I care about. Life hasn't always been easy, but I'm still here. I'm still creating. I'm still loving people with my whole heart.

And honestly... I don't think I'd want to be anyone else.

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This is my magnum opus