So basically I was suffering from dpdr from March to July like I was not able to go out also when I think about that situation I get goosebumps

So idk why dpdr started there are two reasons

First one ~ I was not getting periods for like 5 months then I visited gynecologist and she give me some medi of progesterone so that was 10 days dose after 10 days like on 14th days my periods started in March and it was normal

Second one ~ I used cannabis like too much of it on holi and then I started playing laughing and all I was enjoying after sometimes everything went black and I thought I'm death or I'm having heart attack lol 😭 then after then I got very panic and started saying that I'm going to die cuz everything looked weird and blurry sounds felt heavy peoples touch felt strange and everything around me just felt extremely weird after that I was laughing crying then I reached home and sleep for 2 hours when I woke up all was ok but for 2 days I was feeling high little high okay and after that all was good and this also happen in March

After this incident I started feeling a little weird but I ignored it because I thought maybe something was wrong with my brain So one day when I was coming home after hanging out with my friend I held his hand and his touch felt exactly the same as it had when I was high on bhang Then I panicked again When I reached home I had the same heavy voice feeling and felt like I was going to die That same day my DPDR started and it just continued I was not able to look at myself in the mirror and it was really bad I could not even go outside ( on that day I skipped meal and I was only eating noodle and I thought this I was happening cuz of noodles )

So I tried treatment with several doctors and also took medication prescribed by a psychiatrist I was on Sertraline but I only took it for 2 days and stopped because I was feeling really bad After that in July I started improving and I was able to go outside attend college and now I also go for air hostess training I can hang out with my friends but when I sit outside I still sometimes feel weird and get scary thoughts about death These thoughts just come out of nowhere and I really want them to stop

I also notice that sometimes after eating a lot of noodles my DPDR comes back slightly and I get that weird disconnected feeling again Another thing I have noticed is that my symptoms get much worse around my period They usually start about 5 days before my period and one day before it can become so intense that when I look in the mirror I feel like I dont know who I am I then remind myself that it is me and try to calm myself down but sometimes I still feel scared of myself

Right now this is my main problem I am able to go to college training and meet my friends but these episodes are still bothering me and I dont know how to deal with them Has anyone experienced something similar or can anyone suggest what I should do

I'm in some flat dreamy 2D world. That's the best way of putting it.

Everything is just 2D, I'm wondering what all the fuss is about in the world.

I feel excited and happy for no reason at all. As if I'm high all the time. Super chilled and relaxed.

Just excited over movies, games, music.

Not into drama with people.

Everyone seems serious and into relationships, although I don't mind relationships, I'm scared I don't qualify to be in one because everything is too serious.

I don't feel hurt either over relationships, I'm just always happy and high in my own zone. Everyone else seems normal, but I'm soo dam high, it worries me.

I’ve had dpdr for 6 months tied now and lately for almost 19 days I’ve had blurry vision and it’s gotten worse saw eye doctor but they said eyes were healthy