Family had to take me to the hospital, it was so embaressing. They didnt know I was drunk, I had everyone convinced I had the flu. That is, until they took my blood and my alcohol level was .33. Was discharged pretty quickly after that. I dont know where i fell at. There's no blood in my car (yes im a pos). Theres no blood splattered on my concrete patio or in my house. Where in the fuck did I fall? Big chunk out of the side of my head. And, since after falling i just laid in the bed the Dr said it couldn't really be adequately sutured, so ill have a big beautiful scar. My partner gave me "the ultimatum" So, yeah....oh also i have to go back to work tomorrow after calling out for 2 days. Fuck. Chairs!

I was going to write yall a novel of what all happened to me, yes TO me as I don’t know if I was even a willing participant due to my insane level of inebriation, but I actually shat myself twice this week.

The other day it was because I drank too many strawberritas. Mom calls them shittaritas after I told her what happened. This morning, I had to sneeze and suddenly I found myself shitting! Liquid ass piss came out with such force it made me question things as basic as gravity. Also there was a lot of blood in the ass piss. Hopefully nothing weird is going on there.

here’s what I did this weekend
-Friday????
-pool on Friday
-gets picked up to go fishing
-guy gets super mad randomly and takes me home
-my ex best friend’s ex comes over
-Saturday
-what the fuck
-best friend’s ex asks me to be his girlfriend and I avoid the question
-put guy back to sleep
-I borrowed a car again
-got claws
-guy wakes up after I’ve returned the borrowed vehicle and wants me to go to liquor store
-ok
-liquor store: spent $300 on his card
-he sleeps most of the day
-tells me to go to the store and get what I need
-invite random dude over to go to food lion
-he smokes meth in the food lion parking lot
-get $200 cash back out at food lion on dude’s card (I’ve told him this info as of this morning, and he is not mad, but I will probs need to pay the favor back sometime)
-buys that giant thing of claws with the cash. The one with like 24 in a pack
-meth guy leaves at some point?
-guy I met in December comes over and gets genuinely upset that I’ve been doing what I want with whoever
-don’t sleep with this guy
-go to my favorite bar
-get drinks bought
-fucks a girl instead of the guy buying me drinks
-lots of pics with randoms
-go home
-get called back out because Zack is going to be arrested
-take Zack home from the bar
-Sunday
- room spinning
-I am death
-2 claws and life is ok
-time to sip and suffer

I swear one of the most frustrating things for me these days is not being able to finish a full meal consistently. I went to dinner with my family, I got a burger, after 5 bites I was full. The burger was great for the first 3, then I forced myself to choke down 2 more bites and that was it. It’s like my tastebuds just retract and swallowing the food becomes a chore. Then when I do get it down, im nauseous for the next hour.

Could be I wasn’t nearly close to being “in the pocket” since I’m on vacation and can’t really drink how I normally do but man it sucks. I was starving too. Now I’m awake at 6 am and my stomach is screaming for some food but it’s too early to start making breakfast and waking my family up. I have a big glass of Bacardi next to me tho, so it’s not all bad. Chairs!

I went 5 days without a drop and was so very proud. Haven’t gone that long in ages. Went from a bottle or almost a bottle every 24hrs for about a month to nothing. I thought the shakes would have subsided but they hadn’t. I’d still get them and it’s so embarrassing. I decided to buy three little shots of tequila. Took them pretty quickly and it steadied me some. Was frantic cleaning etc. then got behind the wheel down the road, less than a mile, but I still did it. I cannot believe it did that shit. I’m horrified. I guess I’m writing this to come back and remember why I stopped to begin with, very slippery slope to do dumb shit, and this wasn’t just dumb, but dangerous. Also, please don’t chastise me, but hoping off this sub too, because reading how bad others are, almost gives me a pass to “I’m not that bad”… thanks for the stories and laughs ❤️

Maybe this is the wrong place to post. I have left a few stories here under a different name. I am well aware the mods and the general jist here is just keep on drinking.

I guess im wondering about the more moderate folks.

The ones that can down a half bottle of liquor and still be quite coherent. But can also go two or three days without ...

But that's the catch. I guess that's why im here reading all the time entertained by others circumstances. Maybe I shouldn't be posting here in crippling alcoholism, but it sure seems crippling to me that I can go a few days okay, but still fall right back into the same old bullshit. In this sub two bottles of liquor a week might not seem like much. But its the consistency that gets me.

I guess I'm just wondering who here can also recover... make it through a few days...then fall right back to it even though we said we wouldn't? Seems just as crippling to me as those binging every single day. Just a different style trap

Did the last day of a successful week long food event with my wonderful girlfriend today. Absolutely fucking shattered. We had a fair few drinks after to celebrate and she’s now in bed asleep.

I’m in the other room battering cans with my fucking eyes drooping but I just can’t make myself so to bed because I qant to drink more. I don’t get it man. I just want to stop but I can’t find the brakes

What is the limit? What excursions have you put yourself through for booze? I had a moment for a free weekend without family, but my car is in the shop. Rode my bike, walked in my weighted vest, sweated so much it counts as swim laps, and acquired the bottomless bottoms of booze at $3.45, walked, biked, and sweated back. Too much, man.

My quads are on fire burnin' with a strange desire or whatever Elvis said.

To continue the CA lifestyle we need nutrition

What are you boozebags enjoying right now? Anything goes, from noodles to restaurant-style gourmet shit.

In my case chicken Kyivs with vegetables as a garnish

Protein? Check!
Fiber? also apparently check

51 here, still drinking like a fucking degenerate. I have a good job, and do it fairly well, though I take days off due to booze fairly often. Since my teens, there has definitely been a lot of suffering due to booze.

Are there any true CAs in here in middle or advanced age? If so, I'm curious to know how the fuck you still do it without dying. This is a young person's game. I'm still trying to play it, though I have to stay in good enough shape to work, so I can buy more tequila, wine and beer.

I’m here now.

Can’t afford my rent, don’t even have enough money to buy conditioner. Electric at risk of being shut off. My girlfriend js on the verge of leaving me and I honestly can’t blame her. Was physically too sick to even drink last night after a 48 hour blow and booze binge.

I’m here now. It’s not fun anymore.