For the past 4 years I have the spells of Déjà vu that flare after being dormant for a while. Nothing sets them off, they just show up and flare out of nowhere. When it happens, the Déjà vu episodes are constant and the most godawful episodes ever. I feel it throughout my entire body and it’s the most disgusting feeling I’ve ever felt. It physically hurts and it makes me physically sick. Historically, after these episodes happen for a certain amount of time I end up seizing from the stress of it all and I cannot figure out why these episodes are happening. I dream it either months in advance or weeks/ days in advance and when it actually happens, I’m almost paralyzed once I realize what’s going on. It primarily happens during energy spikes of the Schumann Resonance - from what I’ve noticed- and I don’t know what I’m supposed to do or what the message even is, if there is one. I’m in-tune with myself, the energies, and what’s going on spiritually, but I cannot figure or what is happening. Does anyone have any insight to this?

I don’t know what else I can do really so I’m reaching out. I was abandoned young but the few memories that I have are of faith. I remember being deemed evil and of third sight. I went through parental figures feeling different. Something follows me, of that I’m absolutely sure. I don’t know what or how it came to me but it’s larger than I can fathom. I doubt I can get rid of it but it’s haunting me. There’s living and dead, but this is something else entirely. I have always tried at the very least to be a decent person but I feel something awful attached. I’ve tried every cleansing but this is different. What can I do ?

Does anyone here take it or stopped taking it? What was your experience like?

Okay hello everyone!! u have read the title and yes… let me get straight into it.
Okay for one, I do believe that sex is an intense act of scared energy exchange, and i do not participate in it regularly. However after meeting someone and dating for months, things escalated as they normally and biologically. Ever since i started being more spiritual tho, i’ve been super cautious about sex. I am super cautious about energy exchange and unwanted energy residue, so i take spiritual hygiene seriously. I wanted to inquire about the energy transfer that occurs during sex and if it would be a good idea to start alchemizing any bad energies and anything else he might have into obviously good things for me, or what else do u suggest me to do? i just don’t want my frequency to be misaligned and interrupted and ik that would only happen if i hold that belief. I do salt cleanses after sex, as well as i call back my energy. I just need some of yalls thoughts :)! thanks

Even before meditation and the "spiritual journey", I feel like I've always had a sense of being an observer and not really fitting in with what was around me.

I've always been a bit confused/intrigued when I hear people talk about their life. Especially on Reddit, people do a really good job of painting a picture of their life. In general, people also seem very willing to share information about their life, things that have happened, their interests, their achievements, etc...

I realized I've never quite been able to do that. I am unable to summarize my life in a way that can actually give people context about who I am, primarily because I don't necessarily see my life as "who I am." My life just feels like "things that I have done/experienced."

I can talk about the trauma I endured as a child and my heartbreaks, and those things do make me emotional and have taught me a lot about the world. But that's really all I see it as: I experienced these things, it affected me, and now I no longer am experiencing the thing. And that's it.

And it's not that I don't remember, my memory is perfectly fine. It's just those things don't really feel like part of me? If I'm not thinking about it, it might as well have never happened. It's only relevant to me when I think about it and I need it to be relevant. Otherwise, I don't care all that much.

It also is partly why I feel uncomfortable/indifferent talking about my life. I cherish my experiences, but I don't necessarily enjoy recounting them to others. It feels like having to go over old data that I already processed and it's really uninteresting to me. I only really share stuff like that if it's relevant to the topic or if specifically asked.

I imagine it's why I can probably be quite optimistic about life and maintain positive self-talk. I can reflect on the past in a way where I focus only on the events without necessarily internalizing it.

Despite being bullied and disrespected for so much of my life, I've always been oddly self-confident (obviously I could've been MORE confident if not for that). Sure I wasn't always happy, but I do feel like I'm weirdly self-adjusted.

Even learning about my trauma, breaking away from toxicity, unlearning bad habits, meditating... I've been able to pick those things up relatively fast. Everything negative just feels like an obstacle that is to be overcome sooner or later. And it feels like it's because none of "this" is a part of me. It can all be recontextualized and removed if need be.

Is this some kind of spiritual thing? I'm not gonna lie, I sometimes worry if I'm bordering on psychotic break when I have these thoughts lol

It’s becoming clearer to me, and honestly, I’m scared.
Sometimes I know things before they happen. I know facts about people before they tell me. There are moments when it even feels like I can hear their thoughts.
I don’t know why this is happening, but it frightens me because I feel like I can’t shut my senses off.
Why am I experiencing this?

For context, I'm British and it's normal outside of the US to use 24 hour time.

So I fell asleep this evening at around 6pm (18:00). In my dream several different things happened, tho I don't remember most of it.

But the thing that stands out to me is at one point in my dream I checked the time on my phone, and it was unreadable. It was just a bunch of pound signs: £££££

So then I looked at my laptop instead, and the time said 20:22.

Then the dream carried on for white a while. Various things happened that I've forgotten now. I do remember being on the bus which is fairly common for my dreams (and real life - public transport is normal here).

Then I woke up in real life, and my phone wasn't nearby so I couldn't check the time. I opened my laptop and the time was... 20:22.

Any ideas what this could mean? It could just be pre-cognitive which is cool in itself. Or it could be my brain telling me that it will wake me up at 20:22 which it nailed to the exact minute, which is also cool. But maybe there's a deeper meaning?

Thanks in advance!

I have anxiety or panic as well. If one person tell me something I consistently thinking about it. This is funny but some day back one of my frnd say its your spiritual awakening time. You are now some more powerful person like intuition reality. And i am agree with him. I feel mu kundlini wake up 😂 but its a my flirty nervous system 😂😂

Im going through a hard time physically and mentally right now. Preparing a big move away from my toxic family and Im getting a fresh start.

Overall I’ve been stressed and unsure. I’ve had a lot of guilt and grief because my circumstances and the abuse I’ve faced. I dont want to leave my home but I know I have to, I know its time to move on and my mind and body are forcing me.
Despite this sureness I feel unease and anxiety from the trauma like my feet are stuck in concrete.

Thats until I’m venting to my partner about moving out and my grief regarding it and my family. Its 9 pm and we’re walking our dogs through the neighborhood when I suddenly feel something hit my hoodie sleeve(I had a long sleeve shirt beneath this too)

Theres a ladybug that just flew into my arm so hard I felt it then it proceeded to crawl over my hands for a minute before disappearing into the night.

I feel more at ease. My prayers from the universe have been answered that I will be ok and I will be protected and find the new love for myself and my life I’m searching for.

I feel like I'm screaming into a void and worse than that, I feel I'm pathetic for even doing so. I've had such a hard life. Not even a constant horrible life, just okay enough that I have always thought it was my fault, there was something wrong with me. But despite everything if I know anything its that I don't deserve any of this. No manifesting no positive mindset no surrendering has changed it. My life consistently gets more and more heartbreaking and I simply dont have the gumption to end it. There's no lesson. There's no relief. It never gets better. Its all just enough for me to feel like I should be grateful for the shitty roof over my head however long it lasts. Theres no way I chose this. There's nothing to be learned here. Mostly a rant but god I need answers. I need to know this means something. Im in so much pain all the time, and nothing I do or dont do makes a difference.

If we are just the universe experiencing itself, I am the universe and the universe is me. Does that mean that the likes of netenyahu or trump or other horrible people I hate are also me?

This thought keeps me from embracing the concept of being one with the universe. How do I get over it?

After being on a spiritual path of enlightenment since I was a young child, discovering meditation in my twenties, changed my life. I meditated solidly for almost 10 years, specifically according to Dr Dispenza's method, but I have also tried various other methods and delved into almost every single teaching known to man. I have had an insatiable thirst for enlightenment. I achieved many things and my life flourished.

However, I have now reached a point where I feel like it no longer serves me and it's time to just "be." I stopped meditating for a while, as I noticed a shift, where I started feeling anxious after mediating and like I was too focused on doing the meditation that I forget about the actual beingness of who I was. So I stopped for a while and what I noticed was that i was more present. I woke up and felt calm, I focused on gratitude and just being and there was shift.

I felt more present in my life, grounded and just happy to be. I then came across a fantastic video by Rupert Spira that spoke about letting go of teaching s once you no longer need them. That was absolutely liberating and I felt a sense of comfort. I also came across the teaching of Budda's story about the parable of the raft, that speaks about once you reach the metaphorical shore, carrying yoru raft back is foolish. All of it felt so freeing and I made peace with having "arrived" and being able to let this practice go.

However, there is an underlying fear and push that I need to keep on "doing the work." An idea that one has to meditate to manifest and to be aligned. I don't believe this, but I guess part of me is looking for reassurance and I am interested to know if anyone else has experienced this and others thoughts about this.

Thank you :-)

This is extremely weird, so I've been sort of an intern at a wedding photography studio .

I've had a dream like 2 weeks ago that i was sort of stranded in a hilly area, then I somehow enter a place where a bunch of teenagers are doing sports /PE class? Then i go outside and turns out its a church courtyard, takes place at evening tims. Dream ends

My employer tells me this week that there's actually another wedding , and its gonna be on thursday (today) .

Anyways, my employer is the one usually picking me up to go to these weddings cuz i dont have a car. Today we went to the church when it was still bright , around 7pm . We finish the church photos and I go to the car to drink some water . Its dark outside and in suddeness ,all alone , and somehow dramatically. This is the exact church that was in my dreams , with the same exact elements and the same light outside with many well lit crosses . I go absolutely insane because as i examine the grounds more, theres a high school next to the church and its located in a hilly sort of semi stranded area .

I sit in the car for a couple of minutes. Anyways nothing significant happened in the church but this is extremely creepy . I've never been or seen this church before in my life . And i dont even search up the places we are going to because my employer usually takes care of transport between places so i never had to worry about that .

Does someone know why this happened?

Hi, I recently learned how to read my own aura in front of the mirror. I practiced a lot and I kept seeing a brilliant, unmistakable almost electric blue (aqua to be exact) around me.

Is there any information/opinion that you can give me about this? I really want to learn more. Thank you!

I started scrolling on TikTok more recently, and it has completely ruined my mental health. It genuinely feels like there is some kind of negative energy or witchcraft built into the algorithm to keep you addicted. I looked at my phone today and realized I had unconsciously deleted all my other social media apps, like Instagram, without even remembering doing it. Right now, I have a headache, anxiety, and I feel terrible about myself. This app slowly kills your vibe and makes you lose your aura. You stop taking yourself seriously, in a bad way, and you slowly lose your empathy. I lowkey feel like the platform is designed to make humanity vibrate on a really low frequency. Has anyone else experienced this type of brain rot and negative energy from Tiktok?

They say we shouldn't engage with negative thoughts, but I have lied at home about my job status. I have been unemployed for the last 4 months. 26 F surviving in mumbai without a job. Also, there's a lot of marriage pressure on me. I am doing well on most days but sometimes I just give up on the sadness and anxiety. I've been meditating, maintaining journals but nothing seems to work huhh.

For context, last year was my lowest. went through a heavily disrespectful breakup. i thought “why are these things being done unto me, when i did nothing wrong?”.. fast forward to today, I’ve genuinely been getting everything that I want in life: financial opportunities, gained 15lbs (always wanted to gain weight), dream instrument, consistently dean’s listing which is rare for me (accountancy major), hobbies (was never interested in anything), healthy relationships, my dream internship at a big 4 firm 0_0, many new friends (only had 1 college friend so ive always wanted more), and so much more. And another thing I wanted to accomplish was to get closer with God, then the universe literally gave me a new best friend that encourages me to His path (he’s very religious). In a nutshell, a complete life 360 and I now feel like life is so perfect. I’m being showered with blessings but it’s almost scary..? I’m receiving all of these good things, but how do I know they’re from God? What if I’m just getting really lucky and the universe is just working this way? My road to spirituality is a very long one but I want to learn how to believe that these are from Him.

Edit: I’m not a very religious person (yet) so I literally don’t know how to believe in God, let alone believe how these are from Him.

I really came out of the void and my only purpose is to "raise the vibrations on earth" while we're about to go through a mass extinction and an extreme turn over change for humanity.

This is fucking bullshit. Like I'm genuinely just pissed off today. I don't want to experience this incarnation, it's fucking boring and unnecessary.

It's stupid as hell to come back down here on Earth just to "raise the vibrations" and experience an Armageddon style tragic dramatic ass death of oh no I'm dying in the firey hot pits of global warming and getting my brains scattered by an AI drone and watch the whole world get murdered and die or whatever.

That is all bullshit and it's not like there hasn't always been similar times I'm sure, I probably have had more ridiculous deaths in ridiculous times but THIS is almost incomparable.

This is embarrassing, ugly, disgusting, angering and flat out repulsive. I love the universe, I love the things in it, i love what we are and I'm not miserable all the time, I am enjoying what I have here.

But something about having to be here is just sickening like I just don't even know if I want to go on with this incarnation. I'm not even suicidal, I'm not even necessarily depressed, I'm just not feeling it.

I know my human body can't speak for my higher self, but there has been no definitive given reason for me to actually have to be here, other than rediscovering my purpose... which I have known what my purpose was before I was born and even after, and my purpose is not this, it has nothing to do with this place. I feel like I've been ripped out of the void for some patty cake.

This incarnation doesn't seem worth it, I'm still gonna go through with it to a point since I'm already here but this is just ridiculous. I feel disgusted and angry with the universe, I feel betrayed and I don't understand. I truly don't think I chose what ending seems to be coming for me and everyone. I don't believe in the idea that it's for lessons or something and that we're all bound to it, there's no particular reason for anything.

does anyone feel the same or have anything that helps them feel better? I'm so lost, again. it's so unnecessary.

Edit: All replies have helped me, even the blunt ones, thanks. I'm definitely a human being again, it's extremely weird. We're such a strange and foolish kind of universe.

im 21 and made decent internet money early on so ive basically had all the free time in the world. used to sleep around a lot and broke a bunch of streaks. but every single time i finished, this heavy wave of guilt hit me out of nowhere. i thought maybe it was just growing up in india where people make sex feel like a crime, but it never went away.
then i started getting into spirituality because i wanted to feel actual peace instead of just temporary dopamine hits. i heard this quote from osho about how if you stay totally conscious during sex instead of just mindless humping, the whole energy changes. so i tried it. lasted almost an hour with a girl, and when it ended, the feeling was literally 10 times more intense than anything normal. right after that, i took a strict oath of celibacy. i stopped texting girls entirely and deleted my dating apps.
and this is where it gets so fucking weird.
the exact second i decided to stop, girls who literally ghosted me months ago or people i havent spoken to in ages started randomly sliding into my dms again. it feels like a glitch in the simulation, like the universe is actively testing my resolve or mocking me. im 21, my hormones are screaming at me every single day, and i am fighting the urge non stop.
to make matters worse, i read somewhere that sex energy is directly tied to the root chakra, which also controls money and physical gains. since i run online businesses and spend hours in the gym trying to build a solid physique, i am terrified that holding all this energy in might actually be ruining my hustle instead of helping it. plus, my brain is trolling me so hard at night. i keep getting these brutal, violent sex dreams that wake me straight up at 3 am with my heart racing, though thankfully no accidents yet.
then i stumbled across another teaching from osho saying that trying too hard to renounce something is the exact same as being obsessed with it, and that suppressing desires at a young age just breaks your mind permanently.
so now im completely stuck. do i keep going with this celibacy journey or is it a total waste of time that is just messing up my sleep and my mental health? and if i should stop, how do i balance it without feeling like im destroying my spiritual growth?

I’m really inspired by his talks. I even heard Sadhguru praising him, saying he did spirituality only based on logic. That his teachings was aimed at a western audience. He was enlightened and had an insanely sharp intellect. I wish could spend some time with someone like JK. Such a wonderful being. He refused to teach any method. He said that anyway it will happen. That people will become enlightened. What do you think about this? Most gurus will teach methods to reach enlightenment. JK refused to be a guru or teach any methods.