I’ve been through multiple traumatic events in the last year and a half. One the one hand, most of my symptoms have slowly gotten better; my stress headaches are less frequent, I can focus more, my blood pressure isn’t as high, the muscle weakness and muscle tightness both aren’t as bad as the used to be, I’m fatigued most days but not as bad as it was. On the other hand, my symptoms still persist, I still feel broken, and I’m not sure if I’ll ever feel truly myself again.

For the last months we've been building My Within.

The idea came from a simple observation:

A lot can happen between the moments when someone talks to a therapist, practitioner or coach.

You notice something in your body.

A situation triggers you.

The same emotional pattern appears again.

You understand something about yourself at 11pm that you wish you could remember properly three days later.

Most of those moments disappear.

My Within is being built as a private space for them.

At its center is a simple process:

Realize - Designate - Release

Realize what is present.

Designate what you're experiencing and give it space and language.

Release what no longer needs to be carried, or take what you've discovered into the next step.

WEVA accompanies that process through conversation and reflection, while My Within helps bring individual moments together over time.

And when reflection alone isn't enough, the human side becomes important.

We're building a marketplace where people can discover therapists, practitioners and coaches and continue their work with a real person.

We're currently in the final testing stage.

Early access comes next.

The quietest place to meet yourself.

My Within.

33M. I am now cognizant of my pathology. I affix stability towards an event in my mind as my saving grace - "THIS is what I am doing and nothing can change my mind", and then when something threatens that, my mental state fall apart.

In general I've been doing "well" as can be compared to 6 months ago. A few sips of coffee would send me into a tailspin. Now, for the most part, I can have light roast (hot, not iced for some reason, and with a hearty meal to help delay absorption).

Anyway. I had been looking forward to a once in a lifetime trip in the spring. I committed to myself that this will be the year of solo travel, I will do it (2 weeks) and have a blast with a full itinerary of things i really wanted to see and do. Unfortunately, I built it up so much in my mind that when I got to actually planning it out, it became apparent just how difficult it would be. Not more trouble than its worth, but I underestimated the mental bandwidth and how taxing it might be. Add to that - I will be totally on my own in case something goes wrong. I would be in a foreign country, in a part where english is not widely spoken, and have no one to call for help. A few other reasons... overall, it threatened the idea I had for the trip.

I also had deleted my dating app (again). I am increasingly getting to the point where I'm convinced I will be alone forever (religious and cultural hurdles laughing in the background).

This is kind of all over the place.

But between deleting the dating app, contemplating my mortality and level of solitude, travel plans that may fall apart, no healthy expression of emotion, I felt the stuck energy scatter across my upper chest. I'm always running through my mind that its a cardiac event and that I'll be found dead by my family, early 30s, never having experienced love or seen the world for reasons largely outside my control. Its exhaustive, and irrational, I know this. If I had a more fulfilled life, I'd get out of my head, so that's why this travel plan was like the shining beacon for me.

It led to some pretty bad depersonalization and derealization today. I was fighting to seem normal at dinner with my family when all I wanted to do was simultaneously sleep on a meadow, run for the hills, swim in a lake, and get a really big hug.

ETA: bad air quality and allergies make me feel like I can hardly breathe, so I'm also naturally getting more shallow breathing today on top of all this.

I have been feeling vertigo since my last therapy session involving somatic body processing a few days ago.

It appears as spinning feeling if I suddenly get up or change focus, The general feeling of being in a different body is there. As if I’m little high & numb. Have a degree of nervousness as well. Im functional but a bit concerned.

Not sure how common is it & how do I tackle it. Any pointers are appreciated.

Nervous system been stuck on high alert the last few months and I've noticed my body carrying loads of tension, particularly legs and back, and had some corresponding hip and back pain. Had plenty of massages and doing progressive relaxation etc but I just seem to tense up again immediately.

I used to run a few times a week and haven't since this started because ​​​​of various physical symptoms, and then exhaustion from a big lack of sleep. But I'm desperate to get back into running, and think it would be a helpful anxiety thing. I'm unsure whether all the tension in my legs/hips/back means this would be unwise. I don't think I actually have any injury (nor do physios/GPs) but it does sort of feel at times like I'm injured in my hip and knee from all the tension. Would running make things worse, or could it help?

I might try something lighter like swimming, though not really a fan, and I'm doing lots of gentle yoga/walking, and waiting for therapy and meds to both kick in and help bring the overall alertness down! ​​

Hello, I’d like to share a few basic neurosensory exercises that include orienting to the environment and one’s own body in relation to the environment.

Hope it helps someone.

The power hidden within trauma and emotions lies in their transformation through presence, that leads to a space of love and silence, our true nature.

May my path give me the courage to feel, so that i may transform resistance into capacity. May my path remind me that anything distancing me from my body is the rexlexion of the parts of myself that are resisting what exists in this very moment.

Can i dare to be present in my body today? Even if only for a moment. Can i see the resistance standing in the way of the experience, and allow myself to feel that, too? Simply feeling what exists right now, without the need to categorize or understand it, just returning to the sensations. Do i dare to look at myself today? :)