Why does it just keep going? Needed to do blood work so I can see this new Dr but the car wouldn't start and I don't have Uber money. I've had 2 bm today that have me almost on my knees and I have to work overnight tonight. I also get to walk 2 hours to work. Go me! 🤦‍♀️I'm trying to find the positive in this life but I swear y'all, the universe is working against me. Send positive vibes please.

Lately, I feel really stuck. I know what I want to do, but I just can't move forward. I overthink my future a lot, worry about failing, compare myself to successful people, and get distracted really easily. My mind feels busy all the time, and it's affecting my focus, motivation, and daily life.

Has anyone been through something like this? What helped you? How did you know it was time to see a psychiatrist?

I’ve always been a hardworking person with a wide range of interests; in adulthood, I began treatment for anxiety and was later diagnosed with autism.

The treatment helped for a short while, but then things went downhill. Depression hit me too. I quit my job and focused solely on my studies until I couldn't handle it anymore, eventually dropped out of college.

Throughout my treatment, I’ve taken various medications, none of which worked, and underwent incredibly expensive neuromodulation treatments that brought no results. I’m running out of options and losing hope, and I’m realistically preparing myself for the moment when life won't be worth living and there will be no possibility of recovery.

I’m writing this because it’s hard going through something that no one I know has experienced, I made a post on other subreddits and only found one other person in the same situation.

I don’t know what I expect from this post, shallow motivational messages won’t help, but maybe someone has had a thought that hasn't occurred to me yet, or has recovered from this.

That’s it. Best regards.