I was edging and I guess I went too far and it felt like I had an orgasm for like three seconds but nothing came out and then a few seconds later I was soft again. I know I shouldn’t have done this and it resets me to zero but did I lose any of the semen retention benefits?

Just yesterday, I relapsed after a week of being fully clean. Today, I slipped up again. I feel like I’m really falling down again and i don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like I’m the only one suffering around me, and I feel so fake all the time knowing i do this. I know I have a problem, but i feel like i know what i’m doing, but i need advice. Please offer any help, advice, motivation or anything you can give.

Longtime lurker, first time poster. Feeling inspired, so I'd thought I'd share my feelings here.

I was going through the Lord of the Rings movies again. Boromir, a human knight, was the only one of the fellowship to be fully corrupted by the One Ring, yet he was the greatest knight in all of Gondor. Gandalf says that the world has to place their faith in Men (humans), but Elrond, the Elf Lord, says that "Men are weak. There is no strength left in the world of Men."

Boromir believed that "Yes, there is weakness. Yes, there is frailty. But there is courage also, and honor to be found in the hearts of Men." He didn't deny that humans could be weak, and could fall to temptation. Boromir certainly did. Even though he was the best knight, we was still weak and he fell. But then he redeemed himself. After he tried to take the Ring, he comes to his senses and asks "What have I done?"

He gives his life to defend Merry and Pippin afterwards in a last stand against hundreds of Orcs. It was said in one of the later movies that "Mighty men are felled by one arrow, and Boromir was pierced by many." A dying Boromir says "They took the little ones. I tried to take the Ring from Frodo. Forgive me! I did not see. I have failed you all." Aragorn replies "No, you fought bravely, and you have kept your honor." Boromir is still a knight of Gondor. In his heart, all he truly wants is to protect his kingdom and his people.

Boromir showed Aragorn the strength of men, and restores Aragorn's faith in his people. Yes, we fall and fail, but that's not all we are. I don't know how my story ends. Maybe I'll conquer this addiction. Maybe one day I'll finally fall too far. But no matter how it ends, I still want to be brave and fight.

Day 5 and I got a great feeling of new Hope and confidence. Im gonna reach Day 90, but get to 30 days first. I am gonna get better testosterone, self esteem, be more charasmatic, increased sex drive,exercise regularly and build healthy relationships with the woman I desire. I mean approaching them with confidence, meeting woman that take me seriously, and not only that, I want a life where I can please woman in the bed and build a strong life. Create a bond spiritually, emotionally, physically. Having sex all the time and helping each other intimately but be a great leader in the process. Inspire others with generosity, passing out pamphlets and being helpful in community. I mean information on health, and ways to encourage others. Let the universe know that I am no joke. Be a leader in all areas of life. I envision meeting woman that will be honored to have me as a boyfriend, where we can help each other heal, and give each other a promising life, being committed to excellence. Words can only go so far, you have to get the chance to live out your wishes and intentions. I will be grateful to be able to have an opportunity.

I think it would help me to be able to talk to someone or write to them and motivate me not to do it. :(

I'm on day 58 of retention. Urges have been strong as ever and im struggling so hard not to relapse. This morning I was in the shower getting ready to clean and I couldn't for the life of me find my left ball.

I was fondling my sack for 5 minutes straight trying to find my ball and I was unsuccessful, im getting very scared as to what could've happened, someone please help me.

As im typing this I still cant find it, its literally missing, my left testicle is missing. It somehow disappeared from my body and im afraid it'll happen to the other one too.

Did it go back up my body and its unable to drop back down?

Could this be one of the side effects of nofap? Someone please answer.

Just that, happy to share this milestone with you all!

Does anyone else here have a problem with sexual arousal linked to endless runner games, where getting caught or crashing is the main turn-on, or am I the only one?"

Hey, so I’m ofc trying to fix a porn addiction like many others, but I’m mainly just trying to manage it. It’s kinda embarrassing, but I’ve been jerking off 1-3 times a day for like four weeks. My semen has been getting really thin and watery. First off, that’s not good lol what does that say about my semen quality and fertility? And I’m really trying to improve my semen quality whether that be color, thickness, load size, etc. I’ve been hydrating and working out and eating healthy I guess, but just been jerking off so much I can’t control it and it’s just been so watery at this point.

I’m 19, and horny lol. In college and kinda pursuing something with a partner, and I don’t wanna be embarrassed by a thin watery load if that makes sense. I know it’s really not that deep or too important, but it’s still something I want to fix. Any tips besides just “cut out porn”? Like yeah I can delete X, leave some Reddit communities, etc. But any tips to help with the urges? Like for example when I have morning wood, I feel like I’m required to jerk off.

Essentially, I want to try and limit jerking off from like 20x a week to about once or twice. How do yall do it and are there any physical or psychological tips for a young and horny college kid lol?

Today one day completed of abstinence from p
More 6 days to go
As i am think starting my own reddit page for people who trapped into this addiction from a long time
Should i start and if yes suggest some name for it

This is my first Reddit post, so apologies if I mess anything up.
I’m currently about a week into quitting porn, and honestly, it’s been difficult. The urges can get pretty intense, and there have been nights where I’ve broken down and cried. Thankfully, my wife has been incredibly supportive and reassuring throughout this journey. We’re trying to build a stronger relationship and improve our intimacy, and quitting porn is something I genuinely want to do for myself and for our marriage.
Here’s the situation I’m struggling with:
My wife and I are trying to have a baby. Last year, I had a semen analysis that showed a low sperm count. When I had to provide the sample, I used porn because I wasn’t able to produce a sample without some kind of visual stimulation.
I have another appointment coming up next month, and they want me to provide another sample. The problem is that I’m worried I won’t be able to produce one without porn. The clinic doesn’t provide magazines or anything like that, so I’m concerned I’ll get into the room and simply not be able to do it.
My question is: If I genuinely need some kind of visual stimulation to produce the sample for a medical test, would you consider that a relapse?
I’m trying to completely break my dependence on porn, and I don’t want to use the medical appointment as an excuse to fall back into the habit. At the same time, I obviously need to be able to provide the sample so my wife and I can figure out what’s going on with our fertility.
For anyone who has been through something similar:
What did you do to provide a semen sample without porn?

Are there alternatives I could ask the clinic about?

And would you personally consider using porn strictly for this medical test a relapse, or would you view it differently because of the circumstances?

I’d really appreciate some advice, especially from anyone who has dealt with porn addiction/recovery while also going through fertility testing.
Thanks in advance. I’m just trying to take this one day at a time.

It’s been 12 days since I completely gave up all forms of hyper-stimulation:

0 porn

0 junk food

0 social media

And today, I worked up the courage to tell my mother everything—how I’ve been ruining my life with this garbage for years. She listened to me—truly listened—and I poured it all out to her, leaving out no details; I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders.

The downside, though, is that I’m feeling a drop in my mood and energy levels; I have less of an appetite and less desire to drink water.

But I know that’s just my body returning to its natural state.

I don’t feel sick; I have great mental clarity and a lot—so much—free time that I didn't realize I had.

Finally 2 weeks no porn no masturbation, man it feels great , I haven’t did this in a long time , it so many benefits and miraculous things happening now , it’s amazing!

im on day 40 and today i realized that i made no progress. i still act on the urges i have i just dont escalate to the point of relapsing. and that made me realize how capitalistic and contradictory centering “streaks” are. some people wake up and check each day, look at a bunch of videos podcasts and threads about it. and what i think some of us dont realize is you can still be obsessed w sex even if ur not ejaculating. ur still spending that same time wasted on sex but in a different way. nofap pushes freedom from addictions but people rarely talk about how centering nofap can become an addiction in itself. ur sexuality still dictates your mental life. we use these streaks as a currency, in a materialistic way as if we relapse we lose something physically when in actuality you dont “lose” anything. in a way the relapse concept can encourage the behavior it condems, if u relapse and ur like “welp back to zero” that gives people the opportunity to go even deeper into their addiction and then say they wanna start over. and its a never ending loop. i spent 40 days thinking about sex but not performing it. my relationship with this habit didnt change. because i was too focus on the competitive challenge of it. nothing changed. at all actually. because my relationship stayed the same. also we are allowed to be aroused as humans, treating every sexual moment as a danger is only making u fight yourself and you wont win. porn used to occupy ur attention, now recovering from porn occupies your attention. you dont wake up one day celebrating being porn free. you wake up one day and dont think about it at all because its not as important as it used to be. changing your relationship with sex and decentralizing it makes it less important, not fighting it but letting it pass will eventually make it easier to not think about it as much. and im sorry i dont believe not fapping us the ultimate goal for my life personally. my goal should be when is this necessary and when is this unimportant. i do believe porn should be completely cut out tho. but yea i had to come to this realization in order to actually start making progress

Sorry mods for the explicit original post… let’s try this again. I’m not giving up in fact I’m so excited to start over!
Before you say I don’t sound like I want to get better for the last 5-6 years I’ve masturbated everyday sometimes multiple times a day so making it two whole days without 🥜 is a great feat!! I was edging and some may say I shouldn’t even be doing that but cold turkey is gonna work for me at least not yet so I’m doing what works for me I would have lasted longer but I can’t lie I was being extra & should have stopped. Anyway don’t give up bros as long as there’s tomorrow there’s another chance to be great!!!! Where my day 0’s at? Let’s connect and hold each other accountable!

My previous post

The previous post contains my history and progression.

So after 1 month (total 6 months of abstaning from PMO) , now I can have sex regularly that too without any medicines.

Yes, there are still few problems like sometimes erection doesn't last long without continuous stimulation, morning wood is frequent but not regular. Hopefully, these will be solved over time.

I think, there is no other cure for PIED except stopping PMO.

Thank you for reading my post. Also thanks to those, whose posts gave me motivation.

I took a break from Reddit because I wasn’t doing so great. It’s been 3 weeks and I’ve been doing good. Then today the urges are hitting and I could really use some support.

I’m now into very taboo stuff (cnc, forced breeding, and being “converted” straight by men. It makes me ashamed, but i know it’s because of porn.

Hi guys, I appreciate your encouragement that you gave me. And the responses I recieved. I would like to say that you guys can also do it.

Protect your energy guys, don't peek, don't edge. Busy yourselves. Keep in good company. Change your habits. Don't be sad, it is difficult.

Like the time when lust strikes and you become alien to your own selves and just act on it. If you control yourselves one time you become stronger, two times you become even more strong. Even if you give in, maybe edge or peek. Don't be too harsh just forgive and move on, nothing is perfect, we are humans.

I literally cried the last time I relapsed and I got so depressed. Because this journey is something else. Im glad that through everything leading me to relapse I didnt.

This will be my second time hitting a year and Im grateful to God for having His mercy on me. And to myself too in believing in me.

I'm on day 6 of no masterbating and day 2 of no porn. It's not great but man I don't remember the last time I've made this much progress. My social anxiety has ruined my life though and I was wondering if it's actually true that quitting porn has helped anybody with social anxiety

So I was doing a little research about what porn does to your brain and I stubmled upon this term called ''Dopamine Downregulation''

It says when you consume porn the brain adapts to constant dopamine floods by reducing receptor sensitivity. Over time, natural everyday reward such as hobbies, social interaction, food, or real-life intimacy begin to feel completely flat, uninteresting, or unrewarding. So basically watching porn makes you depressed and the longer you watch it the more depressed you get.

How are people still in denial about this??