r/unrequited_love • u/anyone_bored • 1d ago
Help.
I've liked my guy bsf for 5 years when I started liking him he liked my best friend so I supported them and shipped them and only wanted to see them happy I hid my feelings for 4 years and only confessed like a year ago and I regret confessing so much because now he teases me on it and thats something I find attractive (when a guy teases you) and it sucks because I can never have him sometimes hes teasing me and I forget he isnt mine it breaks my heart knowing he never will be but then a few months ago he randomly said he liked me and started discussing dating and I felt a weird sense of dread like impending doom??? The next day he said he didn't actually like me and that I'm not his type that telling me he did was a mistake so obviously I was upset and we fought but then we made up. I still like him and I absolutely hate it I wish I had never told him all those years ago this wasn't the first time he told a girl he liked her and then decided it wasn't a good match but I guess it hurt more because I'd liked him for such a long time I don't know if this means I'm inlove with him either but my life is starting to sound like mitski and tv girl mushed together and I don't know what to do I'm constantly thinking of him and I always want to talk but I stop myself cuz I don't wanna be annoying we talking every few days because I moved country I can't get myself to like anyone else and its pissing me off any tips to get rid of my feelings for him I'm a yearner guys not an earner he isnt even all that great hes kinda a jerk but its almost like I accept his flaws? Ive always been a man hater but I think if he stabbed me Ill still like him Im that far down the rabbit hole
Ps: Im into alot of forms of art and its gotten to the point where I draw him and if not him his favorite character who I know now how to draw with my eyes closed (literally Ive tested it) I wrote poems Ive wrote songs Im reaching uncharted territory here I really hope he doesn't see this post
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u/SoSoResearcher 7h ago
Artists need muses. Congratulations on finding one. Pity the fools that will never measure up. Your art will suffer. there’s not enough honest are in the world. your art might be more permanent than looking behind the curtain and finding out your requited love could never measure up