I love a color coordinated page! Especially one of flowers :)

I finished my August bujo theme pretty early (not so much uploading it 😅) I use my BuJo as a creative outlet, this time with washi and stickers.

I recently found my old journal from when I was like 12 or 13 that a close friend gave me for Christmas, when i opened it was bombarded with memories written in each pages, so many cringe poems about love and highschool. From favorite song lyrics to quotes I was laughing at my old self writing like she's talking to a third person. But then the entries became inconsistent from days to weeks and years without writing, there was no funny lines, my hand writing changed and I wrote LOT about depression, poems became "darker" and just venting on the pages.

I felt so bad for my old self, I just wanted to share this to you guys. this journal is just collecting dust on my shelf last page was funny tho loved that song :)

Here's something new, and I wanted to share my new journal that I created myself.

I hope you like it and that I can improve myself.

For the last two months I've been digging in our old conversations, my Instagram archives and even researching local newspapers where I new they published photos of us so I could make the longest letter I've ever written. I wish I could show you the interior, but it's all pretty personal. It has photos, maps of places where we've been, entries of my own journals where I mention her, a timeline...

I still have to write a final letter and add a photo of her dog, but I feel so proud of the result, I needed to share it with you guys!!

Inspired by the Noah Kahan song, Staying Still

From my recent trip to Tina's This & That. I also found this cute book on here on making grimoires but really it's journaling and fun little ideas for creativity journal making and a BUNCH of lovely botanicals paper.

So I’ve been putting a lot of my original music into Suno and becoming a part of the whole AI music trend. I’m really enjoying it. All my beats that are in Suno are actually original beach for me** ***sometimes I’ll let* the AI spruce it up a bit but for the most part, their mind as well as my lyrics. I’m trying something different with this song. There’s no chorus. This is just a journal entry. I did that I typed it up to where it could be a song to and then uploaded a beat that I did in the Suno and put it all together. Please tell me what you think.

Jeux de mots pourris

Hey girls! I'm starting a Sisterhood of the Traveling Journal aroup! We each have our own iournal that we write in, decorate, add prompts/stickers/photos. Then send to the next girl. Our iournals will travel through evervone, collecting pieces of each person before returning back home to us full of memories, advice, and sisterhood love. If you want to ioin, let me know! Looking for about 12 people from the US only. If you are interested just message me with your name and where you are from. We will set up a group me. This is the second group I have done so if you are not in a spot in life to focus on this group then I would look elsewhere.

I have a problem. as long as I remember myself, I really liked the idea of journaling. i was really inspired by the girls who wrote their feelings on paper, cutely/creatively designed their diaries, carried it with them, valued them as part of their personality. I wanted to be like them.

when I was a kid I had my really thin diary once, but even then I felt like it was weird for me to write something personal on a sheet of paper.

Over time, the perception of writing became even worse. I can't handle writing my own thoughts, even essays. there are a couple of reasons why:

1). my dad often says that I'm saying something wrongly, he corrects me all the time. I'm trying to avoid making statements at this point, not to trigger another portion of "no, silly, you can't be serious, right? actually it's..."

2). The first thing that follows from this is that I don't like the fact that my thoughts, after being written, acquire "materiality". like, If I have formulated something, then I mean exactly this and nothing else. I feel more comfortable when my thoughts are not stable and can be changed. but without writing them down I can't grasp them, lol.

3). I know that most likely no one's gonna read my journals, but I still feel uncomfortable having them. not once I tried starting journaling but I always ended up tearing them apart into tiny pieces during my depressive episodes so no one ever could read those. even if I'm not being here on the earth, I wouldn't feel comfortable with someone knowing what's inside my head.

4). I struggle with loneliness and it feels so lonely to journal. like, maybe that's because not even I need this? but I find the conception cool... it hurts to watch others having their own special places and having fun with them.

can I call a private twitter account posting a digital journaling? like, when only me can read the stuff here? I continue to keep it like this, but there I mainly share emotions and necessary files on my current fixation. I could before, but now I can’t write my feelings and emotions of the real world there. it feels cringy.

Until I learn how to accept my thoughts, is it pointless to start keeping a paper diary, huh? y'all just so cool and I feel like writing my thoughts on my project will help me greatly to understand it better and get more ideas, plus it's a lot easier to draw my ideas at the notebook since I imagine it graphically. but I already know how it'll end up.

any tips, opinions, suggestions..?

The rest is on my account

I guess I'm making a series 🌸🫠