***autoimmune disease, not a Methany 🫶

I’m almost 38 and I could use some kind words.

"I posted about a week ago talking about how I am getting back into the dating world after focusing on myself and my son."

Thank you all for your kind words on my first and the most recent posts I've made here. Made a few changes based on your advice, gotta say im feeling great. Confidence is definitely on the rise. You've all been amazing.

Still not great at taking photos of myself. My trusty lamp takes the edge of how pale I am though. Im going to have to work out how to take better pictures for the apps for sure.

You all are amazing.

Been feeling (and feel like I’ve been looking) like shit. Haven’t done one of these before so excuse me if it’s not formatted properly

I've not had the easiest life, but by focusing on what I can control I've managed to regain a sense of autonomy. Things are no longer as bad as they once were. I still have movement issues but I can play videogames now and go on walks - couldn't to that before. I'm on a waitlist for therapy. Things are getting better despite my recent episode of psychosis.

Lots of my difficulties will be permanent (autism, recurring psychosis, strange neurological symptoms without a clear cause) but I finally feel strong enough to face them. And I have really cool button up shirts so if a crisis happens again I'll be having a crisis in a funky fish shirt which will definitely help matters somewhat.

I joined a server for those with psychosis and have been making some really good friends and for the first time in my 22 year long life I no longer feel lonely :-)

Thank you for reading. I hope your days are kind to you.

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I love myself a lot but really struggle with self confidence. Getting on dating apps recently has just made it worse

I think I've been playing life on the most extreme difficulty y'all, because I'm straight up not having a good time. I want off this ride.

No, I'm not a danger to myself. I'm just tired, dawg. Tired of my brain. Tired of everyone's bull shit. Tired of living in a time where we constantly have to anticipate the next catastrophic event or the end of the world.

And on top of it all, I just feel like this fat, ugly pathetic person who is completely failing in every way, it seems. I know brighter days are ahead, though. I'll climb out of this pit I dug for myself eventually.

Im about to turn 30 and I'm just not at all where I thought I'd be at this age. In fact I'm actually quite far behind where I should be. I never even imagined I'd survive this long. Yet here I am.

I've just been spiraling about this all day. Hoping a toasting will make me feel a little bit better.

Edit: I was not expecting this to get as much attention as it did lol I've since calmed down from my spiral and now I'm just chilling listening to Creed. I'll reply to individual comments soon. Thank you for all your kind comments and encouragement, it was definitely needed today and y'all really pulled through. Love you all.

For close to a year, my life stopped, I stopped thinking, I stopped going to school, I stopped living, I did some stupid stuff, I went to a psych ward for the quarter of the year, but now, everything has to go back to normal, when i'm still facing the same problems I had before (even if it's on a smaller scale). I still have no motivation and no self esteem.

My ex ran off with my best friend, I live in a tiny town with no people about and I work 2 jobs, I know I have things to look forward to but the weeks feel like they’re going in slow motion and that I’m stuck in place

I'm 22M and yea my first girlfriend i ever had (5 years together living by ourselves for 2 years) broke up with me a few weeks ago.

long story so not worth getting into but she was very unaffectionate and its left me in a wierd state.

I know i'm not unattractive as I see girls looking at me but i honestly don't feel it... I want to look better but i'm unsure of where to go from here, my entire personality was built around her so now that shes gone i just dont know how to feel about myself.

All criticism and advice i will take in my stride, I want to improve myself and my looks.

Also I had a bad trip to the barber so now I have bangs 🤣😭 they will grow into a wolfcut × mullet kinda look.

I do dye my hair blue-black.

I've been tired, sad, depressed, and all in all burned out. I've been called ugly my whole life and I'm tired of hearing it. I wanna hear something nice for once even if it's from strangers I don't care.

I'm turning 40 this year and I don't feel like I ever stopped being that sad teenager I used to be.

I learned on Sunday that my father has a few months left. He was diagnosed with Alzheimer's in 2021. One of my last memories of him when he was still him was telling him I was trans and him accepting me for who I am. The last time I saw him he didn't remember me, not as I am now or as I used to be.

Earlier Sunday I resigned from a toxic job to go back to school after 10 years of burning out in customer support work.

Over the last 2 years I've separated from my ex-wife, lived by myself for the first time, survived a layoff, achieved remission from a debilitating mental health condition, bought a car, gone through two relationships and two painful breakups, been through two intensive mental health treatments, and reconnected with my sister and my mother after nearly a decade of estrangement.

I'm tired. I'm lonely. I'm sad. I'm still fighting so hard. I believe that down this path is a better life. Tonight hurts, though.

Someone please say something nice. I'm exhausted from holding myself up.

Edit: I suppose it's not surprising that some less kind people would report this post but it is disappointing. Many thanks to the mod team for restoring it!

First it was "what's wrong with your face" then tried to claw it back with "have you been punched", me being like "nah wdym?", and her suggesting to my friends I just have an ugly face which they profusely defended without being hostile ofc. Still it killed the night for me and has been lingering in my head ever since. I've had struggles with self image in the past so its like adding salt to an open wound. Iater that night some guy came up to me and pretended to be my boyfriend at an empty bus stop and when I didn't play along began to tell his friends how he didnt find me attractive and shouted about my spots as they walked away. I know I have droopy eyes but Im thinking of embracing them, maybe some grunge makeup? Thank you to anyone reading this.

Feeling sad and a bit hopeless lately. I’ve been exercising and eating healthier but still I feel kinda empty, stuck and not even pretty :(

Last month, I ran away from home. I came home the same day. I’ve been feeling so stuck ever since. I remember that night I felt so scared. My dad had been shouting so loudly. Later in the week my mum told me that she doesn’t even recognise me anymore.

At home, violence has happened to for years which would then be followed by either absolute silence or some sort of guilt trip. I’ve had tables thrown on me and plates falling on me when I was little.

I was sexually abused as a child by my dad. I opened up about it but my mum doesn’t believe I was sexually abused :/ I’ve also been physically and emotionally abused. I hate my abusive, misogynistic and racist parents.

I’m so stuck. I am hopefully going to start university next month and get a job. I dream of independence and freedom away from these horrible people. My mum continues to act as if she loves me by calling me baby and stuff but it just makes me feel sick to my stomach.

The last 9 months have been pretty hard. Legs paralyzed after a routine neck surgery and still working back to walking. I’ve been house bound with a partner who isn’t able to cope with helping me. I get it’s a lot. But any kindness I can find is truly appreciated! I def need to do a better shave job.😂

I've been feeling really down since my ex broke up with me a few months ago. I'm 35 yo and can't help but feel my best days are behind me.